The King's Messenger by
F. Marion Crawford
It was a rather dim daylight dinner I remember that quite
distinctly, for I could see the glow of the sunset over the trees in
the park, through the high window at the west end of the dining-room.
I had expected to find a larger party, I believe, for I recollect
being a little surprised at seeing only a dozen people assembled at
table. It seemed to me that in old times, ever so long ago, when I
had last stayed in that house, there had been as many as thirty or
forty guests. I recognized some of them among a number of beautiful
portraits that hung on the walls. There was room for a great many
because there was only one huge window, at one end, and one large
door at the other. I was very much surprised, too, to see a portrait
of myself, evidently painted about twenty years ago by Lenbach. It
seemed very strange that I should have so completely forgotten the
picture, and that I should not be able to remember having sat for it.
We were good friends, it is true, and he might have painted it from
memory, without my knowledge, but it was certainly strange that he
should never have told me about it. The portraits that hung in the
dining-room were all very good indeed and all, I should say, by the
best painters of that time.
My left-hand neighbor was a lovely young girl whose name I had
forgotten, though I had known her long, and I fancied that she looked
a little disappointed when she saw that I was beside her. On my right
there was a vacant seat, and beyond it sat an elderly woman with
features as hard as the overwhelmingly splendid diamonds she wore.
Her eyes made me think of grey glass marbles cemented into a stone
mask. It was odd that her name should have escaped me, too, for I had
often met her.
The table looked irregular, and I counted the guests mechanically
while I ate my soup. We were only twelve, but the empty chair beside
me was the thirteenth place.
I suppose it was not very tactful of me to mention this, but I
wanted to say something to the beautiful girl on my left, and no
other subject for a general remark suggested itself. Just as I was
going to speak I remembered who she was.
"Miss Lorna," I said, to attract her attention, for she was
looking away from me toward the door. "I hope you are not
superstitious about there being thirteen at table, are you?"
"We are only twelve," she said, in the sweetest voice in the
"Yes; but some one else is coming. There's an empty chair here
"Oh, he doesn't count," said Miss Lorna quietly. "At least, not
for everybody. When did you get here? Just in time for dinner, I
"Yes," I answered. "I'm in luck to be beside you. It seems an age
since we were last here together."
"It does indeed," Miss Lorna sighed and looked at the pictures on
the opposite wall. "I've lived a lifetime since I saw you last."
I smiled at the exaggeration. "When you are thirty, you won't talk
of having your life behind you, I said.
"I shall never be thirty," Miss Lorna answered, with such an odd
little air of conviction that I did not think of anything to say.
"Besides, life isn't made up of years or months or hours, or of
anything that has to do with time," she continued. "You ought to know
that. Our bodies are something better than mere clocks, wound up to
show just how old we are at every moment, by our hair turning grey
and our teeth falling out and our faces getting wrinkled and yellow,
or puffy and red. Look at your own portrait over there. I don't mind
saying that you must have been twenty years younger when that was
painted, but I'm sure you are just the same man today, improved by
I heard a sweet little echoing laugh that seemed very far away;
and indeed I could not have sworn that it rippled from Miss Lorna's
beautiful lips, for though they were parted and smiling, my
impression is that they did not move, even as little as most women's
lips are moved by laughter.
"Thank you for thinking me improved," I said. "I find you a little
changed, too. I was just going to say that you seem sadder, but you
laughed just then."
"Did I? I suppose that's the right thing to do when the play is
over, isn't it?"
"If it has been an amusing play," I answered, humoring her.
The wonderful violet eyes turned to me, full of light. "It's not
been a bad play. I don't complain."
"Why do you speak of it as over?"
"I'll tell you, because I'm sure you will keep my secret. You
will, won't you? We were always such good friends, you and I, even
two years ago when I was young and silly. Will you promise not to
tell anyone till I'm gone?"
"Yes. Will you promise?"
"Of course I will. But..." I did not finish the sentence, because
Miss Lorna bent nearer to me, so as to speak in a much lower tone.
While I listened, I felt her sweet young breath on my cheek. "I'm
going away tonight with the man who is to sit at your other side,"
she said. "He's a little late; he often is, for he is tremendously
busy; but he'll come presently, and after dinner we shall just stroll
out into the garden and never come back. That's my secret. You won't
betray me, will you?" Again, as she looked at me, I heard that
far-off silver laugh, sweet and low--I was almost too much surprise
by what she had told me to notice how still her parted lips were, but
that comes back to me now, with many other details.
"My dear Miss Lorna," I said, "do think of your parents before
taking such a step."
"I have thought of them," she answered. "Of course they would
never consent, and I am very sorry to leave them, but it can't be
At this moment, as often happens when two people are talking in
low tones at a large dinner-table, there was a momentary lull in the
general conversation, and I was spared the trouble of making any
further answer to what Miss Lorna had told me so unexpectedly, and
with such profound confidence in my discretion.
To tell the truth, she would very probably not have listened,
whether my words expressed sympathy or protest, for she had turned
suddenly pale, and her eyes were wide and dark. The lull in the talk
at table was due to the appearance of the man who was to occupy the
vacant place beside me.
He had entered the room very quietly, and he made no elaborate
apology for being late, as he sat down, bending his head courteously
to our hostess and her husband, and smiling in a gentle sort of way
as he nodded to the others.
"Please forgive me," he said quietly. "I was detained by a funeral
and missed the train."
It was not until he had taken his place that he looked across me
at Miss Lorna and exchanged a glance of recognition with her. I
noticed that the lady with the hard face and the splendid diamonds,
who was at his other side, drew away from him a little, as if not
wishing even to let his sleeve brush against her bare arm. It
occurred to me at the same time that Miss Lorna must be wishing me
anywhere else than between her and the man with whom she was just
about to run away, and I wished for their sake and mine that I could
change places with him. He was certainly not like other men, and
though few people would have called him handsome there was something
about him that instantly fixed the attention; rarely beautiful though
Miss Lorna was, almost everyone would have noticed him first on
entering the room, and most people, I think, would have been more
interested by his face than by hers. I could well imagine that some
women might love him, even to distraction, though it was just as easy
to understand that others might be strongly repelled by him, and
might even fear him.
For my part, I shall not try to describe him as one describes an
ordinary man, with a dozen or so adjectives that leave nothing to the
imagination but yet offer it no picture that it can grasp. My
instinct was to fear him rather than think of him as a possible
friend, but I could not help feeling instant admiration for him, as
one does at first sight for anything that is very complete,
harmonious, and strong. He was dark, and pale with a shadowy pallor I
never saw in any other face; the features of thrice-great Hermes were
not modeled in more perfect symmetry, his luminous eyes were not
unkind, but there was something fateful in them, and they were set
very deep under the grand white brow. His age I could not guess, but
I should have called him young; standing, I had seen that he was tall
and sinewy, and now that he was seated, he had the unmistakable look
of a man accustomed to be in authority, to be heard and to be obeyed.
His hands were white, his fingers straight, lean, and very
Everyone at the table seemed to know him, but as often happens
among civilized people no one called him by name in speaking to
"We were beginning to be afraid that you might not get here," said
"Really?" The Thirteenth Guest smiled quietly, but shook his head.
"Did you ever know me to break an engagement, under any
The master of the house laughed, though not very cordially, I
thought. "No," he answered. "Your reputation for keeping your
appointments is proverbial. Even your enemies must admit that."
The Guest nodded and smiled again. Miss Lorna bent toward me.
"What do you think of him?" she asked, almost in a whisper.
"Very striking sort of man," I answered, in a low tone. "But I'm
inclined to be a little afraid of him."
"So was I, at first," she said, and I heard the silver laugh
again. "But that soon wears off," she went on. "You'll know him
better some day."
"Yes; I'm quite sure you will. Oh, I don't pretend that I fell in
love with him at first sight. I went through a phase of feeling
afraid of him, as almost everyone does. You see, when people first
meet him they cannot possibly know how kind and gentle he can be,
though he is so tremendously strong. I've heard him called cruel and
ruthless and cold, but it's not true. Indeed it's not. He can be as
gentle as a woman, and he' s the truest friend in all the world."
I was going to ask her to tell me his name, but just then I saw
that she was looking at him, across me, and I sat as far back in my
chair as I could, so that they might speak to each other if they
wished to. Their eyes met, and there was a longing light in both. I
could not help glancing from one to the other; and Miss Lorna's sweet
lips moved almost imperceptibly, though no sound came from them. I
have seen young lovers make that small sign to each other even across
a room, the signal of a kiss given and returned in the heart's
If she had been less beautiful and young, if the man she loved had
not been so magnificently manly, it would have irritated me, but it
seemed natural that they should love and not be ashamed of it, and I
only hoped that no one else at the table had noticed the tenderly
quivering little contraction of the young girl's exquisite mouth.
"You remembered," said the man quietly. "I got your message this
morning. Thank you."
"I hope it's not going to be very hard," murmured Miss Lorna,
smiling. "Not that it would make any great difference if it were,"
she added more thoughtfully.
"It's the easiest thing in life," he said, "And I promise that you
shall never regret it."
"I trust you," the young girl answered simply.
Then she turned away, for she no doubt felt the awkwardness of
talking to him across me of a secret which she had confided to me
without letting him know that she had done so. Instinctively I turned
to him, feeling that the moment had come for disregarding formality
and making his acquaintance, since we were neighbors at table in a
friend's house and I had known Miss Lorna so long. Besides, it is
always interesting to talk with a man who is just going to do
something very dangerous or dramatic and who does not guess that you
know what he is about.
"I suppose you motored here from town, as you said you missed the
train," I said. "It's a good road, isn't it?"
"Yes, I literally flew," replied the dark man, with his gentle
smile. "I hope you're not superstitious about thirteen at table?"
"Not in the least," I answered. "In the first place, I'm a
fatalist about everything that doesn't depend on my own free will. As
I have not the slightest intention of doing anything to shorten my
life, it will certainly not come to an abrupt end by any
autosuggestion arising from a silly superstition like that about
"Autosuggestion? That's rather a new light on the old
"And secondly," I continued, "I don't believe in death. There is
no such thing."
"Really?" My neighbor seemed greatly surprised. "How do you mean?"
he asked. "I don't think I understand you."
"I'm sure I don't," put in Miss Lorna, and the silver laugh
followed. She had overheard the conversation, and some of the others
were listening, too.
"You don't kill a book by translating it," I said, rather glad to
expound my views. "Death is only a translation of life into another
language. That's what I mean."
"That's a most interesting point of view," observed the Thirteenth
Guest thoughtfully. "I never thought of the matter in that way
before, though I've often seen the expression 'translated' in
epitaphs. Are you sure that you are not indulging in a little
"What's that?" inquired the hard-faced lady, with all the contempt
which a scholarly word deserves in polite society.
"It means punning," I answered. "No, I am not making a pun. Grave
subjects do not lend themselves to low forms of humor. I assure you,
I am quite in earnest. Death, in the ordinary sense, is not a real
phenomenon at all, so long as there is any life in the universe. It's
a name we apply to a change we only partly understand."
"Learned discussions are an awful bore," said the hard-faced lady
"I don't advise you to argue the question too sharply with your
neighbor there," laughed the master of the house, leaning forward and
speaking to me. "He'll get the better of you. He's an expert at what
you call 'translating people into another language.'"
If the man beside me was a famous surgeon, as our host perhaps
meant, it seemed to me that the remark was not in very good taste. He
looked more like a soldier.
"Does our friend mean that you are in the army, and that you are a
dangerous person?" I asked of him.
"No," he answered quietly. "I'm only a King's Messenger, and in my
own opinion I'm not at all dangerous."
"It must be rather an active life," I said, in order to say
something; "constantly coming and going, I suppose?"
I felt that Miss Lorna was watching and listening, and I turned to
her, only to find that she was again looking beyond me, at my
neighbor, though he did not see her. I remember her face very
distinctly as it was just then; the recollection is, in fact the last
impression I retain of her matchless beauty, for I never saw her
after that evening.
It is something to have seen one of the most beautiful women in
the world gazing at the man who was more to her than life and all it
held, it is something I cannot forget. But he did not return her look
just then, for he had joined in the general conversation, and very
soon afterward he practically absorbed it.