Beggars on Horseback by F. Tennyson Jesse
A SHEPHERDESS OF FAUNS
THE GREATEST GIFT
A GARDEN ENCLOSED
THE MAN WITH TWO MOUTHS
WHY SENATH MARRIED
THE COFFIN SHIP
A SHEPHERDESS OF FAUNS
Archie Lethbridge arrived in Provence thoroughly satisfied with
life. He had just sold a big picture; was contemplating, with every
prospect of success, giving a one-man-show in London of the work he
would do in Provence; and the girl he loved had accepted him.
Miss Gwendolen Gould was eminently eligibleher income, though
comfortable, was not large enough to brand her husband as a
fortune-hunter; she was pretty in a well-bred way that satisfied the
eye without causing it to turn and gaze after her; and above all, she
could be relied upon never to do, say, or think an unusual thing. Like
all painters, when they are conventionally minded, Archie was the fine
flower of proprietyhe owned to enough wild oats of his own sowing to
save him from inferiority in the society of his fellow-men, and he held
exceedingly rigid views on the subject of his womenkind. Gwendolen
mightdoubtless had, for she was one of the large army of young women
brought up to no profession save that of sexgive this or that man a
kiss at a dance, but she would never have saved all of passion and
possibilities for one man, and lavished them on him, regardless of
suitable circumstances. Archie's name (that he hoped one day to adorn
with some coveted letters at which he now pretended to sneer) would be
perfectly safe with Gwendolen.
The only drawback to his complete content was that his fair, sleek
person showed signs of getting a trifle too plumpfor he was only
young as a man who is nearly arrived counts youth. On the whole,
however, it was with a feeling of settled attainment that Archie left
Nice and proceeded to strike up into the Alpes Maritimes, totally
unprepared for any bizarre or inexplicable eventhe would have laughed
satirically at the bare idea.
To do him justice, he worked hard, and he had a tremendous facility
and a certain charm that concealed his lack of true artistic
sensitiveness. There is probably nothing more difficult to interpret in
paint than an olive-treethe incredible grey brilliance of the thing,
each leaf set at a slightly different angle, and refracting the light
till the whole tree seems made of blown mist and sharp-cut shadows.
Archie painted olives under every effect; sparkling in the sun,
fog-grey on a grey day, and pale with the shimmering under-side of
straining leaves against a storm-dark sky. He also painted very dirty
children picking the ranked violets and stocks that grew along the
olive terraces, and this he achieved without once descending into the
realms of the pretty-pretty, while at the same time infusing just the
right amount of sentiment to ensure a sale.
He painted here and there from Grasse to Le Broc, and then one day,
feeling he had taken all he could from the soft-scented land of olives
and flowers, he hired a motor to convey him up into the Back o' Beyond,
and drop him there. Once he met a couple of women bearing on their
heads the sheaves of tight little red rosebuds that look exactly like
bundles of radishes, and caught a whiff of the strange, bitter-sweet
smell of the newly cut stems. Then he passed an old shepherd in a cloak
of faded blue, with sheepskin legs cross-gartered to the knee, taking
his lean, golden-brown flock up into the mountains.
After that he saw no living thing, neither bird nor beast nor human,
for many miles. Rounded hills, opening out from each other in endless
succession and covered from crest to base with harsh yellow grass, and
strewn with grey boulders. Deep gullies that at one time had been set
alight and now were scorched and brown like plague-pits, with here and
there a patch of pale stones showing up lividly from the charred thorns
and blackened soil. Archie shivered, partly because of the keen wind
blowing down from the great plateau beyond the hills, partly because
something savage in the scene gripped at him.
The car throbbed on, higher and higher, till the road, winding
acutely along the edge of precipices, developed a surface that caused
his chauffeur to swear gently to himself. Valley after valley opened
out, long and narrow, and Archie noticed signs of a long-past
cultivation in the curved terraces into which the bed of each valley
was cut, forming an endless series of semicircles. There was no trace
of any crop, and the whole effect was as of some rude amphitheatre
where prehistoric man had sat and watched gladiatorial shows.
The car, sticking now and then in a rut, or jolting violently over
stones, finally crested the last rise, and Archie found himself on a
vast stretch of land ringed in by sharp-edged hills, like some dead,
gigantic crater; to the right, far away on a slope of the mountain
ring, lay a grey straggling town that looked hacked out of the hardened
lava. The only sign of life was in a patch of vividly green grass near
at hand, where hundreds of crocuses had burned their way up through the
earth and showed like a bed of thin blue flames.
Archie directed the contemptuous chauffeur towards the town, and
they finally drew up at the inna little green-shuttered affair, with
a stone-flagged passage, and a tortoise-shell cat drowsing beside the
door. Outside a buvette opposite was a marble-topped table at
which sat a couple of workmen drinking cider. An evanescent gleam of
sun shone out, and the tawny liquid caught and held it, making each
glass throw on to the table a bubble of gold fire enmeshed in the
delicate shadow of the vessel itself. Archie stood transfixed for a
moment with pleasure, then, as the gleam faded and died, he entered the
* * * * *
Like most people with the creative temperament, Archie Lethbridge
was the prey of environment. The unborn child is not more influenced by
the surroundings of its mother than a book or picture by those of its
creator. Draginoules took such a deep, sure grip of Archie that it did
more than merely affect his workit began to upset his neatly arranged
values, and, since Nature abhors a vacuum, to substitute fresh ones in
their place. Draginoules, in short, behaved like a master of scenic
effects; it allowed a couple of days for the background to permeate
Archie's consciousness, and, when he was ripe for it, introduced the
human element, which, to a man of his type, means a woman.
It was one morning when he was washing brushes in the dim inn
kitchen that he saw her first. She came out of the buvette to
serve some workmen, and Archie stopped dead in the act of swirling a
cobalt-laden brush round and round in the hollowed yellow soap he held.
He always saw the whole scene in memory as clearly as he saw it
thenthe low-fronted buvette, the glass of the door refracting
the light as it still quivered from her passage; the pools of blue
shadow that lay under the table and chairs on the pavement; the
blouse-clad figures of the workmen, particularly a young man with a
deeply burnt back to his neck; and the girl herself, holding aloft a
tray of liqueur glasses, that winked like little eyes. All this he saw
framed by the darkness of the kitchen and cut sharply into squares by
the black bars of the window; then, as he mechanically went on frothing
blue-stained bubbles out of the soap, he said to himself, I must paint
He soon found out that she was the niece of the stout couple who
kept the buvette, and that her name was Désirée Prévost. As they
mentioned her most people shrugged their shoulders. Oh, no, there was
nothing against the girlthough it was true her eyebrows met in a
thick bar across her nose, and old people had always said that was a
sign of the Loup-Garou; enlightened moderns, however, did not really
hold by that. The town was proud of her looks, for it considered her
très bien, the highest expression of praise from a Provençal, who
is a dour kind of person, taking his pleasures as sadly as the
proverbial Englishman, and whose chief aim in life is to place one sou
on the top of another, and when possible insert a third in between.
Archie approached the aunt of Désirée on the subject of sittings
with some trepidation, but met with an agreeable pliancy from her, and
a calm though indifferent assent from Désirée herself. She had a high
opinion of her own value, and no amount of appreciation surprised her.
Scanning her afresh as they stood on the pavement making final
arrangements, Archie inwardly congratulated himself. From the heavy
brass-coloured hair massed with a sculptured effect round her
well-poised head, to the firmly planted feet, admirably proportioned to
the rest of her, she was entirely right for his purposeshe seemed the
spirit of Draginoules incarnate. Owing to the opaque pallor of her
skin, her level bar of fair eyebrow and heavily folded lids, her big,
finely modelled nose and faintly tinted mouth, all took on a sculptured
quality that made for repose; the very shadows of her face were
delicate in tone, mere breaths of shadows. Yet she was excessively
vital, but it was a smouldering, restrained vitality suggestive of a
quiescent crater. Her face was too individual to be perfectthe nose
over big; the brow too narrow for the full modelling across the
cheekbones, but she had an egg-like curve from turn of jaw to pointed
chin. When she laughed her teeth showed large and strong, and her
throat was the loveliest Archie had ever seenmagnificently bigand
she had a trick of tilting her head back that made the smoothly knitted
muscles of her neck swell a little under the white skin. As he painted
her Archie used to find himself racking his brains for some speech that
would make her head take that upward poise, so that he could watch the
play of throat.
He chose his background well; a sheltered spot in a fold of hill
just beyond the town, where a slim young oak sapling still retained its
copper-hued autumn leaves, that seemed almost fiery against the deep,
soft blue of the sky. He had conceived of her as standing under the
oak-tree, so that, to him, working lower down on the slope she too
showed against the sky, seemingly caught in a network of delicate
boughs. Being below her he was also the richer by the soft,
three-cornered shadow under her chin, and the whole of her became a
tone of exquisite delicacy, as of shadowed ivory, in the setting of
skythat sky of southern spring which seems literally drenched in
light. The tawny note of the oak-leaves was to be repeated in some
sheep, which, though kept subservient to the figure of Désirée, were to
supply the motive of the pictureor so Archie thought till the sudden
freak that made him introduce the fauns.
Désirée was all for robing herself in her besta black silk bodice
with a high collar, and a be-trained, jet-spangled skirt, but Archie
coaxed her into wearing the dress he first saw her in; a mere wrapper
of indefinite prune colour, belted in at the waist to show the lines of
her deep chested, long flanked figure, and cut so low as to leave her
throat bare from the pit of it. Her sleeves were rolled back to the
elbow and her arms showed milk-white as far as the reddened wrists and
the big, work-roughened hands that held a hazel switch across her
Archie was Anglo-Saxon enough to feel a slight stiffness at the
first sitting, but Désirée was a stranger to the sensation of tied
I like the English, she announced. Not many of them come here,
but I have not spent my life in Draginoules, no, indeed! I was in a
laundry once at La Madeleine. Do you know it? It is where they take in
the washing of Nice. So I used to go much into Nice, and an English
lady there painted me. She had a talent! She made me look beautiful. In
Draginoules, do you know what they call me? They call me l'Anglaise
Because you like the English so? asked Archie. His French was
considerably purer than hers, she spoke it with the Provençal accent
that sounds exactly like a Cockney twang.
Because I have the nature, the habits of an English woman. Oh, I
assure you! I like to live out of doorsto be out all day with one's
bread and a bottle of wine and sleep on the hillsidethat is what I
call living. I always open my window at night, though my aunt says it
is a folly. I could go to England if I chose, as a maid. My English
lady would have me. Ah! how I long to see England. One gets so tired
But your friendsyou would be sorry to leave them?
Oh, for that, I do not care about the people of Draginoules. It was
my mother's place, not mine. I was born in Lyons, where my father was a
silk-weaver. But he was a bad kind of man, so I came to my aunt to
live. I do not think much of the people of Draginoules. They all like
me, but I do not like them!
Why don't you go to England, then? Though I think you are far
better here! quoth Archie, on whom the glamour of the place was
My fiancé would kill himself, said Désirée serenely.
Ohyou are fiancée? murmured Archie, wondering why he felt that
absurd mingling of relief and regret.
To Auguste Colombini. He is a mechanician in Nice. We are to marry
when he gets a rise. Hélas! je ne serai plus fille!
Her words, so simply and directly spoken, caught at Archie's
imaginationHélas! je ne serai plus fille!
What a vierge farouche! he said to himself. If I can get
that feeling into my picture! Aloud he said: And your fiancéhe is
very devoted, then?
He adores me. It is a perfect folly, see you, to feel for anyone
what he does for me. He is mad about me.
She spoke with a calm arrogance that was very effective. How sure
she was of her man! Was it a peculiarity of temperament in her or her
fiancé that made such confidence possible? Archie flattered himself he
was something of a student of human nature, and he absorbed all of
Désirée that he could get in a spirit positively approaching that of
When a man and woman fall into the habit of discussing the intimate
things, such as love and marriage; and, above all, of comparing the
sexes; disaster, even if only a temporary one, is apt to follow. Archie
returned to the themes next time she posed for him.
So you think a man can care too much for a woman? he asked, and
stopped for a moment with raised brush to watch her answer. She
shrugged her shoulders slightly, yet enough to make the folds of her
wrapper strain upward for a fleeting moment.
As to that I think women are worth it. But it is foolish to care
everything for one person.
You could care for others, thenas well as M. Colombini? asked
Archie with a sudden stir at his pulses.
I? One can care a littlehere and there. But commit a folly for a
man, that is a thing I would never do. And I am very fond of Auguste.
If I did not think we should be happy and faithful I should not marry
him. I look round on all the married people I know, and see nothing but
betrayal everywhere. Here a husband plays his wife false, there she in
her turn cheats him. Bah!it is not good, that!
How right you are! said Archie virtuously. But you do not then
think it necessary to care as much for Auguste as he cares for you?
Damme, no! How should I? He pleases me, and he is goodI
can respect him. And I like him to kiss me . . . the most charming
look of self-consciousness mingled with reminiscence flitted over her
facebut for himhe is mad when he kisses me. Women do not care like
that. It is a folly. And it is always happier, Monsieur, when it is the
husband who cares the most. That is how men are made.
Oh, yes, thought Archie, she was a woman after all, this vierge
farouche, and more unashamedly woman, franker in her admissions of
knowledgefor she admitted in her expressive face and gestures more
than she actually saidthan any woman of his world. He worked in
silence for a while then told her to rest.
She flung herself on the turf with an abandonment of limb and muscle
usually only seen in young animals, and he came and lay a little below
her and lit a cigarette. Désirée lay serenely, her face upturned, and
he studied her thoughtfully.
Surely very few of your countrywomen are as blonde as you? he
asked her. Your eyes are blue, and your brows and lashes a faint brown
and your hair is
He paused, at a loss how to describe her hair. It was not golden,
rather that strong brass-colour that, had he seen it on a sophisticated
townswoman he would have dubbed peroxide. It was oddly metallic hair,
not only in its colour, but in the carven ripples of it where she wore
it pulled across her low brow and massed in heavy braids round her
head. That way of wearing her hair right down to her brows, except for
a narrow white triangle of forehead showing, boy-like, at one side,
gave her an oddly animal lookusing the word in its best sense. A look
as of some low-browed, heavy-tressed faun, fearless and unashamedit
was only in her eyes that mystery lay.
My hair? she exclaimed, showing her big white teeth in a laugh as
frank as a boy's; but that, you know, is not natural! It was an
An accident! How on earth?
Why, I was doing the ménage for a chemist and his wife over
the border, at Cannes. And she had hair like this, and one day she gave
me a little bottle and said: 'Désirée, you're a good girl, but you
don't know how to make the best of yourself. You put some of this on
your head.' I rubbed some on, one side only, just to see what would
happen, and next day I found one half of my head goldengolden like
the sun. 'Mon Dieu!' I said, 'but what do I look like, one half yellow
and one half brown!' So I poured it on all over. It is nothing now
because I have not put on the stuff for so long, but at one time it was
beautiful. Such hair! Below my waist, and gold, oh, such a gold! Now it
wants doing again.
She ducked her head down for him to see the crown of it, and he
perceived from the parting outwards two inches of unabashed dark
hairalmost blue it looked by contrast with the circling wrappings of
yellow. Archie, immensely tickled at finding this splendid young savage
in the Back o' Beyond with dyed hair, could but shout with mirth, and
Désirée, totally unoffended, joined in. When he went back that evening
he felt he knew her far better than on the preceding day. In intimacies
between men and women each day marks a distinct phase, making a series
of steps; and the only possible thing to do is to see that the steps do
not lead downwards. Like most people when on those magic stairs, Archie
gave no heed to the question.
The next day he unconsciously took up their conversation of the day
beforea sure sign of intimacy if ever there were one. They were
resting again, for he said it was too hot to work; and the sunset
effect he wanted was growing later every day.
So you could care a little for some one else before you marry
Auguste? he suggested lightly enough, and looking away from her to the
snow mountains that bared white fangs in the blue of the sky.
She laughed a little, stretched herself, drooped her lids, was in a
flash, and for a flash, entirely womanalluring, withdrawing, sure of
herself. As she gained in poise Archie felt his own tenure on
self-control slipping away from him.
Could you? he persisted, his eyes by now back on her changing
How does one care? What is it? she evaded. I do not think you
would be able to tell me. You are so cold, so English, you would care
just as much as would be pleasant and never enough to make you
The penetration of this remark displeased Archie.
But you are like that yourself, he objected. You are the most
cool, calculating girl I ever meteverything you say shows it.
She rolled over slightly on the grass, so that her head, the chin
thrust forward on her cupped hands, was brought nearer to him but kept
at the provocative three-quarter angle suggestive of withdrawal. Her
thick heavy lids were drooped, but suddenly they flickered and
half-rose to show a gleam so wild, so unlike anything he had ever seen
in her, that Archie caught his breath. It was as though some alien
spirit, a pagan, woodland thing, was looking at him through the eyes of
the self-possessed, level-headed young woman, who at times even seemed
more bourgeois than peasant.
Désirée! How beautiful you are! he cried.
As beautiful as Mademoiselle your fiancée? asked Désirée.
With a run Archie descended into the commonplace, and Désirée became
for him nothing but a pretty girl who went rather too far.
Englishmen do not care to discuss the lady of their choice, he
said grandiloquently. May I ask how you knew I was fiancé?
I have seen her picture in your room, said Désirée frankly; the
patronne told me there was one there. She is pretty, but yes, very
pretty. Her hair is so beautifully done in all those little rolls, one
would say it must be false. She is altogether mignonne, one would say
the head of a doll!
Désirée was absolutely sincere in thinking she was giving Miss
Gwendolen Gould the highest praise possible. She would willingly have
exchanged her splendid muscular body for the slim, corseted form of
Miss Gould, and have bartered her strongly modelled head for the small,
regular features and Marcel-waved hair of the other girl. It was only
his perception of this that kept Archie from anger, and as it was the
truth of the praise hit him sharply. That night he sat down before the
miniature and conscientiously tried to conjure up the emotions of a
lover. The experiment was a failure.
When he came to go to bed he found, to his amazement, a sprig of
myrtle lying on his pillowjust a spray of leaves and a cluster of the
purple berries with their little frilled heads.
How did that get there I wonder? he asked himself, and then
stooped, with an exclamation of disgust. A corner of the turned back
sheet that trailed on the floor was lightly powdered with earth as
though a muddy shoe had stood on it. The footprintif footprint it
werewas oddly impossible in shape, short and rounded, more like the
mark of a hoof.
Can the patronne's goat have got up here? I saw it wandering in the
passage to-day, thought Archie vexedly. Beastly animal to drop
half-chewed green food all over my pillow!
The injured man thumped his pillow and turned it over, so that the
despised myrtle sprig lay crushed beneath it. Then he went to bed and
I dreamt of you all night, Désirée, he told her next day.
I was pursuing you round rocks and over streams and through
undergrowth all night long. You were you and yet you weren't. Somehow I
got the impression that it was you as you would have been hundreds and
thousands of years ago. And I kept on losing you and then little satyrs
beckoned at me to show me the way you'd gone, and I stumbled on after
the hoofs that were always flashing up just aheadjust vanishing round
Satyrs? What are they? asked Désirée.
Archie explained as picturesquely as possible, but was brought to a
stop by a curious change in Désirée's eyes. They wore the strained,
misty look of the person who is trying hard to catch at some long-lost
memory. Again he was startled by that strange feeling that something
else was looking from between those placid lids of hers.
But I know, she beganthose creatures you are telling me
what is it I know about them? She broke off and shook herself
impatiently. Bah! It is gone. And then what happeneddid you find me
at the end?
I can't quite remember, said Archie slowly Something happened,
but what it was is all blurred. I believe you're a wood-nymph,
Désiréea wood-nymph whose father was a satyrand he chased and
caught your mother and took her down through his tangle of undergrowth
with his hands in her hair, never heeding her screams. You have very
definite little points at the top of your ears, you know! We all have
them a bit to remind us of our wild-dog days, but yours are the most so
I've ever seen. Do you never take off all your clothes and go creeping
and slipping through the woods at night, to bathe in one of the
crater-pools by the light of the moon?
How did you know? She turned wide, startled eyes on him, her
quickened breath fluttered her gown distressfully.
What!you do it, then? exclaimed Archie.
No! no! What folly are you talking! She sprang to her feet and
slipped behind the oak-sapling, as though it were a defence against
some danger; across the boughs he saw her puzzled, fearful eyes. As he
watched her the expression of alarm fadedshe put up her hand to her
hair, gave it a quieting pat and tucked some stray strands into place,
then she looked across at the easel.
It must be time to work again! she exclaimed. Have we been
resting long, M'sieu? I feel as though I'd been asleep and you'd just
awakened me. She yawned as she spoke, stretching her strong arms in a
slow, wide circle, the muscles of her shoulders rounding forward and
making two little hollows appear above her collar-bones. The sight
aroused the artist in Archie, and he too scrambled up, and betook
himself to work. The sheep and goats that he had bribed the shepherd to
pasture there happened to come as he wanted them that evening, and he
began to work away at them in silence. One of the goats, a piebald,
shaggy creature, reared itself up on its hind legs, with its fore-feet
against the tree trunk, and began to nibble at the foliage. Something
about the pose of the creature sent a swift suggestion to Archie's
mind, and he just had time to rough in the legs, with their slight
outward tilt, the hoofs set firmly apart and the tail sticking out and
up from the sharply curved-in rump, before the animal dropped on all
fours and moved away. Archie, with the smile of the creator in his
eyes, worked on, and the goat's legs merged into the beginnings of a
slim human body with the hands leaning against the tree and the head,
tilted on one side, peering around at the figure of Désirée. Suddenly
he gave an exclamation of annoyance.
There is some one watching us from those myrtle bushes. Confound
the beggarsome one from the village, I suppose.
Désirée turned sharply, just in time to see a brown face grinning
through the leaves. It was a face compact of curiously slanting
linesupward-twitched tufts of brows, upward wrinkles at the corners
of the narrow eyes, and a slanting mouth that laughed above a pointed,
That! That is only my little brother, M'sieu. It is one of God's
innocents and lame on both feet. Sylvestre! Come out and speak to
M'sieuno one will hurt you.
The bushes rustled and parted and an odd little figure, apparently
that of a boy of about ten, came scrambling out with a queer, lungeing
action from the hips. The child's legs were deformed, but he swung
himself forward at a marvellous speed on a pair of clumsy crutches.
Archie saw that when he was not laughing his brown eyes were wide and
grave, with a look of innocence in them that contrasted oddly with the
knowing gleam they showed a minute earlier.
But he is exactly what I want for the picture! cried Archie,
running his hand through the boy's tangled curls and tilting his face
gently backwards. He is exactly like the things I was telling you of.
He must sit to me.
He deftly tugged the boy's shirt out of his belt and peeled it off
him, exposing a thin little brown body with a skin as fine as silk.
When he felt the sun on his bare flesh the child made guttural sounds
of delight, flinging himself backwards on the ground; and, supported by
his elbows, letting his head tip back till his curls touched the grass.
As the shielding locks fell away, Archie saw with a thrill which was
almost repulsion, that dark brown hair grew thickly out of the boy's
ears. . . .
Would he stay still, do you think? he asked Désirée.
He will if I tell him, replied Désirée. Come to me, Sylvestre,
and drawing the child to her she stroked his head and whispered to him
with a motherly gesture of which Archie would not have thought her
capable. He had listened to her exceedingly modern views on the subject
of the family, and her own strictly limited intentions in that respect.
After the addition of Sylvestre the picture made great strides, even
if the intimacy between Archie and Désirée advanced less rapidly than
before. And yet every now and again, in sudden flashes of wildness, in
a half-uttered phrase totally at variance with her normal selflittle
things that she seemed to remember from some forgotten whole, Désirée
would give him that impression of being two people at once; and always,
on these occasions, she was as puzzled as he, and with an added touch
of something that seemed almost shame. For the everyday Désirée, that
calm, practical and comely young woman, Archie's friendliness was
touched by nothing warmer than the inevitable element of sex; but the
shy, bold thing that sometimes peeped from between her lids, that thing
that seemed to take possession of her beautiful body, and mock and
allure and chill him in a breath, that thing was waking an answering
spirit in himself, and he knew it. Miss Gould's portrait was unable to
protect him from wakeful nights, when he turned his pillow again and
again to find a cool surface for his cheek, nights when he would at
last fling off the clothes and lean out of the window to watch the
steel-blue dawn turn to the blessed light of everyday. He was living in
a state of tension, and it seemed to him that some great event was
holding its breath to spring, as though the very trees and rocks, the
brooding sky and quiescent pools, were all in some conspiracy,
hoodwinking yet preparing him for the moment of revelation.
It was on to the sensitive surface of this mood that a letter from
Gwendolen, announcing her speedy arrival on the Riviera dropped like a
dart, tearing the delicate tissues and stringing the fibres to the
necessity for haste. Gwendolen, aunt-dragoned, and Baedeker in hand,
meant the return to the acceptance of the old values that had once
filled him with complacency. And yet, with all the jarring sense of
intrusion that Gwendolen's advent instilled, there mingled a feeling
that was almost reliefas though he were being saved, against his
will, but with his judgment, from something too disturbing and
beautiful to be quite comfortable.
Three or four days after receiving Gwendolen's letter, he put the
last touches to the picture and informed Désirée he would need her no
more. She received the news quite calmly, apparently without
regretthus do women tactlessly fail in what is expected of them.
Archie felt absurdly flat as he wrapped up his wet brushes in a
week-old sheet of the Petit Niçois. He also felt very virtuous,
and told himself it was not many men who would have refrained from
making love to the girl under the circumstances. It is astonishing what
a comfortless thing is the glow of conscious virtueit is bright in
hue but gives off no warmth.
There was a little hut, used for stacking wood, close to where he
worked, and here, thanks to the courtesy of the owner, he was wont to
put his picture for the night. Désirée, as usual, helped him to carry
it in and plant the legs of the easel firmly into the earthen floor. He
had worked late, and the sun had just slipped behind the far ridge of
the mountains; the tiny hut was filled with a deepening half-light, the
stacked brush-wood seemed wine-coloured in the warm shadow, here and
there a peeled twig stood out luminously. By the open door hoof-marks
in the trampled earth showed that the patronne's mule had been carrying
away wood that morning. That was as palpable as the fact that it must
have been Sylvestre's deformed foot which had soiled Archie's sheet,
yet those marks re-created the atmosphere of his dream, and seemed, in
the sudden confusion mounting to his brain at the warmth and nearness
of Désirée, to mix madly with Sylvestre, and rustled undergrowth and
the glimmer of elusive hoofs round myrtle-bushesand the glimmer of
something whiter and more elusive still.
He could hear Désirée's breathing beside himnot as even as usual,
but deeper-drawn and uncertain, and turning, he met the sidelong glance
of her eyes.
Désirée . . . you said you sometimes slipped out at night and
played in the woodsand the pools. Take me out with you to-night and
show me where you go and what you do. . . . I'll be awfully good, I
swear I willyou're not a woman, you're a nymph, a strange, uncanny
thing. I believe you meet your kinsfolk there and dance with
She looked at him for a moment in silence. In her eyes her normal
and her unknown selves contended.
It is true I often go out as you say, something drives me, but I do
not know why myself. And I get very tired and can never remember
clearly what it has been like. It is as though I did it almost in my
sleep, or had dreamt it.
It is a dreameverything's a dream, and I've got to wake up
soon. Let's have this bit of dream togetherDésirée!
She yielded. They took bread and wine and apples for a midnight
feast, and set off together over the lava-fields to the woods that
tufted the mountain slopes. Through the deep, soft night the pallor of
her face and throat glimmered as through dark water. She held his hand
to guide him over the fissures and round the piled boulders, once he
slipped on a hummock of harsh grass, and felt her grow rigid on the
instant to check his fall. They were very silent, until, seated at the
edge of the woods, they ate their supper, and then they laughed softly
together like children, with fragmentary speech; and once Désirée sang
a snatch of a Provençal song; Archie, who knew his Mistral, joining in.
Presently, when they fell on silence again, it seemed the wood was
full of noisesstealthy footfalls, snapping of dry twigs, the rustling
of parted shrubs. As the late moon, almost at the full, swam up the
sky, making the distant snow-peaks gleam like white flames against the
dusky blue, and shimmering on the pools cupped here and there over the
hollowed expanse below, Archie could have sworn that the penetrating
light showed quick-glancing faces and bright eyes from the thicket. . .
. Once a great white owl did sail out with a beating of wings; so close
to them that they could see the stiff brows that bristled over his
lambent orbs, and once a strong smell and a gleam of black and white
told of a wild cat tracking her prey.
They buried the disfiguring remnants of their little feast, and then
Archie solemnly poured out what was left of the red wine on to the
For the gods! he announced, the liquor for us and the dregs for
Ah! cried Désirée, as though his action pricked sleeping memories
to life, now I remember it all again! I forget when I go home, but
then the next time everything is clear again, and so it goes on.
She disappeared in a jutting spur of the wood, and Archie scrambled
to his feet and followed her. As he broke through to the further edge,
which hung over a wide pool, he caught his foot in something
softDésirée's clothes that lay in a circle, just as she had slipped
out of them.
She stood at the pool's brim, her hands clasping at the back of her
head; a thing to dream of. She was so lovely that all feeling died save
a passionate appreciation, keen to the verge of pain; she was so lovely
that of necessity she awoke an impersonal motion. Slowly she stretched
herself, and as the muscles rippled into curves and sank, the delicate
shadows ebbed and breathed out again on the pearl-white of her body.
Archie's every nerve was strung not to lose one line or one breath of
Putting out a foot she touched the water, so that little tremors
soft as feathers fled over the surface; then, as she waded in, deeper
and deeper, the water parted round her in flakes of brightness that
shook and mixed up and broke away. When she rose, dripping wet, the
moonlight refracted off her, was mirrored in the water, and thrown back
again on hera magic shuttle weaving an aura of whiteness. Long arrows
of light fled back through the pool as she waded to shore, where she
stood for a moment motionless; head slightly forward, arms hanging, and
one hip thrown outwards as she poised her weight. Myriads of tiny,
crescent-shaped drops clung to her limbs like fish-scales, so that she
seemed more mermaiden than wood-nymph, but Archie's eyes proclaimed her
Artemisshe would have calmed a satyr as she stood. Thoughts of forest
glades were chill, sweet sports were held, and the wildest hoof was
tamed to the childlike kinship with Nature that is pagan innocence,
floated through his mind like visible things.
Suddenly she became conscious of his presence, and gave one glance
in which invitation and a certain calm aloofness seemed to mingle.
Désirée! stammered Archie, Désirée!
All at once excitement tingled through him, blurring his ideas, just
as chloroform sets the blood pricking with thousands of points and
edges, while dizzying the brain. She stayed still a second longer;
then, either the fearful nymph swayed her utterly, or, as it seemed to
Archie, a sudden rejection of him, the clumsy, civilized mortal, sprang
into her eyes. She flung up her head, turned, and was gone in the
tangle of the woods. Without more than a second's hesitation he plunged
in after her.
To Archie, whenever he looked back, that night seemed an orgy of
chase-gone-mad; gathering in force as it went and sweeping into its
resistless flow the most incongruous of elements.
He ran after her, stumbling, tripping, whipped across the face by
brambles. Everything in life was crystallized into the desire to catch
up, to track her to the enchanted green where, with her, he could
become part of a remote free life he had never imagined before. All his
own personality, except that in him which was hers, had ceased to
existwork, Gwendolen, the great world, and the inn at Draginoules,
were wiped out of knowledge by the force of his concentration on one
thing. The arbitrary line drawn between the actual and the unreal, the
credible and the impossible, sanity and so-called madness, was swept
away. She, the descendant of the gods knew what strange racea race
that perhaps had lingered in these crater-fastnesses and myrtle groves
long after it had died off the rest of the earthwas fleeing before
him through a wood alive with brightened eyes and quickened hoofs; and
in her veins the slender strain of blood derived from some goat-legged,
tall-eared thinga strain asleep through the generations of her
ancestors, had mastered all the rest of her heritage, and was
triumphant in her soul as in Sylvestre's body. She ran on, swiftly, and
without effort, and Archie ran after her.
* * * * *
Dawn broke at last, reluctant, chill, showing the woods clear-edged
and motionless as though cut out of steel, glimmering on the quiet
pools and the ribbed lava slopes, though the hollow of the plain still
held a great lake of shadow.
Désirée's clothes lay no longer by the pool where she had bathed; no
trace of human presence remained; even the marshy edge showed only
trampled hoof-marks, as though some goat-footed herd had watered there.
To Archie, breaking through the undergrowth at the edge of the wood,
it seemed incredible that everything should look so much as usual.
Still more he felt the wonder when, with the broad sunlight, he reached
his inn. He himself felt so shaken in soul that even the thought of the
Englishman's panaceaa cold bathfailed to appeal to him as a
solution of all trouble. Plucked out of his accustomed place, flung by
the sport of what strange gods he knew not, into a headlong medley of
undreamed emotions, his values had been so violently disrupted that he
could not have told which held true worththe normal life of
Gwendolens and one-man shows and newspaper criticisms, or what had
passed in the woods that night. And, whatever strange rite he had
surprised, and whether it were golden actuality that a man might live
happy because he had once seen, or the mere wildness of a dream, there
had been something about it which taught him not to blaspheme the
revelation. He did not tell himself that the vin ordinaire must
have gone to his head, or that he had been a romantic fool worked on by
moonlight. This was remarkable, for few people are strong enough not to
profane the past.
So much of grace held by him even when he found a letter awaiting
him to tell of Gwendolen's arrival with the obedient aunt at Cannes,
whither she summoned him. He debated whether to say good-bye to Désirée
or not. The matter was settled for him by meeting her accidently
outside the buvette. She was looking pale and jaded, not at all
at her best, but her eyes were blankly unknowing and clear of all
embarrassment. She said good-bye with charming unemotional friendliness
and informed him that she was going to be married very soonMonsieur
Colombini had had a rise that justified it. Here was anti-climax
enough, even if the cold bath, the letter and the prose of packing were
not sufficient. And yet, since it had not been Désirée, the frank
peasant, who had shown Archie the wonders of that night, his memories
remained. Half-fearful and half splendid, not enough to make him walk
with the vision beautiful, but merely enough to spoil his pictures for
the public, because instead of being content with the merely obvious he
was now always trying for something beyond his powers to express.
Enough also, to prick him to an occasional weary clear-eyed knowledge
of his Gwendolena knowledge that was hardly criticism, for he
admitted his kinship with her world. And what it was that companioned
him, that he strove to show in his pictures, he never entirely told;
for just as no woman ever tells what it is her sex has and the other
lacksthat something which makes all the differencejust as no man
tells a woman what it is he and his fellows talk about when the last
skirt has trailed from the dinner-table, so no one ever tells the whole
truth about the beloved.
(Account taken from a contemporary journal)
To-day, March 3, the Court being sat in the Castle at Launceston,
about eight o'clock in the morning, the prisoner was set to the bar.
Sophia Bendigo, of the parish of St. Annan in this county, was
indicted, for that she, not having the fear of God before her eyes, but
being moved and seduced by the instigation of the devil, on October 20,
in the 24th year of his Majesty's reign, and again since, to wit, on
October 21, with force and arms upon the body of Constantine Bendigo,
Gent., her father, did make an assault, and in her malice aforethought,
did kill and murder, by putting into some water-gruel a certain powder
called arsenic, and afterwards giving to him, the said Constantine
Bendigo, a potion thereof, knowing it to be mixed with the powder
aforesaid, so that he, the said Constantine, was poisoned, and of which
poison, he, the said Constantine, died, on the 22nd of the said month
of October; against the peace of our Sovereign Lord the King, his crown
The Counsel for the Crown were the Hon. Mr. Bathwick; Mr. Sergeant
Wheeler; Mr. Grice, Town Clerk of Launceston; Mr. Rose, Mr. Kirton, and
the Hon. Mr. Harrington: And for the prisoner, Mr. Ford, Mr. Bennett
and Mr. Walton.
The Counsel for the Crown having opened the indictment, proceeded
to inform the Court and Jury that this prosecution was carried on by
the order, and at the expense of his Majesty (who is ever watchful to
preserve the lives, liberties, and properties of his subjects) against
the prisoner at the bar, Sophia Bendigo, for one of the most atrocious
crimes; the cruel, inhuman, and deliberate murder of her own father:
That the prisoner at the bar was the daughter and only child of Mr.
Constantine Bendigo, Squire of Troon, in the hundred of Penwith, a
gentleman both by his birth and education; that as she was the only, so
she was the beloved child of her father, who had spared no pains in
giving her a genteel, as well as a pious education; that her father,
indeed, had used this pious fraud (if he might be allowed that
expression) in saying that her fortune would be £10,000, to the end, he
supposed, that his daughter might be married suitable to such a
fortune. That in June of the preceding year one Capt. William Lucius
Crandon came to Penwith map-making, and hearing that Miss Bendigo was a
£10,000 fortune, and having a mind to marry this fortune,
notwithstanding he had a wife and child alive, contrived to get
acquainted with this family; how well he succeeded, and how sadly for
this family, this unhappy catastrophe has shown. That Mr. Bendigo,
having been informed that Mr. Crandon was married, he desired his
daughter to break off all correspondence with him; that instead of
doing so, she acquainted Mr. Crandon with her father's command, who,
instead of clearing his character to her father's satisfaction,
contrives the means and persuades this beloved, this tenderly indulged
daughter, to be an actor in her father's destruction.
That the Captain left Cornwall at the end of September, since when,
on the miscarriage of his plans, he had disappeared entirely; and soon
after he is gone, we find this wicked scheme beginning to be put into
execution. That on October 20, Mr. Bendigo found himself much
disordered after taking some tea, that next day, the prisoner having
made him another dish of tea, deceased had thought it to taste odd and
sent it downstairs; that Crandon, to hasten the work of destruction,
sent a letter to the prisoner, making use of an allegorical expression,
not to spare the powder, in order to keep the rust off the pebbles.
That the tea being too thin to admit of a larger quantity at the time,
you will find by the witnesses that shall be produced, that the
prisoner did mix a large quantity of the powder in a pan of water-gruel
and gave some of it to her father next day which had such terrible
effects as to occasion his death on the morning of the 23rd. That he
would call the physicians first, and they would prove that what was
administered to the deceased was poison and the cause of his death.
Mr. Harvey, of St. Annan, and Dr. Polwhele, of Penzance, were then
called and both sworn; and Mr. Harvey said that, being on the evening
of the 22nd sent for to Mr. Bendigo, he thus made his complaints: That
he had a violent burning pain, saying it was a ball of fire in his
guts, that he vomited much since taking some tea two days before and
again after taking some gruel that evening, that he had a cold sweat,
hiccups, prickings all over his body, which he compared to a number of
needles. He desired to drink, but could not swallow, his pulse
intermitted, his tongue swelled, his throat was excoriated, his breath
difficult and interrupted. Towards morning he grew worse, became
delirious and sank gradually, dying about six o'clock in the morning.
Being asked if he thought Mr. Bendigo was poisoned, witness
answered, He really believed he was, for that the symptoms, while
living, were like those of a person who had taken arsenic; and the
appearances after death, like those that were poisoned by arsenic.[A]
King's Counsel: Did you also make an examination of the powder
found in the gruel?
Mr. Harvey: I did. I threw it upon a hot iron; boiled ten grains in
water and divided the concoction, after filtering it into five equal
parts. Into one I put oil of vitriol, into another tartar, into the
third spirit of sal ammoniac, into the fourth spirit of salt, and into
the fifth spirit of wine. I tried it also with syrup of violets, and
made the like experiments with the same quantity of white arsenic which
I bought in Penzance. It answered exactly to every one of them, and
therefore I believed it to be white arsenic.
Mr. Harvey further deposed that Mr. Bendigo told him that he
suspected poison, and that he believed it came to his daughter with the
serpentine beads, for that his daughter had had a present of those
damned pebbles that morning; that if he, this witness, would look in
the gruel, he might find something, that when he, this witness, asked
Mr. Bendigo whom he imagined gave him the poison, he replied, A poor
love-sick girl, but I forgive her; what will not a woman do for the man
That later on the evening of the 22nd, Mr. Bendigo being a trifle
easier, consented to see Miss, that he, this witness, was present when
Miss came into the chamber, and fell down upon her knees, saying, Oh!
sir, forgive me! Do what you will with me, and I'll never see Crandon
more if you will but forgive me. To which Mr. Bendigo replied, I
forgive thee, but thou shouldst have remembered that I am thy father,
upon which Miss said, Oh, sir, your goodness strikes daggers to my
soul; sir, I must down on my knees and pray that you will not curse me.
He replied, No, child, I bless thee and pray that God may bless thee
and let thee live to repent. Miss then declared she was innocent of
this illness, and he replied, that he feared she was not, and that some
of the powder was in such hands as would show it against her. Witness
added that deceased, before Miss Bendigo's entry, had bidden him look
to the remainder of the gruel.
Prisoner's Counsel: Who was it sent for you when deceased was taken
Harvey: James Ruffiniac,[B] the steward, fetched me and said it was
at the command of Miss Bendigo, who said, to-morrow will not satisfy
me, you must go now, which he did.
Prisoner's Counsel: All the years you have known Miss Bendigo what
has been her behaviour to her father? Has she not always done
everything that an affectionate child could for her father's ease?
Harvey: She always behaved like a dutiful daughter, as far as ever
I knew, and seemed to do everything in her power for her father's
recovery whenever he was indisposed.
King's Counsel: Did she tell you that she had put anything into her
father's gruel and that she feared it might in some measure occasion
Harvey: She never did.
Dr. Polwhele, having been sworn at the same time as Mr. Harvey, and
stood in Court close by him, was now asked by the King's Counsel if he
was present at the opening of Mr. Bendigo and whether the observations
made by Mr. Harvey were true: he said he was present and made the same
observations himself. He was then asked what was his opinion of the
cause of the death of Mr. Bendigo, and he replied, by poison
Eliza Ruffiniac, being sworn, said, that on the afternoon of the
20th, her master being unwell, from (as they thought at the time) an
attack of bile, Miss Bendigo, the prisoner at the bar, made him a dish
of tea. That after taking it he was very sick, but seemed easier next
day, when Miss again made him some tea which he did not drink. That
next evening he sent for the witness and asked for some water-gruel to
be made; that Miss on hearing of it, said, I will make it, that there's
no call for you to leave your ironing; that Miss was a long time
stirring the gruel in the pantry, and on coming into the kitchen said,
I have been taking of my father's gruel, and I think I shall often eat
of it; I have taken a great fancy to it.
King's Counsel: Do you recollect that one Keast, the cook-maid, had
been taken ill with drinking some tea the day before, and tell the
Court how it was.
E. Ruffiniac: Hester Keast brought down the tea from my master's
room and afterwards drank it in the scullery, where I found her crying
out she was dying, being taken very ill with a violent vomiting and
pains and a great thirst.
Prisoner's Counsel: On that occasion, how did Miss Bendigo behave?
E. Ruffiniac: She made Hester Keast go to her bed and sent her a
large quantity of weak broth and white wine whey.
King's Counsel: Did you ever see Miss Bendigo burn any papers, and
E. Ruffiniac: On the evening of the 22nd, Miss brought a great many
papers in her apron down into the kitchen and put them on the fire,
then thrust them into it with a stick and said, now, thank God, I am
pretty easy, and then went out of the kitchen; that this witness and
Hester Keast were in the kitchen at the time; that they, observing
something to burn blue, it was raked out and found to be a paper of
powder that was not quite consumed; that there was this inscription on
the paper; Powder to clean the pebbles, and that this paper, she, the
witness, delivered to Dr. Polwhele next day. Being shown a paper, with
the above inscription on it, partly burnt, she said she believed the
paper to be the same the prisoner put into the fire and she took out.
This witness was asked if she ever heard the prisoner use any
unseemly expressions against her father, and what they were? Replied,
many times; sometimes she damned him for an old rascal; and once when
she was in the dairy and the prisoner passing at the time outside, she
heard her say, Who would not send an old father to hell for ten
Hester Keast, the cook-maid, deposed, That, on the 21st she bore
down her master's dish of tea and drank of it, being afterwards taken
very ill, that on the next day, being down in the kitchen after her
master was taken ill, Lylie Ruffiniac brought a pan with some gruel in
it to the table and said, Hester, did you ever see any oatmeal so
white? that this witness replied, That oatmeal? Why, it is flour! and
Lylie replied, I never saw flour so gritty in my life; that they showed
it to Mr. Harvey, the apothecary, who took it away with him.
James Ruffiniac was next called and sworn.
King's Counsel: When your master was dead, did you not have some
particular conversation with the prisoner? Recollect yourself, and tell
my Lord and the Jury what it was.
J. Ruffiniac: After my master was dead, Miss Bendigo asked me if I
would live along with her, and I said no, and she then said, If you
will go with me, your fortune will be made; I asked her what she wanted
me to do and she replied, Only to hire a post-chaise to go to London. I
was shocked at the proposal and absolutely refused her request. On this
she put on a forced laugh, and said, I was only joking with you.
Charles Le Petyt, Clerk in Holy Orders, was next called and sworn,
and said, That, meeting Miss Bendigo in St. Annan when the crowd was
insulting her, he took her into the inn, and spoke with her there,
asking if she would not return home under his protection; she answered
yes, that upon this he got a closed post-chaise and brought her home;
that upon her coming home she asked him what she should do, that he,
having heard her, said that they should fix the guilt upon Crandon if
she could produce anything to that end, but in some agony she replied
she had destroyed all evidences of his guilt.
Prisoner's Counsel: Do you, Mr. Le Petyt, believe that the Prisoner
had any intention to go off, from what appeared to you, and if she was
not very ready to come back with you from the inn?
Le Petyt: She was very ready to come back, and desired me to
protect her from the mob, and she had, I am sure, no design to make an
Here the Counsel for the Crown rested their proof against the
prisoner, and she was thereupon called to make her defence.
Prisoner: My Lord, in my unhappy plight, if I should use any terms
that may be thought unfitting, I hope I shall be forgiven, for it will
not be with any desire to offend. My Lord, some time before my father's
death, I unhappily became acquainted with Captain Crandon. This, after
a time, gave offence to my father, and he grew very angry with me over
Captain Crandon. I am passionate, which I know is a fault, and when I
have found my father distrustful over Captain Crandon, I may have let
fall an angry expression, but never to wish him injury, I have always
done all in my power to tend him, as the witnesses against me have not
denied. When my father was dead, being ill and unable to bear
confinement in the house, I took a walk over to St. Annan, but I was
insulted, and a mob raised about me, so that when Mr. Le Petyt came to
me I desired his protection and to go home with him, which I did.
I will not deny, my Lord, that I did put some powder into my
father's gruel; but I here solemnly protest, as I shall answer it at
the great tribunal, and God knows how soon, that I had no evil
intention in putting the powder in his gruel: It was put in to procure
his love and not his death.
Then she desired that several witnesses might be called in her
defence, who all allowed that Miss Bendigo always behaved to her father
in a dutiful and affectionate manner. And Anne Lear and Elizabeth
Pollard, women occasionally employed at Troon, deposed that they had
heard Lylie Ruffiniac say, Damn the black bitch (meaning the prisoner),
I hope I shall see her walk up a ladder and swing.
The prisoner having gone through her defence, the King's Counsel,
in reply, observed, That the prisoner had given no evidence in
contradiction of the facts established by the witnesses for the crown;
that indeed, Anne Lear and Elizabeth Pollard had sworn to an expression
of Lylie Ruffiniac, which, if true, served to show ill-will in
Ruffiniac towards the prisoner, but that he thought the incident was
too slight to deserve any manner of credit. That the other witnesses,
produced by the prisoner, served only to prove that Mr. Bendigo was a
very fond, affectionate and indulgent parent, therefore there could be
no pretence of giving him powders or anything else to promote in him an
affection for his daughter. That if the Jury believed the prisoner to
be innocent, they would take care to acquit her: but if they believed
her guilty, they would take care to acquit their own consciences.[C]
The prisoner desired leave to speak in answer to what the King's
Counsel had said, which being granted, she said, The gentleman was
mistaken in thinking the powders were given to her father to produce
his affection to her, for that they were given to procure her father's
love to Captain Crandon.
The judge summed up the evidence in a clear and impartial manner to
the Jury, and they, without going out of Court, brought in their
verdict: Guilty, Death.
After sentence of death was pronounced upon her she, in a very
solemn and affecting manner, prayed the Court that she might have as
much time as could be allowed her to prepare for her great and immortal
state. The Court told her she should have a convenient time allowed
her; but exhorted her, in the meantime, to lose not a moment, but
incessantly to implore the mercy of that Being to Whom alone mercy
To the making of such a scene as that recounted in the contemporary
journal, much had gone during the months so crudely analysed. That
damning pile of evidence had been building itself up, touch upon touch,
since the first moment when Sophie Bendigo's eyes lit on the instigator
of the trouble; and the causes of her own share in it had been
strengthening from far earlier even than that. In after years the Wise
Woman of Bosullow would recount that when the baby Sophie was brought
to her to be passed for luck through the ringed stone of the
Men-an-Tol, she had foretold for her the rise in life that eventually
came about. True, the terms of the prophecy had been so vague that
beyond the fact that a ladder, metaphorical or otherwise, was to play a
part in Sophie's career, Mr. Bendigo had not been much the wiser. The
mother had lain in the bleak moorland churchyard for several years now,
but she had had time, during the most malleable years of a girl's life,
the early teens, to impress Sophie with a sense of destiny. Not for her
the vulgar loves and joys of other country girls, to her some one
shining, resplendent, would come flashing down, and Sophie must learn
to bear with powdered hair and hoops against that moment. For London,
of course, would be her splendid bourne, and as to saying that hoops
got in the way of her legswhy, hoops were the mode and to a hoop she
must come. Since Mrs. Bendigo had died, worn out by the terrible
combination of the Squire's slow cruelty and his suave tongue, Sophie
had given up the struggle with hoops and powder, but she still lived
for and by her vision of the future. If Sophie Bendigo had not glanced
over her shoulder in Troon Lane, thereby presenting an exceptional face
at the most alluring of angleschin up and eyes innocently
sidelongto the view of Mr. Crandon, she might never have climbed so
high. When she saw Mr. Crandon, his white wig tied with a black ribbon,
and an excellent paste pin flashing from his cravat, riding up the
lane, she never doubted that her star had risen at last.
Sophie Bendigo was of the pure Celtic type still preserved among the
intermarrying villages of West Penwith. Her rather coarse hair was a
burnt black, so were her thick, straight brows, but her eyes were of
that startlingly vivid blue one only meets in Cornish women and Cornish
seas. There was something curiously Puck-like about Sophie; the
cheekbones wide and jaw pointed, while her mouth was long, the thin,
finely cut lips curving up at the ends, and there was a freakish flaunt
at the corners of her browsCrandon thought of piskies as he looked.
She wore a plain white gown, low in the throat and short in the sleeve,
and she carried an apron-load of elder-flower, the pearly blossoms of
it showing faintly green against the deader white of the linen.
Excuse me, but does this lead to St. Annan? asked Crandon, bending
a little towards her. Sophie felt one swift pang lest he should be
riding out of her life straightway, and swiftly answered:
You are out of your way, she told him, this lane only leads to
our house. You must go back to the highway and follow it past the
'Nineteen Merry Maidens' and turn on to your rightbut it is a matter
of three or four miles.
For a moment they remained looking at each other, then Crandon said:
Is there perhaps an inn near here where I and my mare could rest?
We have come from Zennor this morning, and she is newly shod.
There is no need for an inn, said Sophie, we are always glad to
rest a traveller at Troon Manor. I am Sophie Bendigo.
Crandon smilingly dismounted and walked by her side up the lane.
It would be ungracious to refuse when the Fates have led me and
Venus herself seconds the invitation. . . . Have you just risen from
the sea, I wonder, that your eyes still hold its hue?
Sophie, used only to the clumsy overtures of the county squires,
flushed with pleasure, not at the allusion, which she did not
understand, but at the air of gallantry which pervaded the man. She
glanced up admiringly between her narrowed lidsCrandon was accustomed
to such glances, so had his girl-wife in Scotland looked at him, before
he deserted her and her child. He meditated no harm to this girl, no
plan was formulated in his mind; and as to the ten thousand pounds, of
which so much was heard later on, no whisper of it had then reached his
ears. The road had led to her, her own face lured him on, and a few
hours of a pretty girl on such a June day, where was the harm? The
innocence and spontaneity of his feelings gave the Captain a delightful
glow of conscious virtue, and he walked beside Sophie with a slight
swagger of enjoyment.
The drive was a mere rutted cart-track; hemlock, foxgloves, purple
knapweed, blue scabious and tall, thin-stemmed buttercups grew along
the tangled hedges, and the blackberry flowers patterned the brambles
with pearliness. The luminous chequer-work of sun and shadow fell over
Sophie's white gown, and the green light, filtering through the trees,
reflected on her face and on her glossy head, so that she seemed to be
walking in the depths of the sea, and Crandon's simile gained in
At the bend of the lane they came on the Manor House, its whitewash
dazzling in the sunshine, even the shadows thrown on it by the eaves
and sills were so clear they gave a curious effect of being as light as
the rest. Only the Bendigo armsa clenched fistcarved on the granite
lintel, had been left untouched by the whitewash, and showed a sullen
grey. A few fawn-coloured fowls, blazing like copper in the sunshine,
pecked at the dusty ground, and some white pigs, looking as utterly
naked as only white pigs can, snuffled at a rubbish heap, their big
ears flapping. A tall, lean woman, clad in a dirty silk dressing-jacket
of bright yellow, was talking to a labourer by the dairy door. There
was something oddly suggestive of secrecy in the turn of their
shoulders and their bent heads, and the woman's soiled finery made her
thin facethat of a shrewd but comely peasant, framed in an untidy
pompadour of reddish-brown hairseem oddly incongruous. The man lapsed
into insignificance beside her, yet something of likeness in their
sharpened lines, and in the tinge of hot colour showing up through
them, proclaimed them kin. They were Lylie Ruffiniac, Squire Bendigo's
housekeeper, and her brother James, who acted as bailiff on the estate.
Sophie, her head turned towards her companion, did not see them, but
Crandon did, and was pricked at once to curiosity. Living as he did by
his wits, his every fibre was quickened to superficial alertness,
though of intellectual effort he was almost incapable. An old journal
for 1752 that published, in addition to its account of the trial, some
Memoirs of the Life of Lucius William Crandon, Esq., had enough
acumen to remark: He was not, however, destitute of parts, for he
would often surprise those who entertained a mean opinion of his
abilities, by schemes and concertions which required more genius than
they thought he had been master of. . . . As he was not of sufficient
learning to qualify him either for law or for physic, he turned his
thought towards the army, where a very moderate share of literature is
sufficient, and where few voices disqualify a man from making a figure.
. . . And a figure Lucius Crandon certainly madea figure that caused
the woman in the yellow jacket to stop and stare, then to disappear
into the house by a side-doorCrandon received the impression that she
had gone to warn some one of his approach.
It is said that rogues know each other by instinctcertain it is
that the Squire and Captain Crandon had no need of disguises once they
had crossed glances, and therefore each man cloaked himself with an
elaborate pretence of being unable to see through the other's garment.
It was not by any wish of Squire Bendigo's that Captain Crandon heard
of the rumour of the ten thousand pounds, but when one has circulated a
report with diligence for several years it is impossible to withdraw it
at will, and so the Squire found, and it only needed this report of
Sophie's marriage portion for Crandon to attempt the capture in
earnest; what happened to the map history does not relate, but the
Captain stayed at the Bendigo Arms, making explorations in the
familiar but always surprising country of a woman's mind. A mind
simpler, more passionate, and more one-ideaed than any he had met
before, a mind at once proud, confiding and recklessa mind fitted,
both by the quality of it and its loneliness, to be easily influenced
by the flattery of love.
Sophie Bendigo had a fixed belief in her star. The predictions of
the Wise Woman and of her eager mother, and her own knowledge of her
superiority to the people among whom she moved, all tended to give her
that confidence in her fate which does not think misfortune possible.
She had always led a hard life with her best of fathers, the smiling
old rogue who had never been heard to address a rude word to her, and
who was harsh and immutable as granite. She had always waited, with
such sureness she had not even felt impatience, for her opportunity to
come, and mingled with the half-shy, half-innocently sensuous
imaginings of a young girl on the subject of love, ran a streak of
personal ambition, a hardness inherited from her father.
At first, before he had found out beyond a doubt that the Captain
was a needy fortune-hunter, the Squire allowed his visits at Troon, and
Crandon soon grew to be on terms of intimacy with the members of the
household. These consisted of the Bendigos, father and daughter, Lylie
Ruffiniac, her brother, and the servant, a girl called Hester Keast.
The three latter were supposed to live more or less in the back
premises and take their meals in the kitchen, but once when Crandon
surprised Lylie Ruffiniac with the Squire, there were two glasses of
spirits and water on the table, and, several weeks after, when he had
to meet Sophie by stealth and at night, he saw a light being carried
from the servants' quarters towards the Squire's room. As for Hester
Keast, she was a pretty girl in her waya way at once heavier and less
strong than Sophie's. She had the dewy brown eyes, the easily affected,
over-thin skin, and the soft red mouth, blurred at the edges, which
betray incapacity for resistance. There was no harm in the girl, she
was merely a young animal, with very little instinct of self-protection
to counteract her utter lack of morals. Crandon kissed her behind the
door on his second visit, and James Ruffiniac's wooing of her had long
passed the preliminary stagesso long that with him ideas of marriage
were growing misty, the thing seemed so unnecessary. Lylie's blood was
controlled by scheming, and the most charitable explanation of the
Squire's tortuous nature was that some mental or moral twist in him
made him love evil for its own sake, and embrace it as his good. Such
was the household where, for the last three years, Sophie had lived,
practically aloneher egoism had done her that much service, it had
won her aloofness. Crandon, who was by nature predisposed to think the
worst of humanity, made the mistake, at first, of thinking Sophie's
innocence assumedit seemed a thing so incredible in that house of
hidden schemings and furtive amours. When he found that partly a
natural fastidiousness, and partly her young crudity had kept her clean
in thought and knowledge as well as in deed, he wisely guessed there
must be some outside influence on the side of the angels, and scenting
opposition to his own schemes, he set himself to discover all he could.
That was not difficult in such a sparsely inhabited district, hemmed in
on three sides by the sea, and he soon made, at St. Annan's Vicarage,
the acquaintance of its vicar, Mr. Charles le Petyt. He no sooner set
eyes on the clergyman's plain and frail physique, with the burning eyes
and quick nervous hands, than he knew he was right to fear him as an
influence, though he could scorn him as a rival.
Charles and Sophie had practically grown up together, Charles' six
years of seniority making him stand in the place of an elder brother to
her, until he had become her urgent lover. Charles' father, the former
Vicar of St. Annan, had given Sophie what little education she
possesseda medley of mythology and history, some incorrect geography,
and a smattering of literatureall the things that go to fire the
imagination. Mixed with these was a mass of all the wild legendary lore
of the Duchy, solemnly believed in by the common people at that date,
and by no means without its effect on the gentry. Sophie would not have
been of her race and time if she had not had faith in charms, witches,
death-warnings and love-potions; and in Charles the spiritual sense was
so acute that, though from sheer sensitiveness it rejected the more
vulgar superstitions, it responded like a twanged string to the breath
of a less gross world. The finer side of Sophie, the delicate feeling
for the beautiful, which owed so much of its existence to Charles,
received a severe shock when she discovered the change in his viewing
of her. She had been so used to think of him as her brother, and as her
leader in the intangible matters which were sealed books to the rest at
Troon, that the discovery of warm, human sentiments in him filled her
with repulsion, and she took to avoiding him as much as she had sought
him before. Poor Charles, whose earthly love, though as reverent, was
as fiery as his heavenly affections, and who was handicapped by the
lover's inability to understand that his devotion can be repellent,
suffered acutely. It was some time before he understood that Sophie was
so accustomed to see him burning with a white flame that she could not
forgive him for being alight with a red one as well. A more sensual
love, and coarser in its expression than his could ever be, would have
revolted her less coming from a less exalted manMr. Le Petyt paid for
the high opinion she held him in. If Lucius Crandon had never come to
Troon, Sophie would in time have grown used to the idea of Charles as a
husband, for there is no combination of circumstances, incredible as it
appears to youth, that time does not soften and make bearable. But
Sophie, destiny-ridden, gave no heed to Charles, save as a friend who
had made her dread him even while she was still fond of him, and Lucius
Crandon stepped in just when her nerves, awakened to the existence of
actual love, were beginning to calm from the shock and even to set
towards curiosityjust when she was most receptive. Pitiful and
ignorant Sophie, whose only protection from gross housemates and a
hot-blooded, cold-hearted lover, was a dreamer as guileless as herself!
With all his unworldliness, the unfailing instinct of the
spiritual-minded warned Mr. Le Petyt against the Captain, and when the
Squire, strangely friendly, sent word asking his vicar to come and see
him on urgent business, Mr. Le Petyt guessed to what matter the
business related. He found the Squire seated in his writing-room, a
glass of rare old smuggled brandy before him and a packet of letters on
his knee. The Squire was a big, pursy man, with a large and oddly
impassive face, where even the hanging folds of flesh seemed rigid;
only his small eyes, of a clear light grey, twinkled like chips of cut
steel from between his wrinkled lids. His bull neck, wide as his head
across the nape, sagged in a thick fold over his cravat, and his thighs
swelled against the close-fitting cloth of his riding-breeches. The
only contradiction to the stolidity of the man was his hands, and they
were never still, but were for ever fiddling with something; with his
waistcoat buttons, his rings, with a paper-knife, or the cutlery at
table, or with any live thing they could get. Charles Le Petyt well
remembered how, as a small boy, he had come on him superintending the
reaping, and fingering a puppy behind his back. Whether the Squire was
aware of what he was doing or whether his fingers did their work
instinctively, without his brain, Charles never could decide, but when
the Squire, turning away from the reapers, unlocked his hands, the
puppy lay limp across his palmthe life choked out of it. The Squire
stood still for a moment, looking at the little body, and then, moving
away in a straight line from the labourers, so that it was concealed
from them, he dropped it into a rabbit-hole and stuffed it down with
his cane. Sick to the heart, little Charles stood at gaze, and glancing
up, the Squire saw he was watched, and for a moment his impassive
features were convulsed with ragehe looked as though he would have
liked to treat Charles as he had the puppy. The memory of that day
would have been enough, without the sight of Sophie's dread of her
father, to prevent Mr. Le Petyt from joining in the general praise of
The two men made a great contrast as they sat opposite to each other
in the little room, the Squire solid and imperturbable, the parson
transparent in mind and physical texture, the quick colour flying up
under his skin with his emotions. The dust lay thickly over the table
and books, for Sophie, the careful housewife, was seldom admitted here,
and however Lylie Ruffiniac spent the hours when she was closeted with
the Squire, it was evidently not in work. The evening light shone into
the low-browed room through an ash-tree by the window, filling the air
with a luminous gloom, gilding the dust films, gleaming on Mr. Le
Petyt's shoe-buckles, and making a bright crescent in the glass of
spirits which the Squire was jerking between his finger and thumb.
You want to consult me on something? began the younger man, going
straight to the point. The Squire, with a gesture of protest for such
methods, nevertheless fell into an agreeing humour.
The fact is, Charles, he began, with that disarming air of candour
none assumed better than he, I have had cause to be uneasy at the
intimacy between my dear but headstrong daughter and this Captain
Crandon, so I wrote to a trustworthy man I know in London to find out
all he could for me. His letter came to-day by Mr. Borlace, who was
riding down in all haste from London to his wife's bedsidethus does
Providence permit the trials of others to be of use to us.
Here he paused, but Mr. Le Petyt, throwing in no suitable remark, he
I will read you some extracts from the letter, and you shall judge
for yourself whether a parent's anxiety has not been justified. Let me
seeah, here we are! 'I find' (says my informant) 'that about the year
1744 Crandon became acquainted with a Miss Isabel Thirsk, then at her
uncle's. Miss Thirsk was remarkably genteel, delicate, and of a very
amiable disposition, which gained her a great number of admirers. Her
uncle, observing that Crandon always discovered an inclination of
conversing with his niece alone, desired him to explain himself fully
on a point so very delicate. Crandon declared he counted Miss Thirsk on
the most honourable terms, but the young lady's uncle desired that
Crandon's visits should be less frequent, lest his niece should suffer
in her reputation. Soon after, this gentleman's affairs caused him to
be absent from his home for some time, during which Crandon proposed a
private marriage, which the young lady consented to, and for some time
they lived together without any of their relations being privy to it.
The natural consequence arising, and her uncle, some time after his
return, suspecting it, she readily acknowledged she was with child, and
protested she was married to Crandon four months before, adding, that
her husband, who was soon to set out for London, had not yet publicly
acknowledged her for his wife. Accordingly the uncle dispatched a
messenger to Crandon demanding full acknowledgment of his wife before
his departure for England. Crandon wrote in answer that he never
intended to deny his marriage with Miss Thirsk, and that he would ever
love her with conjugal tenderness, but that at the moment he had to
hasten to London, which he did. There he every day saw young fellows
making their fortunes by marriage, and he imagined nothing but his
being married could hinder him from being as successful as the rest,
thus he began to neglect a person whose beauty and virtue merited a
more worthy spouse. When he returned to Scotland that country was
involved in a civil war, and rebellion raging in its bowels. He found
all the relations of Miss Thirsk joined in the mad expedition and in
all probability would suffer at the hands of their country for
disturbing its peace. He therefore concluded that it was not in their
power to give him any disturbance, and, consequently, it was a good
opportunity for renouncing his wife. The affair, at last, after various
meetings and expostulations of friends, came to a trial before the
Lords of Session in Scotland, who found the marriage valid and settled
fifty pounds a year on the lady, which she now enjoys by their
The Squire put down the papers.
So much for Captain Crandon! he said, in a glow of rage at the man
for trying to deceive him, mingled with pride in his own acuteness and
a dash of assumed piety: Who but a person, something worse than a
villain, could ever have indulged a thought of using so innocent, so
lovely a being as Miss Thirsk in such a monstrous manner! Surely Divine
justice will pursue him for this unnatural, this unheard-of piece of
Divine justice has at least saved Sophie from the same fate,
replied Mr. Le Petyt. His first feeling was for her, his second, to his
own shame, was the relief of the jealous lover.
AhSophie! said the Squire thoughtfullythat is where I crave
your help. She is headstrong, poor child, sadly headstrong, but your
opinions have always had weight with her. You have an influence,
Charles. Use it to save my unhappy child from this villain Crandon.
I would save her from all villainy if I could, said Mr. Le Petyt.
The Squire pulled the bell-rope, and on the appearance of Lylie,
splendid in what even the guileless parson could not but see was a new
silk, stiff enough to stand up by itself, the Squire told her curtly to
desire Miss's presence. Lylie withdrew with downdropped lids, and a
few minutes later Sophie appeared. She glanced quickly from one man to
the other, and scenting a conspiracy, remained standing, her head up,
and her hands strongly clasped behind her. She was against the window,
so that subtleties of expression were lost to Mr. Le Petyt, and only
the aloofness of her pose struck at him miserably, as confounding him
and her father together. The big white muslin cap she wore showed
delicately dark against the daylight, the outstanding frill of it
framing the solid shadow of face and neck with a semi-transparent halo,
and a yoke of light lay across her shouldersto Mr. Le Petyt's quick
fancy she looked like some virgin-saint of old at her trial.
Sophie, said the Squire gently, I feel I should not be doing my
duty by my dear daughter if I did not inform her that her lover, Lucius
Crandon, is a married man.
He watched, smiling. She stood a little tense, but with scorn of him
and not with fear, and he went on:
He married a Miss Isabel Thirsk, by whom he had a child
A slight convulsion swept over Sophie, passed, and left her rigid,
and the Squire continued:
A lovely child, I believea boy, and the image of his father. . .
. But that is not the chief matter of interest. Captain Crandon
deserted his young and trusting wife, and appealed against the validity
of the marriage. The law decided against him, and condemned him to pay
fifty pounds a year for her support. It was a sad scandal, a very sad
scandal. You, my sweet child, do not know the wickedness of the world
as I do, therefore I must shield you from itin short, I forbid you to
have speech with Captain Crandon again.
Is that all? asked Sophie.
Allsave that I should much regret having to lock you up in your
room to enforce obedience.
And you, Charles? cried Sophie, are you, too, in this plot to
speak ill of an absent man?
Sophie, cried Mr. Le Petyt, do not take it so, I beg of you.
There seems only too little doubt that what your father says is true.
You are against me, too! said Sophie cruelly. Papa, I am going to
meet Captain Crandon now, and I shall ask him for the truth.
Sophie! You will not believe him? exclaimed Mr. Le Petyt,
half-rising in his agitation.
Every word he says, cried Sophie, with a little laugh of utter
confidence. Her hand was on the latch, and the Squire, restrained by
Mr. Le Petyt's presence, dared not put out a hand to stop her by force.
For half a moment more the three emotions heldthe scorn of the girl,
the distress of the one man and the vindictiveness of the other, then
the door had closed behind Sophie as the will to see her lover swept
her on; and the taunt, one-ideaed feeling of the men fell into
complexity as they turned first towards each other, then away, in the
Sophie found Crandon awaiting her by the dam above Vellan-Crowse
mill. The daylight was all but gone and a darkly soft glamour seemed to
hold the full-foliaged trees and shadowed water in a hush of
expectation. There was still enough of red reflecting from the West to
make the grass and leaves a vivid though subdued green; but of the
hollow in the bushes, where the lovers met, darkness already seemed to
make a nest. Everything to lull the mind and stir the heart and blood
was there, and Sophie's generous trust, her pride in taking his word
against the world, were not more powerful allies of Crandon's tongue
than the time and the place. It was of little avail later to marvel
that his ingenious reconstruction of events won upon her; his garbled
confession of a liaison with Isabel Thirsk, and denial of the
marriage, his statement of Miss Thirsk's infidelities, and his evident
nobility in voluntarily allowing her an income. As for the sin
itselfIt was before I met you. You could make me what you will.
Sophie, only too willing to be convinced, sat by him in the little
clearing, and listened almost in silence. Behind them on both sides the
hazel-bushes made a faintly whispering screen of darkness, at their
feet the mill-dam lay silent save for the occasional plop-plop of the
tiny trout rising at late flies, on the further bank the hedge was a
network of tangled black against the deepening sky, while overhead the
elms and sycamores were pierced by the first faint stars. The two were
set in a hushed sphere of aloofness, and for Sophie it was the world.
Trust me, my sweet Sophieonly trust me! was whispered in her ear,
and when she answered that she did, and he told her that if it were
really so she would not draw away from him, she let his arms creep
round her and his mouth come to hers. Weeks of carefully calculated
love making had gone to make her pliable, kisses at which all the chill
girlhood of her would earlier have shuddered, as it had at the same
thing in Charles Le Petyt, she now bore, if not yet with passion, yet
with the woman's tolerance of it in the man she loves. Crandon knew it
was the moment to bind her to him irrevocably, for he guessed that to a
woman of her type faithfulness is a necessity of self-respect, and with
him desire was one with deliberate planning. Whether he threw a spell
of words over her, or whether the mere force of his thought pleaded
with her to prove she trusted him utterly, Sophie could never have
told. She only knew that the still night, the soft air, the rustling
leaves and the pricking stars, his presence, dimly seen but deeply
felt, and the beating in her own frame, all cried to her, It was for
this that I was born! For this, for this, for this!
Every one, on looking back at the past, even from the near
standpoint of a few months, realizes how it falls into separate phases,
unnoticed at the time, but nevertheless distinct. When she had reached
her apex, Sophie saw how that night by the mill-dam had shut down one
phase for ever, and ushered in a new one. Deceptions, and constant
evading of her father's suspicions, secret meetings, to connive at
which it became a bitter necessity to bribe the servants, hard Lylie
and slow-tongued Jameswhile at the same time instinct warned her to
keep the thing from Hester Keastall these were wearisome and galling,
but by the quality of affairs with Crandon fell into insignificance,
merely an added irritation, flies on a wound.
What first suggested to Crandon his idea of the love-potion was the
discovery of Sophie's credulousness. Like all West Country folk,
especially in those days, she was a firm believer in witches and
spells, to an extent incredible to a Saxon. As late as the latter half
of the nineteenth century an old woman was accused by a farmer of
ill-wishing his bullocks and was brought to trial; while a cunning
man, or white-witch, lived until lately in the northern part of the
Duchy. A century earlier, therefore, when Cornwall was practically cut
off from England, when even the coach came no further than Saltash, and
travellers continued on horseback or in a kitterine; when newspapers
were unknown, and books only found in parsonages or the biggest of the
country houses; when animals were burned alive as sacrifices to
fortune, and any man out at night went in fear of ghosts and the devil,
then there was no one, of whatever rank, who did not believe in
witchcraft. That Sophie, lonely, romantic, with the superstitious blood
of the Celt unadulterated in her veins, should give credence to such
things, was inevitable; and when Crandon suggested giving a love-potion
to the Squire, so that he might feel his heart warmed towards his
would-be son-in-law, she seized at what was to her more a certainty
than a hope.
It was an afternoon in late September, and she and Crandon had met
in a wood about a mile away from Troon, when he first mooted his plan;
she sat beside him on one of the great grey boulders with which the
sloping floor of the wood was covered, and listened with growing
eagerness. It was a damp, steamy day, gold and tawny leaves, blown down
in one night's gale, were drifted thickly in the fissures of the rocks
and over the patches of vividly green moss; and livid orange fungi grew
on the tree-boles. Sophie, always affected by externals, shuddered a
little and drew closer to Crandon. Slipping his hand under the heavy
knot of her hair, he laid it against the nape of her neck, and as she
closed her eyes in the pleasure of his touch he looked down at her with
a queer expression on his narrow face.
You have the loveliest neck in the world, my Sophie, he said,
making his hands meet round it as he spoke, seeI make you a living
necklace for it.
Sophie tucked in her chin, and bending her head, kissed the clasping
fingers. Although he was not of those men to whom the attained woman
gains in attractions, yet there were still things about Sophielittle
flashes and gleams, swift touches, that fired him afresh. She stirred
him now, yet he was cold enough to be glad of the stir because it gave
him added eloquence for his purpose.
I will get you a better necklace, he told her. Nothing very fine,
or what would the Squire think? I have been collecting choice bits of
serpentine, and had them cut out and polished, and you shall have a
necklace of themthe stones of your own country. Your throat will warm
them, my Sophie, as it would warm my hands if they were cold in death.
Death! murmured Sophie, shuddering again, we should not speak of
it, lest it hear us.
Then we will talk of love insteadof our love, Sophie.
Alas, that way too lies sorrow! Lucius, what is the end to be? My
father would kill me if he knew.
Does he hate me so?
She nodded, with the look of dumb fear in her eyes that thought of
the Squire always brought there.
Dear heart, we will change his hate to love. There is a wayif you
will trust me and obey me.
A tremor of exquisite delight thrilled through her at the words. She
had no arts of allurement, no strength of will to make her play the
coquette with him, and she was unable, for the purpose of leading him
on and tantalizing him to fresh excitement, to deny herself the joy of
being his slave.
Obey you! she said, slipping a little lower on her rock so that
her back-tilted head lay against his knee as she looked up at him, I
am yours for you to do with as you will.
Stooping, he kissed the swelling curve of her throat, and privately
marvelled at her for being such a fool.
Sweetheart, he began softly, we will call in the aid of higher
powers than our own. You know my mother was a Scotswoman, and she had
the second sight, like your old Madgy Figgy of the Men-an-tol. She was
learned in all kinds of charms, too. Well I remember as a child seeing
her staunch the flow of blood from an old servant by crossing two
charmed sticks from the hearth over him and saying a charm.
It was Madgy Figgy who told about my ladder, Sophie said, she has
many charms, I know. She carries the water from St. Annan's spring to
the church whenever there's to be a christening. No one baptized in
water from St. Annan's spring can die by hanging, every one knows that.
Was your mother as learned in charms as old Madgy?
She was a wise woman in more than mere charms, yet we will not
slight her knowledge of them, since through that we will win your
father's affection for me.
If it could be! cried Sophie.
It can be. Listen, my sweet. My dear mother, in dying, left me,
among books of the craft of healing and suchlike things, an old
love-charm she had had from a Wise Woman in the Highlands. It is
nothing but a little white powder, yet it affects the very
heart-strings of him who takes it.
Could it turn my father's heart towards you? Lucius, how happy we
should all be. . . . But surely it might make him love some one else
insteadMr. Le Petyt, perhaps?
You should know better than that, my foolish Sophie. These things
all depend on the intention of he who gives them. You have but to
concentrate on me while you give it him, and all will be well.
He would be furious if he guessed, objected Sophie.
Neither he nor anyone else must guess, or the charm will fail. I
will send it to you in packets with the serpentine beads, and mark it
'Powder to clean the pebbles.'
Why not give it to me? asked Sophie.
Because I have to go away for a time, my sweet. Not for very
long as Sophie made a movement of distress, but I have business I
must see to in town. I will send you the beads to remember me by in my
absence. Will you wear them for my sake, Sophie.
I will wear them night and day, but I need no reminders of you,
Lucius. But youwill you forget me in London? It is so big and far
away and full of great ladies who will put your poor Sophie out of
remembrance. Lucius, Lucius. . . .
My sweet, silly little Sophie, he whispered, soothing her as she
clung to him, how can you misjudge me so? Is not one black hair from
your head, one glance from your blue eyes, dearer to me than all the
women in the world? What have I done that you should think so ill of
Forgive me, dear. I know men are not like women, and I cannot see
what there is in me to hold youexcept my love for you. No other women
could love you half so well, Lucius. It is my only gift, but it at
least could not be bettered by anyone.
I know it, my sweet, he told her, and when your father is of a
better mind towards me you shall give me your love before all the
world, and then I need no longer travel alone. Would you like to see
London, heart of mine?
Ah, with you! breathed Sophie. Once, before I met you, I thought
of nothing but London, and how I meant some day to be a great lady
there, but now I think of nothing but to be with you. Perhaps, after
all, this is what the Wise Woman meant and my golden ladder is my love
for you, and I've climbed on it from loneliness to joy.
A Jacob's ladder, for the feet of an angel, then, my Sophie.
If it could only reach from here to London! Oh, Lucius, need you
I must, my sweet. Don't make it harder for me.
That checked her plaint at once, as he knew it would.
When do you go? she asked quietly.
In a day or two, sweetheart. Ah, Sophie, how shall I live without
While she comforted him, forgetting self, he made a mental
calculation as to how soon he could get away. He kissed Sophie's hair
I will write to you, heart of mine, he murmured, and I will
contrive so that he finds I have gone completely away, and that will
lull any suspicion he may have against us. And while I am gone you will
be working for us, my Sophie. Do not be alarmed if at first the powder
seems to cause an indisposition. It has to expel the evil humours from
a man before it can turn his nature to good. Give it to him in a small
quantity once or twice, and he will vomit and be rid of this
disaffection towards me, and the rest will work beneficially. Your
father will arise and call you blessed, my Sophie, for having sworn him
the evil of his own heart. Do not write me word when anything definite
happensI am leaving my servant at Penzance, and he will post up to me
at once when you give him news.
And thenthen you will come down again, and we shall all be able
to be happy. Perhaps my father will even dismiss Lylie Ruffiniac when
his heart is turned towards you. That woman frightens me, Lucius. She
is always looking at me as though she wished me away. No one loves me
except yourselfand poor Charles. Hester avoids me, and James never
did speak a word to me that he could avoid. Lucius, sometimes it seems
to me that he and Lylie and Hester have all grown to hate me, that they
would harm me if they could. It frightens meLucius, Lucius, what
shall I do when you have left me?
Crandon fought down his boredom and gave himself over to consoling
her, with now and again a surreptitious glance at the watch dangling
from his fob. He had another interview to go throughwith Lylie
Ruffiniac. She had to be fostered in the belief that he was going to
take Sophie away as soon as possible, leaving the housekeeper free to
influence the Squirefor Lylie's ambition rose to being legitimate
mistress of the Manor, and Sophie once gone, she saw no reason why she
should not attain her end. She knew that the ten thousand pounds was a
mere myth, but that she kept hidden from Crandon, even bringing
forward, as women can, apparently casual little pieces of information
that would all tend to fix him in his belief. Crandon had been wise to
impress on Sophie the necessity for keeping the love-potion hidden from
every oneLylie, who had a fine nose for a rogue, would have been in
possession of his schemea scheme so devastating to her ownat once.
As soon as safety and decency permitted he would carry Sophie off, go
through the ceremony of marriage with her in a place where he was not
known, gain possession of the moneyand clear out of England for good.
This was his last throw of the dice in his own countrylet him but win
the stake and he would disappear and enjoy his fortune elsewhere.
He took a last glance at his watch, a last kiss of Sophie's mouth,
and scrambled to his feet. He walked back with Sophie as near Troon as
was safe, then took an affectionate good-night of her, and started off
for the cove to meet Lylie Ruffiniac.
Thank the gods, that hard-headed vixen of a Lylie won't want me to
kiss her! he reflected as he went. Ah, there's a woman might have
been some help to me if I'd met her in the shoes of Isabel or of this
Sophie. Lucius, my son, you are playing a very risky game, but the
stakes are worth it. Ten thousand pounds, a fresh countryand entirely
Two weeks after Crandon's departure the first instalment of
serpentine beads arrived for Sophie. There was no concealing the fact,
and Sophie replied to her father's suave inquiries that the beads were
a keepsake from a friend. Enclosed with them was a tiny packet of white
powder, on which was written Powder to clean the pebbles, and this
Sophie secreted at once.
A few days later the Squire was unwell with a violent headache and
bilious attack resulting from too much port and smuggled brandy the
night beforeSophie suggested that she should make him a dish of tea.
In the night he was taken with violent sickness, but by the next day he
had not only recovered from that but apparently actually benefited by
it, as it had cured him of the result of his orgy. Next day, to
continue the cure, Sophie again sent him up some tea, but this time the
Squire thought it tasted odd, and Hester, on bearing away the dish,
finding that the rare beverage was left untouched, hid it in the
scullery and drank it that evening. She was soon taken with violent
pains and sickness and a raging thirst, and it was in this condition
that Lylie found her.
My life, Hester, what have 'ee got? asked Lylie.
The pains of death, I do think, gasped Hester. Oh, oh!
Lylie looked at her unsympathetically.
Simme you'm whist wi' en, she observed, scrawlen' like that. Some
bad you do look, though, there's no denyen'.
I'm dyen'! wailed Hester.
Sophie, who had come into the kitchen, heard the commotion, and went
into the scullery.
Why, Hester, what ails you? she exclaimed. Lylie, what has
'Tes the pains o' death, she do say, replied Lylie, but 'tes
nawthen but to be in the bed and somethen' hot that she needs.
She must get to bed at once. Here, Lylie, you take her arm that
side and I'll take this. She's getting quieter.
Indeed, the worst spasms were over: Hester, weak and exhausted, was
put to bed, and Sophie, her dislike of the girl forgotten in
compassion, sent up weak broth and white wine whey. Late that evening
as Lylie sat with the Squire, he asked her what all the noise had been
'Tes that maid Hester, said Lylie indifferently, she'd taken
somethen' that went agen her and was vomiten' all evenin'. Some bad she
did vomit, and Miss and I had to get her overstairs to the bed.
The Squire stirred in his chair and very slowly brought his eyes
round to Lylie.
What time did the sickness take her? he asked.
Soon after she'd put your tray to the kitchen, measter. Look 'ee,
now, at this lutestring piece I got to Penzance church-town. It do sore
need a ribbon to go wi' en. What do 'ee say to given' I a crown to buy
et with, eh, measter?
Shalt have thy crown, woman, said the Squire shortly, but leave
me be now. I want no more for the night. And tell Miss I wish to speak
with her to-morrow forenoon.
Lylie, somewhat offended, but mollified by the unexpectedly easy
capture of the crown, withdrew, and next morning, as Sophie was busier
than usual in household tasksHester still being confined to her
bedshe delivered the Squire's message. It was with a heart fluttering
with hope that Sophie went to his room. He was not yet out of bed, and,
wrapped in a dingy dressing-gown, much stained with snuff and wine, his
big jowl unshaven and his bald head innocent of wig (that ornament hung
rakishly askew on a chair-back) he looked anything but a pleasant
object. Sophie stopped short on the threshold.
You sent for me, sir? she asked.
'Tis nothing of any importance, my dear, said the Squire smoothly,
merely to tell you how recovered I am. How blooming you look, my
Sophiemore like my own daughter than you have since this shadow fell
Indeed, Sophie, in her flutter of hope and excitement, showed a
glowing face. Her heart softened at the kindliness of her father's
Oh, sirshe began, if only this shadowif you would only let it
liftif you would only believe in mein him!
Who knows, said the Squire benignly, but that I may see cause to
change my opinions. You will understand, my dear daughter, that a
father is in so responsible a position, he must not accept an affair of
the kind lightly, without due inquiry. Perhaps the fellow who sent me
that report was prejudiced, who knows? I might, in justice, inquire
further. But you are not wearing your beads, my child.
Theythey have not all come yet, she faltered, but I received
some more yesterday.
The roses on thy cheeks are the best adornment in a father's eye,
said the Squire, and now tell Lylie to bring me some broth with brandy
in it, and bless thee, my child. And, he added to himself as she left
the room, I do not think I shall be taken with sickness again yet
Sophie's easily persuaded reason and her affectionate nature were
swayed to gratitude, and she reproached herself because something in
her was repulsed by the old man's blandness. She ran downstairs and out
into the yard singing under her breath, and saw the postboy coming up
the drive. He had a packet for her which she took up to her room to
open. There were a dozen or so more of the polished pebbles, cut into
beads, and a short note in which Crandon assured her of his undying
affection, and ended by saying, Do not spare the powder in order to
keep the rust off the pebbles.
That afternoon Charles Le Petyt came over to Troon and walked with
Sophie in the garden. He was full of joy to see the increased
brightness of her look, and soon detected a softening in her tone when
she spoke of her fatherCrandon's name they avoided by silent consent.
You may yet be happy with your father, Sophie, said Mr. Le Petyt
with the hopefulness of the born idealist, and Sophie, confident in her
supernatural knowledge, agreed.
And I reproach myself that sometimes I have been wicked enough to
wish I might never see him again, she said as they walked slowly
towards the house door, past the open dairy windows, and indeed,
Charles, I think it must have been the Devil himself who sometimes
suggested to me how much happier I should be if he were dead. I have
seemed to hear a whisper: 'Who would not wish an old father dead for
ten thousand pounds?'because that meant freedom andpeace.
My poor Sophie, replied Charles pressing her hand.
He stayed and took tea with her and the Squire, and the latter went
to bed soon after he had left. The weather had turned rainy, autumn
seemed invaded by a tang of winter that evening, and the Squire, who
was subject to fits of shivering, had a huge fire lit, and demanded hot
gruel of Lylie.
There's no occasion for you to leave your ironing, Lylie, remarked
Sophie when they were in the kitchen, and the woman acquiescing, Sophie
went into the pantry. She was gone some time, and when she reappeared
Lylie glanced up from the ironing of her turned satin slip. Sophie
caught the glance, and fore-stalling a question, remarked carelessly:
I have been stirring the gruel and eating some of the oatmeal out
of it, for I've taken a great fancy to it. I believe I shall often eat
from my father's gruel.
She stirred it round over the fire as she spoke.
I'll take it overstairs, said Lylie, who viewed the friendlier
relations between father and daughter with dislike. Sophie turned the
gruel out into a basin and set the saucepan down on the hob.
I will see to it, she retorted hurriedly, but Lylie seized the
basin and bore it out of the kitchen.
Not a quarter of an hour later the Squire's screams echoed through
the house. He was very sick, hiccuped like a person bitten by a mad
dog, and cried out that he was burnt up with fire. Sophie, terrified,
insisted on James riding at once to St. Annan's for the apothecary, and
herself banished from the Squire's room by the commands he managed to
articulate, she stayed against his door outside, every now and then
pressing her fingers to her ears when a more awful sound than common
came from within.
He was a trifle easier when the apothecary arrived and applied
remedies, and Lylie took advantage of the lull to creep swiftly to the
kitchen and pick up the saucepan Sophie had left on the hob. Hester,
whom all the outcry had brought from her bed, watched her movements
curiously. Lylie lit two candles and bore the pan to the light.
Come and look here, Hester, said Lylie slowly, feeling some of the
sediment from the pan between her finger and thumb, as she spoke, Did
you ever see oatmeal so white?
Oatmeal! said Hester, why, 'tes as white as flour.
'Tes more gritty'n flour. I see et all, Hester. Have 'ee never
heard that poison's white and gritty? Measter's poisoned, and tes Miss
that's done et.
A slight sound came from the kitchen door and both women looked
round, but Sophie, whose foot had been on the threshold, had turned and
fled upstairs to the door of her father's room again, where she flung
herself on the floor and pressed her forehead against the wooden panel.
In that long drawn moment of listening the truth had rushed in over her
consciousnessand overwhelmed reason and self-control.
The door opened and the apothecary stumbled over her.
Miss Bendigo he began in compassion, then some words to which
the Squire had just given vent flashed back at him and he hesitated.
Bring her in, ordered the patient hoarsely.
Sophie scrambled to her feet and went towards the bed. She fell on
her knees beside it.
Oh, sir, forgive me, I didn't know, I didn't know, she babbled,
send me where you will, only forgive me and get well . . . I'll never
see or hear from or write to him more, if you'll but forgive me, I
shall be happy. Papa, papa!
Over Sophie's head the Squire beckoned the apothecary into the room.
I do forgive thee, he murmured, speaking with difficulty and
veiling his eyes with his thin wrinkled lids, but thou should'st have
remembered I am your father. As for the villain Crandon, hadst thou
loved me thou wouldst curse him and the ground he walks on.
Oh, sir, said Sophie, to whom the words of pardon alone had
penetrated, your kindness strikes at my soul. Sir, on my knees I pray
you will not curse me.
I curse thee! gasped the Squire, forcing his distorted
mouth into a semblance of the old bland smile, no, child, I bless thee
and hope God will bless thee, and I pray thou mayest live to repent and
amend. . . . Leave me, lest thou should'st say something to thy
prejudice apparently, thought the apothecary, who was himself
trembling with horror, this martyred father had forgotten the presence
of a listener. Go to the clergyman, Mr. Le Petyt, he will take care of
thee. Alas, poor man, I am sorry for him. . . .
Papa, I am innocent, I swear to you I am. I never knew. I am
innocent of this. . . .
I fear thou art not quite innocent and that there is some powder in
such hands as will appear against thee. Harvey take away my poor
Sophie stumbled blindly from the room and went upstairs. Mr. Harvey
hesitated a moment, saw the patient almost comatose, and went down to
the kitchen. There Lylie still pored over the saucepan, which she
thrust out at him.
See, Mr. Harvey, she demanded, what's this stuff in wi' the
gruel? Can 'ee tell me that?
Mr. Harvey examined the contents of the pan carefully, tried some on
his finger, and shook his cautious head.
I cannot be very positive, he replied at length, but at least it
can have no business in the gruel. Give me white paper and I will take
some home and test it when it is dry.
Lylie helped him scrape the sediment into a sheet of paper, and he
folded it up and pocketed it. He then gave instructions to the two
women to heat more water for fomentations while he returned to the sick
room. Finding the Squire still comatose, he sat with his fingers on the
intermittent pulse. Meanwhile Sophie, in whom fear, the most sickening
of all emotions had awakened, crept downstairs, holding her breath past
her father's room, down to the kitchen. Lylie happened to be in the
scullery at the moment, Hester, still weak from morbid excitement as
well as illness, was seated in a shadowy corner of the kitchen. Sophie
crept in, looked fearfully round her, listened, and then began to stuff
some papers into the grate. She thrust them into the heart of the
flames and then breathed a deep sigh of relief. Now I am more easy,
thank God, she murmured, and slipped out of the kitchen as cautiously
as she had come. Lylie, from behind the crack of the scullery door,
went towards the grate, where she was joined by Hester. . . .
A little later all was noise again, the Squire had been seized with
violent spasms, raving and hiccuping like a madman, unable to swallow
as much as a sip of water. Towards the small hours he grew delirious,
then sank gradually; with the dawn he died.
Sophie sat rigid in her room, paler than the paling day. She looked
back over the past, recalling little speeches of Crandon's which, had
she been less simple, less adoring, must have warned her of his plan.
She saw the skill with which he had trapped her, she saw what he hoped
to gain, she saw how he would lose nothing. It was she who had to pay.
At the thought fear, natural, human fear, caught at her again and she
sprang to her feet, a thing distraught. Escapeshe must escape, get
away from this dread that was closing in on her. She tied on cloak and
hood and feverishly crammed all the money that for months she had been
saving against her marriage into a little bag. On the stairs she ran
into James Ruffiniac, and with her hands on his coat, pressing,
begging, silent suppliants, she made him come into the dining-room.
James, she said, do you want to make your fortune? You do, do you
not? If you will come with me, it is made.
What do you want me to do? asked James.
Only to hire a postchaise to go to London, and I'll give you
fifteen guineas now, and more when we come there. Only to do that. And
in London you would make your fortune.
Not on my life, he told her. What you'm done you must see the end
of. 'Tes your guilty soul makes you flee. I'll have to tell of this.
II was merely jesting, faltered Sophie, to see if you would.
James but he had swung on his heel and left her.
No one molested Sophie, but towards midday Hester put her head in at
the bedroom door to inform her, with a hardly restrained gusto, that
Dr. Polwhele had come over from Penzance and was going to open the
body. Sick to the soul, Sophie put on her outdoor things once more and
struck out over the moors, walking blindly to try and get away from the
horror that was in her. As she went all the strength of her nature,
inherited from the father who could keep up a pose and plan a revenge
on an agonized death-bed; the strength, which had concentrated itself
during her girlhood on her ambitions, that had then made her love for
Crandon, now turned to a deep hatred and rage that seemed to settle,
cold and hard, on the very muscles of her body. She knew the hatred,
the fierce resentment, that the trapped thing feels against the
trapper, and added to it was the shame of a woman whose love has been
made a mockery. And if, unacknowledged even to herself, was the
pricking feeling that, could she have been spared discovery, she would
not deeply have minded being the innocent cause of her own release, who
is there with heart so uncomplex as to be in a position to condemn her.
. . .
She tramped on and on, and presently found herself out on the St.
Annan high-road. The thought of Charles came to her as a point where
she could turn for help, for he had been absent all night at a distant
part of the parish, ministering to a dying man, but he would surely be
back by now; if she were not quick he would already have set off for
Troon on hearing the news. Battling against the rain-laden wind, she
bent her head and made her way into the village. There little groups of
people were standing about, intent, arguing. At sight of her a common
feeling animated them, the various little centres of discussion broke,
joined together, swept towards her. She had an impression of shaking
fists, angry sounds, rude contacts, and the smell of many rain-wet
bodies pressing in around her. The panic of crowds seized her, she
screamed, and screamed again, not recognizing the voice of Charles Le
Petyt answering her as he made his way through the press. He struck the
faces away from him right and left, and his blazing passage made men
fall back. Putting an arm round Sophie he drew her up the steps of the
inn and through the door, which he shut and barred.
Take me away, Charles, take me away, she moaned, and he, his arms
round her dear trembling body, answered:
I will take you home. You are quite safe with me, Sophie. When we
get back you must tell me everything and I will think of a way to help
you. Stay here a moment, dear.
He put her in a chair, sent the frightened host for a glass of wine,
and ordered a chaise to be got ready at the back. Sophie drank the wine
passively, and passively let Charles put her in the chaise. She lay
silent against him all the way back to Troon, but once there, in the
parlour, her brain cleared, and she told him everything. Charles Le
Petyt listened, always keeping his hand tenderly over hers, though when
she let him understand what for months she had been to Crandon, his
free hand gripped hard on the edge of his chair.
What am I to do? she asked when she had made an end.
Is there no way by which the guilt can be fastened where it
belongson Crandon? he asked passionately, and in her distress Sophie
sprang up and, walking to the window, hit the shut pane with her hand.
I have destroyed everything that could have taken him, she said.
Take my keyhere it issearch my press, my box, see if you can find
anything. I will come with you.
Alas! Sophie had ravished her room too well, and search fell
fruitless. The two desisted at last and stared at each other with
OhSophie! cried Mr. Le Petyt, and, breaking into tears, she
flung herself into his arms. They were clinging together, wet cheek
against wet cheek, when the town-sergeant came thundering at the door.
(Account taken from a contemporary journal)
Saturday, April 4. This morning Miss Bendigo was executed at
Launceston, in the same black petelair she was dressed in at her trial,
had on a pair of black gloves, and her hands and arms tied with black
paduasoy ribbons. On the Friday night she sent to the sheriff, who, she
was informed, was come to town to be present at her execution, and
desired that he would give her till eight o'clock the next morning, and
she would be ready as soon after as he pleased. On Friday, at about
twelve o'clock, she took the Sacrament and signed a declaration
concerning the crime for which she was to suffer; in which she denied
knowing that the powders she had administered to her father had any
poisonous quality in them; and also made therein a confession of her
faith. Her behaviour at the gallows was becoming a person in her
unhappy circumstances, and drew not only great compassion, but tears,
from most of the spectators. When she got up about seven steps of the
ladder, she turned herself upon it and had a little trembling, saying:
'I am afraid I shall fall.' After she had turned herself upon the
ladder, the Rev. Mr. Le Petyt, who attended her, asked whether she had
anything to say to the public. She said yes, and made a speech to the
following purport: 'That, as she was then going to appear before a just
God, she did not know that the powders, which were believed to be the
death of her father, would have done him any harm, therefore she was
innocently the cause of his death, but as she hoped for mercy, what she
had done had been in innocence and love.' Then she stooped towards Mr.
Le Petyt and she was seen to be remarkably eager in taking the parting
kiss from him, which she did. The hangman then desired her to pull the
white kerchief, tied over her head for that purpose, over her eyes,
which she failing to do, a person standing by stepped up the ladder and
pulled it down. Then, giving the signal by holding out a little book
she had in her hand, she was turned off. Before she went out of the
gaol she gave the sheriff's man a guinea to drink, and took two guineas
in her hands with her, which she gave to the executioner. Her body was
placed in a coffin of maplewood, lined with white satin, on the lid
only 'Sophia Bendigo, aged 18. April 4, 1752.' It is understood that
Mr. Le Petyt carried the coffin to St. Annan and buried it, by Miss
Bendigo's request, in the grave of her mother. At the execution,
notwithstanding the early hour, there was the greatest concourse of
people ever seen on such an occasion.
THE GREATEST GIFT
Edmond Bernardy was in that state of mind when everything joyous is
an insult and everything sorrowful an added stab. When the horror had
first settled on him he fought it wildly; then succeeded a numbed
condition of the nerves, when will and reason lay dormant, and he
surrendered himself to instinctand instinct had brought him to the
lonely passes, the snow-enfolded peaks, and the dream-ridden little
cities of Provence.
It was in the days before railways were thought of, when gentlemen
still did the grand tour, and did it by post-chaise. Bernardy, whose
finances were of the uncertain kind usual with even a successful poet,
and whose mood was for the leisurely, preferred, once he had attained
the coast of Provence by ship, to strike up inland on foot. In spite of
himself, his surroundings began to soothe him, justifying the instinct
which led him, and that had its root deeper than he suspected.
Bernardy's mother had been a Provençale, and it was in one of the
little mountain cities that his English father had met her, and she had
only left her birthplace a few weeks before Edmond himself was born. It
was owing to her that he possessed a deep love for little cities;
though this was the first time that he had ever come to his mother's
As a boy he, like all right-minded children, possessed a little city
of the imagination where he sat enthroned, king of the be-pennoned
turrets and circling walls. With Bernardy the idea of the little city
had become an obsession, entering even into his dreams at night,
causing him to lead, even more than most children, that curious inner
life of which waxing adolescence must so surely lose grip. His peculiar
and vivid genius, though technically the joy of his fellow writers,
never lost a quality of uncanny vision that sometimes disconcerted an
age given over to the flamboyance of Byron, and this quality was the
natural outcome of his withdrawal, as a child, into his secret life.
That life was a complicated and delicate thing, no mere floating
vagueness of dreams, but a fabric deliberately planned and reared, with
a wealth of cunning detail to persuade him of reality. He could
remember now how convinced he had been that the town his mind had made
was as real as any city he and his mother visited in their precarious
existencesometimes he could recall, for a vivid flash, actual streets
and houses of his imagination.
Hill cities share with islands the fascination that only aloofness
can give, and the thought of the huddled towns cresting the
Alpes-Maritimes had tugged at Bernardy's cord of memory, bringing back,
not only his mother's stories of her own country, but also the
recollections of his dream-city, so like these he was seeing now. They
are towns of fluted roofs and mellow walls, of shutters flung wide like
wings, of courtyards that are wells of blue shadow, and towers that
stand up, golden-white, into the sunshine. Here Bernardy would come to
a town perched, eagle-wise upon a crag, with a forest of irregular
turrets piercing the sky; there to a little city which fitted over some
rounded mountain-top like a cap, the arching outline of its roofs
following faithfully the curve of the ground with a fruit-like suavity
of contour. Everywhere, away from the cities, lay the olive-slopes,
like a great sea, charmed, at the moment of most tumultuous movement,
into stillness, the waves of it interfolding in vast hollows that never
broke; only now and again a wind tossed the pale undersides of leaves
to a semblance of spray.
These valleys, so mysterious at dawn and dusk, and in the day so
oddly toy-like with their tiny, red-roofed oil-mills and the striped
effect of the olive-terraces; these reticent, though seemingly candid,
little townships above them; these mountains that at sunsetting were
stained a burning copper filmed with amethystall seemed to Bernardy
to be under a spell, caught in a web of magic as real, though not as
visible, as the web of dappled shadow each olive-tree flung over the
ground beside it. Bernardy told himself that here he could pass a long
life happily, instead of which he had to prepare for death, for the
deliberate blotting out, for him, of all this beauty.
He had never been a gross liver or a gross thinker, yet many a
sensualist would now have been in a better case than hefor he had
always used his quality of spiritual visionin him so strong as to be
almost an added sensemerely to beat back upon and intensify material
things. An unbeliever or a man of happy-go-lucky nature could have
extracted all the savour possible out of what remained to him of life,
and left what was to come on the knees of the godsBernardy was too
ardent a devotee of life, and life, as he understood it, was a
comprehensive term. It meant the training and enjoyment of every
faculty, the critical appreciation of everything he met, the absorption
of beauty and the production of it. Also he feared the physical act of
death as an animal fears it, with a contraction of the muscles and a
chilling of the bloodfeared it so that sometimes the sweat would
break out over his face and he would bite back a cry.
Looking back on his life Bernardy could say that it had been good,
and he saw for how much more the little things had counted than the
big. A sunny day, congenial companions, good wine and tobacco, and,
above all, the joy of creationhow well worth while they were. Taken
as a whole they outweighed the fondest woman in the world, and that
though Bernardy had been a fine lover. Yet it was because of a woman
that he was to kill himself three weeks from now, and the fantastic
nature of the affair made him feel like a man in a dream. It amused him
that it should have been the one conventional period of his lifea
couple of months in an English rectory, which had hurled him into such
an extravagant situation.
The Rector, an avowed eccentric, and strongly influenced by the
Byronic wave then at the crest, decided it was his duty to brave
society and take notice of his brother's sonespecially as the said
son was a figure in the literary worlds of Paris and London. The
Rector's daughter, Lucy, was sweet and fresh and English, and not in
the least clever, and Bernardy, who had never met anyone like her
before, fell madly in love. The combination of his passion; of a rival
deeply bitten with romanticism and a sense of his own importance and of
the high-flown ideas of the period, resulted in a violent quarrel and
what was then a favoured species of duel. Bernardy and his rival,
telling themselves that they were sparing Lucy the shock of an actual
encounter, drew lots to decide which should take his own life. Bernardy
had lost, and, leaving the bewildered Lucy to her fantastic
roll-collared baronet, retired to spend his two months' grace in his
own country of France.
Behold him, entered on his last three weeks, toiling up a mountain
pass, his shirt open at the chest and his tightly strapped trousers
somewhat the worst for dusta fine figure of a man in a thin, fiery
way, with singularly child-like eyes set in a network of wrinklesthe
result of having spent his thirty odd years with a lavish though
fastidious hand. Sickened suddenly of the ordered olive slopes, he went
on and up till he had left the sleek country behind him, and entered
the region that looks like a burnt-out landscape of the moon. At last
he came to the mouth of a gorge, one side of it rising up sheer into
the sunlight, while the other seemed to hang to the earth like a dark
curtain. Looking up, Bernardy saw, perched at the rim of the sunlit
cliff, a little town. In some places its sloping flanks were built
right over the edge, as though they had been poured out, while molten,
from a giant spoon. It was so many hundred feet above him that he could
only just distinguish it was a town, and not a mere huddle of pale-hued
boulders; so high it gave the effect of being on the edge of the world.
Bernardy knew, beyond a doubt, that he must attain this town, and he
cast about to find a way. Obviously there must be a track on the other
side, as the cliff was bare of so much as a shrub, and yet no path was
to be discerned on its scarred and abrupt surface. Eventually Bernardy
made his way round a fold of gorge and up a steep, winding track to a
gently sloping stretch of country that led up to the town from behind.
Throwing himself upon the short, thorn-entangled grass, he locked
his hands behind his head and gazed under half-shut lids at the little
town which he now saw dark against the sky. He lay, idly counting the
towers of it, till his lids grew too heavy to stay open, and his
fingers fell apart, and with his head pillowed on his arm, he slept.
When he awoke the day was at its brief height, and he scrambled to
his feet with an odd feeling that was more than a mere sense of rest.
It was as though a sponge had been deftly passed over his mind, leaving
it a clean, smooth surface, ready to receive new impressions, unbiased
by anything that was past, the confiding, expectant attitude of a young
child. He had forgotten nothing, it was rather that all his old
arrangement of values had been swept aside, leaving him free to assess
things anew. And, although, for all he could remember, his sleep had
been dreamless, yet he was haunted by half-recollections which pricked
at and eluded him. As he went towards the town something in the
sweeping lines of the fortifications seemed vaguely familiar, and again
fragments of a dream, at which he snatched in vain, floated by him.
Passing under the cool shadow of the gateway he stood wondering
which way to go; then, saying to himself, I'll go past the Mayor's
house, I always liked it because of the painted walls, he turned to
the right, and walked several paces before the strangeness of his own
words struck him. What can I have meant? he asked himself, and
yetI seem to remember a house, a white house, with a painted frieze
of fruit and birds, and the Mayoress was a funny, fat old thing who
made échédets. . . .
With his heart beating fast, he turned the corner and found himself
at the house he sought. The more he looked at it the more he remembered
it, and details crowded on him. He walked down the alley at the side,
and found a stone stairway he knew quite well, a stairway that led to a
carved door. He stumbled into the street again like a man distraught.
Has the horror turned my brain? he thought. Well, what matter, if
it makes it easier to die?
The whole street struck him as familiar, but not until he turned
into the Square did knowledge flash upon him.
It's my town! he cried aloud, it's my town!
He felt no perplexity at the incredible nature of the thing, a
calming influence, too gracious to be akin to his former stupor, stole
over him; he moved as in a dream, with no responsibility, but full
enjoyment. The naked plane-trees made a silvery network against the
cold, pure blue of the winter sky; into a raised washhouse across the
Square the sun shone obliquely, and the many-hued skirts of the
stooping women made vivid blotches of colour that harmonized with the
rhythmic splash of the water as only music of sight can with music of
sound. Dark against the cream-washed wall of the church, that seemed
almost lambent in the glare of the sun, sat a row of burnt-out old men
with shrivelled throats, and on the steps of the fountain were two old
women in black, one wearing a white cap of folded wings, the other the
wide-brimmed black straw hat common to the peasantry. The lady of the
hat plunged her brown old fingers into the thin arc of water, and
Bernardy saw how the drops that clung to her hand glittered like
diamonds before she shook them off to pit the dust with pock-marks.
With that intense sympathy which had done much to make him an artist,
Bernardy tried for a moment to think himself into the mind of the
black-hatted old woman, and to imagine the Square and his own figure
from her mental and physical point of view. It was a favourite trick of
his, but one of which latterly the strain had been too much for him.
Sometimes he would succeed so well for a flash that it only made the
impalpable but stern barrier of personality more definite even while
almost seeming to overleap it. If I could only achieve the thing
properly, thought Bernardy, I suppose I should attain exchange of
identity, or at least be absorbed into that of the old lady. And
thenno more of this black horror, and the shell of me would, I
suppose, disfigure the gravel.
He lifted the heavy, leathern curtain over the church door and
entered. Within the air struck cool, though heavy with stale incense;
gradually the gleam of gilding, then separate colours and degrees of
dusk and pallor detached themselves from the darkness, and he saw he
was in the typical little church of the neighbourhooda rococo affair
decked with rows of plaster saints on painted brackets, each with its
little bunch of flowers in a china mug in front of it. Beneath all the
superfluous decoration there was a pleasing austerity and sturdiness of
line; solid pillars and a low-groined roof made a square-set,
beetle-browed little building, at once tawdry and stark. To Bernardy's
receptive mind there was something peculiarly charming about these
churches where everything spoke of religion being taken in the right
wayas a mere matter of course. A lighted wick, floating in a jam-jar
of oil, caught his eye and, moving forward, he saw it burned before a
For a few minutes he stood before it in silence, then he laughed
aloud in sheer enjoyment. All the other crèches he had seen boasted
figures of plaster or china; here, apparently, the expense had been too
great, and the characters were represented by dolls, ordinary wooden
dolls with shiny, painted, black hair and stuff clothes. The Mother
herself was dressed in stiff, spangled muslin, with a veil like a
première communiante, and a wreath of orange blossoma confusion
of ideas that had its humour. St. Joseph, in good broadcloth coat and
the tightest of trousers, held the other post of honour, and nearer the
spectators, though facing away from them to the little Christ-Child,
were ranged the shepherds, withsurely an innovationtheir wives. The
shepherds themselves supplied the crowning touch, for they wore real
knitted stockings of worsted, and shoes with stitched leather soles, a
fact admirably displayed by the kneeling position of their wearers. The
wives held little baskets full of beads, meant to represent eggs; and
woolly lambs with red-cotton tongues stood about at regular intervals.
All the dolls looked old, and as though they had seen a less gentle
service, and Bernardy wondered what child in that remote place was of
sufficient wealth to own dolls. He was charmed into mirth, and as he
thought how tenderly and kindly the real personages represented must
laugh as they looked down at the little set-piece, he tried to trace,
in some trick of light and shadow, a fleeting smile on the doll-faces.
Without warning, his horror closed on him again, and turning he went
heavily down the church.
As he neared the door the two old women of the market square came
in; still laughing and chattering, they went past him, slowly and
stiffly, with the uneven clumping of old feet. Some curious
premonitiona feeling that something was about to happenmade
Bernardy watch them.
Suddenly the old woman in the hat caught sight of the crèche, and
with the swift transition of the South, she stopped short in her
chatter and clutched her companion's arm:
Ah! she said, c'est le bon Jésus, qui donne courage!
Every note of her harsh old voice thrilled Bernardy's nerves like a
sudden clarion. It seemed to him the most luminous moment of his life.
There are brief seconds when a rent in the outer film of this world
comes against a rent in what we are pleased to call the next, though
it is really co-existent with our own. Then it is that we can catch a
glimpse of something that is at another angle, a differently tilted
spiritual plane, so to speak, from our own, and for which our minds
would, ordinarily, need a different focus. The old woman had torn a
peephole for Edmondperhaps, for all he knew, in that moment of
sympathetic concentration in the Square, their personalities had
mingled, and so made him sensitive to the premonition that gripped him
as she passed. He only knew that her phraseand being a phrase-monger
himself he had a passion for themstruck him as magnificent. He would
have thought less of it had she said it of the Christ on the Cross, but
she spoke of the Christ-Child. Or if she had spoken of peace, but her
words were qui donne courage.
C'est le bon Jésus, qui donne courage!
Bernardy stood quite still, wondering what her life had been that
courage should be the word that instinctively sprang to her lips. The
two women were still peering in at the crèche, but while White Cap was
recognizing all her acquaintances, so to speak, and hailing them by
name, the other old woman stared straight in front of her, repeating
her phrase very fast, over and over again. Suddenly she turned, and
coming down the church to where Bernardy stood, peered up into his
face. For the last time she repeated it, but with a slight difference,
her hand on his wrist:
Tu sais, mon brave, she said, tu sais, c'est l'Enfant qui donne
Bernardy went out into the sunlight feeling at once calmed and
exhilarated, yet still with that odd sense of waiting, as of something
holding its breath. All the afternoon he haunted the little wind-swept
town, and towards evening he leant upon the parapet that hung over the
sheer mountain-side. Hundreds of feet below him the valley was lapped
in darkness and he watched the shadow thrown by the opposite range
creep up towards him, the edge of it in deeply curved waves, like a
purple tide. The chill of sunset was in the air when he made his way to
the inn, and he noted that, although the sight of a stranger must be of
the utmost rarity, he excited no comment. Could it be, he wondered,
that they instinctively knew him for one of themselves, these people of
his dream-city, or were they dreams too? In how leisurely a manner they
passed along the streetsthe Faun-like youths, brown-necked and
bold-eyed; the firm-set women with their black hair so sleekly and
heavily massed about their heads that it seemed carved out of ebony,
and the quiet-eyed old people with indrawn mouths!
When he reached the inn, a grey pile of round-flanked towers that
was built on the eastern edge, his memories awoke again, and in the
courtyard they surged over himmemories of sitting enthroned in just
such a castle as this. He remembered, too, that there had always been
something he was not allowed to knowwas it a door that had been kept
locked, or a forbidden book, or some hidden person whom he had
perpetually tried to meet and never succeeded? Whatever it was, he felt
he would soon discover it.
Nothing occurred to stimulate his memory during supper. The stout
patronne chatted to him of her inn, which had been the Seigneur's
chateau till thirty years before, when the last owner died in great
poverty. Had Monsieur seen and admired the beautiful crèche in the
church? The little figures were the dolls which once belonged to
Mademoiselle de Clerissac. The patronne was not old enough to remember
it very distinctly, but she believed Mademoiselle had met with trouble,
which was why she went away. After all, it was natural, she had red
blood in her, both the old Seigneur and his father having married
peasant girls. If Monsieur was interested in such things old Marie, who
had been Mademoiselle de Clerissac's nurse, still lived in a room in
the chateau. She was fabulously old, and had to be tended like a baby
by her granddaughter, and it was true she had long wandered in her
wits, but undoubtedly she could see visions, both of the past and
future. No, Bernardy not only felt no interest in the actual history of
the place, but even shrank from knowledge. It seemed to make his
dream-city less dream-like and less his.
Once in the dim passage leading to his room, he found he had
forgotten which was his door. Carrying his lighted candle head-high, he
explored the far end of the passage, and came on a rather smaller door
than the rest, studded with nail-heads set in a peculiar pattern. It
flashed on Bernardy that it led to the room he had never been allowed
to enterhe even remembered the scar where one nail was missing.
Pushing up the latch, he opened the door and passed through, the light
of the candle he carried shining full on his face, so that he was
plainly visible to anyone in the room, while he himself was too dazzled
to see. There was a table at his left hand, and he put the candle down
on it before advancing into the room.
There was a fire of smouldering logs on the hearth, and beside it
sat an old, old woman. Her hands, with their knotted and discoloured
veins, hung over the arms of her chair, under her chin a hollow cut up
sharply. She stared at Bernardy from red-rimmed, rheumy eye-sockets,
mumbling her mouth with a sucking movement grotesquely suggestive of a
baby. Behind her, wrapped in the soft shadow, with fugitive gleams of
firelight bringing out now a cheekbone, now the curve of chin, or of
breast, stood a much younger womanshe seemed about thirty or perhaps
a little more. They gazed at Bernardy in a calm silence for several
seconds, while he stared at them. Then the younger woman stepped
forward into the light, and Bernardy saw how big and strong she was,
deep-chested and long-flanked, with a wide forehead and heavily folded
lids. Against the white of her apron her hands and wrists showed coarse
and reddened, but the big neck, where it disappeared into the kerchief,
was white as milk.
Monsieur mistakes the room, she said, in a deep voice whose
Provençal twang was blurred into softness. My grandmother is very old,
and Monsieur will excuse her not wishing him good evening.
Bernardy, confused and bewildered, hesitated a moment, and it was
the old woman who broke the silence. She seemed to be staring not so
much at Bernardy as at some mental vision of him.
Candide, he has come at last, she said, slowly and clearly, you
must give him the letters.
The woman called Candide dropped her heavy lids for a moment, while,
to Bernardy's wonder a blush mounted to the roots of her pale, smoothly
banded hair. Then she went to a cupboard, unlocked it, and took out a
packet of letters and a small, paper-covered book, which she handed to
him in silence. The old woman had closed her reddish lids, thickly
woven over with small, raised veins, and there was nothing left for
Bernardy but to take the packet and go to his own room. He found it
easily, for the door stood open now, and he sat himself by the fire and
began to read. In spite of the instinct which had led him, he still had
not guessed what he should find. The breath of dawn was stirring the
curtains before he put the papers down.
The entries in the journal were very brief, and the first bore a
date of some thirty-five years earlier:
It is now two years since I left school, said the journal,
and I think I have improved in my hand-writing, also my crewel
stitch. Papa was vexed with me to-day because the soup was too
thin. It was the second straining from the same fowl, but we
could not afford to kill another. I hear there is a stranger,
Englishman, in the town. He is voyaging for his education. I
wish that was how they educated women.
The next entry was written the following night:
Papa found there was an English Milord staying here, and has
brought him to the chateau to dinner. He says even if the de
Clerissacs have lost their wealth that is no reason why they
should lose their manners. I had a fresh fowl killed and wore
muslin. I hear skirts are getting full and mine are very
He has nice eyes and is so youngalmost as young as I am.
Several months elapsed before the next entry. Bernardy read it with
I am going awayI am going to try and find him. It is not his
fault that everything has happened; I ought to have known,
because I am the woman. He will be miserable when I find him
tell him what I have gone through, and I cannot bear to make
miserable. I would protect him from it if I could. But there
will be the baby, and I must protect that too. Papa says I am
daughter of his, but I cannot see what I have done that is
dreadful. I have done rightI am a woman now, and I know. How
could it have been better for me to grow old and thin and never
give to anyone? It is always good to give. I am leaving this
behind me in the secret shelf of my cupboard, with all the
letters I wrote himthe ones he gave me back and the ones I
never sent. . . . I shall never come here again, and I love it
like my soul. I will always pray our child will come here. He
will not be born here, but perhaps he will come here to die,
even if I cannot. The candle is guttering and I must go. Papa
says I may not bear his name any longer, and old Marie is
letting me take hers. I am no longer de Clerissac, but must
The first few letters were mere formal little notesinviting the
Milord to dine, at the instance of Monsieur de Clerissac, thanking him
for taking herself and old Marie out driving in his post-chaise,
suggesting an hour when he might care to go wild-cat shooting with old
Marie's son. Then came a letter in a more intimate key.
You should not have sent to Nice for the books (it ran), yet
I should be ungrateful not to thank you. If you care to come
see the violet-bed I was telling you of I will thank you in
person. Papa says would you like one of Minèrve's next litter,
but I say you will not be here then? Besides, in England, are
not your dogs of the chase of the best? Accept, Milord, my most
grateful thanks and remembrances.
C. DE C.
There was only a fragment of the letter next in sequence, that ran
. . . and if you really wish it, I will with pleasure embroider
collar for the pup. Papa says I am to say he is glad you are
staying on, as he never meets a gentleman here. It is amiable
you to admire my singing, though I fear it is sadly uncultured
after what you are used to, but I too love the Provençal songs.
You suggest Sunday evening to come and begin translating them
into French, that would suit us admirably. My father is, alas!
in bed with the gout, but perhaps you would be kind enough to
up and see him? It is true our garden is lovely by
moonlightyou do not see then how neglected it is, but I am
sure if I ought to show it to you then. Perhaps if . . .
The rest of the page was missing, and Bernardy picked up the next
Bien-aimé (he read), how can I write you and what can I say?
What do the women of your world say when they feel as I do? Ah!
I hope you do not know, I hope you have never made any other
woman feel what I do. Every one must adore you, but only I must
love you. There, I have said it! Edmund, I love you. But it is
not so very dreadful to say it, is it, since, you love me? I
cannot play with the truth to you, Edmund. To you I must always
A week later a frightened chord was sounded.
Edmund, she wrote, do not again kiss me as you did last
night. I feel wicked creeping out to meet you as it is, and
nightEdmund, you made me feel ashamed. It was not like
kissing, it was as though you wished to eat me. Do not think me
unkind, but I am feeling afraid, even of you. That is unkind
Another week, and the key had shifted again.
. . . it is true. I love you so that you can kiss me even like
you did that time. It terrifies me and I feel cold and weak,
it is enough that you say it is the most splendid thing you
ever known. Edmund, will you be angry if I say that I regret
days before we knew we loved? Everything was in a golden mist
like you see in the valley at sunrise, and now I keep on
I do not understand you. Why do you say you cannot tell your
father you love me? I am well-born, though it is true I have no
dot, but, indeed, I am a good manager, and you say I am
prettier than the English ladies. Oh! I am lonely and
frightened, and I want your arms round me. Now that I have said
that, you cannot reproach me with being cold. . . .
Your note has just come (ran the next letter), and I am oh!
so miserable for you. You are not to think I am unhappyI am
happy to have loved you. If thinking about me adds to your
unhappiness, I can even saydo not think about me. I can
understand you cannot marry unless your fiancée has a dot,
because of your estate. It is best that you should go, but you
may see me to say good-bye. My dear one, my poor heart, what
I do to help you?
That was all of the letters to Milordthe letters he had given
back. Next came letters that were never sent.
Chéri (ran the first of them), at last I can write out all
that is in my heart, since you will never see these pages. I
must write, or I shall go mad. . . . I don't regret, in spite
my shame and bewilderment, for I gave to you. I cannot even
wicked, but I should not care if I did. I love you all the more
now I know you are not what I thought. You are not a god or
a hero, you are a man, and so you are a childmy child, whose
head I held on my breast. You have told me to write to you if I
need your help. How can that be? All that is left to me is to
live out my life here in dreams. I imagine your presence all
day. If the door opens behind me and some one enters, I pretend
it is you till the last moment possibleuntil Papa or one of
the servants comes round my chair and speaks to me. I have been
loved, and I lovethat is a great deal to live on.
That night she went on with the same letter.
Edmund, Edmund, it is not enoughI want you. My heart is
breaking. I can only lie with my eyes shut and my face pressed
down, and something beats out. 'I want you, I want you.' My
heart broke when you wrote me your last note and I had to reply
cheerfully because of you. I am not so cowardly but that I can
still be glad you do not know my heart broke. Edmund, I want
you, I want you.
The last of the unsent letters to Milord was written several months
Why did I say hearts broke? They don't break, they go dead.
Edmund, I wonder if, wherever you are, you are thinking of me?
You are certainly not thinking that soon you will see me. I
have been trying to decide what to do for the best, and now
says I shall not stay here till what he calls my shame is born.
I will not stay where my hope and my joy is called my shame,
though I would never ask you anything for myself, I must ask if
for the child. I am coming to England, and I must start now or
shall not arrive in time. I shall leave all my letters behind
with my journal. I do not even know what I feel when I think of
seeing you again.
CANDIDE DE CLERISSAC.
There was still one paper more, an envelope that had come by courier
and was addressed to Marie Bernardy. It had been opened, but inside was
an enclosure of which the seals were still unbroken. Without any shock
of surprise Bernardy saw it was addressed to him.
My son (he read), my little son, who, when you read this,
will be a grown man, I who have not quite lost my birthright of
prevision, know that some day you will go to my town and read
this. Will you be in trouble, my little son? Something tells me
you will be near the end, and so I write this to help you. You
are lying on my lap now, and I think we shall have many years
wander in together, and you will grow away from me, but when
read this you will find me again, and something more as well.
son, I got no further than Paris, bearing you beneath my heart.
There I heard from his priest-brother that he had been killed
hunting, and there you were born. So you are mine, you belong
no one but me. Listen, my son. Life is good, but a clean death
is good too. Never be afraid of one or the other. And when you
read this in the home that was mine, put fear away and be a
Find the one with whom you can face whatever comes without
flinching, and when you have found her, never let her go till
your arms must loose for good. My son, I was wrong to say that
hearts went dead, they are merely numbed for a time if only we
are never weak enough to regret. Always remember that it is the
good woman who gives and the good man who creates, and take
is left to you of life and make with it. I am not merely
imagining you as you read; I am actually with you, I have fused
the present and the future into one, and I can see the
dawn-light barring the floor through the slats of the shutters,
and you are sitting by an empty hearth. Go out, my child, into
the dawn. Edmond, my son, however long it is before you join
I am to all eternity
Bernardy staggered to his feet and went to the window, and the
steel-cold bars of light from the slats ran up over him as he
approached. Flinging the shutters wide, he leant out, and drew deep
breaths of the chill, sweet air. The yews and overgrown hedges of the
garden were still velvety with shadow, but beyond the ramparts the
delicate pallor of dawn was already tinged with a faint fire. So had
his mother, half-timid child, half peasant, and entirely woman, often
watched with him beneath her heart. Yet as Bernardy saw the rose light
strengthen, his thoughts left his mother for that other Candide who had
reddened so unaccountably the night beforethat Candide who must be
called after his mother. He was still thinking of her as he went
downstairs and through the open door that led into the garden.
He crossed to the furthest rampart of it, that hung over the cliff
edge, and sat down to watch the dawn. Away to a line of silver that
told of the sea the country looked as though dappled in grey and gold,
for the valleys were pools of shadow veined by the brightening ranges
of the mountains. There was a transparency about the morning, a clarity
of young green in leaf and grass, a glimmer of fragile dew globes and
gossamer webs on the brambles, that all made for an agreeing lightness
of that bubble the soul, and Bernardy was soothed to the core of him.
Cupping his chin in his hands, he sat there, drenched in the ineffable
light that seemed to make of the air some divine element, enveloping
every edge in brightness, refracting from each leaf and vibrating with
a diamond quality on the mists in the valley below. The pattern of
events was beginning to clear for him as the world was cleared by the
sunriseit only needed some master event to be complete. He thought of
the sleep into which he had fallen outside the town, and which had
wiped his mind clear of resentment, and freed it for new impressions:
he remembered the shock when he had first recognized the walls, his
growing excitement as thing after thing was familiar to him, the
blinding flash of the moment when he realized he had found his
dream-city. On the crest of receptiveness he had entered the church,
and the phrase of the old peasant woman had caught at his imagination.
Looking back, he saw how it was the extraordinary serenity of the
townsfolk that seemed their dominant characteristicthey were wrapped
in it as in an atmosphere, they were clear-eyed, clear-skinned,
clear-souled. From the moment when he recognized the nail-studded door
till he put down the last of his mother's letters, his comprehensions
had flowed outward in widening circles. In his new knowledge of his
father and mother he saw himself more clearly than ever before. He
remembered his mother, a silent, quiet-eyed woman, nearly always bent
over her needleworkand he saw her as the eager, ignorant girl, full
of romantic dreams; saw her change into the half-timid, half-reckless
lover; followed her through her lonely grief to the attainment of
quiet. She, too, could say it had been goodand with how far more
reason than he! He saw his fatherweak, hot-headed, swayed by passion
and selfishness and regrethis father who had preferred conventional
safety to this hill-hung garden in Provence, where he could have dreamt
the greatest dream of all. He saw himself as he was, and there followed
a twin-vision of how he would be lying cold and pulseless in a few
weeks' time, and of how he might have lived in this city of dreams had
he found it with his life still his own. He would indeed have dreamt
the greatest dream of allthe dream that was life at its fullest. It
is the good woman who gives and the good man who creates. Take what is
left to you of life and make with it . . . so wrote his mother, and
like an answer flashed the words of the peasant woman in the church,
C'est l'enfant qui donne courage!
The greatest dream of all!
He looked up and saw Candide, large and serene, coming towards him
down the path, her skirts swinging from her broad hips. He stood up,
and for a moment they faced each other in silence.
She was just thirty and in some ways looked more, because of the
solidity of her well-poised figure; and her clear eyes, rimmed with
black round each iris, were not the ignorant eyes of a child, they were
the eyes of a woman who faces knowledge naturally and patiently.
Big-boned, and, but for the whiteness of her skin, with a something
rockhewn about her face, her only beauty was that of health and a
certain assurance which spoke of perfect poise. She was what Bernardy,
in that moment's clarity of vision, knew her fora woman born to be
mother of men. He took a step towards her with the gesture of a
frightened child, and with her big hands over his she drew him to the
stone bench and sat beside him. He told her everything, simply and
quickly, because he hated explanations, and was impatient that they
were necessary to her. When he had made an end she said:
Do you know why I blushed last night when my grandmother recognized
No, replied Bernardy, startled out of himself yet pricked to
Because my grandmother has always made me wait for you. . . .
Candide! Candide! cried Bernardy, the child merged in the waxing
possessiveness of the man, shall we dream my last few weeks together,
you and I?
You do not love me, that is so, is it not? she asked.
I am not in love with you, no. That is all spent. If you were any
other woman I would lie to you. But it seems to me it matters very
little whether I am or not. It is not that I feel I cannot love, but as
though I had got through it and out the other side. . . .
No, it does not matter, said Candide. What matters is that I can
give to you and you to me. We will make life, you and I.
Yes, agreed Bernardy, we will make life, and as his arms went
round her and his lips found hers everything that had puzzled him fell
naturally into its place. He had always created in his verse, but it
was for this his mother had borne him, it was this that the old woman
in the church had meant, it was for this that the woman at his side had
waited. It mattered very little that he himself would not live to see
the life he made, the chief thing was to create, and he saw life as the
greatest gift man could make to God.
When Vashti Bath was led out by the two most eligible young men in
the village, the other women spoke their minds pretty freely on the
subject; and when she progressed to that further stage known as
arm-a-crook, and still refrained from making the fateful choice,
comment waxed bitter. The privilege of proposal belongs in Cornwall to
that sex commonly called the weakera girl goes through the various
stages of courtship conducted out of doors, and if she decides to marry
the young man, asks him to step in one evening when he has seen her
home, after which the engagement is announced. Vashti, in the most
brazen way, was sampling two suitors at a time, and those two the most
coveted men in Perran-an-zenna, and therein lay the sting for the
What is there to her, I should like to knaw? the lay-reader's wife
demanded of her friends at a somewhat informal prayer meeting. She'm
an ontidy kind o' maid who don't knaw one end of needle from t'other.
When her stockin' heels go into holes she just pulls them further under
her foot, till sometimes she do have to garter half way down her leg!
She'm ontidy sure 'nough, agreed a widow woman of years and
experience, but she'm a rare piece o' red and white, and menfolk are
feeble vessels. If a maid's a fine armful they never think on whether
she won't be a fine handful. And Vashti do have a way wi' her.
That was the whole secretVashti had a way with her. She was a
splendid slatternshowing the ancient Celtic strain in her coarse,
abundant black hair, level brows, and narrow, green-blue eyes, with a
trace of Jew in the hawk-like line of nose and the prominent chin
curved a little upwards from her throat. A few years, and she would be
lean and haggard, but now she was a fine, buoyant creature, swift and
tumultuous, with a mouth like a flower. For all the slovenliness of her
clothes she had a trick of putting them on which an Englishwoman never
has as a birthright, and rarely achieves. Vashti could tie a ribbon so
that every man she passed turned to look after her.
Perran-an-zenna is a mining village, and some of the menfolk work in
the tin mines close at hand, and some in the big silver mine four miles
away. James Glasson, the elder and harsher-featured of Vashti's lovers,
worked in the latter, and there was every prospect of his becoming a
captain, as he had a passion for mechanics and for chemistry, and was
supposed to be experimenting with a new process that would cheapen the
cost of extracting the silver. Willie Strick, the younger, handsomer,
more happy-go-lucky of the two men, went to bal in the tin mines, and
was disinclined to save, but then his aged grandmother, with whom he
lived, had been busy saving for twenty years. Strick was an eager
lover, quick to jealousyGlasson was uncommunicative even to Vashti,
and careless of her opinions. Though the jealousy irked her it
flattered her too, but on the other hand, Glasson's carelessness, even
while it piqued her, made her covet him all the more.
This was how matters stood one evening in late March when Vashti had
gone up to the moors to fetch in the cowsnot her own, no Bath had
been thrifty enough for that, but belonging to the farm where she
worked. As she walked along in the glowing light, the white road
winking up at her through a hole in her swinging skirt, and a heavy
coil of hair jerking a little lower on the nape of her neck with each
vigorous stride, Vashti faced the fact that matters could continue as
they were no longer. At bottom Vashti was as hard as granite, she meant
to have what she wanted; her only trouble was she had not quite settled
what it was she did want. Like all her race, she had a strain of
fatalism in her, that prompted her to choose whichever of the two men
she should next chance to meetand the woman in her suggested that at
least such a declaration on the part of fate would give her the
necessary impetus towards deciding upon the other.
Lifting her eyes from the regular, pendulum-like swing of her skirt
that had almost mesmerized her lulled vision, she saw, dark against the
sunset, the figure of a man. She knew it to be either James or Willie
because of the peculiar square set of the shoulders and the small
headfor the two men were, like most people in that intermarrying
district, cousins, with a superficial trick of likeness, and an almost
exact similarity of voice. A prescience of impending fate weighed on
Vashti; the gaunt shaft of the disused Wheal Zenna mine, that stood up
between her and the approaching man, seemed like a menacing finger. The
man reached it first and stood leaning up against it, one foot on the
rubble of granite that was scattered around, his arm, with the miner's
bag slung over it, resting across his raised knee. Vashti half thought
of going back, even without the cows, but it was already time the poor
beasts were milked, and curiosity lured her on. She went across the
circle of greener grass surrounding the shaft, and found Glasson
To every woman comes a time in life when she is ripe for the
decisive man; and it is often a barren hour when he fails to appear.
For Vashti the hour and the man had come together, and she knew it as
she met Glasson's look. Putting out his hands, ingrained with earth in
the finest seams of them, he laid them heavily on her shoulders, like a
yoke. His bag swung forward and hit her on the chest, but neither of
them noticed it.
Vashti, you'm got to make'n end, he said. One way or t'other.
Which es et to be?
She shook under his gaze, her lids drooped, but she tried to pout
out her full underlip with a pretence of petulance. Suddenly his grip
So 'ee won't tell me? Then by God, I'll do the tellin'! You'm my
woman, do'ee hear? Mine, and neither Will Strick nor any other chap
shall come between us two.
Wheeling her round, he held her against the rough side of the shaft
and bent his face to hers; she felt his lips crush on her own till she
could have cried out with pain if she had been able to draw breath.
When he let her go her breast heaved, and she stood with lowered head
holding her hand across her mouth.
Now we'll get the cows, my lass, said Glasson quietly, and take'n
home, and then you shall ask me to step in.
* * * * *
During the short, fierce courtship that followed Vashti saw very
little of Willie Strick, though she heard he talked much of emigrating,
vowing he would disappear in the night and not come home until he had
made a fortune. All of Vashti's nature was in abeyance save for one
emotiona stunned, yet pleasurable, submission. It was not until
several months after her marriage that she began to feel again the more
ordinary and yet more complex sensations of everyday life. If she had
to the full a primitive woman's joy in being possessed, she had also
the instinctive need for possessing her man utterly, and James Glasson
was only partly hers. It was borne in on her that by far the larger
side of him was his own, never to be given to any woman. Ambition and
an uncanny secretiveness made up the real man; he had set himself to
winning his wife chiefly because the want of her distracted him from
his work and fretted him.
He bent the whole of life to his purposes, without any parade of
power, but with a laborious care that gradually settled on Vashti like
a blight. When she realized that no matter how rightly she wore her
little bits of finery, he no longer noticed them, realized that she was
merely a necessity to him as his womansomething to be there when she
was wanted, she began to harden. He still had a fascination for her
when he chose to exert ithis very carelessness and sureness of her
were what made the fascination, but gradually it wore thinner and
slacker, and a sullen resentment began to burn through her seeming
The Glasson's cottage was tucked away in a hollow of the moor, only
the chimney of it visible from Perran-an-zenna, and Vashti began to
chafe under the isolation, and to regret she had never been at more
pains to make friends among her own sex.
As summer drew to its full, Vashti watched the splendid pageant of
it in the sky and moor with unappreciative eyes. If anyone had told her
that her soul had been formed by the country of her birth and
upbringing, she would have thought it sheer lunacy, but her parents
were not more responsible for Vashti than the land itself. The hardness
and bleakness, the inexpressible charm of it, the soft, indolent airs,
scented with flowers, or pungent with salt; above all, that reticence
that makes for lonely thoughts, these things had, generation by
generation, moulded her forbears, and their influence was in her blood.
Even the indifference with which she saw arose from her oneness with
her own country, and in this she was like all true Cornish folk before
and sincethey belong to Cornwall body and soul. The quality of
reticence had become secretiveness in James Glassonhe took a childish
pleasure in keeping any little happening from the world in general and
Vashti in particular, and the consequence was that, in her, strength
was hardening into relentlessness.
One market day she was returning from Penzancea drive of some
eight miles, accomplished in the cart of their nearest neighbourwith
a paper parcel on her knee, which she kept on fingering under the rug
as though to make sure it was still there. At the neighbour's farm she
got out, thanked him, and started to walk the remaining mile over the
moor, with the precious parcel laid carefully on the top of the basket
of household goods. It had been one of those days when the air seems to
have a misty quality that makes it almost visiblea delicate
effulgence that envelops every object far and near, blurring harsh
outlines and giving an effect as though trees and plants stood up into
an element too subtle for water and too insistent for ether. The cloud
shadows gave a plum-like bloom to the miles of interfolding hills, and
inset among the grey-green of the moor the patches of young bracken
showed vivid as slabs of emerald. Lightly as balls of thistledown the
larks hopped swiftly over the heather on their thin legs, the self-heal
and bird's-foot trefoil made a carpet of purple and yellow; from the
heavy-scented gorse came the staccato notes of the crickets, while in a
distant copse a cuckoo called faintly on her changed, June note. As
Vashti rounded the corner of the rutted track and the cottage came into
view, she paused. The deeply sloping slate roof was iridescent as a
pigeon's breast, and the whitewashed walls were burnished with gold by
the late sunlight, while against the faded peacock blue of the fence
the evening primroses seemed luminous. Even to Vashti it all looked
different, transmuted. Her fingers pressed the shiny paper of the
parcel till it crackled and a smile tugged at her lips. After all, it
was not bad to be young and handsome on an evening in June, to be
returning to a home of her own, with, under her arm, a parcel that, to
her, was an event. Vashti had bought that thing dear to the heart of
the country-woman, a length of rich black dress silk; she meant to make
it up herself, and though her stitches were clumsy, she knew she could
cut and drape a gown better than many a conscientious sempstress. And
thenthen she would take her place as wife to the most discussed man
in all that part of Penwith and hold up her head at Meeting. Even James
himself could not but treat her differently when she had black silk on
She went through to the outhouse, which James used as a workshop,
and tried the door. It was locked. James! she cried, rattling the
She heard him swear softly, then came the sound of something hastily
put down and a cupboard door being shut. Then Glasson opened the door a
few inches, and stood looking down at her.
Get into kitchen, he said briefly, can't 'ee see I'm busy?
Already Vashti's pleasure in her purchase was beginning to fade, but
she stood her ground, though wrathfully.
You needn' think you'm the only person with secrets, she flashed:
I'd a fine thing to show 'ee here, if you'd a mind to see itnow I
shall keep'n to myself.
Woman's gear! gibed Glasson, you'm been buying foolishness over
to market. Get the supper or I shan't have time for a bite before I go
to see t' captain.
That's all you think on, she retorted; you and your own
That's all you should think on, either, he said, pulling her
towards him with a hand on the back of her neck, and kissing her on her
unresponsive mouth. She stood sullenly; then, when he dropped his hand,
went into the house. She heard him turn the key in the lock as she
went. That night she cried hot tears of anger on to the new dress
length, and next day she went across the moor and met Willie Strick on
his way home to Perran-an-zenna.
That was the first of many meetings, for Willie's resentment faded
away before the old charm of Vashti's presence. In spite of his
handsome face, he was oddly like James. The backs of their heads were
similar enough to give Vashti a little shock whenever she passed behind
her husband as he sat at table, or each time that Willie lay beside her
on the moor, his head on her lap. She would pull the curly rings of his
hair out over her fingers, and even while she admired the glint of it,
some little memory of a time when James' hair had glinted in the sun or
candlelight, pricked at hernot with any feeling for him except
resentment, but at first it rather spoiled her lover for her. They had
to meet by stealth, but that was easy enough, as James was now on an
afternoon core, and Willie on a morning one. To do the latter justice,
he had tried, at the beginning, a feeble resistance to the allure that
Vashti had for him, not from any scruple of conscience, but because his
pleasure-loving nature shrank from anything that might lead to
unpleasantness. And, careless as he seemed of his wife, James Glasson
would be an ugly man to deal with if he discovered the truth. So far
there had been nothing except the love-making of a limited though
expressive vocabulary, and Vashti curbed him and herself for three
whole weeks. She was set on possessing Willie's very soulhere, at
least, was a man whom she could so work upon that he would always be
hers even to the most reluctant outpost of his being. By the end of
those weeks, her elusiveness, the hint of passion in her, and the
steady force of her will, had enslaved Strick hopelessly: he was
maddened, reckless, and timid all at once.
Vashti, it's got to end, he said desperately, as he walked with
her one evening as near to the cottage as he dared, and as he spoke he
slid an arm round her waist. To his surprise, she yielded and swayed
towards him so that her shoulder touched his; in the sunset light her
upturned face glimmered warm and bewilderingly full of colour.
Wait a bit, lad, she breathed. James goes up to London church
town to-morrow to see one of the managershappen he'll be gone a week
or more. . . .
He felt her soft mouth on his cheek for a moment and his arms went
round herthe next moment came a crash that seemed to split the sky,
and from the outhouse leapt a whistling column of flame.
Stricken with a superstitious terror, Willie screamedloudly and
thinly, like a woman. Vashti recoiled, flung up her hands, then rushed
towards the burning outhouse.
James is in there! she cried. Oh, get'en out, get'en out!
The flame had been caused by an explosion, but there was not much
inflammatory stuff for it to feed on, and a thick smoke, reeking of
chemicals, hung above the outhouse. As Vashti, followed by the shaking
Strick, reached the door, it swung open and a Thing stood swaying a
moment on the step.
It seemed to the lovers' first horrified glimpse that all of
Glasson's face had been blown away. The whole of one side of it was
covered by an enormous blister, a nightmare thing, which, as the woman
gazed at it, burst and fell into blackness. The same moment Glasson
dropped his length across the threshold.
The doctor, go for doctor, whispered Vashti with dry lips, as
quick as you canII dursn't turn 'en over.
So Glasson lay with what had been his face against a patch of grass,
while Willie ran, horror-ridden, to Perran-an-zenna for the doctor.
Dry-eyed, Vashti watched by her husband for three nights, and all
praised her wifely devotion. She sat by the gleam of a flickering
nightlight, her eyes on the bandaged facethe linen was only slit just
as much as was necessary for breathing.
Well, Mrs. Glasson, said the doctor cheerily, as he finished his
inspection on the third night, I can give you good news. Your husband
will live, and will keep the sight of one eye. Butthough of course
wonders can be done with modern surgerywe can't build up what's gone.
He'll always have to wear a mask, Mrs. Glasson.
When he had gone Vashti went and stood by the bed, looking down on
the unconscious man, who lay breathing heavilyhow easy it would be to
lay a hand over that slit in the linena few minutes, and this
nightmare would be over. She half put out her hand, then drew it back.
She was not yet capable of cold-blooded crime.
Lighting a candle, she took from a drawer a paper parcel, which she
unfolded on the little table. As the still untouched folds of the black
dress length, with a few little hard-edged blots on it that meant
tears, came into view, Vashti's self-control broke down. She wept
stormily, her head along her arms. Release had flaunted so near to her,
and was withdrawn, and her horror of the Thing on the bed was mingled
with a pity for it that ate into her mind. She dried her burning eyes,
and picking up the scissors, began to cut a mask out of the
tear-stained breadths; her invincible habit of considering herself
forbade her, even at that moment, to use the good yards for such a
The candle-flame was showing wan in the grey of the dawning when
Vashti put the last stitches to the maskshe had made it very deep, so
that it would hang to just below the jawbone, and she had laboriously
buttonhole-stitched round the one eye-hole, and sewn tape-strings
firmly to the sides, top and bottom. The mask was finished.
James Glasson's figure, a trifle stooped and groping, with that
sinister black curtain from cap to collar, soon ceased to be an object
of fearful curiosity in Perran-an-zenna; even the children became so
used to it that they left off calling out as he passed. He grew more
silent and morose than ever, and his secretiveness showed itself in all
sorts of ingenious petty ways.
Vashti had the imaginative streak of her race, and life in the
lonely cottage with this masked personality took on the quality of
nightmare. She felt his one eye watching her continually, and was
tormented by the thought, How much does he know? Who could tell? Had
he seen anything from the outhouse window when she had rashly let
Willie come so near, or did he know who it was who had fetched the
doctor? Sometimes a meaning word seemed to show that he knew
everything, sometimes she argued that he could only guess. The black
mask filled the whole of her life, the thought of it was never out of
her mind, not even when she was working on her old farm, for she had to
be breadwinner now. She found herself dwelling on what lay behind the
mask, wondering whether it could be as bad as that black expanse, and
once she woke herself at night, screaming: Tear 'en down, Willie! Tear
the black mask down! and then lay trembling, wondering whether her
husband had heard. For days he said nothing and she felt herself safe;
then one night he turned to her. There's no air, he complained.
Can't 'ee take down t' curtains? If 'ee can't do anything else,
whytear 'en down, tear 'en down!
He had mimicked her very voice, and silent with fear, she took down
the curtain, her fingers shaking so that the rings jingled together
along the rod. One day, when he was working in the garden, he turned to
face the wind. She saw him sideways against the sky, and the black
mask, held taut at brow and chin by the strings, was being blown
inward. She never forgot the horror of that concave line against the
She came to regard the mask with superstitious awe; it seemed James
Glasson's character materializedthe outward expression of the inner
man. Nervous and cowed to abjectness as she was, she felt near the end
of her endurance. The perpetual scheming to meet Willie unknown to her
husbanda difficulty now the latter was nearly always about the
house-place, and the wearing uncertainty of How much does he know?
were fraying her nerves. Some two months after the accident the crash
James had gone to Truro to see a surgeon there, and had announced
his intention of spending the night with cousins. The utter bliss of
being alone, and having the cottage free from the masked presence for
even one day acted like a balm on Vashti. She forbade Willie to come
near her till the evening, partly from motives of prudence, but chiefly
because she craved for solitude. By the afternoon she was more her old,
sufficient, well-poised self, and when evening drew on she busied
herself about her little preparations in the kitchen with a colour
burning in her cheeks and a softened light in her eyes. That evening
Vashti Glasson was touched with a grace of womanliness she had never
worn for her husband. Every harmless and tender instinct of the lover
was at work in her, making her choose her nicest tablecloth, arrange a
cluster of chrysanthemums in an ornate glass vase, put a long-discarded
ribbon of gaudy pink in her hair. Then she took off her working frock
of dirty, ill-mended serge, and shook out in triumph the folds of the
black silk, now made up in all its glory, and hideous with cheap jet.
It converted her from a goddess of the plough to a red-wristed, clumsy
girl of the people; and when her hair was dressed in the fashionable
lumps, with a fringe-net hardening the outlines, she looked like a
shop-girl, but she herself admired the effect intensely.
When three taps at the window told that Strick was outside, the
colour flew to her face, making her so beautiful that she triumphed
even over her costume; she had become a high priestess of Love, and was
not to be cheated of any of the ritual. She was decked out as for a
bridal; no more rough-and-ready wooing and winning for her. But
Strick's passion was somewhat daunted by all the preparations for his
welcome; the kitchen looked unusual, and so did she, and he hung back
for a moment on the threshold.
What's come to 'ee? he asked, foolishly agape.
'Tes a weddin' gown made for you, said Vashti simply.
But 'tes black! he stammered. 'Tes ill luck on a black bridal,
Ours is no white bridal, lad, she told him. Come in and set
downyes, take that chair, and she pushed Glasson's accustomed seat
forward for her lover.
Conversation languished during the mealWillie Strick was
bewildered by the oddness of everything, Vashti included; his was no
level head to plan any details or set a sceneVashti won by stealth,
anywhere and anyhow, was all he had thought of or wished for. Hers was
the master-mind and he was helpless before it, and while she inflamed
him she frightened him too.
A full moon swam up over the line of distant sea that showed in a
dip of the moorland, and the lamp began to smell and burn low. They had
finished supper, and Willie was drinking rather freely of the whisky
she had set before him. Vashti turned out the lamp, and as she did so a
sudden harsh noise sent the heart to her throat, while Willie sprang up
fearfully. It was only the poker, that, caught by the full skirt of the
black silk frock, had been sent clattering to the ground, but it made
them stare at each other in a stricken panic for a speechless minute.
The white light of the moon shone clearly into the room, throwing a
black pattern of window-shadow over the disordered supper table, where
the chrysanthemums, overturned by Willie's movement, lay across an
empty dish, and in the silence the two startled people could hear the
rhythmic sound of the water as it drip-drip-dripped on to the floor.
Vashti was the first to recover herself. Us be plum foolish,
Willie! she said, with an attempt at a laugh. Do believe us both
thought it was James, and him safe to Truro.
If 'tes, said Strick madly, he shan't take 'ee from me now. I'll
have 'ee, I swear it.
Vashti did not answerwith fascinated eyes she was watching the
door slowly openshe could see the strip of moonlit brightness, barred
by the darkness of an arm, grow wider and wider. She knew, before the
formso terribly like Willie's, now its masked face was against the
lightappeared, that it was her husband.
Quite what happened next she could not have told. The little room
seemed full and dark with fearblind, unreasoning fear, that beat even
about her head. The long-drawn-out crash of the overturned table added
to her confusionthen quite suddenly the sounds of struggling ceased
and one man rose to his feet. In the dimness of the room, seeing only
the shape of him, she could not tell whether it were James or Willie,
until he turned his face to the moonlight, and she saw, with a throb of
relief, Strick's face.
Get a light, Vassie, he whispered. I fear he's dead.
She lit a candle and they knelt down by Glasson. In falling his head
had hit the fender, and blood was trickling on to the floor. She ripped
open his shirt and felt for his heart as well as her trembling fingers
would allow. She lifted his arm and let it fallit dropped a dead
weight on to the tiled floor. It seemed to her excited fancy that
already he was turning cold.
Willie, you've killed 'en! she whispered. They both spoke low, as
though they thought the dead man could overhear.
I didn't hit 'en, babbled Willie. He stumbled and fell and hit
his headthey'll make me swing for thiswhat shall us do, what shall
WaitI must think, commended the woman. She pressed her hands to
her forehead, and sat very still.
Have 'ee thought? whispered Willie anxiously.
YesI've thought. Willie, you'm rare and likeheand that'll
What do 'ee mean? asked Willie, thinking the shock had turned her
The mask! replied Vashti, the mask!
Then, kneeling by the still body, they talked in whispersshe
unfolding her planhe recoiling from it, weakly protesting, and then
They were to take the dead man between them to the disused mine
shaft and throw him down, then Willie was to wear the black mask, and
take Glasson's place, until they could sail for America together. Like
all simple plans, it had a touch of genius. Willie's constant talk of
emigrating, his oft-heard boasts of slipping away in the night and not
coming back till he had made a fortune, would all help to cover up his
disappearance. And who was to connect it with Vashti and her silent,
eccentric, black-masked husbandwho would speak to him or her on the
subject? And if they didshe could always invent a plausible answer,
while he was safeguarded by the fact that the strongest point of
likeness between the two men was their voices. The most dissimilar
thing about them had been their faces.
I won't wear his mask, said Willie shuddering; I couldn't put 'en
against me. You must make me another.
I'll make 'en now, said Vashti. She rose to her feet, and setting
the candle on the seat of a chair, looked about her.
You must put the room to rights, she commanded. Make 'en look as
though James and I had just had our bit o' supper. Mop up the water and
sweep all the broken cloam togetherandand take him to the
You'm not going to lave me alone wi' he? cried Willie aghast.
Edn room for me to work here. I'l be up overstairs making the mask.
Keep t' curtain over the window.
Upstairs, she seized scissors and hacked a square out of the front
of her gown. Then she sat and sewed as she had sewed once before, when
her husband had lain motionless on the bed. Every now and then came
small sounds of things being moved from down below, then a heavy fall
and the sound of something being dragged.
How's et goin', Willie? she called out.
'Tes all right, he called back. I've put 'en in passage.
The moon was near setting when the mask was finished, and she went
to the top of the stairs with it in her hand.
There 'tes, she whispered. I'll drop it down. Put it in your
pocket and I'll change my gown. 'Tes time we were stirrin'.
The mask fluttered down in the darkness, and she went back to her
room and changed swiftly into the old serge.
It was a ghastly journey to the old mine shaft, the heavy form of
the dead man sagging between them. They dared have no light, and went
stumbling over tussocks and ruts; but as both would have known the way
blindfold, they found the shaft without difficulty. They scrambled up
the sloping rubble of stones and tipped the body over the jagged hole
in the side of the shaft, and after what seemed an interminable silence
there came a thud from several hundred feet below them, then another,
as though the body had rebounded, then all was stillness.
Vashti leant up against the side of the shaft, as she had leant when
James kissed her there, and shut her eyes; the sweat running down her
brow had matted her lashes together into thick points, and the drops
tickled her neck so that she put up her hand to it. Both she and the
man were drawing the deep, hoarse breaths of exhaustion, and for a few
minutes they rested in silencethen he spoke. You must be comin' back
along o' me now, he told her, the dawn'll be showin' soon.
Yes, yes, cried Vashti, starting up, us may meet some one going
to bal, sure 'nough.
'Tes all rightI've got t'mask on. Come.
He closed his fingers over her arm so harshly that she winced, and
together they made their way back in the cold, bleak hush that preceded
the autumnal dawn. Gradually, as they went, some glimmerings of what
her life would be henceforth appeared to the woman. The fear of
neighbours, the efforts to appear neutral, the memory of that slowly
opening door, and the still thing by the fender, the consciousness of
what lay at the bottom of the disused shaft; and, above all, the
terrible reminder of her husband in the masked Willieit would be like
living with a ghost. . . .
Once back at the cottage, he drew her within and let the door swing
to behind them. She moved away to find a light, but he caught her.
Won't 'ee give me so much as a kiss, and me with red hands because
of you? he asked.
She felt the mask brush her cheek, and broke away with a cry. She
heard him laugh as she lit a candle, and turned towards him.
A black bridal! he cried wildly; did you think 'twas a black
bridal? 'Tes a red one, do 'ee hear?
Willie, she begged him, take off t'mask now we'm alone.
Aren't 'ee afeared? he asked.
'Tes safe enough till mornin', and I do hate that mask more'n the
devil. Take 'en off.
I'll take 'en offto please you, lass.
He seized the mask violently by the hem and ripped it awayand she
saw it was her husband.
You fool! he said slowly, following her as she backed away from
him, her mouth slack with fear, her eyes staring, her whole being
showing her as almost bereft of her senses. You fool to think to fool
me! You was quick enough to say I was dead; I'm not so easy killed,
Vassie. No so easy killed as your lover wasjust the carven'-knife
between his shoulders when he was stoopin' down, that's all. He was
fearful of lookin' at the dead man; he never knew the dead man was
lookin' at he. You heard him fall, Vassie, and thought it was him
Put t'mask on, wailed Vashti, pressing her fingers against her
eyes; put t'mask on again, for the love o' God!
There's been enough o' masks, he retorted grimly. You've got to
bear to see me now; me, not your lover that you've helped to tip over
Wheal Zenna shaft. Eh, you fool, did 'ee think I didn' knaw? I've
knawed all these months; I've seen 'ee meet 'en; I told 'ee I was going
to stop the night over to Truro so as to catch 'ee together; I listened
outside the house; I let 'ee think I was dead, and heard t' the plan
you thought to make. Only half a man am I, wi' no mouth left to kiss
with? I've an eye left to see with, and an ear to hear with, and a hand
to strike with, and a tongue to teach 'ee with.
I'll tell on 'ee, said Vashti, I'll tell the police on 'ee.
Murderer, that's what you are.
I doan't think 'ee will, my dear. 'Tedn a tale as'll do you any
gooda woman who cheats her husband, and tries to kill 'en, and helps
to carry a body two miles over moor and tip 'en down shaft. And what
have 'ee to complain on, I should like to knaw? When I wear t'mask you
can pretend I'm Williehandsome Willie. Willie who can kiss a maid and
make a fine upstandin' husband. Willie was goin' to be me, why shudn'
you think I was Willie? Do 'ee, my dear, if 'tes any comfort to 'ee.
He slipped on the mask as he spoke and knotted the strings. The door
had swung open, and the candle flame shook in the draught as though
trying, in fear, to strain away from the wick. The steel-cold light of
dawn grew in the sky and filtered into the room, showing all the sordid
litter of it; the frightened woman, with a pink ribbon awry in her
disordered hair, and the ominous figure of the masked man. He came
towards her round the table.
'Tes our bridal night, lass! he said. Why do 'ee shrink away?
Mind you that 'tes Willie speakin'! Don't let us think on James Glasson
dead to the bottom 'o the shaft. I'm Williebrave Willie who loves
'ee. . . .
As his arms came out to catch her, she saw his purpose in his eye,
and remembered his words, A red bridal, lass, a red bridal!
At the last moment she woke out of her stupor, turned, and ran, he
after her. Across the little garden, down the moorland road, over
heather and slippery boulders and clinging bracken, startling the larks
from their nests, scattering the globes of dew. Once she tried to make
for a side-track that led to Perran-an-zenna, but he headed her off,
and once again she was running, heavily now, towards Wheal Zenna
mineshaft. He was gaining on her, and her breath was nearly spent. Both
were going slowly, hardly above a stumbling walk, as the shaft came in
sight; the drawing of their breath sounded harsh as the rasping of a
file through the still air. As she neared the shaft she turned her head
and saw him almost on her, and saw the gleam of something in his
uplifted hand. She gathered together all her will, concentrated in
those few moments all the strength of her nature, determined to cheat
him at the last. Up the rubble of stones she scrambled, one gave
beneath her foot and sent her down, and abandoning the effort, she lay
prone, awaiting the end.
But Vashti's luck heldit was the man who was to lose. A couple of
miners who had been coming up the path from Perran-an-zenna had seen
the chase and followed hot foot, unnoticed by the two straining,
frantic creatures, who heard nothing but the roaring in their own ears.
They caught Glasson as he ran across the patch of grass to the shaft,
and he doubled up without a struggle in their arms. Physical and mental
powers had failed together, and from that day James Glasson was a
hopeless idiotharmless and silent. Vashti had won indeed.
Admirable woman of affairs that she was, she took a good sleep
before confronting the situation; then she made up her story and stuck
to it. Willie's name was never mentioned, and his disappearance, so
long threatened, passed as a minor event, swamped in the greater stir
of Glasson's attempt to murder his wife. His madness had taken the one
form that made Vashti safehe had gone mad on secretiveness. How much
he remembered not even she knew, but not a word could anyone drag from
him. He would lay his finger where his nose should have been against
the mask, and wag his head slyly. Naw, naw, I was never one for
tellin', he would say. James Glasson's no such fool that he can't
keep 'enself to 'enself.
He lived on for several years in the asylum, and Vashti, after the
free and easy fashion of the remote West, took to herself another
husband. She went much to chapel, and there was no one more religious
than she, and no one harder on the sins and vanities of young women.
One thing in particular she held in what seemed an unreasoning
abhorrenceand that was a black silk gown.
A GARDEN ENCLOSED
Why Sophia Jervis went to Sant' Ambrogio she herself could not have
told; to all outward seeming she merely drifted there, influenced by
the many little urgencies of travelthe name seen casually in a
guide-book and all unnoticed stamping itself on her brain; a chance
mention of the place caught from some fellow-traveller, aided by the
fact that the time-table had happened to open at the words Sant'
Ambrogiothese were the trifles by which the power stronger than
herself guided Sophia, with such cunning manipulation, such a fine lack
of insistence even on the trifles, that she was unaware of any power at
work. Also she was in that numbed condition which mercifully follows
any great straining of emotion; even pain lay quiescent, though rather
in a swoon than a sleepa mere blankness from which it would struggle
up more insistent than before.
When Sophia alighted from the train at the nearest station for Sant'
Ambrogio, and found the carriage she had ordered awaiting her, she was
not in the mood to take joy in anything she saw; and yet, as the wiry
little Tuscan horse trotted swiftly along she found herself, though not
actually responding, at least offering no blank wall of resistance to
the country around. To say country, as though a landscape consisted of
mere earth and vegetation, is to make an incomplete statement; the
quality of the light, the harmony or discordance where man's work meets
Nature; and, above all, the intangible atmosphere, rarer and more vital
than the actual enveloping air, that is the soul of a countryall
these are of more potency than the position of a clump of trees or the
existence of a particular crop. And nowhere is this atmosphere more
elusive but more compelling than in Tuscany at spring time. Sophia was
too deadened to respond, but she felt the echo of the thing, as it
were, in much the same way that a stone-deaf person feels vibrations
run through the floor and up his chair to his spine when certain chords
are played on an organ.
It is a drive of about five miles from the railway station to Sant'
Ambrogio, and the road winds across the plain, sometimes rising and
falling, always leading towards the rim of interfolding hills. In the
vineyards the vines, naked at first glance, were just beginning to
flower, and the rows of pollarded planes from which they were festooned
showed a glory of young leaf. The maize was a couple of feet in height,
and where the sun shone through the blades of it they looked like thin
green flames. The heat was intense, and the air seemed stifled with the
subtle smell of the dust that lay thickly over the road and powdered
the grassy edges. The whole plain of Tuscany, apparently empty of human
life, and consequently filled with a sense of utter peace, seemed a
vast green platter brimming with a divine ether and held up towards the
heavens by the steady hands of genii. Only Sophia's carriage showed
like a black insect winging a course fast enough to itself but slow to
the gaze of any being who, looking down on this dish held for the gods,
could see the whole expanse of it at once.
Everywhere was a sense of lightlight steeping the sky, drenching
the earth, and vibrating in the spaces between; light that gave a
gracious blur to edges, that refracted from each subtle difference of
plane and angle; light that permeated the very shadows so that they
seemed semi-transparent. One with this sense of light, as body is one
with soul, was the sense of colourtender greens, at once pure and
delicate; blues that paled to the merest breath or merged in a soft
purple. The wideness of the view gave full value to the exquisitely
fine curves which composed itthe curves of outline where hills and
long sweeping slopes came against the sky, and the curves of surfaces,
which inter-folded and led into each other like the waters of a vast
lake where Time has stayed his foot and the spellbound water holds for
ever the slopes and gradations blown into being by an arrested wind.
Somethingan emotion impersonal in itself yet arousing the
personality in herbegan to stir at Sophia's heart; then, as the
carriage rounded a curve in the road and she received the shock of
Sant' Ambrogio against the distant arch of the sky, sudden tears burned
in her eyelids. Leaning back as well as she could against the
uncompromising cushions, she gazed from between lids half-closed so as
to narrow her vision on the one thing.
Sant' Ambrogio is a little city of towers, some twenty of them,
varying in height, all clustered together within the circling walls and
pricking the sky like a group of tall-stemmed flowers in a garden. The
town seems to have grown rather than been built on the crest of the
only great hill for miles, but the ripples of the plain all converge
towards it, leading the eye naturally up to this little crown of
Tuscany. When they considered a tower a reminder of God, the ancients
were not without a deeper spiritual foundation than they knew of; there
is nothing of more direct psychological significance than line, and the
many upward-springing lines of Sant' Ambrogio made it seem a thing so
lightly poised as almost to be hanging from the heavens. A sense of
something winged, which, though just resting on the earth, yet had
plumes ready pricked for flight, impressed itself on Sophia's brain as
This might have been beautiful for me if only I could still feel,
was her swift thought, and she closed her eyes to let the gleam of
light thus evoked sink into her mind. As she lay with her consciousness
turned inwards, the deadened fibres of her began to stir; pain moved in
its swoon, and, waking, took the keenest form of allremembrance.
Quite suddenly there flashed before her mental vision the loggia at the
top of the old palace in Florence where she and Richard had said
good-bye. She, who was to see the cords of passion grow slack, had
there seen them stretched at their tensest, and the memory of it
clutched at her heart with that pity for him which had kept her calm
for his comfort. Now, mingled with it, was her own pain, which, at the
time, her thought for him had overwhelmed. She saw again his face as
she had seen it thenhis thin, hawk-like profile dark and sharply-cut
against the evening sky. With the memory of the pain that had gone
through her at that moment, the power to feel stirred again, and it was
that moment which struck at her anew. Her hands fastened suddenly on
the hot sides of the carriage.
Oh, oh! she said in the low voice that overwhelming sorrow can
wring from the tongue, a soliloquy terrible in its
unself-consciousness: oh, oh! I can't bear it; I can't bear it!
As the horse slowed down at the beginning of the hill, the first
poignancy of Sophia's reawakened feeling passed off, and she lay back,
her hands laying palm upwards in her lap. With entry into the town came
coolness; the ancient architects of the South knew better than to
favour the broad streets planned by their descendants, and the narrow
ways threaded so cunningly between the tall cliffs of houses were cool
as shadowed streams. The greyness of the paved street fell like a
suggestion of peace on Sophia after the searching sunlight of the
plain, and the acuteness of her mental trouble subsided in response to
the sense of physical ease; she had regained her grip of herself when
the carriage drew up at the door of the Albergo Santo Spirito.
The Albergo is a whitewashed building set round a courtyard; clean,
unfretted by detail, full of dim, sweet spaces and gay domestic sounds.
Sophia, aware of its charm, yet realized, on looking back afterwards,
that she had also been aware that the inn was for her but the
ante-chamber to some other place or state, as yet unrevealed. At the
time she was only conscious that a sense of waiting held the calm air,
though, if she had thought to ask herself the question, she would have
said that life held nothing for which it could be worth her while to
After she had washed her face and hands in the bare little
whitewashed room assigned to her, she went out to wander about the town
till dinner. Motorists have not yet spoiled the population of Sant'
Ambrogio, and, unmolested by any clamour for alms, Sophia passed along
the shady street, where the black-haired, kerchiefed women, with their
fine, rock-hewn faces and deep-set eyes, were knitting at their house
doors. In the big, cool church, whose walls of banded black and white
marble were quieted by the dim light, which just showed the dark
gargoyles writhing like things of a dream over cornice and capital,
Sophia knelt down, more to wrap herself in the peace of it than to
pray. The very keenness of her cry for peace made her fail, and rising
she wandered round the church till she came to the little chapel on
whose walls the life of the town's saint, Beata, has been painted by
some Ignoto who must have had a touch of genius. Sophia stood and
gazed at the various scenes. Santa Beata, a child with corn-coloured
hair lying along her back, running away from her resentful playmates, a
set of curly-headed, sly, pinching, clear-eyed ragamuffins, such as
those who quarrel and play in the streets of Sant' Ambrogio to this
day. Santa Beata, wrapped in a cloud, conversing with the Beloved,
while the children search the field vainly for herthe Beloved Himself
being naïvely expressed by what looked like a small bonfire, but
proved, in a strange medley of legend and Old Testament story, to be a
burning bush. Santa Beata vowing herself to virginity and lying down on
the narrow maiden bed she never left again; Santa Beata being visited
by cherubimlittle burning heads with awful eyes and folded
wingsblown in at the door, while through the window showed the plain
of Tuscany, pale silvery greens and blues, and in the distance Sant'
Ambrogio himself, wafted on a cloud, approached the town to bear the
saint away. By her side crouched her old mother, a knotted burnt-out
woman with long wrists, just a literal transcript of many a prematurely
old peasant mother before and since, her patient eyes seeing no one but
The more she looked at Santa Beata the more Sophia, who without
thinking much about it had a realization of her own type, was struck by
the resemblance between them. The red-brown hair folded about Sophia's
head was darker than the locks that lay combed out over the saint's
pillow, but the long oval of the faces, the girlish thinness of
modelling and the narrow eyes set in heavily folded lids over rather
prominent cheekbones, were the same; and the same, too, were the
pointed chins and the delicately full lips tucked in at the corners
like those of a child. Santa Beata had only been sixteen at the time of
her death and Sophia was twenty-two, but the earlier ripening of the
South made the apparent years swing level. Suddenly Sophia turned away,
fierce envy of this untroubled girl who had finished long ago with the
business of life surging in her heart. The memory of the past weeks
seemed shameful and she herself not fit to hold intercourse with other
girlsgirls to whom things had not happened. In that moment Sophia
knew she had lost her girlhood none the less surely for having saved
her virginity, which three things had helped to guarda clarity of
pre-vision which bade her not give Richard even what he most desired,
because it showed her that it must inevitably work him misery; the
knowledge that he did not love her finely enough for such a gift to be
fitting; and thirdly, the strongest thing of allthat no one who is
accustomed, however imperfectly, to walk in the spiritual world, can
lightly forgo the privilege. I should have been afraid of losing
touch, Sophia said long after, when she saw how that fear had
constrained her. Now, looking at Santa Beata and realizing more vividly
than ever before the power which virginity, as an idea, has always
swayed, she felt she had forfeited, by her gain in experience,
communion with those who were still virginal in soul as well as in
body. On the steps of the church she passed some children
playingchildren still at the age when their heads are very big and
roundand she remembered how, in a half-ruined castle Richard and she
had visited together, two little peasant girls, clear-eyed, freckled
young creatures, had taken them for husband and wife; and how one
demanded shyly whether she had a baby at home. No, I have no baby,
Sophia had said quietly, and the child replied: What a pity! He would
be sweet, your baby. . . .
He would be sweet . . . my baby, thought Sophia, staring at the
big round heads and little necks with that pang of yearning pity
without which she could never look on children. It is a great truth
that no woman has ever loved a man unless she has wanted to bear him a
child, and the knowledge that she would never make this greatest of all
offerings to Richard pressed on Sophia's heart. She was not one of
those women who desire children as an end in themselves, to whom they
would mean more than the husband; she was of those who long to bear
them to the loved man because for him the utmost must be suffered and
given; but for any other man it would be a thing unspeakable. Therefore
she saw the best put out of life for her, and she hurried away from the
children on the steps. Turning down a narrow lane she came to a door in
the wall, and pushing it open she looked into what seemed a lake of
green light, flecked with swaying rounds of sun and chequered with
deeper green shadowsa garden run luxuriantly wild. Sophia stepped
inside, and on her right, built half against and half on the wall, she
saw a little ochre-washed house with faded blue shutters. Wandering on,
she came to some lilacs in hard, red bud that hung over a well, and
passing under the arch they made she found the further end of the
garden. There a flight of uneven old steps led to the top of the wall,
and she went up them. At the head of the steps, the wallwhich was the
outer fortification of the townwidened into a circle some twenty feet
across, with a stone seat inset in the parapet that ran round it, and a
sundial without a hand in the middle. Sophia stood still and drew a
long breaththe place, in its look of eld and aloofness, was so
exactly like some enchanted spot in a fairy-story. Crossing the
flagstones she looked out over the miles of plain lying below her; here
and there were patches of olive-trees, not growing in masses like a
grey-green sea as they did further north where he and she had seen
them, but planted far apart; from where Sophia stood they looked like
nothing so much as clouds of dust puffing up from the ground.
Sophia stretched herself long and slowly; then throwing off her hat,
she laid her arms along the parapet and her sleek head down upon them.
Oh, I wish I hadn't come, she moaned. I'm going to feel again. .
Her hand went out to the little hanging bag she carried and drew
back again, then setting her mouth, she made herself unfasten the clasp
and take out a bundle of letters which she laid on the seat beside her.
As her eyes lit on the familiar writing a deadly nausea took hold of
her, she felt physically sick and put her hand up to her throat to
check its contraction. A letter from him always affected her in that
way, so that she sat, sick and faint, unable to open it, and now these
oft-read letters were as potent as ever. She noted with a vague,
impersonal surprise that her hands were shaking, and folding them in
her lap she sat still, forcing her thoughts, in spite of the pain it
stirred in her, to go back over the past two weeks.
On looking back the whole time seemed set in a clear, sunlit
atmosphere of its own as in a magic sphere where the present had always
taken a more than normal clearness of edge and the past and future
ceased to be. It struck her as curious that the prevailing note of
those weeks should have been a sense of utter peace; not realizing
that, peace being the thing his frayed nerves craved, she therefore
supplied it, wrapping him round with it, living so in him and for him
that while with him she received the impression of peace herself, only
having sensations of her own when they were apart. His needthat was
the great thing, and though she had not stopped to analyse what his
need was, she had felt it was for soothing and rest.
She was a writer, and on the money made by her first book she came
to Italy, and in Florence she met him, a painter of some note, of whom
she had vaguely heard in London. Although he was twenty years older
than she, their minds chimed from the first; one of them had only to
half say a thing for the other to understand it. At the beginning there
was nothing between them but friendship, tingedthough for her quite
unconsciouslywith the element of sex. For him, he had since told her,
things were very different from the moment he met her; to the average
woman the term physical attraction is so meaningless that she stared
in uncomprehension when he told her how profoundly she had troubled him
from the first. For this girl, whose pulses had never been fluttered to
quickness, and who, though in imagination she could project herself
into passion, always shrank from any sign of it in actuality, was
reserved the doubtful compliment of stirring the passionate side of the
man's nature more violently than it had ever been before. He kept the
ugly thing well hidden, and she never guessed at it until her own pity
and trust and affection made her unwittingly tempt him beyond
endurance. Pity, allied to the intellectual pleasure they took in each
other, moved her first, for he was unhappy, and she, too, had the habit
of pain. She remembered the first whole day they had taken together;
how they climbed up to San Miniato and found a field in which they lay
and talked, and how he came back with her to the thirteenth-century
palace beside the Arno where she lodged. She had a little room with a
painted ceiling, and the infant Bacchus and adoring nymphs disporting
themselves in bas-relief on the mantelpiece, a room looking over the
brown fluted roofs of Florence; but the great loggia where he and she
sat faced the Arno, and they had coffee and cigarettes and watched the
swift blue night fall over Florence while the swarm of lights waked
broken reflections in the swirling water. On the loggia they exchanged
a brief mention of their troubles, both commonplace enough; hers a
childhood with parents who perpetually quarrelled, the mother a hard
worldly woman who eventually took to drugs, and a father who had at
last left for another woman the home which was so unbearable; while
Sophia herself had only shaken off the horrors of it and earned her own
living, barely enough at that, a few months earlier.
Richard's trouble was his wife, who seemed not unlike Sophia's
mother. He was both too kindly and too weakfor his was one of those
temperaments that shrink from any display of unpleasantnessto have
mastered her brutally and for goodand strong enough to go on living
in the same house with her because, although she made his life a
weariness, she was an intensely conventional woman to whom the position
of a wife separated from her husband before all the world would have
been intolerable. Between him and Sophia the fact that they both knew
the terror of not being able to slip out even to post a letter without
dreading what they might find on going back, made a bond of sympathy.
Sophia, ignorant as she was, could not be a young, and, for some
people, a beautiful woman, without having learned a few stray scraps of
wisdom, and one was that when a man began to confide his troubles to
her it was as well to see less of him. But Sophia let herself drift,
because she liked being with the man so much; and also the fact that he
was from her own place, that the relentless gods had brought him to
Florence to meet her, and would, in due course, send them both back to
where, henceforth, they would know each other, gave her a curious
feeling of being entrapped in some web too powerful to break. She never
blamed him or let him blame himself for what inevitably happened.
Sophia, my sweet, he wrote her in one of the letters she now
picked up at random. I didn't deliberately set to work to make love to
you. I knew your beauty inflamed me and your wit delighted me. But when
we first met I thought we should just see each other a few times and
quarrel and laugh, and I should revel in your looks and no harm done.
And now little Miss Jervis has turned into Sophia, and either I must
have Sophia for ever and ever mine, or I ought to have stuck to an
elderly uncle line and come away with no tears for her and no
self-loathing for me, and no need to lie and shuffle and make her share
in the lies and shuffles for the future.
You'll never do that, dear, thought Sophia, laying the letter
down. When I have to come back to London we'll meet honestly, or not
at all. For there's nothing on earth that's worth living in a sea of
lies for. . . . She remembered how he had asked her if she would come
and see his wife, so that he and she might meet on an accepted footing,
and how the doubtful taste of the proposition had jarred her. He argued
that because they would be honestly playing the game by his wife,
Sophia need not mind the meeting; his knowledge of women was curiously
insensitive and blunt, and he had no conception of how impossible it
would be for Sophia to sit quietly and see another woman doing the
honours of his house. In this he was not entirely to blame, for Sophia
so contrived to hoodwink him that he never quite knew she loved him,
certainly never knew the force of her love. He thought of her as a
reckless, innocent child stung to lavish giving out of affection and
pity, and so, to begin with, she had been. The woman Sophia kept up
what had become a pose, not only from the pride of a maiden, but also
because some instinct told her that sooner or later he would rather be
able to think she had not given more.
For the first few days either of them would have declared that all
was well and there was no danger, yet each day marked a distinct step
further on, a definite phase passed through. Sometimes they wandered
about Florence, in the Boboli and the Cascine gardens, or upon the
windy heights of Fiesole; sometimes he hired a queer little carriage
with swift, bedecked horses, and they drove far out into the country,
not getting home till night. The day before the revelation came was one
of the most exquisite they spent together, one of which Sophia could
still hardly bear to think. Leaving the carriage at a little village,
they wandered on foot into a lovely valley, and laughed because he
called it old mastery, pointing out the Turneresque effect of a
ruined castle set high amidst a mass of olives which were being blown
pale against it. Presently they came to a stream that stormed down the
valley and fell into seven successive pools; deep, still pools, as
green as ice, with sunlit bubbles sent driving through them by the
impetus of the clear arch of descending water. Beside the largest pool,
on a smooth grey slab of rock screened by the over-hanging cliff, they
sat and ate their lunch of bread and hard-boiled eggs and wine, and the
sun shone on the glossy red-brown hair so cunningly folded about
Sophia's head, and shone in the depths of her grey eyes and on her
tanned skin. When they had finished she lay a little below him, closing
her eyes to feel the blown spray drift against her lids, and she never
knew till he told her that his hand had been on her hair the whole
time, and never knew till later still that she had been loving him even
then. The day passed in a perfect harmony of speech and silences, and
all the time Sophia was givinggiving peace and mothering and delight,
giving the sky and the earth and the very air they breathed. Only some
one who has ever made a gift of a day knows the joy that it ishow
each golden moment, conscious of its own beauty, hangs poised like a
held breath; how the sun and wind and flowers and the upward curves of
the supporting earth are all parts of the gift, making the giver a god
who pours out creation for his friend.
The next day they took train to Pisa on a more sophisticated errand,
since he had undertaken to make a sketch of the tower for a friend who
was sheeking some Italian backgrounds. Sophia wandered happily about
the town while he did so, and then they met for lunch in the garden of
an old inn.
I'm afraid of to-day, he told her, because it can't be as perfect
as yesterday. Nothing couldthat's the worst of a day like that.
I'll make it as perfect, Sophia replied, and she kept her
word. She still had no idea she loved him, she only knew that she
wanted to shield and protect him, that she was happy with him and felt
the power to make him happy, and that she trusted him utterly. Without
realizing it, she tempted him cruelly by her very trust, and that day
her calm recklessness of speech, her gaze that meeting his so straight
and untroubled, disturbed him so profoundly, were too much for him.
Take off your glove, he said suddenly.
Sophia's notions of love had been culled from books, and she
considered it inseparable from what she termed thrills. How was she
to know that a woman, especially what is called a nice woman, can
love without the promptings of the pulses? Because she felt no sensuous
thrill as the tone of command, it never occurred to her to think she
could be in love, wherein she was making another common literary
mistakethat of thinking that every woman enjoys being mastered.
Sophia found her joy in ready compliance with the demands of the
beloved, not in arranging set scenes of clashing wills and
conciliations. Taking off her glove, she gave him her hand.
When I say that I want to kiss you now, he said, it doesn't mean
in the way it would have, even a day or two ago. I told you then you
affected me . . . but now it would be because I love you.
Sophia's hand moved slightly in his.
Yes, she said hesitatingly, in a wayof course. I know you're
very fond of meand all that.
In the way, he returned, and I'm not fit to hold your
hand. D'you know what the life of an average man is likeespecially of
a man in my circumstances?
Yesbought women, he said brutally. Does it make a lot of
difference to you?
Sophia, refusing to let her mind so much as dwell with any effort of
realization on his confession, closed her hand firmly over his.
It doesn't make any difference. Nothing does. If I could look after
youif you were free to be looked afteryou wouldn't have to go to
other women any more. I care about you more than about any man I've
And I don't care about you more than any woman I've ever met.
You're unique and you're you, but I've been in love a good many times.
And there's always the big one I've told you about. I feel I've so
little left to give, and yetby God, Sophia! I could give to
you, even battered old I!
I'd be such a wife to you, said Sophia proudly, clenching her free
hand, that I should fear no other woman on earth.
And you wouldn't need to . . . Sophia! he cried. How you would
And we mustn't, either of us, said Sophia, and to soften the
speech she bent her head swiftly and kissed the hand she held.
My dear . . . ! he said huskily, and Sophia led the way out of the
That night, after he had left her at her shabby old palace, he went
back to his hotel and sat up, smoking heavily, most of the night.
Towards morning, he wrote her a letterthe first in order of those
beside her on the seat. She took it up now and read it once again:
Sophia, Sophia, it ran, I'm in the depths of misery. What have I
done to you and what is going to come of it all? When this time is
over? When we're back in London and out of lotus land? You knowstolen
interviews and weeks without meeting, and that old and awful struggle
between the 'game' at home and my inclinations abroad. And I've hardly
written so far when I'm feeling better. Dear, what does all that
matter? I feel the shadow of that coming gloom on me already, but how
glorious the sunshine's been for me! I'm not going to think or
worryyet. What will happen when I'm back in London must happen, but
if I had you by me now I shouldn't care a damn for that. I feel stupid
and stockish. There are such millions of things I want to say to you,
Sophiaand they're mostly middle-aged things. That's the worst of it.
Warnings I feel I ought to give you about myself and my temper and my
terrible ease in giving way to adverse circumstances. I've told you I'm
not big enough or strong enough for you to care for me except as a
useful old pal. You'll find me out and hate me. All sorts of ghastly
bogies are waiting to jump out at me. They'll get me. But you, dear,
you gracious, reckless woman-child, whatever you think of me in the
future you can't rob me of to-day and yesterday and all those days, and
especially to-day. Things like that are too sacred to write about,
almost to think of. And we're deadly honest with each other, that's a
great thing. The more I dream of you the more I want you here, now. I
simply can't write, I've been nearly as high this afternoon as I shall
ever get, perhaps quiteand one has to pay for that. Oh, my dear;
please God, you'll never pay for me! Sophia, you're very dear to me.
Richard. You poor childyou glorious woman!
The next day both fell from their high altitude. They had driven to
a little half-deserted town, a white, dead, staring, crumbling placea
place of blind windows and glaring silences. Both felt a sense of
tension, and leaving the carriage they wandered round the walls, and
climbing over a broken gap sat down on a grassy spur of the hillside,
with their backs to the terrible little town. As usual, by now, they
talked about themselves, chiefly of him, and he told her that though
several women had been fond of him as a friend and liked to mother
him even as she did, no one of them had cared for him in another way or
kissed him as a lover kisses. He slipped an arm round her shoulders as
he spoke. Sophia was as ignorant as an infant of what kissing like a
lover might be, and in a rush of pity and affection she turned her face
up towards him.
Oh, it isn't as if we were going on afterwards like this, she
said; this is just a bit cut out of life for me to give you. It's
taking nothing from her, she doesn't want to give you anything. And I
want to make this bit as splendid as I can for you.
He felt her shoulder touch his as she leant her warm young body
towards him, he saw the glory of her eager eyes and mouth, and he
caught her to him, crushing her fiercely. . . . Sophia wondered if this
awful kiss were ever going to stop; she had never known there was such
a way of kissinga hard pressure, a sucking of her very souland she
was filled with horror under it. When he loosed her she turned and
buried her face against the wall. For a while they sat in silence, then
she saw him kissing her coat, her sleeve, then her head was pressed
back against the wall and his mouth came to hers again. She stayed
passive, dazed. In silence they went to the carriage and drove away,
and almost silently they parted. Sophia spent the night in a misery of
shame, he spent it in mingled excitement and remorse: fearful lest he
had aroused in her a passion which would need to be satisfied at the
cost of social disaster.
Next day they talked of nothing in particular in a desultory way and
did not refer to what had happened until, wandering through one of the
wooded mountain slopes beyond Florence, they came on a tiny sportsman's
hut with a roof of red-fluted tiles and a huge chimney. Sophia peeped
and went in; he followed. Within, the hut was only about five feet
square; flame-coloured leaves had drifted in through the open doorway
and lay piled on the hearth; on the wall were some names rudely
scrawled in charcoal.
How did you sleep? he asked suddenly.
I didn't. I was thinking what I should say to you to-day.
What was it?
Never, never again be like you were yesterday. I didn't know it was
like that. It was dreadful. I can't bear it.
He took her hands and held them.
Never, I promise you. I had an awful night. I didn't know what to
think or wish or do. Let's get out of this hut. It's too small.
The rest of the day they spent happily under the trees, and it
seemed to her that the sense of rest and peace was stronger than if it
had never been broken. Very soon came their last day together. They
drove to a deserted castle on a hill, called Castello di Luna, and as
they went Sophia turned to him.
To-day's the last, she said, and I'm going to make it the most
beautiful present of all to you. We'll pretend, like children. We'll
pretend there's only to-day in the world, that there are no obligations
beyond here and now, that we are happy peoplewe'll pretend.
He gathered her in his arms and kissed her again and again fiercely,
but not with the abandonment which had frightened her before, and her
heart turned heavy within her and she knew she loved him. They stayed
till evening in the neglected garden of the old castle, left discreetly
alone by Lucia and Amadea, the little peasant custodians who lived with
a beetle-browed mother and a score of younger children in the tower
over the gate. It was Lucia who ventured an opinion as to Sophia's
baby, and Sophia emptied her pocket-bottle of lavender water over the
little girls' blue-check handkerchiefs and told Richard to give them
five lire apiece against the day when they should have babies of
Then, in the quiet old garden, he and she sat and talked and were
silent, and, with her arms round him, she drew his head on to her
breast, and they played the dangerous game of saying what they would do
when they were married.
Your baby would be sweet! he quoted to her. Would you dare even
that for me, Sophia?
Would I not? she breathed.
Oh, I can't give up hoping it may all become possible! he cried at
last, but she shuddered a little. Don't, she said, it's building on
But her heart ached at the sweetness of the vision. She never felt
any temptation to fling her cap over the windmill for him, partly
because it is very true that Les bonnes femmes n'ont pas ces
tentations-là, partly because of the much greater things she
wanted to givea hearth that would always warm him, a pillow that
would always rest him, and on the hearth a cradleand these were
things that he could not come at through a back door.
They said good-bye on the loggia in Florence, and that night he left
for Leghorn. He wrote to her in the train; and bringing her thoughts
back to the present by an effort, Sophia picked up the letter now.
Sophia, Sophia, she read, is it only you who pay? My sweet, I
hope you will never feel what I felt as I went home. The bare
truth is I am a coward and a cad, besides being a fool. I began
it, and if I didn't know where it was going to lead to I was a
fool to play with fire, and I was a cad to go on. Dear, I'd
rather go through years of anything you feel than ten minutes
what I'm feeling. But I've got to stick it henceforth when I'm
not buoyed up with your presence. It's been so gorgeous, you've
been so heavenly, that I'd do it all again. But now besides the
awful want of you there's the clear vision of what I am, and
it's hideous. I haven't the pluck or the passion to carry you
right off before all the world whether you would or no, nor the
sense and the honesty and the decency to be just friends with
you. Oh, Sophia, I hate myself for it, and hate myself most for
being glad, deep down, that I did get what you gave me.
can't find anything solid or honest in me anywhere, except my
feeling for you and my joy in our time together, and I've no
right to that. This is cruelly unlike what I've preached to you
about possessing for ever past joys. I suppose I shall forget
own wickedness and even come to regret that I didn't take
moretake all by force or guilefor perhaps, after
better to be a downright brute than a half-and-halfer. If so,
shan't I be even more unworthy of all you've given me, you
sweet, foolish, lavish child? If you were here now, Sophia, I
shouldn't be feeling all this. You'd only have to smile at me
and I should get back my pride in having won what I have won.
But without you I seem to see more clearly what I am. My sweet,
wouldn't you be happier if you saw me so, too? All I feel now
a desperate need of you, your hands and your hair and your eyes
and your mouth and your voice and your wit and your dear
mothering. And next month? Secret meetings and concerted lies,
and all the rest of the filthy game? And I drag you into it all
because I want you and because my affairs make it necessary to
do it or part for good. I'm trying to look at it clearly and
all the worstmisunderstandings, preoccupation, work, moods,
fears, all the things that are going to prevent a wretched
like me from being where he wants to be and doing what he could
for you. I wish from the bottom of my soul the train would
up and kill me to-night. Oh, if there were only the past few
weeks to consider it would be simple enough. I've had such a
time as I've never had before, and you made it. You said you
would and you did. You've given me such a time as a woman never
gave a man in our circumstances before. But there's you and the
world and the future to consider. It's very small moral
satisfaction to me that I didn't deliberately set to work to
make love to you. It grew, as you showed me more and more how
adorable you were, how gracious and desirable and generous and
trusting, you dear nymph of the woods, virgin-mother, friend
lover and comforter. It's no good going on like this, man's a
self-deceiving kind of brute, and perhaps before long all the
glory of the days of you, you, you, will fit in quite
comfortably and the poison of self-hatred cease to hurt. I stop
to-morrow night at the Grand Hotel, Livorno. Will you write to
me there, sweet? If I could really be sorry for it all I should
like myself better. But I can't. I can only hate myself for
glorying in what I got by such means. Write to meI'm
frightened and alone.
My sweet, the next letter began, your letter has come. It's
what I knew it would be, so brave and sweet and good that I can
only wonder at you all the more. It soothes and heals and
me, and once more I am drinking your life-blood and using your
youth and splendour to live on. Is there anything you wouldn't
do for my comfort? When I fell asleep this morning about dawn I
dreamt of you and woke all hot and frightened, because I
I heard you moaning, a horrible, strangled moan. Did I? Oh, my
dear, I hope not. I can't get at the truth all these miles
You see, that brave, wise letter of yours might have meant a
huge effort of the will and brain, and not be a direct outflow
from the you that gave me those days. Shall I ever see that you
again, I wonder? Your letter's like the touch of your lips on
foreheadcooling, healing, bracing and most sweet. Dear,
not only all I've told you before that you are, but you're wise
as well. Oh! child, girl, most wonderfully woman-wise. My
what you could do for me if only we could belong to each other.
Sophia, I'm trying hard to knock it into my head that we can't,
but I can see now that the trouble's going to be, not remorse
anxiety, but just the big, aching lack of you, and not of your
beauty so much as of your tenderness and wit and your weak,
clinging strength. Oh, Sophia, I'm writing a lot of rot, but it
isn't rot really. I mean, you understand. D'you remember the
when you said you'd exactly fitted that long body of yours into
the ground? That's how I feel when I rest my mind on yours,
it's the ground and not me that does the shaping.
The next letter was from Marseilles. The last page, which Sophia
read through twice, ran thus:
So good-bye to it all, but not good-bye to Sophia. Dear, I
believe very strongly in spiritual converse (I can't find the
word I want for it). But don't you feel that my arms are
you? I can feel your head on my shoulder and your hair against
my cheek. I mean that it isn't just cheating oneself with vain
imaginations to meet like that. I mean to go on thinking of you
hard and the vision soothes, not aggravates, the longing, and I
will meet you like that at our Castello di Luna. But oh, my
dear, I wish it were really true now! There is so much I
from you and must go on wanting. Come to me in thought, my
sweet, until we can see and touch and hear each other again. We
will always say to each other whatever is in our hearts and
minds. And so I'm just starting to go backSophia, I can't say
'home.' Home means what you are. Oh, I thought I should go back
gaily and take it all up, but it makes me sick with dread. I
ought never to have got out of harness. It's better to go on
till one drops than to taste freedom and have to give it up.
Sweet, your eyes and your mouth and your hair are with me
always. Don't call me a materialist, and say it's only your
body's beauty that I value. You're sweet to me through and
through. Oh, Sophia, come often to meet me in Monte Luna. And
there is Lucia to say sweet, impossible things to make us
Ti bacio gl'occhi.
Sophia opened the last sheet of paper. It enfolded three primroses,
and on it was written Primavere per la Primavera. She looked
at them a moment, then wrapped them up again and put letters and
flowers back in the bag. Behind her the sun was near to setting, and
the blaze of it lay full on the towers, making them a bright tawny-grey
against the sky of deep steel-colour, and turning to tongues of flame
the tufts of yellow gillyflowersSanta Beata's own plantthat sprang
out here and there from the sheer masonry. Some jackdaws flew out of
the nearest belfry, and circled round it, black amid the brightness.
Sophia sprang up and walked to and fro.
I shall feel again, if I stay here. Unbearably. I wish I hadn't
come. I'll go away to-morrow. Richard, Richard, Richard!
But on the morrow, instead of leaving Sant' Ambrogio, Sophia moved
from the inn to the little house in the walled garden. Not until she
was installed there did she discover that though the house was
comparatively modern, the garden was the very one where Santa Beata had
seen her visions and dreamed her dreams.
The first morning she spent in the place in the wall, writing him a
My dear boy, she wrote, by the time you get this you will be
back in the thick of things. If I have given you anything that
will help you to go on it's all I want. You must just look on
this past month as a holiday snatched from the lap of the gods,
and realize, what you're always telling me, that what one's
had one has for always. For there can't be any more, and I'm
even going to write to you. Oh, I feel as though I were failing
you in not writing, but I always meant not to, even when you
were making plans about it. Letters keep up an atmosphere, and
that's better not. Yes, I know what you mean about spiritual
meeting. I'm sort of fused with you as I write. I'm not
even in the future with youas you read, for I've pulled the
future to me and made it now, now, now, and I'm with you, in
present, as you read this, and I'm drawing your tired head to
me, and I feel the very way the thick stuff of your coat arches
up under the pressure of my arm. I am you in every bit of me as
I write; not yours, but you. But, for the future, in that way
only. I felt nothing wrong in all I gave you here, because you
needed what I had to give and we were hurting nobody. I'm sure
that's the great thing, to hurt nobody, and that includes you
and even me. It would be hurting both of us if we were to go on
writing because it would keep it all up and we shouldn't be
able to meet again just as friends, and if we make the break we
shall; we are strongor weakenough for that. Richard, let
your answer to this be a long one, won't you? Try and tell me
everything I shall want to hear in it because it will be all I
shall have to live on. Dear child, take care of yourself, don't
overwork and don't forget that open windows are the best thing
for that throat of yours. Don't let things at home worry you
more than you can help, and always remember there's no need to
worry about me at all.
* * * * *
During the time that she was waiting for the answer to her letter
Sophia lived at tension, finding relief in the making of her last gift
to himfor she wrote him a poem, and in spite of the deliberate
placidity of the thing it eased the fierce pressure of her thoughts in
the way that only creation can. Sophia was soon to enter on her
greatest strength of feeling. Richard felt more intensely at the time
than at looking back, when his emotions were stale to him, and he
marvelled at the strength they had had; Sophia never knew till the
actual hour was past what the depth of her emotion was. Partly this was
that in their weeks together the need for calm and clarity on her side
was so great, that when with him her being was absorbed in his and so
her own feelings had no room for conscious movement until afterwards.
There are times, when affairs are at the crest, when, by its intensity,
sensation seems numb, but all the while each little thing seen by both
inward and outward vision is registered on the mind with peculiar
sharpness of edge; only to be realized when the wave of incident has
passed, and even then a period of numbness may intervene before
realization enters the soul, deep-driven by the intolerance of memory.
Sophia was living in that tense numbness now, but through it external
things made their potency felt. She grew to know every corner of the
little town, and during the day she would wander several times into the
cool dim church, to breathe the silence and the peace of it. And
Richard . . . she prayed, Richard . . . She knew of no definite
thing to ask for him, she could not pray he might be free, and
happiness was an illusion she had learned to dread; she could only turn
his name over and over in her mind, lift it up, hold it up and out with
all the strength of her will. Still, in spite of this focusing of her
lifea focusing that was to grow even more passionate in long, hot
London months to comethere was no unity about it, little sights and
impulses fraught with value, yet failed to show any coherent reason;
some great cord that could bind everything together was still not
One afternoon she wandered out of the town by the big gates, and
turning to look back at the sweeping wall she saw a narrow path that
girdled its base, rising and falling over the rippling flanks of the
hill. As she looked at it some dim memory stirred in hershe
remembered having read in her childhood that in olden days a man might
own as much land as he could encompass in one walk, returning to his
starting-point. The root-instinct of enclosure was in the idea, and
Sophia had a sudden fancy to make the unconscious town her own by the
old method. Without thinking of much beyond the physical act, she
started along the little track noting idly yet definitely the look of
the stones along the spreading base of the fortifications and the
sickles of light made by the sky's reflection on the curving-over grass
blades on the other side of the path. She went slowly and when she had
half-girdled the town she lay down on a smooth slope, and, locking her
hands behind her head, gazed over the fertile plain. On an almond-tree
near a nightingale began to sing; against the first pink of sunset she
saw his little body as a slightly ruffled blot. She let her mind fill
with the song so that it became the accompaniment to her thought, and
slowly the first glimpse of comprehension began for her.
First she fell to wondering what the plain would look like seen from
abovefrom the point of view of God. The human mind, looking from
such a standpoint, would have to concentrate on one thing at a time if
it wanted to attain any idea but a general vagueness, thought Sophia.
One would have to focus on mountain-ranges, or rivers, or
railway-lines. . . .
She lay imagining it, seeing how the shining network of railroads
formed a web over the roundness of the world; thinking how it would
seem to this poised mind a mere web and nothing more. A meaningless
web; instead of thousands of roads each leading to a different
destination and intent on its own business. But if the mind, as well as
the point of vision, were that of a god, then each line would be
fraught with its individualityand not merely because each led
somewhere; there was more to it than thatSophia struggled towards it.
. . . A different time had seen the making of each railroad, different
men worked at the making of them, men with souls which had thought and
felt as they laid the steel ribbons on which other souls would be
rushed along without guessing anything of the thoughts and feelings.
And yet, surely those emotions could not die. . . . Perhaps, one
evening, a workman, straightening his back and drawing his hand over
his wet forehead, had looked towards the sunset, and in the vague
irrational way some scenes are registered on the mind for always, that
aspect of sky and darkening hedge against it would stay in his memory,
oddly mixed with the feel of the wet drops on his hand and the easing
of the muscles across his back, to be recalled by any similar moment
for the rest of his life. If so, how steeped with humanity those few
yards of steel would be! And, apart from the emotions connected with it
by the sense of sight, what an important part the railroad must play to
the men and their wives and children to whom it meant food and fire!
And then, the lines finished, each train going over them would pile the
human associations thicker yet, heaping up all the feelings, according
to their intensity, of the people in the trains. A god, looking down,
instead of merely seeing the network of steel, would see as well all
the human emotions still clinging to the places where they were
liveda mystical web woven over tangible things, growing deeper with
the years. Which, said Sophia, the first gleam of personal light
flashing through her, is why walking round a place makes it yours if
you do it for that. My seeing of this path will be here always, I'm
making a belt of consciousness round the town. It's my city! My city
set upon a hill!
She scrambled to her feet and for a moment leant her cheek against
the rough stone of the wall, then she went on round the town and in at
the great gate.
That evening she sat in Beata's garden, finishing her poem to
Richard. Elate as she was, she still had no hint of what her discovery
meant, or of how the garden would bring the final revelation to her,
but even then she felt the soothing influence that held it and her as
she wrote out her poem. It went to him without a title, but for herself
she headed it:
TO THE FORBIDDEN LOVER
That time I gave you half-a-moon of days
In the dear Southern land of many moods
She lured us up among her hill-ringed ways
Far from the ordered gardens, far from where,
Sacring the sky, the Christs hang on their roods.
We saw the sea-grey slopes of olive-trees
Blown foamy-pale, from the cloud-ridden air
Fell the swift shadows on those leafy seas.
To lakes of hardened lava we would come,
Scarred, as by whirlpools, with cold crater-rings
Or packed in furrows, like mammoth slugs grown numb
At some disaster of creation's dawn
A burnt-out lunar landscape of dead things.
And there some kindlier whim of path would show
Rocks that might echo to a piping Faun,
Or hide a huntress nymph with spear and bow.
Pan-haunted is that valley where we lay
(Lay, till lulled senses slid into a dream)
Watching sun-wrought reflections of ripples play
And break in shining scales through that green pool,
Deepest of seven strung on a ribbon of stream
That seven times wings the air in curving flight.
And from the gleaming arc blew spray to cool
Lids that were rosy films against the light.
A hut with fluted roof we found one morn,
A fairy-story hut; an empty shrine
Haply once dear to comrades less forlorn,
For on the walls were names of lover-folk.
And there we ate our bread and drank our wine,
A Sacrament of Fellowship; only dregs
We poured to envious gods, and laughing broke
Thrush-like, against a stone, our brown-shelled eggs.
Dearest that castle set in sun and winds
Remote as though upon Olympus hung,
Yet with a human tang that drew our minds
To gentle restful things; an open door,
Warm hearths, silk-curtained beds, and shutters flung
Wing-wide to let us watch the stars pulsating.
Now through closed slats their light must bar the floor
And on the hearth the ash be grey with waiting.
And when for daily troubles you make dole
(Now that the miles have set you far away)
Then to our little castle come in soul.
There, where the two girl-children thought us wed,
There, surely, I need never say you nay;
But, where the hollow curves between the breast
And rounded shoulder, draw your weary head,
And, when the day's lid droops, there give you rest.
The weakness of you I can hold to me,
For since at the world's door the babes unborn
Must vainly beat for us; oh, I will be
A Virgin-Mother to the child in you. . . .
And comradeship is good when sweetly sworn,
Being no less tender for its commonplace
And for its lack of fetters no less true
Take what you may, my dear, and with good grace.
It was Sophia's first and only love-letter, and she sent it when she
got back to England, as a summons to that friendship in which she could
have given as richly as in love; and for which, although he had planned
it so eagerly, he had too much knack of passion and too little depth of
The following evening his letter came, and Sophia, noting the
thinness of it compared with those others she had had, knew how his
need of her had slackened. She took the letter to her refuge on the
wall and sat for a while unable to read it, the old nausea upon her.
Then she took a firm grip of herself and opened the envelope. As she
read it seemed as though a great blow were struck at her heart. She
knew she had expected this, yet the actuality was worse to bear than
she had thought.
Richard laughed at her intention of not writing, and himself wrote
her little over a page. He began, as usual, Sophia, my sweet, and
made a brief reference to his wifeShe has not had a bad phase
yetand things are quiet, but what is that when one wants sympathy and
passion? I feel I am caught up in the old life again and something
seems to have gone snap in me. Write to mefor you will writeto my
club. The assurance of his tone jarred Sophia, but what hurt her
cruelly was his brevity. The fact that she had wanted this letter to be
a long one had honestly seemed to him of no importance when set against
the fact that he was not in the mood to write it; for he was the
creature of his moods and consequently unheeding of those which other
folk might wish to have indulged.
Sophia read the letter over and over, and then quite suddenly felt
she could not look at it again, and for the first time since the whole
affair began, she cried. Crouched on the seat she hid her face while
the sobs tore at her and the tears ran over her crossed wrists, and she
heard the sound of her own sobs coming to her from a great distance.
After a while she sat up, dried her wet face and made herself confront
the new aspect of things. She saw that up till now she had not been
wholly unhappy, for she had had the past. If he were going to prove
unworthy the past would no longer be hers to glory in but would become
a time of shame. Ifas prevision showed hershe was to know him as
unfit for what she had given, the giving would cease to be her
happiness. For Sophia was still so ignorant she thought mere
companionship and the spiritual force of her feeling had been a
continuous giving. The knowledge that from a man's point of view she
had given nothing at all was spared her. Since the parting she had
repeated over and over to herself two sentences from his letters
Virgin Mother, friend and lover and comforter and Home means
where you are. If he could still mean those things she would be
perfectly content that he should never again express them; if he were
to mean them less as the old life and the old allegiance gripped him,
then they would cease to be true and she could not live on them in
memory. Few men are strong enough to leave the past alone, many are so
afraid of its re-appearance that they try to bury it alivewas he
going to deal this last and most cruel blow, a future that would
destroy the past? The pitiful part of it all was that Sophia would
never have seen him again sooner than try to revive what had happened;
had he continued to make love to her she would have refused to let
himall she asked was that the past might be unprofaned. Reading his
letter she began for the first time to realize the selfishness of his
brilliant, lovable drifting nature, and in that moment her love of him
took its firmest hold of her. The merciful phase of numbness was over,
and she entered the deep waters at last. She had no strength left to
struggle, she could only let them go over her head and await their
passing. For her month of joy she was to pay in a year's pain, and she
entered on the payment now.
It was the payment for what she had gone without that hit Sophia
hardest. In what she had given was the supreme comfortIt was for
him; and this upheld her even when her want of him was worst, when she
lay the whole night through on the floor of the wall-refuge, thoughts
and pulses knocking out I want you . . . I want you . . . against the
stones. It upheld her when, towards dawn, she paced the garden, pausing
every now and then to lean her cheek against the dew-wet lilac leaves;
or when she tangled her hands in the grass till the damp blades
whimpered as she pulled her fingers up them. Sound was a help to her,
and when she roused the grass to cries or stirred the bushes to quick
whispering the voice in herself was quieter. She was never violent to
anything in the garden, and when action became hurried she turned it
upon herself, beating her hands against her thighs. And always It was
for him upheld her through the darkest times of paying for what she
For what she had gone without that help was lacking. It was not
passion, which, when with him, she had never felt, that plucked at her
unbearably, it was the thwarted fruit of passion that haunted and
reproached her. Before his letter came, dream-babies had clustered
round her, wringing their little hands behind a closed transparent
door, but these were visions of what might have been had circumstances
been differentthem she could bear. Now thought narrowed and gained in
meaning: one baby surged towards her, cried to her, smiled at her, lay
in air always just away from her breastone baby that was what might
have been even as things were. How would it matter what other women he
loved better if she had only given him what no other woman had? She saw
herself his slayer in that she had not made life for him in the way a
woman can make it for her lover, by taking it of his and creating
afresh with it. Her own life would be such a small price to pay. For
Sophia was a born creator, and the seeming futility of all she was
undergoing, and the barrenness it bound her to, filled her with a sense
It was not until the compulsion which bread-winners know was making
it clear to Sophia that her last days at Sant' Ambrogio were come, that
the influences at work upon her ever since her arrival, that had first
revealed themselves to her in her walk round the town, fused and
The day had been unbearably hot, and Sophia lay behind closed
persiani, the green of the leaves without reflecting on to the
whitewashed walls so that the room seemed a pool of green dusk. Sophia
read a little old Latin Vita Sanctæ Beatæ, which she pondered
over when, in the cool of the evening, she sought the place in the
She found something, thought Sophia; I wonder what it was? Peace,
of course, but what got her to it? For outwardly her life was as bare
as mineand she had never known even what I know ofthings. And yet,
they say that in religion there is every experience. . . . I wonder if
the babies she might have borne if she'd married some fellow-peasant
ever beat at her reproachfully? And if so, what it was she found? She
lived here, I suppose, walked in the garden and sat in my place in the
wallI wonder what she felt here. . . .
All was very quiet and still on the wall, and for the first time
since Richard's letter had come Sophia's aching was a little soothed,
the taut fibres of her relaxed and her mind slid into receptivity. Then
a more positive change began to make itself felt to her, though she
could not have traced its birth or growth if she had tried.
The first note of difference was a physical one. Sophia was
short-sighted and saw the world in a blur; now her sight began to take
precision of outline and then the things at which she was looking
changed too. The towers were more numerous, and from some of them flags
fluttered out, and not till long after did Sophia remember that there
had been no breeze that evening. Looking for the house over the
tree-tops of the garden she saw that it had shrunk oddly, and an outer
stairway crawled up its wall. On the sundial lay a rosary of dark
beadsSophia could see its steel cross glitter in the evening light.
These were outward changes, on their heels came the inward change
that made them seem natural to her. It was as though she were in one of
those dreams when the dreamer knows who he is and that he will soon
wake up, and yet does and says the most incongruous things; with this
differenceSophia had a curious feeling that it was some one else's
dream which had taken hold of her. She struggled against it at first as
against an anæsthetic, but the thing crept over her like a tide.
A child's cry came from the town, and Sophia felt a sudden
contraction at the heart, and with a thrill realized that this new
Person in her felt it alsothat they were at one. With that shock of
mutual sensation the fusion became more nearly complete; of Sophia's
own consciousness was left only enough to know that she was still
herself, hearing, seeing, and feeling what some one else had heard and
seen and felt before her in that place. She knew, too, that the drama
played in her soul ever since she came to Sant' Ambrogio, a wordless
drama in which no human being had taken part, was drawing to a climax,
and that the human element had invaded it at last. She was about to
learn what it was for which those weeks, especially that hour outside
the wall, had prepared her.
The air was very clear, and to the long sight with which Sophia was
seeing, seemed preternaturally so, as though everything were set in a
vast crystal which made visible each pebble and grass-blade. A numbness
stole over her body, her hands ached with cold before they, too, lost
sensation, and in this numbed frame her consciousness gathered
intensity. Then with a shock, as sudden as a plunge into cold water,
her mind slid on to what seemed another though not an alien plane. Her
mind's eye saw all the old points of view, the accepted angles of
vision, as though torn up and scattered like flung wreckage over the
shining shore of the world that swung below her; things which had
seemed big were small, all relative sizes were altered, perspective
itself seemed run mad, except that after the first breath the knowledge
that this was the true angle swept over herthat she, or rather, the
Person whose vision she was receiving, was looking at the spiritual
world from the point at which she herself had vaguely imagined gazing
at the physical.
Round this spiritual globe she saw the Breath of God hang as the air
hangs round the earth, and she saw it full of ebbing and flowing like a
current-whorled river. She saw how no wind left emptiness where it had
been, but how the elastic tissue thinned out, spread, gathered
together, ran here and there so that no outflow was without its
inevitable influence of contraction: the whole sphere of air was a
medley of pattern, always rhythmic and interchanging. She felt how this
elasticity was brought into play over the surface of the spiritual
world, how actions, sins, pains of mind and body, rack this way and
that as they would, were always enveloped by the divine Breath, even as
on the material globe not a wave can break or a leaf stir but the river
of air holds true. Always the movements of the Breath made a pattern,
as invisible to the soul in the midst of it as the wind-pattern is to
those on earth, a pattern inevitable in the sense that achieved beauty
always strikes the eye, as being inevitable in its rightness.
Then, this measure of universal comfort given, sensation narrowed
and concentrated, not on her soul, but on the soul which had felt long
ago, probably far more intensely, what she was seeing by it and through
As Sophia felt the anguish of the Person who had absorbed her, she
realized it was the same as hersthe fear and pain of barrenness.
Whether she had known all along that it was the repeat, the echo, of a
vision of Beata's that was on her, or whether she only knew it then,
she could never have told. No actual child that might have been cried
to the Beata consciousness, only natural longings apart from any one
person, yet the anguish bit keenly, for with it went fearthe deadly
fear lest barrenness should be deliberate sin against life. Powerless
to help, Sophia saw the thought turn in the other's mind, and with that
they both entered into the last phase of the vision. Here Sophia, who
had not trained herself, like Beata, to prolonged sustaining of the
will, flagged and began to fail. A brightness that was too strong for
her, a sense as of great Shapes, a looming Presence, swept on to her,
wrapped her round, overweighted her. She struggled to keep up with the
Beata consciousness, for she knew if only she could succeed in that she
would find the answer to her own sorrow and Beata's fear. The outer
world had begun to come back, the towers of the town showed as through
a mist, some growing more and more definite; some, those of Beata's
day, wavering uncertainly. . . . She strained her flagging nerves,
caught at her subsiding energies in one last effort. . . . A divine
warmth suffused her breast; sky and air were filled with the gleam of a
fiery Child that flashed towards her, filled her arms; and sank, not
away, but into her very soul and, like quick stars, she saw the wounds
on His hands and feet.
With that she knew, as Beata had known, that this was the reward of
virginity, that each virgin could mother the Christ-child afresh. She
knew that to those to whom the joy of making a living body with its
corresponding soul is denied, creation is not stilled, that there need
be no barrenness in a garden enclosed. For she saw that there is no
sterility save that of the wilful mind.
With a shock the present reeled into its place; spiritual vision was
past and physical vision lost keenness as her own blurred sight swam
back to her; and, worn out, hardly conscious of her own life, but
filled with peace, Sophia lay along the seat in the kindly dusk.
She was still to know month upon month of pain; sometimes acute as
when she stayed out of doors all night and made sounds and hurt herself
physically to distract her mind's distress; but mostly an ache that
bore on her like a weight, sometimes invading dreams and always by her
bedside when she awakened. She was to find that for the friendship she
could have made so exquisite he had no gift; she was to feel the many
hurts his lack of thoughtfulness inflicted; she was to bear the
unhappiness of seeing him unworthy of all that might have been so good
in him as he let himself drift into flirtations where not one of his
finer senses was touched. She was to feel one sharpest hour of any,
when the time came, which, if she had given herself would have seen his
child in her arms. . . .
And through everything, through the dreadful London months of
loneliness and the cruder physical hardships of extreme poverty;
through her weary clear-eyed knowledge of him she was to come back
perpetually to the refrainthat surprised herself after a few weeks of
comparative calm when she hoped she was getting over itof How I
love him. She had no high-flown theories of love; she knew he was not
what is tritely called the right man, he was morehe was the one she
loved well enough to forgive for not being the right one, and in
those moments there was no evading the simple fact that she would have
given all the rest of her life to have been his wife for one year and
have borne him a child.
But, through and above and around all that, went the memory of
Beata's vision which she too had seen. The vision itself was often dark
and meaningless to her in the actuality of her love and pain, but of
the knowledge that she had had it she was never bereft. Also, it was
hers to create those pleasant fruits and chief spices of which the
greatest love-song in the world tells as growing only in a garden
THE MAN WITH TWO MOUTHS
On a grey day a girl was walking along a crescent of sand that
curved at the cliff's base. As she went the water welled up in the
slanting hollows left by her feet, and the fat, evil-looking leaves of
the cliff plants glistened with spray moisture; even the swollen
fingers of the marsh samphire, that all seemed to point at the girl as
she passed, each bore a tremulous drop at the tip. At the end of the
little beach the girl paused, and then turned to look out to sea,
balancing herself on a slab of wet shiny granite, where the cone-shaped
shellfish clustered and from which the long green weed floated out and
in on the heave of the tide. The girl held back the red hair that
whipped about her forehead and stared from under an arched palm.
'Tes naught but a plaguey dolphin, d'believe, she muttered, yet
still stayed for one more glimpse of the dark thing that was bobbing up
through the curdling foam-pattern. A stinging scatter of spray blew
into her eyes, blinding her, and when she looked again the dark thing
had come nearer, and she saw it to be the body of a man caught in the
ratlines of some shrouds that the sea's action had lapped around the
mast they had once guarded. Were it not that his chin was hitched over
the ratlines, so that he was borne along with his facea pale blot
among the paler blots of the foamupturned, he would doubtless have
sunk, for he was not lashed to the mast in any way. A huge foam patch
had formed in the web made by the tangled shrouds, so that his head and
shoulders showed clearly against the creaming halo, on which his long
hair, dark with wet and released from its queue, lay streaked away from
his tilted face. The girl called to him twice in her strong, rough
voice; then, since even if he still lived he was past any consciousness
of doing so, she kept her energies for the saving of him. Wading in as
deep as she darednot more than up to her hips, for even then the
heave and suction of the water threatened to knock her off her
feetshe clung on to a ridge of rock with one hand, and, leaning
forward, made snatches at the spar whenever it surged towards her. To
her dismay she saw that with every heave his legs must be catching
against some rocks, for his head began to sink away from the supporting
ratlines, and when at last she caught one end of the spar she only
succeeded in drawing it away from him. His head disappeared; for a
moment the dark hole in the midst of the foam-circle held, then broke,
and was overrun as the whiteness closed upon it. The next minute a
surge of undercurrent brought him knocking against her legs; she just
managed to hold on with one hand while with the other she plunged down
at him. Her fingers met the cold sleekness of his face, then caught in
his tangled hair, and, drawing herself up backwards against the
rock-ledges, she pulled him with her, step by step. A few moments more
and she had staggered up the narrow strip of beach with her burden
dragging from her arms. Tumbling him along the drier sand at the
cliff's foot, she knelt beside him, and with hands trembling from the
strain that had been put upon the muscles, she pulled apart the
clinging shirt that was so sodden it seemed to peel from off him. She
felt at his heart, then laid her ear to the pale glistening chest where
the dark hair was matted to a point between the breasts; she beat that
pale chest with her hand, and at last saw the faint red respond to the
blows of her fingers. On that much of hope she desisted, seemed to
hesitate, then half-hauling him up by a hand beneath each shoulder, she
began dragging him towards where the cliff curved outwards again to the
sea. At a point some three or four feet from the ground the cliff
overhung so that it was possible to imagine creeping beneath it at low
tide, though a curtain of glossy spleen-wort hung down so thickly it
was difficult to tell. Going upon her knees, the girl crawled backwards
under the dripping dark green fringe, and pulled the man in after her.
Within, a tunnel, in which it was soon possible to walk upright, led at
a gradual incline up to what was apparently the heart of the cliff,
which here was honeycombed into those smugglers' caves of the West of
which even now all the secrets are not known. Up this incline she got
herself and him, and at last dragged him triumphantly into the big cave
where she and her father, Bendigo Keast, stored the smuggled goods in
which they traded so successfully. It was very dark, but with
accustomed hands she felt for the small iron box in which the flint and
tinder were kept; soon a tiny flame sprang to life, and she passed it
on to a wick that floated limply in a little cup of stinking fish-oil
on the floor. In the mere breath of light thus given the rows of
stacked barrels loomed dimly, the outermost curve of each gleaming
faintly, while between them the shadow lay banded.
Thomasin Keast ran some brandy from a little keg near into her palm
and tilted it between the man's teeth, then slopped the raw spirit over
his shirt, drenching it again. Thennot stripping him, for the modesty
of a Cornish woman, who thinks shame to show even her feet, prevented
thatshe filled her hands with brandy and ran them in under his
clothes, rubbing tirelessly up and down till the flesh began to dry and
tingle. Around his reddened neck, where the soft young beard merged
into wet curls, she rubbed; over his shoulders, where the big pectoral
muscles came swelling past his armpits like a cape, then down the
serried ribs that she could knead the supple flesh around, past the
curve-in of the whole body beneath them, to the gracious slimness of
the flanks and the nervous indentation of the groins between the trunk
and the springing arches of the thighs. So Thomasin knelt in the gloom
of the cave, and all the time that his life was coming painfully and
reluctantly back to him under her strong, glowing hands, she felt as
though some presage of new life were flowing into herself. The old saw
has it that the saving of a drowning man brings ill-luck to his
rescuer; but Thomasin, as she watched grow in his features that
intangible something which makes the face human instead of a mere mask,
scorned the superstition; and still more she scorned it as her urgent
hands felt the rising beat of his pulses and arteries. For during that
time his hidden form became so known to her that his every curve and
muscle, the very feel of the strong-growing hair upon him softening
into down as his skin dried, all impressed themselves clearly on her
memory for ever, and she felt him hershers by right of discovery as
well as right of salvage.
* * * * *
Thomasin Keast and her father lived in a little four-square cottage
set about half a mile from the headlanda half-mile of thorn and
bracken, of tumbled boulders and wedges of furze almost as solid. Here
in the spring the yellow-hammer and the linnet, the stonechat and the
whinchat, shrilled their first notes, and at dawn the greybird thrust a
thirsty beak into the dewy blackthorn blossoms; here the dun-coloured
rabbits darted in and out of their burrows with a gleam of white scuts.
Here, too, Keast and his daughter herded the moorland ponies that,
well-soaped, were loaded with the barrels of spirit and packets of lace
which had been brought from France at dark of the moon. The cottage was
of rough grey granite, with a roof crusted with yellow stonecrop that
looked as though it had been spilled molten over the slates. On either
side of the door a great wind-buttress, reaching to the eaves, swept
out like a sheltering wing.
This was the place to which Thomasin Keast brought her man on that
stormy evening. Dusk was already making the air deeply, softly blue,
and through it the whitewashed lintel gleamed out almost as clearly as
the phosphorescent fish nailed against the wall. Half-leading,
half-supporting him, Thomasin steered the stranger between the
buttresses and through the narrow doorway into the living-room. A peat
fire glowed on the hearth and against it the figure of a crouching man
showed dark. At the noise in the doorway he thrust an armful of furze
on to the fire, and the quick crackling flare that followed threw a
reflection like the flashing of summer lightning over the whitewashed
walls, sending the shadows scurrying into the corners and revealing the
man whose big hand, ridged with raised veins that ran up to the wrist,
was still upon the furze-stem.
Bendigo Keast was not long past his prime of strength and could
still have out-wrestled many a younger man. Through his jersey the
working of his enormous shoulders showed as plainly as those of a cat
beneath her close fur, and under his chin the reddish beard could not
hide the knots of his powerful throat. His eyes, blue and
extraordinarily alert, were half-hidden by the purpled lids, and the
massive folds of his cheeks that came down in a furrow on either side
of his slightly incurved mouth, looked hard as iron. Like most seamen
when within doors, he was in his stockings, and as he rose and his bulk
swayed forward his feet broadened a little and gripped at the uneven
flagstones like those of a great ape.
Thomasin spoke first.
'Tes a man I found drownen', da, she said, and in her voice
uneasiness mingled with a readiness for defiance. He'm most dead wi'
salt water, and cold. Us must get en to the bed to wance. Da . . .
Where did ee find en? asked Bendigo Keast, without moving.
Did a see aught?
How should a, and him nigh drowned? evaded Thomasin; then, as the
stranger sank on to the settle and let his wet brown head fall limply
back against it, she went over to a crock of milk that stood in the
window-sill and poured some into a saucepan.
Get en to the bed, da, she said more sharply. I'll see to your
supper. He must have nawthen but milk for the night.
Bendigo came forward, and, swinging his long arms round the man,
carried him off up the stairs that led from the living-room into the
first of the two tiny bedrooms. He soon came down again.
Tell me how tes a smells of brandy? he demanded.
I rubbed en down wi' et to put life into en. Thomasin spoke
quietly, but the sound of her stirring spoon grew less rhythmical.
Then a did see?
Da, listen to me, said Thomasin, turning round. S'pose a did see,
what then? He'm naught but a foreigner from up-country, and wouldn't
know to give we away. Ands'posen he'm minded to stay by uswell, you
d'knaw we'm needing another hand. We must find one somewhere, and
there's none o' the chaps to the church-town would come in wi' us,
because us have allus stood by oursel' and made our own profits. But
now Dan's dead, you d'knaw as well's I us must get another hand to help
in the Merrymaid. If you wern't so strong and I as good as a
man, it would ha' needed four of us to ha' run her.
How can us knaw whether to trust en? asked Bendigo suspiciously.
Tes bad luck to save a man from the sea, they do say.
Don't decide nawthen tell you've talked wi' en, advised Thomasin.
May be the poor chap was too mazed to take notice o' what he saw.
Us'll knaw to-morrow.
And next day the rescued man was sitting by the hearth, somewhat
stiff from bruises, but otherwise with his wiry frame none the worse.
His looks had strikingly improved, for now that the soft beard, which
had never known a razor, was dry, it peaked forward a little, whereas
when wet it had clung to his too narrow jaw and revealed a lax line of
His story was soon toldthe brig on which he was mate had been
returning from France when a squall overtook her, and she became a
total wreck. He had clung to the floating spar for several hours before
losing consciousness, when the tangled ratlines had borne him up and
the tide had swept him into the shoreward current which set round the
And the first thing I knew, he ended, was your face, mistress,
bending over me in your cave. . . .
Keast shot a glance at his daughter. They had exchanged looks
before, at the man's mention of France, and now Bendigo flung a few
veiled phrases, with here and there a cant term common to smugglers, at
his guest, who understood him perfectly, and himself became entirely
frank. His name, he said, was Robin Start, and that there was mixed
blood in him he admitted. A more gracious race showed itself in his
quick turns of wrist and eye, his ease of phrase, in his ready
gallantry towards Thomasin. Yes, said Robin Start, his mother was a
Frenchwoman, and had taught him her tonguea fact he found useful in
his dealings on the other side of the Channel.
A bargain is an intricate and subtle thing in Cornwall, a thing of
innuendoes and reservations, and the one Bendigo Keast struck with the
stranger was not without subtleties on both sides. Robin Start had
quite understood all he had seen in the cave, and had made a mental
note of the way out, which gave him a hold over Bendigo. On the other
hand, Robin, who suffered paroxysms of craving for safety in the
intervals of delighting in danger, knew it was safer to come in with
Bendigo and make something for himself smuggling than it would be for
him to think of escaping from that muscular father and daughter if he
declined. As for Keast, it was true that since his nephew Dan had been
knocked on the head by a swing of the boom, he needed some one to take
the lad's place. A bottle of smuggled rum sealed the bargain, and then,
for the first time in her life, Thomasin was talked to as a woman. To
her father a partner; a mere fellow-man to the dark, silent Daniel who
now lay in the lap of the tides; shunned by the envious villagers, and
looked at askance by the Government men, Thomasin had never known of
the sphere which began to be revealed to her that evening. For one
thing, she was plain, though in certain lights or effects of wind she
looked fine enough in a high-boned, rock-hewn way. She was what is
called in that part of the world a red-headed Dane, and her broad,
strongly modelled face was thickly powdered with freckles. Though she
was only twenty-two, hundreds of nights of exposure to wind and wet had
roughened her skin, but at the opening of her bodice, where a hint of
collar-bones showed like a bar beneath the firm flesh, her skin was
privet-white. The slim, brown-haired Robin with his quick eyes was a
contrast in looks and manners to anyone she had ever met, and mingled
with her awe and wonder of him was the fierce sense of possession that
had entered into her when she passed her hands over and over him in the
cave. Also she felt maternal towards him because, though he must have
been nigh upon thirty, he was one of those men who have a quality of
It was a stormy autumn that year, and little was possible in the way
of business; but for Thomasin, who up till now had lived so
whole-heartedly for her partnership with her father, it became that
time of which at least the mirage appears to every one once in life.
For her happiness she and Robin repainted her other love, the
Merrymaid, together; giving her a new black coat and a white
ribbon, and changing the green of her upright stem to blue. The
Merrymaid was constantly adopting little disguises of the sort,
running sometimes under barked sails, sometimes under white, and
alternating between a jib and a gaff-topsail with a square head. Then
in the long winter evenings the Keasts and Robin would sit by the fire,
Bendigo pulling at his clay pipe, and Thomasin knitting a perpetual
grey stockingsurely as innocent and law-abiding an interior as could
have been found!while Robin told them tales of all he had seen and
done. Bendigo now and then gave a grunt that might have been of
dissent, interest, or merely of incipient sleep, but Thomasin sat
enthralled by the soft tones that to her mind could have lured a bird
from the egg. Robin told of the thick yellow sea towards the north of
China, so distinct from the blue sea around that it looked more like a
vast shoal of sand, stretching for mile upon mile. He told, too, of the
reddish dust, fine as mist, which once fell for days over his ship when
he was far out at sea; it fell until the decks seemed like a dry soft
beach, and lungs and eyes and at last their very souls seemed filled
with it. His captain said it was blown along the upper air all the way
from the Mongolian plains, but he himself thought it came from Japan,
that country of volcanoes. Thomasin's ideas of volcanoes were derived
from a broadside she had once seen which represented Vesuvius
apparently on fire from the base, but she felt sure the mysterious sand
was of the devil, and must come from somewhere hot.
So Robin talked and Thomasin listened, and with the coming of spring
new portents woke in her blood and stirred the air. Robin began to slip
his hand up her arm when he stood beside her in the shadow of the
wind-buttresses, and when they went down to the caves he would make
opportunities to press against her in the passages. The sheer animal
magnetism of the girl allured him, and he found her crude and hitherto
fierce aloofness going to his head. Though frequently now he felt a
sudden passion of distaste for the physical strength of this father and
daughter sweep over him, yet would come another passion, waked by the
wonder of it that still lay in Thomasin's eyesand he would think of
what a pleasure was at his hand in Thomasin's potentialities for
passion and the freshness of her. . . .
She herself was reluctant yet, for all her hot blood and untrained
nature, partly because of the ingrained suspicion of soft things her
upbringing had engendered, partly because of the eternal instinct which
prompts withdrawal for the purpose of luring on. But in her heart she
knewshe knew when the spring was on the cliffs, and he and she lay on
the thymy grass watching for the fish-shoals; when around Robin's
turf-pillowed head the rose-specked, flesh-hued cups of the
sea-milkwort stood up brimming with the jewelled air as with a divine
nectar; when among the cushions of silvery lichen and grey-green moss
the scented gorse flung a riot of yellow, and the mating birds answered
each other on a note like secret laughter. Then Thomasin would
sometimes close her eyes for the happiness she dared not yet
acknowledge; yet those days of soft joy and beauty were as nothing to
the night of hard work and danger that finally brought her surging
blood to acknowledge him as lordthat night when all the dominant male
in him was of necessity stung to the surface by danger.
They were running a cargo of thirty barrels over from Francehe,
she, and her father. The Merrymaid, which was sloop-rigged and
of about twenty tons burden, was quite enough for the three to handle,
laden as she was with the corded tubs slung together with the stones
already attached; for it was proposed to sink the cargo and then run on
to harbour openly, a thing frequently done when the Preventive men were
known to be on the watch. Robin was suffering from one of his
nerve-revulsions; he dared show no sign of it, but as he sat in the
bows, keeping a look-out through the darkness, he told himself that if
this trip were brought off in safety it would be the last as far as he
was concerned. He could stand the portentous figure of Bendigo looming
at him through the little cottage no more, and he knew what to do. . .
. As for Thomasin, he would not lose hera woman surely sticks by her
man. And if not, she would never harm him; and there were other women
in the worldfor the appeal Thomasin had for him was of sex, and not
Thomasin sat with her arm along the tiller, keeping the Merrymaid
on a nor'-nor'-west course so as to make the Lizard light. They were
running under their foresail and close-reefed mainsail only, for the
south-west wind for which they had waited was swelling to storm-fury.
The Merrymaid lay right over, the water scolding past her
dipping gunwale and the clots of spindrift that whirled over the side
gleaming like snowflakes in the darkness, which was of that intense
quality which becomes vibrant to long staring. Robin, straining his
eyes, was only aware of the danger when they were almost on it, but his
voice shrieked out on the instant to Thomasin: Hard-a-port! and
again, in a desperate hurry of sound, Hard-a-port!
Thomasin jambed the helm up as Bendigo, with the agility of long use
to sudden danger, eased off the sheets; and then Thomasin could see
what menaced them. A Preventive boat, like themselves with no light
save the wretched glimmer over the compass, had been lying to under her
mizzen, and already her men were making sail. Thomasin sat gripping the
tiller while the voices of her menfolk came to her ears.
The topsail! shouted Robin; but Bendigo's voice made answer: Not
till us has toit might rip mast off in this gale. Try the jib. . . .
They set the jib and shook out the reefs in the mainsail, and the
Merrymaid answered to it like a racehorse to the whip. She quivered
all her length, the tiller pushed like a sentient thing against
Thomasin's palm and they went reeling on.
For nearly an hour they ran before the wind, helped by the
flood-tide, and all the time the Preventive boat was slowly gaining on
them, for she was carrying a larger stretch of canvas. She was nearly
upon them when the sound of breaking surf told that they were nearing
the Manacles, and the tide was still fairly low. Suddenly Robin's voice
came again, this time with a thrill in it: Now's our chance! he
called. We'll hoist the topsail and make a run for it inside of the
He was at the mast as he spoke, and Thomasin heard the thin scream
of the unoiled sheave as the topsail halliards ran through it. The next
moment the mast creaked and bent; the almost useless jib slackened as
the other sails took all of the wind, and the Merrymaid shook
her nose and plunged into the broken water that gleamed between the
blackness of the mainland and the Manacles.
They'll never dare follow! cried Bendigo; and even as he did so,
the Preventive boat, trusting to her superior speed to make good, began
to come round to the wind so as to pass the Manacles on the outer side.
The added strain proved too much, and her mast snapped with a report
like a gunshotthe one clean, sharp sound through all that flurry of
rushing, edgeless noise, and it told its own tale to the eager ears on
the Merrymaid. She, under the influence of the topsail, was
burying her bows at every plunge, and Thomasin knew, by the sudden
cessation of the tiller's tug, that the rudder had lifted clear of the
racing water, only to drive into it again with a blow that sent her
reeling. Thomasin's fight with the boat she loved began in real
earnest. Yawing stubbornly, the Merrymaid pulled against the
tiller so that the rough wood seemed to burn into Thomasin's flesh, so
hard had she to grip it to keep the boat's head from going up into the
With the breath failing in her throat, she had none left to cry for
help; she could only wrestle with the tiller, which, all the weight of
the yawing Merrymaid against it, seemed about to crush her.
Then hands came over hers in the darkness, and even at that moment
her flesh knew Robin's.
Tell me if I make a mistake; you know this hell-pool better than
me, he called to her through the noise of the surf; and, with an
easing of the muscles so exquisite as to be almost a pain in itself,
she felt him absorb the weight of the boat into his grip. With the
lifting of that strain from her shoulders and arms came the realization
of how mercilessly his hands were grinding hers against the tiller, yet
that pain sent the first tremor of unadulterated passion through her
that she had ever felt, because it was the first time he had hurt her.
There was no need for her to call directions to himhe and she were so
welded in one at the tiller that the unconscious pull of her arm
beneath his told him, in his state of receptive tension, what to do
more surely than any words. That was their true matingnot what
followed afterbut there in the stern of the reeling Merrymaid;
for all that was least calculated and finest in Robin had leapt to the
need of it, and their consciousness was fused as completely in the
fight for life as the pain in their hands was at the tiller.
They were throughthrough and safe, and five minutes more saw them
round the point and in the calmer water, where they slipped the cargo,
and soon after they had made the harbour under easy sail, innocent of
contraband from stem to stern.
All danger over, Thomasin felt oddly faint, and let her father go on
ahead across the moor while she hung heavily on Robin's arm, her numbed
hands slowly tingling back to life as they went. Arrived at the
cottage, a faint light, that went out even as they looked, told of
Bendigo's entry, and Robin set the lantern he carried on the flagstones
between the buttresses. Thomasin leant back against one of them, and
the dim light, flickering upwards, softened her marked bones and
brightened her eyes. Every defect of skin was hidden; it showed pale,
and her mouth velvet dark upon it. Robin's lips fastened on her throat
below her ear and stayed there till she stirred and gave a little cry,
then his mouth moved on and up till it found hers. The kiss deepened
between them; his head bent, hers upstretched. Time stayed still for
one moment, during which she wanted nothing furthershe was not
conscious of the ground beneath her or the pain in her back-tilted
neck, not even of his supporting arms or the throbbing of him against
herall her being was fused at the lips, and she felt as though
hanging in space from his mouth alone.
* * * * *
Robin Start waited till the cargo had been safely run and sold, and
then he went across the moor to the village and made a compact with the
Preventive men. The excitement of that night had had its usual way with
him, and he wished never to meet danger again as long as he lived. He
was suffering from a somewhat similar revulsion as regarded Thomasin,
though there he knew the old allure would raise its head again for him.
Bendigo's suspicious guard of him had relaxed, partly because the elder
man admitted that it was Robin's nerve which had planned the dash that
saved them, partly because he guessed how it was with his daughter, and
thought Robin safely theirs. . . . And Robin had at last done that
which had been in his mind ever since the beginning, and had sold the
secret of the caves to his Majesty's Government. Nervous of being
overheard in the village inn, Robin took the two head men with him over
the moor to the headland, safe in the knowledge that Bendigo was
drinking heavily in the cottagethe way in which he always rewarded
himself for a successful run. Robin showed the men the cunningly hidden
entrances to the passages, and then for a few minutes they all three
stood making their final arrangements. Robin found it wonderfully
simple, the step once taken. It was agreed that the officers of the law
were to surround the cottage that night after its inmates were abed,
all save Robin, who was to be sitting in the kitchen ready to open the
door. No harm was to be done to the girland, indeed, the Preventive
men knew enough of Cornish juries to know that Bendigo Keast himself
would get an acquittal; but his claws would be drawn, which was all
they wanted. Robin, unaware of this peculiarity of a Cornish jury,
would have been considerably alarmed had he known of it. Bendigo free
to revenge himself had not entered into the scheme of the man from
up-country, where the law was a less individual matter.
At ten o'clock then, my man, were the last words of the Preventive
officer; but he added to his companion as they walked away: The dirty
double-mouth! and the distaste of the official for the necessary
informer was in his voice. At ten o'clock, echoed Robin, and then was
aware of a quick rustling behind himmuch the noise that a big adder
makes as it leaves its way through a dry tuft of grass. The sun was
already setting, and the glamorous light made vision uncertain, yet
Robin thought he saw a movement of the gorse more than the breeze
warranted. The bush in question was one of those which concealed an
opening to the caves, and Robin pulled it aside and peered into the
darkness. Silence and stillness rewarded him, and he swung his legs
over and descended a little way. All was quiet and empty in that
passage; he turned into anotherthat, too, was innocent of any
presence save his. He went through up that exit, and, still uneasy,
stared across the moor. If anyoneif by chance Thomasin had been in
the passage, she could have slipped out that way while he was entering
by the other, and be out of sight by now. . . . The sweat sprang on to
Robin's brow. Then he took counsel with himself. There was no reason
why Thomasin should be at the caves; nothing was doing there. It would
be the most unlikely thing on earth, because neither she nor her father
ever ran the unnecessary risk of going there between the cargoes. Robin
knew this, and felt reassuredhow, after all, could he imagine that
Thomasin, sick at the reaction she felt in him, might have gone to
re-gather force at the place where she had first felt him hers? . . .
He thought over what he had said, and took still more heart when he
remembered he had not let fall a word that showed a light holding of
Thomasin; and that, he told himself, was the only thing a woman could
not forgive. He felt it safe to count on passion as against the habit
of a mere business partnership, which was all her relationship with her
father had ever been. Dimly Robin was aware that all her spiritual life
had gone into that partnership, into the feeling of her family against
the world that had become an obsession with her until he had brought
another interest into her life; but Robin Start would not have believed
an angel from heaven who had told him that the habit of years could be
stronger with a woman than a new passion. And, as regarded most women,
Robin would probably have been right. Besides, it was impossible that
any one could have been there, and Thomasin was his. . . . He gave
himself a little shake and set off to the cottage, and such was the
force of his revulsion against a life of dangers and the sinister
suggestiveness of the Keasts' muscular superiority, that he felt his
heart lighter than it had been for months past. He was even
pleasurably, though subconsciously, aware of the poignant beauty of the
evening, and noted the rich shrilling of a thrush from the alders by
the stream. It was one of those evenings when, for a few minutes, the
light holds a peculiarly rosy quality that refracts from each sharply
angled surface of leaf or curved grass-blade; steeps even the shadows
with wine-colour, and imparts a reddish purple to every woody shoot,
from the trunks of trees to the stray twigs of thorn piercing the turf.
Wine-coloured showed the stems of the alders, the lines of blackthorn
hedges, the distant drifts of elms whose branches were still only
faintly misted with buds. Beneath Robin's feet the yellow red-tipped
blossoms of the bird's-foot trefoil borrowed of the flushed radiance
till they seemed as though burning up through the ardent grass, and on
the alders the catkins gleamed like still thin flakes of fire. The
whole world for a few magic moments was lapped in an unharmful flame
that had glow without heat, and through the gentle glory of it Robin
At ten o'clock that night, with no lanterns to betray them, half a
dozen Preventive men, followed by several of the leading men in the
village, who had got wind of the affair and were eager to see the
self-sufficient Keasts brought to book, all came up over the moor
through the darkness. No light showed in the cottage as they neared it,
but that was merely because the buttress, sweeping at right angles to
the window, obscured it from the approach. The buttress once rounded,
the men saw the light shining as Robin Start had promised. The officer
motioned the others to stay quiet, and thenhe was a mere lad, and
eager to be the first in everythinghe tiptoed to the window and
Robin Start was sitting quietly in the armchair, a candle burning on
the stool beside him. There was nothing alarming in that, yet the next
moment the boy at the window stepped back with a great cry.
He's got two mouths! he shrieked. He's got two mouths!
* * * * *
Far out on the dark Channel father and daughter were drawing away in
the Merrymaid, the rising wind and some other urgent thing at
their backs, but the sense of justice done as their solace.
And in the cottage, his wrists tightly roped to the arms of the
chair and his silky beard shaved away, sat Robin Start. The footlight
effect of the candle eliminated all shadow under his sloping chin,
making it seem one with his throat, and that was cut from ear to ear.
For the only thing on which he had not calculated was that before such
treachery as his passion drops like a shot bird.
The candle flame flared up as the last of the tallow ran in a pool
round the yielding wick, and for one distorted moment the edges of the
slit throat flickered to the semblance of a smile. Then the flame
reeled and sank, and, spark by spark, the red of the glowing wick died
into the darkness.
WHY SENATH MARRIED
Asenath Lear was neither a pretty woman nor a particularly young
one, but having in the first instance embraced spinsterhood
voluntarily, she was cheerfully resigned to its enforced continuance.
All the world knew she had been asked by Samuel Harvey of the Upper
Farm, and though all the world considered her a fool for refusing him,
it still could not throw in her face the taunt that she had never had a
She had said no to Samuel because at that time she was young
enoughbeing but twentyto nurse vague yearnings for something more
romantic than the stolid Sam, but the years fled taking with them the
bloom that had been her only beauty, and romance never showed so much
as the tip of a wing-feather.
I'm doubtful but that you were plum foolish to send Sam'l Harvey to
another woman's arms, Senath, her mother told her once, but there, I
never was one for driving a maid. There's a chance yet; ef you'll look
around you'll see 'tes the plain-featured women as has the husbands.
'Tes because the pretty ones wouldn't have en, I fear, said Senath
on a gleam of truth, but with a very contented laugh, men's a pack of
trouble in the flesh. I would ha' wed sure 'nough ef et hadn' been that
when you get to knaw a man you see him as somethen' so different from
your thought of him.
Eh, you and your thoughts . . . cried the petulant old mother,
quoting better than she knew, they'll have to be your man and your
Senath, the idealist, was well content that it should be so, and
when her mother's death left her her own mistress, she went to live in
a tiny cottage up on the moors with no companions but those
thoughtsthe thoughts at once crude and vague, but strangely
penetratingof an untaught mind whose natural vigour has been neither
guided nor cramped by education.
Her cottage, that stood four-square in the eye of the wind, was set
where the moorland began, some few fields away from the high road. At
the back was the tiny garden where Senath coaxed some potatoes and
beans from out the grudging earth; and two apple trees, in an ecstasy
of contortion, supported the clothes-line from which great sheets,
golden-white in the sun, bellied like sails, or enigmatic garments of
faded pinks and blues proclaimed the fact that Senath took in
On the moor in front of the cottage stood nineteen stones,
breast-high, set in a huge circle. Within this circle the grass, for
some reason, was of a more vivid green than on the rest of the moor,
and against it the stones on the nearer curve showed a pale grey, while
the further ones stood up dark against the sky, for beyond them the
moor sloped slightly to the cliffs and the sea.
These stones were known as the Nineteen Merry Maidens, and legend
had it that once they were living, breathing girls, who had come up to
that deserted spot to dance upon a Sunday. As they twirled this way and
that in their sinful gyrations, the doom of petrification descended on
them, as it did on the merry-makers of old when Perseus dangled the
Gorgon's head aloft. So the nineteen maidens stand to this day, a huge
fairy-ring of stone, like those smaller ones of fragile fungi that also
enclose a circle of greener grass in the radius of their stems. Two
luckless men, whom the maidens had beguiled to pipe for them, turned
and fled, but they, too, were overtaken by judgment in a field further
on along the road, and stand there to this day, a warning against the
profanation of the Sabbath.
When Senath was asked why she had taken such a lonely cottage, she
replied that it was on account of the Merry Maidensthey were such
company for her. Often, of an evening, she would wander round the
circle, talking aloud after the fashion of those who live alone. She
had given each of the stones a name, and every one of them seemed, to
her starved fancy, to have a personality of its own. Senath Lear, what
with the mixed strains of blood that were her Cornish heritage, and the
added influence of isolation, was fast becoming an old maid, and a
wisht one at that, when something happened which set the forces of
development moving in another direction. Senath herself connected it
with her first visit to the Pipers, whom hitherto, on account of their
sex, she had neglected for the Merry Maidens.
One market dayThursdaySenath set off to a neighbouring farm to
buy herself a little bit of butter. The way there, along the high road,
lay past the field where the Pipers stood in their perpetual penance,
and Senath could see them sticking up gaunt against the luminous sky
for some time before she came up with them. For, as was only fitting,
the Pipers were much taller than the Maidens, being, indeed, some
twelve feet high.
Senath walked briskly along, a sturdy, full-chested figure, making,
in her black clothes (Sunday-best, come down"), the only dark note in
the pale colours of early spring that held land and air. The young
grass showed tender, the intricate webs made by the twisted twigs of
the bare thorn-trees gleamed silvery. On the pale lopped branches of
the elders, the first crumpled leaves were just beginning to unfold.
The long grass in an orchard shone with the drifted stars of thousands
of narcissi, which a faint breeze woke to a tremulous twinkling. The
road was thick with velvety white dust, for it was some time since rain
had fallen, and the black of Senath's skirt was soon powdered into
greyness. As she went, she wondered what it was that gave the air such
a tang of summer, until she suddenly realized it was the subtle but
unmistakable smell of the dust that brought to her mind long, sunny
days, when such a smell was as much part of the atmosphere as the
foliage or the heat. Now there was still a chill in the air, but she
hardly felt it in the force of that suggestiveness.
Sim' me I'm naught but a bit of stone like they Pipers, she said
to herself, as she paused to look up at them, towering above her. Then
a whimsical thought struck her. I'll lave the Maidens be for a while
and take my walk to the Pipers, she thought, tes becoming enough in a
woman o' my years, I should think.
She smiled at her mild jest and plodded on to the farm.
It was a fairly large house, with a roof still partly thatch, but
mostly replaced by slate. In front of it, a trampled yard reached to
the low wall of piled boulders and the road. Senath found the mistress
of it leaning on the wall, ready to exchange a word with the occupants
of the various market-carts as they drove homewards, and the business
of the butter was soon transacted. Yet, for some odd reason, Senath was
not anxious to take up her basket and go. Perhaps it was that touch of
the unusual in the false hint of summer; perhaps, too, her decision to
vary the course of her evening walk and the playmates of her
imagination; but, whatever it was, she was vaguely aware of a prompting
towards human contact. The two women sat on the low wall and chatted in
a desultory fashion for a few minutes. Then the farmer's wife, shading
her eyes with her hand, looked along the road.
Your eyes are younger'n mine, Senath Lear, she said. Tell me, edn
that Sam'l Harvey of Upper Farm comen in his trap?
Senath turned her clear, long-sighted eyes down the road and nodded.
He'll be driving out Manuel Harvey to the Farm, Mrs. Cotton went
on. You do knaw, or maybe your don't, seein' you live so quiet, that
since Sam's been a widow-man, Upper Farm's too big for he to live in in
comfort. He's comin' to live in church-town and look after his
interests in building. You do knaw that he's putting up a row of
cottages to let to they artisesses. And Upper Farm he's let to Manuel
Is he any kin to en? asked Senath, interested, as any woman would
have been, in this budget of news about her old suitor.
No, less they'm so far removed no one remembers et. There's a power
of Harveys in this part of the world. Manuel do come from Truro way.
The high gig had been coming quickly nearer, and now drew up before
the two women.
Evenen, Mis' Cotton. Evenen, Senath, said Sam, with undisturbed
phlegm. Could'ee blige we weth some stout twine? The off-rein has
broken and us have only put en together for the moment wi' a bit o'
string Mr. Harvey here had in's pocket.
Mrs. Cotton bustled off into the house, and Sam climbed down, the
gig bounding upwards when relieved from his weight. He was a big, fair
man, his moustache distinctly lighter than his weather-beaten face, and
since the days when he had courted Senath the whites of his eyes had
become yellowish round the muddy hazel of the iris. Senath looked from
him to Manuel, still in the gig, and as she did so, something unknown
stirred at her pulses, very faintly.
Manuel Harvey was dark, and though his eyes, too, were hazel, it was
that clear green-grey, thickly rimmed with black, that is to be seen in
the people of that part of the world who have a strain of Spanish blood
in them, dating from the wrecks of the Armada. Those eyes, beneath
their straight brows, met Senath's, and in that moment idle curiosity
passed into something else.
Many women and most men marry for a variety of reasons not
unconnected with externals. There has been much spoken and written on
the subject of affinities, a term at the best insecure, and often
pernicious, but very occasionally, when the two people concerned are
elemental creatures with little perception of those half-shades which
are the bane of civilization, there does occur a flashing recognition
which defies known laws of liking, and this it was which came to Manuel
and Senath now.
Falling in love is ordinarily a complex, many-sided thing, compact
of doubts and hesitations, fluctuating with the mood and with that
powerful factor, the opinions of others. It is subject to influence by
trivialities, varying affections and criticisms, and the surface of it
is an elastic tissue setting this way and that, as thoughts ebb and
flow from moment to moment, even though far beneath it may remain
unperturbed. Yet every now and then come together two of that vanishing
race who are capable of feeling an emotion in the roundthe whole
sphere of it. This sense of a spherical emotion came to Senath as she
would have pictured the onslaught of a thunder-ball, save that this
fire had the quality of warming without scorching utterly.
Looking up, as she stood there stricken motionless, she saw him
transfigured to a glowing lambency by the blaze of the setting sun full
on his face; and he, staring down, saw her against it. Her linen sun
bonnet, which had slipped back on her shoulders and was only held by
the strings beneath her chin, was brimming with sunlight, like some
magic pilgrim's pack; and her eyes, opened widely in her worn,
delicately seamed face, gained in blueness from the shadow her face and
neck made against the brightness. Even so, to most people she would
have appeared only a wholesome-looking woman in early middle life, who
had kept the clear and candid gaze of childhood; a woman rather
ungainly and thick-set. Manuel saw her as what, for him, she wasa
deep-bosomed creature, cool of head and warm of hearta woman worth
many times over the flimsy girls who would pass her with a pitying toss
of the head. Manuel thought none of this consciously; he was only aware
of a pricking feeling of interest and attraction, and had he been asked
his opinion would have said she seemed a fine, upstanding woman enough.
Then, when Mrs. Cotton came out again with the twine and a big
packing-needle, he, too, climbed down and, his fingers being younger
and more supple than Sam's, attended to the stitching of the rein.
Must be gwain on, I b'lieve, announced Sam, when this was in
progress. Can't us giv'ee a lift, Senath? I'm sure us wont mind sitten
familiar if you don't, will us, Manuel, my dear?
Why, no, thank'ee, Sam, said Senath quickly, I do rare and like a
bit of a walk before goin' to the bed. Evenen to you, and thank you,
Sam. Evenen, Mr. Harvey.
He raised a face into which the blood had come with stooping over
Evenen, Miss Lear, he muttered.
She started down the road at a good pace so as to have turned off
before they came up with her, but she heard the clip-clop of the
horse's hoofs as she drew alongside with the Pipers, and she turned in
towards them through a gap in the hedge. She pushed a way among bracken
and clinging brambles, and as she reached them the sun slipped behind
the S. Just hills, and in the glamorous mingling of the afterglow with
the swift dusk she stood, as the gig, the two men in it apparently
borne along level with the top of the hedge by some mysterious agency,
For a while she stood there, the dew gathering on stone and twig and
leaf. She glanced up at the two dark columns reared above, her hand
against the rough surface of the nearer one.
Must give en names, too, she said, with a backward thought for her
Merry Maidens. Why shoulden I call they after Sam and his new tenant?
That one can be Sam,looking at the stumpier and wider of the two,
and the tall one, he can be Manuel.
* * * * *
There is little to tell of the love of Senath and Manuel save that
it was swift, unspeakably dear, and put beyond the possibility of
fulfilment by the death of the man. The slight accident of a rusty nail
that ran into his foot, enhanced by the lack of cleanliness of the true
peasant, and Manuel, for such a trifling cause, ceased to be. They were
fated lovers; fated, having met, to love, and, so Senath told herself
in the first hours of her bitterness, fated never to grasp their joy.
The time had been so short, as far as mere weeks went, so infinitely
long in that they had it for ever. After the funeral in the moorland
churchyard, Senath went into her cottage and was seen of no one for
many days. Then she reappeared, and to the scandal of the world it was
seen that she had discarded her black. She went about her work silently
as ever, but seemed to shun meeting her fellow-creatures less than
formerly. A bare year after Manuel's death she had married Samuel
No one wondered more than Sam himself how this had come about. If
the marriage had been a matter of several months earlier, the common
and obvious interpretation as to its necessity would have been current
everywhere, and Sam would have had his meed of half-contemptuous pity.
As it was, no one knew better than Sam that the other Harvey's wooing
had gone no further than that wonderful kiss to which middle-aged
people, who have missed the thing in their youth, can bring more
reverential shyness than any blushing youth or girl.
Had it been any other than Senath, folk would not have been so
surprised. A woman may get along very well single all her days if she
has never been awakened to another way of life, but give her a taste of
it and it is likely to become a thing that she must have. Yet few made
the mistake of thinking that that was how it was with Senath. A
strongly spiritual nature leaves its impress on even the most clayey of
those with whom it comes in contact, and all knew Senath to be not
quite as they were. Yet she married the red-necked Samuel Harvey, and
they went to live together at the Upper Farm. And, as to any superior
delicacy, Senath showed less than most. A few kind souls there were who
thought, with the instinctive tact of the sensitive Celt, that it might
hurt her to hear the name Mrs. Harvey which would have been hers had
she married Manuel. On the contrary, just as though she were some young
bride, elated at her position, she asked that even old friends should
call her by the new title.
Sam was genuinely fond of Senath, and mingled with his fondness was
a certain pride at having won what he had set out to win so many years
ago; yet, it was so many years that he had been in a fair way to forget
all about it till, one evening, he met Senath as he was driving home
from market, much as when he had been with Manuel a year before. It had
struck him as odd, for Senath was not apt to be upon the highway at
that time, and although she was going in an opposite direction she
asked for a lift back in his gig. When they came to the track that led
off to her cottage, he tied up the mare and went with her to advise her
as to her apple-trees, which were suffering from blight, and by the
time he left, half an hour later, they were promised to each other. How
it came about, Sam never quite understood; the only thing he was sure
about was that it had been entirely his doing. Yet he couldn't help
wondering a bit, though it all seemed to follow on so naturally at the
time, that it was not until he was on his way back to the Upper Farm
that he felt puzzled. He was still wondering about it, and her, when
the parson joined their hands in the bleak, cold church, and Senath
stood, beneath her unbecoming daisied hat, looking as bleak and cold as
the granite walls around her.
Later, Sam found this to be a misleading impression. Never was bride
more responsive, in the eager passive fashion of shut eyes and quiet,
still mouth, than was Senath. Only now and again, in the first weeks of
their life together, she would give a start, and a look of terror and
blank amazement would leap across her face, as though she were suddenly
awakened out of a trance.
Men of Sam's condition and habit of mind do not, by some merciful
law of nature, make ardent lovers, and life soon settled down
comfortably enough on the farm. Senath was a capable housewife, and,
what with the dairy-work and cooking and superintending the washing,
and such extra work as looking after any sickly lamb or calf, she had
plenty to do. And yet, in the midst of so much activity, every now and
then Sam was struck by a queer little feeling of aloofness in
Senathnot any withdrawing physically, but a feeling as though her
mind were elsewhere. He might find her sitting on the settle with her
eyes closed, although she was obviously awake, and an expression of
half-fearful joy on her face, as on that of a person who is listening
to some lovely sound and holding his breath for fear lest the least
noise on his own part should frighten it into stillness.
However, Sam was not an imaginative man, and since the house shone
with cleanliness such as it had never known, the shining not of mere
scouring, but of the fine gloss only attained by loving care, he did
not trouble his head. Women were queer at the best of times, and
besides, a few months after the marriage, reason for any additional
queerness on the part of Senath became known to him. After she had told
him the news, Sam, ever inarticulate, but moved to the rarely felt
depths of his nature, went out into a field that was getting its autumn
ploughing, and his heart sang as he guided the horses down the furrow.
Even as he was doing now, and his father had done before him, so should
his son do after him, and the rich earth would turn over in just this
lengthening wave at the blade of the ploughshare for future generations
of Harveys yet to come. Like most men with any feeling for the land in
them, Sam was sure his child must be a son.
And to him, who had not hoped for such a thing in marrying Senath,
to him this glory was coming. Everything seemed to him wonderful that
day; the pearly pallor of the dappled sky; the rooks and screaming
gulls that wheeled and dipped behind his plough; the bare swaying elms,
where the rooks' nests clung like gigantic burrs. Dimly, and yet for
him keenly, he was aware of all these things, as a part of a great
phenomenon in which he held pride of place.
When he came in, his way led through the yard, where a new
farm-cart, just come home, stood under the shed in all the bravery of
its blue body and vermilion wheels. Senath had crept round in the shed
to the back and was studying the tailboard, one hand against it.
Looken to see all's well to the rear as to the front? called Sam
jovially. That's a proper farmer's wife.
Senath started violently and dropped her hand, looking away before
she did so. It looks fine, was all she said, and went within doors,
passing him. A small portent, so slight Sam did not even know it for
what it was, and yet something in her look and manner seemed to chill
him to the bones of him. Then, and after, he put anything unfathomable
in her ways down to her condition, and so turned what might have been a
source of discomfort to the account of his joy.
The blossom was thick upon the apple-trees when Senath's boy was
born. He had a long fight of entry, and when the sky was paling and
flushing with the reluctant dawn, Sam, who had spent the night
alternately snoring on the settle and creeping upstairs in his
stockinged-feet, heard the first wailing of his son. He heard, too, the
clank of the milk-pails in the yard without, the lowing of an impatient
cow, and the crowingabove all sounds the most melancholy to anyone
upon a sleepless pillowof a triumphant cock. As he heard all these
common noises about his own place, he realized how much more dear they
had all become to him by reason of what was in the room above. He knew
that his wife had what is inadequately called a bad time, but
although the boards over his head had creaked for hours to the anxious
tread of doctor and of nurse, not a cry had come until this one that
heart and ear told him was from his child. He went upstairs once more,
creeping less this time, and knocked timidly at the door, then coughed
to show who it was. The nurse, a thin, yellow-haired London woman doing
parish-nursing for her healtha woman he hated while he feared
heropened the door a slit and looked unsympathetically at him.
I was wanten to knaw . . . began Sam.
None the better for hearing you, snapped the nurse. She must have
I dedn't go for to mane that, explained Sam naively, but the
cheild? 'Tes a boy?
Oh, it's a boy, and doing all right, said the nurse, and shut the
door in his face.
Sam went downstairs and put his head under the yard-pump, and laved
his bare red arms in its flow, as men might bathe in the waters of
perpetual youth. The great rejuvenation of a new birth had come upon
him. For that is what it resolves itself intothe advent of a son to a
middle-aged man. Sam felt his term of life taking immortal lease.
Later in the day, the news that his son was weakly was broken to
him, but made very little impression. The child could not die, because
it was his. To other men, the common lot of humanity, but not so near
The morning was at its height, all around romance and mystery had
dissolved in the broad shining, when they told Sam his wife wished to
see him, but that he must be careful not to excite her as she was not
yet beyond the danger-point.
When he saw her, the burning colour in her face strong against the
white of her pillows, he thought they must be exaggerating, and he
patted her hand cheerfully.
You've done fine, Senath, lass, he assured her. 'Tes a brave an'
handsome chap, is young Samuel.
Not Samuel, answered Senath. Her voice, though low, was composed.
What then? asked Sam, remembering his wife was at a time when she
must be humoured as far as speech went, anyway.
Manuel, said Senath. Then, at his start of dissent: Yes, Manuel.
You'm my wife, not his, said Sam. The cheild's my cheild, not
his, and et shall be called for ets father.
I'm Manuel's wife, said Senath, and et's Manuel's cheild.
Sam calmed down, for he was now sure that his wife was light-headed.
It was a common symptom, he had been told.
No, said Senath, answering his thought, I'm not that wisht, Sam.
I'm in my right mind, and I'm only waiten on you to go. I'm waiten to
go, Sam, I'm waiten to go.
What do you mean, lass?
I'm waiten till I've told 'ee why I wedded you, Sam. It was because
She lay still a moment and then went on:
Of course I had et in my thoughts to die a maid and go to him as he
left me. A woman allus thinks that to begin with. And then et began to
come clear to meall the future. How I'd go on getting older and more
withered and wi' nawthen to show for my life. And when I saw Manuel
agan, he'd say: 'Where's the woman I loved? Where's her blue eyes, and
the fine breast of her?' And I'd have to say: 'Wasted, gone, dried-up,
Manuel.' I wanted him. I wanted Manuel as I never thought a woman could
want anything but peace, and he was taken from me. So I determined in
my heart I'd go to Manuel, and go with somethen to take to en. I
married you, Sam, because you had the same name, and was the same
height, and when I shut my eyes, I could fancy my head was on his
breast, and that et was his heart beaten at my ear. That's why I made
folk call me 'Mrs. Harvey': so I could force myself to think et was
Manuel Harvey's wife I was. That's why I used to look at your name
painted up, ef et was but on the tailboard of a cart. I used to hide
the front of et, so that I could pictur' 'Manuel' written under my
hand. Sometimes I'd pictur' et so hard and fierce that when I took my
hand away, I expected to see er there, and the sight of 'Samuel' was
like a blow. I got to knaw that, and to look away before I took my hand
Again she stopped and lay awhile as though gathering energy; then
the indomitable voice went on:
At first, when you took me in your arms, et was near to turning me
mad, and I thought I couldn't go on wi' et; but I got better and better
at imagining et was Manuel, though et was like to kill me every time I
woke up. For et was like waking up every time I had to let the strain
of my imagining go for a moment. And each time et left me feelen weaker
and more kind of wisht than before. But I was glad of that, for et all
brought me nearer. When you wedded me, I swear I'd got so I made et
Manuel, and not you, who was holding me, and for nine months I've borne
his cheild beneath my broken heart. I've made et his.
She drew the little sentient bundle nearer to her, as though to
defend it from him. He stared at her, then spoke slackly, trying to
urge force into his voice.
'Tes all nawthen but in your mind, all that. It's what's real as
Don't you remember, Sam, how the wise woman to church-town had a
spite against Will Jacka's Maggie, and told her her cheild was goin' to
be an idiot; and how et preyed on the mind of her, and the boy has no
mouth-speech in him to this day? That was only in her mind. And how, in
the Book, Jacob put the peeled wands before the eyes of the sheep, and
the lambs came all ring-straked and speckled? I've put the thought of
this before the eye of my mind; I've thought et into bein' Manuel's
cheild, even as I belong to him and him only. And 'tes to him I'm taken
Sam turned and stumbled from the room, down to the kitchen, and
dropped upon the settle. The next moment, a sudden flash of fear sent
him to his feet. He tore up the stairs, knocked into the nurse as she
came out of her room, and swept her along with him.
Senath had her shawl folded thickly over the baby's face, and she
had turned over so that her body lay upon it as she clasped it to her
breast. But the baby still lived, and when they had taken it from her,
she fell into a sullen silence, through which the tide of her life,
too, began to creep back steadily.
* * * * *
Ten years later, three little boys were playing in the yard at the
Upper Farm. One was a few years older than the other two, who were
obviously twins, fair and round and apple-cheeked, with bright brown
eyes like little animals, and slackly open mouths. The other boy was of
nervous make, with black hair that fell into eyes at once more human
and more forlorn. He was very dirty, but he had stuck a yellow jonquil
through a hole in his jersey. They were playing at moulding little men
out of the mud, and setting them about an inverted flower-pot which did
duty for a house. Suddenly, one of the little boys pushed away the
mud-farmer which the eldest had placed at the arched break in the rim,
which was the house door, and stuck his own much more primitive effort
You'm not to put your man there, Manuel, he screamed. That's the
door like where father do stand of a Sunday. My man must stand there,
because every one do say you'm a changeling and no proper son at all.
Manuel scrambled to his feet and ran across the yard; his hard
little boots clattered as he went. He ran into the kitchen, where his
mother, stout and comfortable-looking, was baking. The dim room was
filled with the good smell of hot bread and pastry.
Mother, mother, sobbed Manuel, Sam's said et again. He says I'm
not like da's son; that I'm naught but a changeling.
Senath raised a flushed face from her work and kept the rolling-pin
still a moment while her eldest-born spoke, but she did it
If you'd only try not to be so odd-like and so different to the
rest o' the family, she complained, the boys would'n say it so often.
There, take this hot split and lave me be.
At ten years old, neither wounded pride nor the worse hurt of always
feeling a something unexplained about himself that did not fit in with
his surroundings, was proof against hot pastry, and Manuel went away
with it, though slowly, to a spot he knew of beside the mill-leat.
There a robin was building her nest in the alders, and there, too, if
he lay very still, with shut eyes, he could imagine all sorts of
wonderful things that the brook was saying. How he was really not the
son of these people at all, but of some wonderful prince, who would
come upon a coal-black charger, like the one in the old fairy-book, and
take him away, away from this discordant house where he felt such a
very lonely little boy. . . .
In the kitchen, Senath, about to resume her work, saw that the
jonquil had dropped from his jersey to the floor, where it lay shining,
a fallen star. Senath stood staring at it for a minute. For one flash,
bewildering and disconcerting, like the sudden intrusion of last
night's dream into the affairs of to-day, she saw herself againthat
self she never thought of as being the precursor of the present Senath,
but as a totally different person altogether, whom, try as she would,
she could not connect up. She had long ago given up trying, busy with
her man and the boys. The two younger were little trouble enough beyond
the ordinary vexatiousness of childhood, but there was something about
Manuel which was different, and which often annoyed Sam, who liked to
brag about his eldest boy, and tried always to make him out as exactly
like himself. But she was conscious that the Senath of long ago would
have understood. Now, as she stared at the jonquil, it seemed to her
that that Senath was she herself again, though she had grown to despise
the dreaming, fanciful creature of her muffled memoryperhaps there
had been something fierce and great about her, that the present Senath
could never capture again.
The moment passed, and she let the flower lie where it was, and
presently, when Sam, the successful husband, came in ruddy and
clamorous for his tea, his heavy boot trampled it, all discoloured,
into a crack of the stone flags. The little boys came tumbling in, too,
also clamorous, after the way of men-folk.
Where's Manuel? demanded Sam.
Both little shrill voices were obsequious with the information that
he had gone towards the leat.
Day-dreamen, I'll be bound, said Sam, his mouth full of hot split.
Eh, well, so were you, missus, at one time of day. Life'll soon knock
et out of him, like et has of you. And you'm all the better wi'out et,
arn't 'ee, lass?
She said Yes, and would have thought so if it had not been for the
memory of that moment, already faded, when she had seen the jonquil. As
it was, she sent a quick thought out to the boy who lay playing with
imaginings by the alders; a thought of vague regret and a faint hope
that it might not be with him quite as it had been with her. And
whether the thought reached his unknowing self or not, to Manuel's
fancy the leat had a finer tale and brighter hopes to tell him that
evening than usual, and he was at the age when, although he knew the
corresponding fall on entering the house must be the more severe, he
never doubted that the dreams were worth it.
THE COFFIN SHIP
Of all the ships that traded from the Islands to the mainland, the
Spirito Santo had the worst reputation. She was known as a hungry
vessel; her chief mate was a French Creole from Martinique who had been
trained aboard a Yankee clipper, and her captain was a blue-nose who
behaved as such. Since, on the outward voyage, the crew generally
consisted of men who had made the Islands too hot to hold them, and, on
the return trip, of half-dazed sailors who had been doped by crimps,
there was a certain superficial variety about ita variety merely of
individuals and not of kind.
The Spirito Santo had been a good enough ship in her day, and
had weathered a typhoon in the China seas and a hurricane in the
Atlantic, but she was one of the earliest steam vessels built, and had
started life as a side-wheeler; her paddles having been changed for a
single screw and simple engines, of the kind guaranteed to combine the
greatest possible consumption of fuel with a correspondingly large
waste of steam.
She was a wooden vessel, iron still being looked at askance when her
keel was laid, and her lines were those of the true sailing-ship, with
bows that bulged out almost square from either side of her cutwater,
above which her long bowsprit raked the air. The result was that she
steamed as a wind-jammer, with her bows delaying her speed by their
large surface of resistance; and went better under canvas, with her
screw running free. She was barque-rigged, that is to say she carried
trysails on her fore and main, below the lovely tower of royals,
topgallant sails and top-sails which even her stumpy sticks and
too-wide yards could not make ungraceful. Her long thin funnel
amidships looked as though it had got there by mistake, and indeed she
belonged rather to the class of auxiliary steam than that of auxiliary
sail, in spite of the motive with which she had conceived. In fact, her
trouble was that in a world where steamships, and iron ones at that,
were beginning more and more to snatch at trade, and where the great
racing clippers still broke records, the Spirito Santo, being
neither one thing nor the other, had become a losing proposition. Her
owners grudged tar on her sides as sorely as kids of meat to the men,
and no shabbier trader than the Spirito Santo nosed her way from
Port of Spain to the Golden Gate. Yet she got there all right, bullied
and driven, got there on cheap coal and rotten rigging, though her
engines seemed as though they must beat a hole in her straining sides
and her planks part from sheer exhaustion. She held together as a
coherent and reliable whole partly because, with all her lack of grace,
she was a sweet ship in a seaway if one knew her idiosyncrasies, partly
because her skipper could nurse a ship through anything while the hull
stayed afloat. And the Spirito Santo took some handling, for in
spite of her wide yards and tonnage to the tune of seven hundred, she
only drew fourteen feet and was as tricky as a cat. Her skipper coaxed
her and humoured her, bullied her at just the right moment, in short,
treated her as though she had been a womanonly Joab Elderkin would
not have taken the trouble over any she-thing of flesh and blood.
Elderkin was the best-feared man in the Caribbean. He had a thin
sinewy frame and a very soft voice which he never raised in ordinary
conversation, and this gave a curious effect of monotony to whatever he
was saying. Never drunk at sea, he was always perfectly sober on land
except for the first twenty-four hours after landing, when he soaked
steadily. Even his movements were gentle, as though to match his voice
and the dark eyes, deep-set in his prematurely wizened face, held the
wistful puzzled sadness of a monkey's. His language was unparalleled
for profanity, and to the most hardened there was something of terror
in the appalling flow of words issuing on such an unruffled softness of
intonation. In those days the master of a vessel had almost unlimited
power within the area of his ship's rails. If, goaded by ill-use, a man
struck his officer, he was quite likely to be shot straightway, and on
reporting the matter the captain would be praised for his promptness in
quelling mutiny at its rising. Floggings with the cat or the yoke-rope,
brutal mishandling with knuckle-dusters and belaying-pins, were the
quick and common resort on the slightest count, and Captain Joab
Elderkin was famous for his technique in all these methods. His ship
literally merited the trite description of a floating hell, and one boy
aboard her had died of a broken heart. The child had failed in an
attempt to get ashore at Frisco, been brought back and flogged at the
mizzen rigging, and afterwards turned his face to the dark forecastle
wall, refused food and died. The little incident had added to
Elderkin's unsavoury reputation, but it was this reputation which made
him a man after his owners' hearts. He was not likely to suffer from
scruples, and it is needless to say that the Spirito Santo, a
free-lance trading from what port she chose, carried a good deal now
and again on which she never paid duty. Her skipper's only form of
conscience was his seamanship. The owners might grudge paint, but every
bit of brass-work on board shone like gold, and the decks were
holy-stoned till the men sobbed over their aching knees. At
twenty-three he had held command of a full-rigged ship trading to
China. Now, since the Spirito Santo was becoming more and more
of a falling investment, he rarely made the passage round into the
Pacific, and, Atlantic-bound, dodging from the Islands to Colon and
down the coast as far as Rio, Elderkin was wont to refer to the time
when he really had been a sailor. . . .
It was his conscience as a seaman that the owners were up against
when they called the captain into consultation over the diminishing
returns of the Spirito Santo, and proposed to him the course
that is regarded by sailors the world over as the great betrayal.
To anyone without a nice sense for spiritual values, everything is
merely a matter of price, and Elderkin's fee for the loss of his ship
and with her his soul was higher than the partners could have wished.
They were greasy men, with the Spanish strain, that too often, in those
latitudes, means a hint of the negro as well, and their office was on
the outskirts of the dirty vulture-ridden Port of Spain of those days.
The room was bare, and upon the blotchy whitewash of the wall there
hung nothing but a map and a few advertisements. The mosquitoes sang
through the unscreened windows; outside, in the dusty strip of bleached
earth between the house and the road, a hedge of hibiscus was in bloom.
In the glaring sunshine the flaunting back-curled blossoms seemed afire
as they shot their thin vermeil tongues out into the air made so alive
with light. To Elderkin, as he sat in the dimmed room, full of green
reflections from the vegetation without, came the unpleasant thought
that it was as though he were under seas . . . and the flaming tongues
of the hibiscus were some evil sea-growth, mocking at his plight.
He leaned forward and helped himself again from the bottle of whisky
that stood upon the bare table. When he lifted it a crescent of gold
fled across the table, slipping back again when he set the bottle down,
as a ripple of reflected light runs through water. Elderkin had often
seen a gleam like it when watching a small bright fish flash through a
His reluctant mind responded to the kick of the liquor: the dirty
little room, the watchful eyes of the partners as they sat on either
side of him in their soiled linen suits, no longer seemed so unpleasant
to him, accustomed as he was to the sordidness that, if care is not
exercised, so soon overtakes an interior in the tropics. His caution
still remained to him, and he sounded the scheme at every point,
finding the partners were prepared, full of urgings, advices, rosy
forecasts, cunning details. On the homeward voyage, that would be best
. . . he could take her out in ballast, bring her back loaded to her
limit and beyond it. . . . Those were days before the Plimsoll mark,
and vessels often left porteven great English portsso loaded that
their scuppers were all but awash, and not only left but perhaps
attempted the passage round the Horn itself. There would be no
difficulty about that, but Captain Elderkin must, of course, not sail
from a Peruvian harbour as the authorities there had an unpleasant
habit of marking a load-line on every ship that cleared and seeing that
she did not go above it. Besides, a cargo was awaiting him in Chili,
and the partners were prepared about that too. It was to be a double
deal, the actual copper and nitrates, with a small amount of gold,
which she would go out to take was, by arrangement with a certain
official known to the partners, to be changed for sand and stones. Just
a sprinkling of nitrate at the top, perhaps, since nitrate is loaded in
bulk. It was risky, but on the other hand it was a thing often carried
through with success, and Elderkin, who knew all the tricks and
possibilities of both coasts, could see his way with reasonable
clarity. The partners advised Captain Elderkin not to attempt bringing
the Spirito Santo round the Horn, as he might have more
difficulty in saving himself; if the accident occurred on the Pacific
side it would be better for many reasons. If he were picked up by a
passing ship he must, of course, see to it that the Spirito Santo
was too far gone for salvage, or that would indeed make matters worse
with a vengeance. An accident with the steering-gearthey had reason
to know that Olsen, the chief engineer, would come in on itwhen off a
weather shore, would probably be the best solution. But, naturally,
there was no need to instruct so clever a sailor as Captain Elderkin in
his part of the affair . . . more smiles and whisky.
Joab Elderkin sat and absorbed it all, with little expression on his
sad, gentle face, his thin mouth remained imperturbable under the heavy
dark moustache, only in his high and narrow temples a pulse beat. As he
drank he raised his price, till at last the point was reached above
which the partners refused to go and below which he would not descend.
At that point they came to their agreement, and Joab Elderkin went out
of the office having sold his only form of honour on a gamble which
stood to put him on the way towards attaining a ship of his own. For
that was the desire of his heart, and until now had seemed as
impossible of realization as the phantom vessel of a dream. Probably
for no other inducement under the skies would he have given another
* * * * *
The month of August found the Spirito Santo, all sail set,
running down the Pacific coast before a north-westerly wind. Elderkin
watched the weather carefully, for he had no idea of losing his life,
or, for the matter of that, the lives of any of his crew who could be
allowed to retain them with safety to himself and the partners. For
there is always the personal equation to be studied in a matter of this
kind, and Elderkin had given much thought to the members of his crew.
He had hoped, while always fearing the futility of it, that the first
mate, Isidore Lemaire, might be kept in ignorance. For a while it
seemed as though this were so, but since leaving port Elderkin had felt
doubtful of the creole. Lemaire had a furtive way with him at the best
of times, a hint as of something that crept and glided rather than
walked normally, but then so had many of his race. He was supposed to
be a whitein the expressive Island phrase, he passed for whitebut
on the French and Spanish and even the Danish islands the objection to
racial mingling is not nearly so strong as in the colonies that have
always been English. Also, Lemaire came from Martinique, which, after
Haiti, is the headquarters of Obeah, and worse, of voodoo. Even quite
good families in decaying Martinique had dealings with the unclean
thing, and St. Pierre was known, even among sailors, for a hotbed of
strange vices. All this was why Lemaire made such a powerful mate, for
the crew, except for the red-headed Danish engineer from St. Thomas,
were either half-castes from the Islands and the southern continent, or
full-blooded negroes; which was to say that superstition was so part of
them that the last vestige of it would only run out with the last drop
of blood from their bodies. Elderkin knew better than to penetrate the
forecastle, but he was aware of the bottles filled with dead
cockroaches, bits of worsted and the rest of the paraphernalia for the
casting of spells, which hung there. He himself had found that the only
way to keep his steward off his whisky was to decorate his locker with
a similar charm, and since he had done so had suffered no more from
pilfering. All this was obeah, harmless enough, and if now and then, a
white cock was sacrificed in the forecastle and a seaman went somewhat
mad on its blood, Elderkin ignored the matter. But Lemaire was, he
knew, suspected by the crew of darker dealings. There had been a rumour
that the reason Lemaire left Martinique was because the disappearance
of a planter's child was like to be laid at his door, and the rumour
was enough to make the niggers cringe before him. This was a master,
perhaps the friend of papalois and mamalois, with the power of life and
death. Elderkin loathed himthere are things from which the most
hardened white man shrinks, and it would have to be one utterly
unregenerate who could dabble his hands in voodooism. Nevertheless, the
suspicion made Lemaire the best nigger-driver in the length and breadth
of the Caribbean, and Elderkin made use of him for that reason. Now,
for the first time, he began to feel the man's peculiarities getting on
his own nerves. A word dropped now and again, odd looks from the
protuberant and opaque brown eyes, were making him wonder if the mate
guessed, whether it would be better to take him into the secret and
trust to his never reaching shore. . . .
They were nearing the forties when Lemaire spoke. The day was wet,
with a strong wind, all the morning they had been driving through
tingling veils of rain and spray, shipping green water that slopped
over the holds and poured in foaming torrents along the dipping
scuppers. All day the windwhich till then had thrummed through the
rigging and held the sails in their stiffened curves so steadily that
the Spirito Santo kept a fairly even keelhad been falling on
fitfulness. Loaded as she was, the seas that raced past her, almost
level with her deck, seemed higher than they really were. An odd
darkness held the air and through it everything brightthe flashes of
foam, a wheeling bird, or rare shoal of flying fishshowed up with
startling pallor. In the second dog-watch Lemaire came to Elderkin in
Most men have a weakness and Elderkin'sprobably because he never
made a confidant of a human beingwas the dangerous one of pen and
paper. He was making calculations on the fly-leaf of an old Bible which
had been unearthed with a lot of other junk from a locker. Calculations
about shipsthe varying costs of handling a four-masted schooner and a
barque, the advantages of chartering a small screw steamer;
calculations of routes and cargoes, of many things, but always
calculations. . . .
The curious darkness had swamped the chart-room, and made the
discoloured clasps of the Bible and the brighter brass of the ship's
fittings gleam out; made the captain's always pale face seem waxen,
showed two sallow flames in the mate's ophidian eyes. For a moment the
two men looked at each other in silence, then Lemaire spoke.
I see you figger it all out, he observed. Don't forget me, dat's
all. I come in on dis, my friend. Sacré nom de Dieuon a
sudden flash of menacedid you think I was going to get not'ing out
of it? Or perhaps you was going to drown me, eh?
Elderkin had got to his feet, and was watching the other man
steadily. When he spoke, his voice was as low and tired as ever.
He asked what the blank the blank mate thought he was talking about.
Lemaire explained that he was talking about the scuttling of the
Spirito Santo, and that the captain knew it as blank well as he
While the ship remains afloat, kindly remember that I am in
command, Mr. Lemaire, and address me with proper respect. If you do so
I'll discuss business with you. If not, I'll see that you go to hell
along with the ship. Savvy, you herring-gutted son of a frog-eater,
Lemaire savvied. He had grown sickly hued with anger, but he spread
his dark hands in apology, so that the pinkish palms seemed to flash in
the unnatural gloom.
Then they got to business. What Elderkin had feared had
happenedLemaire's suspicions were aroused in port over the loading of
the Spirito Santo, over the paucity of the stores taken aboard,
over the many oddnesses that reveal themselves to a cunning mind when
something beyond the normal is in progress. Elderkin remembered the
night when Lemaire and the successfully bribed official had gone
together, as he had then thought, to a rowdy houseit must have been
on that occasion that the stronger man won definite confirmation from
the weaker. Now there was nothing for it but to let Lemaire in on the
dealfor the present.
You are not t'inking of a storm, no? asked the mate, when both men
had laid their cards upon the table. With our boats we should not
stand a chance. . . . A fire, perhaps? We are car'n some cotton, sah,
and it might have been packed damp.
Too risky. I thought of all that. We can only trust our boats to
takes us a little way. I must pile her up near the mainland. There's a
reef I know of
A reef! scoffed Lemaire, and you de best skipper on either side!
Who d'you s'pose believe dat? Not unless we first had an accident to de
engines, anyway. What about Olsen? Does heknow?
Yes. It could not be carried through without him.
Ah, I see. . . . Only poor Lemaire was to be kept out. . . . And
It's uncharted. I found it years ago. I had reasons for not wanting
it known where I'd been and I never reported. It's a tricky place, the
sea don't break true on it, sets in sideways. Beyond it's flat to the
shore. No risk of salvage; it's out of the course, and a wooden ship
goes to pieces at once, anyway.
Where is it, dis reef?
Elderkin drew his pencil down the chart to an indented bit of coast
not a couple of degrees below the fortieth parallel. Lemaire sweated to
think how near he had been to risk.
If this north-west gale holds, and we are to have an accident which
made her unmanageable, went on Elderkin, we should be driven ashore,
on to that reef. Or at least we could always say so afterwards.
We might arrange so's Olsen was neber able to give us de lie . . .
suggested Lemaire, glancing sidelong at the other.
But when the tussle over terms was ended and Lemaire had gone forth,
Elderkin swore to himself that it was the mate who should never again
see the Islands rise above the rim of the sea. He cursed, and for a few
moments as he sat at the chart-room table, he allowed himself the
luxury of hating the course on which he had embarked. A man cannot give
his soul into the keeping of any one idea, whether that idea be
embodied in another person or in a mode of life, without suffering a
profound disturbance if he violently part from it; and for many years
now Elderkin's soul had been one with his ship. She was ugly, cranky,
she bore a name as a hell-ship that he had earned for her, but together
they had won through much; men had died on her, blood run upon her
decks, misery and pride and drunkenness and strange doings permeated
her very frame. She was as the flesh of his flesh, and only that
dream-ship of his own which floated in a mirage before his mind could
have made him unfaithful to her. He was in the position of a man who
has lived with a despised but deeply felt mistress, and who at last
thinks he holds the ideal woman, the bride, the untouched, within his
grasp, at the price of the severance of the old ties. And, like a
reproachful ghost, as though she were dead already, the appeal of the
old reprobate of the seas kept pricking at him, day and night,
throughout the ordered watches that drew her towards her end.
He had sold his soul to gain his soul, a not altogether uncommon
bargain. If I can only have this one thing I will Be Good ever after,
is a cry that must have caused amusement above and below as many times
as there are mortals upon the earth. In Elderkin's case the one thing
was a ship of his own, and now that she loomed at last over his
horizon, he found that it was this old Hagar of the high seas, the
mistress and not the wife, who, in spite of himself, absorbed his
consciousness. All the ugliness of his betrayal of her was thrown
sharply into notice by the compact with his mate; and, shot by a
sharper distaste than ever before, he covered his eyes for a minute, in
an attempt to focus his will undistracted. It was successful; Elderkin,
little as he knew it, was an idealist, however perverted a one, and
idealism was with him in this venture, beckoning to him in the dip and
curtsy of a dream vessel, her bright canvas burning with perpetual
sunlight. . . . He dropped his hands and straightened himself, and his
eye fell on the Bible in which he had made his calculations, and where
he had also noted down his covenant with Lemaire. It had fallen open,
by the chance movement of his arms, at a different place, and he found
he was reading a few lines before he knew what he was about.
Too imperceptibly for him to have noticed the progress of it, the
light had strengthened in the chart-room, for a stormy sun had
penetrated the gloom, and the heavy black letters stood out distinctly
on the yellowed page. A sudden flash of memory leapt through Elderkin's
mindthe memory of a day long ago in his childhood.
He had been brought up in New England by a rigid old grandmother
until he ran away to sea, his Nova Scotian blood too strong for him.
But his mother's Puritan strain was with him nevertheless, had held by
him if in nothing else but a certain Biblical flavour in his oaths. Now
there flashed across his mind a dreary Sunday when he was a little
boyone of many like it, but this particular one had stuck in his
memory. And, probably because of the yellow light flooding the
chart-room, the memory surged up at him, for on that Sunday he had
escaped to the barn, although with no better spoils than a book of Old
Testament stories, and lain there, heels in the air and elbows on the
straw, reading the story of the Flood in just such a stormy yellow glow
as this. A gale had followed, rain-laden, and his childish mind had
half-feared, half-hoped, that a flood was coming, down which he could
float triumphantly in some makeshift ark . . . as to his grandmother,
he might rescue her and he might not, but if he did, of course, she
would be so overcome with gratitude and admiration that she would never
again abase his dignity with a certain limber cane. Then, in a lull of
the gale, the gleam had shone out once more, and by its light he read
on; read how God had promised there should never come a flood over all
the earth again, and had made a rainbow as a sign of it. Rather dull of
God, he thought in his disappointment. The storm raged so that he dared
not slip back to the house, not because of any fear of the elements,
but because his grandmother would notice if his clothes got wet; so he
had stayed on, his mind thronged with imaginary adventures, till the
storm was over. Then he had gone back to the house, feeling curiously
flat after the excitement wind always produced in him. A faint yet,
pictorially, a vivid memory of that strained hour of varying emotions
swept across him now in a moment's space, as he gazed at the page
before him. The next moment he understood whyit was not only the
light that reproduced that afternoon of long ago, but also the words at
which he was lookingthe two things together had fused a section of
time from thirty years earlier into a section of the present. He read
the verses through, but a few phrases knocked at his mind to the
exclusion of the rest. The word covenant, especially, so hard upon
his pact with Lemaire, seemed to stare up at him. . . .
And I will establish a covenant with you; neither shall all flesh
be cut off any more by the waters of a flood. . . . And God said, This
is the token of the covenant which I make between me and you, and every
living creature that is with you. . . . I do set my bow in the cloud,
and it shall be the token of a covenant. . . . And it shall come to
pass when I shall bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow shall be
seen in the cloud, and I shall remember the covenant which is between
me and you. . . .
Elderkin sat at gaze like a man in a trance, unable for a few
moments to disassociate that hour in the barn from the presentnot
sure which was the present, so vivid was the illusion and so sharp the
knock on his dormant spiritual sense. His hands, which were trembling
oddly, went out to grasp the edge of the table, not for the physical
support, but more that a common sensation should reassure his mind.
Then he rose, and backing away from the Book as though it would spring
at him, he went out.
The wind had dropped, but the Spirito Santo was rolling her
bulwarksthose solid structures which were traps for all the water
shippedinto the confused sea that the dead wind had left. She was
travelling badly, her heavy load robbed her of the elasticity which
would have enabled her to rise to the onslaught of each successive
The Spirito Santo boasted no bridge, the roof of the
chart-room, which was situated on the poop, just forward of the
mizzen-mast, doing duty instead. The wheel, which was uncovered, was
set at the break of the poop, between the rail and the chart-house.
Elderkin climbed the ladder to the top of the chart-house, and then
stood there, struck to sudden stillness. He never glanced at the
binnacle to see if the man were keeping the course, or noted the wiry
figure of the mate as he tramped back and forth; his whole being was
arrested by the portent which held the sky. And all the long-dormant
but never wholly cast-off beliefs of his childhood awoke in his blood.
A curtain of luminous, ashen-pink cloud was drawn across the sky
from horizon to zenith, absolutely smooth and unbroken, and against it
arched a rainbow, spanning the horizon and coming down mistily into the
sea. So close the opalescent feet of it looked that it seemed as though
the ship's bows were heading through the phantom portals of some new
world, but high in air the summit of the curve, clear and burnished as
cut-glass, looked infinitely far away. As Elderkin stood at gaze,
particles of sun-bright cloud floated slowly across the right of the
arch, like little morsels of golden wool.
Elderkin, his fingers clutching a wet stanchion, was aware of a
curious feeling coming over him. He felt he had seen just that effect
beforethat curtain of ashen pink, the rainbow against it, the flock
of little golden-bright morsels, floating slowly across it . . . and
had seen it in connexion with something of vital importance. Yet, try
as he would, he could not capture the thoughtmemorydreamwhatever
it was, of which he was so sure in the back of his mind that he felt it
waiting for him to recognize it every moment. . . . All sorts of
bewildering little half-memories flitted across his mind, and refused
to be captured or placed. Queer, irrational little things they were,
incongruous and wildly senseless; he felt dizzy chasing them, but he
knew if he gave up concentrating even for an instant, the whole thing
would be gone. Yet piece together these half-memories that pricked at
him he could not, they were elusive as moths and as unsubstantial. He
knew that there was one key to them and that if he could only find it
they would become sense, though not sense of this worldit was as
though they were in a different focus and on a different plane, but
they would become clear if only he could find the key. . . .
As he stared the little particles of cloud in front of the rainbow
slowly dissolved and melted into the ashen pink of the cloud-curtain,
from that, too, the glow was fading, and the arch itself began slowly
to die into the air. Elderkin found himself in the chart-room again; he
sat down and shut his eyes, striving to remember. He could not
recollect having dreamt such a thing, and yet the feeling aroused in
him was exactly that provoked when, on the day following a very vivid
dream, it will keep on intruding in fragments, each time to be shaken
off as the mind readjusts itself to the normal after the moment's
blurring of edge. Suddenly it occurred to him that he must have seen
that effect only a few days before and he opened his diary, in which,
his vice being pen and paper, he noted down matters not important
enough for the Remarks space in the log. He hunted the pages back and
forth, and in the midst of his futile search his mind seemed to give a
click and he was switched back into the normal again. He sat looking at
the book in his hands and realized that he had never seen that especial
effect before, that he had most certainly never noted it down; the mere
idea that he had now seemed as silly as a dream when the mind has
struggled fully awake, though when he had first thought of it and taken
the notebook up, it had seemed as possible as the same dream when the
sleeper is in the midst of it. He still felt curiously dizzy, though
his head was clearing slowly: things seemed commonplace around him once
more; he could not even remember distinctly what his sensations had
been. He only knew that in that trance-like state, of a momentof
æonsearlier, he had known he had seen before that which he then saw,
and seen it connected with something he could not catch. Whether he
ever had seen it, perhaps on that incompletely remembered day of storm
which had flashed back to him on this afternoon; or whether, already
worked up by his conscience, by the interview with Lemaire, and, to his
sensitized mind, by the words in the Bible, the sudden effect on him of
seeing that bow set in the flaming cloud, had produced a brainstorm, he
could never know. He would have thought it blasphemy to wonder whether
nothing more spiritual than the driven blood in his skull was
responsible for that queer switching off the track; but whatever it
was, the effect of it, on his awakened moral sense, was prodigious. He
did not doubt that he had received a divine visitation, that for him
the heavens had been decked with pomp, that the workings of God, in
particular and exquisite relation to himself, were manifest in the
ordered sequence of that day. His own stirrings at the violation of his
solitary code had gone deeper with him than he knew, preparing him for
further troubling, then the pact with Lemaire, driving in all the
distasteful side of the business more keenly still, the coincidence of
that word covenant coming on the heels of his covenant with the mate,
that word used in the Bible passage to suggest the eternal pact between
man's soul and its creator, the memory it evoked, and, to crown all,
the finding of the seal of it set in the heavens themselvesall these
things rushed together, fused, and struck into his being.
He fell on his knees in the chart-room and praised God; praised Him
in the phraseology of his Puritan forebears, as he had heard Him
praised when a little boy, whose heedless ears had not seemed to take
in the words battering about them.
Joab Elderkin had got religion. He had been converted.
When he scrambled to his feet he came to, so to speak, on a
different sphere from any he had ever known. He seized up the Bible
again, his hands shaken by the strongest passion known to civilized
man, the only acquired attribute, besides the making of fire, and of
intoxicating liquor, which marks him off fundamentally from the other
mammals. He read again the passage that had flamed into his ken
earlier, he read the promises of the Almighty, he read of how men were
called the Sons of God. He saw himself and all his fellow humans not
merely calling God Father by a kindly sufferance towards adopted
children, but as beings created of the same substance, their souls as
much made of the essence of God as their bodies of the essence of their
earthly fathers, and the thought mounted to his head like wine. The
swift darkness of the tropics had fallen, but full of his new
conception of his fellow-creaturesevery living creature that was
with him of the verseshe, when he opened the chart-room door, flared
forth into a night of gods.
All the next day the glory held, both in the air and in Elderkin's
mind. The Pacific was rainbow-haunted; phantom archways through which
the bowsprits seemed about to soar; pillars of prismatic colour that
melted into air; broken shafts of it that flashed out in every sunlit
burst of spray upon the decks. Even in the two plumes of spray for ever
winging from either side of her cutwater, a curve of burnished colours
hung, as though piercing down into the translucent green, through whose
depths the drowning surf was driven in paler clouds. The wind still
held on and the Spirito Santo made what way she could under
steam and canvas, through the confused seas that slopped aboard her and
buffeted her from all sides at once. It was of supreme significance to
Elderkin that the north-westerly wind on which he had counted for his
purpose, should have died away in the self-same hour that, as he
phrased it, the wind of the spirit blew into his soul. The barometer
was falling rapidly, in spite of the stiller air, and he had had the
royals and outer jib and gaff-topsail stowed. What with her reduced
sail, the influence of her steam, and the lumpy seas, the Spirito
Santo was behaving her worst, riding slugglishly with a heavy
reluctant motion as though she hardly considered it worth the effort of
keeping her blunt nose above water at all. Elderkin felt her sulkiness,
and it seemed to him as though, instead of helping to save her, she was
possessed of an evil spirit bent on thwarting him. He watched her
closely, and spent the day on the poop, and though he said little,
every one was aware of something new and strange about him. The crew
commented among themselves on his abstraction and the poverty of his
abuse; Lemaire thought he held the key to it, but Olsen, the freckled
Dane, grew uneasy. He was having trouble with his engines, which should
have been overhauled long ago, and would inevitably have been renovated
this trip had it been undertaken with a normal objective. If the voyage
were unduly prolonged he would be hard put to it for fuel; it would not
take very much to send his boilers crashing from the rusty stays that
held them; added to which every degree further south, now they were in
the forties, diminished their chances of safety. As there was no longer
any wind to contend with, Olsen was all for steaming towards shore at
once, for his sea-sense combined with the barometer to tell him of
Olsen was a taciturn creature, who cared for no one in the world but
his half-caste childrenbright, large-stomached little creatures, whom
he had left playing in the dust in front of his gaily painted wooden
house in St. Thomas. For their sakes he put up with his fat, slovenly
wife and her swarms of relations of various shades of brown. It was
only for the children's sake that he had stuck to the Spirito Santo, for it suited him to be able to get home as often as he might, and
even when the Spirito Santo did not touch St. Thomas he could
always pick up with a mail-packet or a sailing ship of some kind. It
was his ambition to send both boy and girl to New York for their
education, now that the Civil War had made it possible for anyone with
a touch of colour to make good. Therefore he nursed his crazy engines
as though he loved them, but he decided that the sooner the accident
occurred the better. In the second dog-watch, he, as Lemaire had done
the day before, went to Elderkin in the chart-room.
He found the captain with an open book in front of him: he was not
reading, but making calculations on the margin. He glanced up at Olsen
and his tired eyes brightened for a moment. Then:
Ask Mr. Lemaire to come here, he ordered, and come back
Olsen made his way to the top of the chart-house, where Lemaire was
pacing, full of anxiety, and delivered the order. Lemaire came with a
mixture of civility and an assumption of confederacy in his manner, but
Elderkin took no more notice of it than of Olsen's waiting stolidity.
He closed the Bible and confronted the two men.
Well, Olsen, he said, you were wanting to see me about
It is about this affair, answered Olsen, there is no good to be
got by waiting, sir. I tell you plainly my engines will not stand so
very much. And the way she is loaded, if we come up against anything in
the way of a sea
And you? asked Elderkin of the mate.
I am sure dat what Olsen say is right. It must be now or never.
It is going to be never, replied Elderkin in his usual soft tones.
The two men stared at him, then the quicker Latin flashed into
speech. He demanded, with a lapse into Island patois now and again,
what the blank blank blank the captain thought he was doing. Elderkin
sat through it unmoved.
I will not speak to you as you have just done to me, he began,
because hairy, forsaken Frenchy as you are, you are still a son of
God, even as I am. Praise the Lord with me, for He has shown me into
what an abyss of sin I had fallen. Do you hear what I say? I am captain
aboard this ship, Mr. Lemaire, and I order you to praise God for having
delivered us while there is yet time.
Lemaire stared at his superior officer in total silence for a moment
instead of complying. Then he turned to Olsen. The freckled Dane
grasped the situation the first. He saw that the skipper was not trying
to do them down as Lemaire, when he found his tongue again, accused
him: that this was not some deep-laid trick to keep them out of the
profits. Olsen had seen many religious revivals in the Islands and he
knew the signs.
See here, Mr. Elderkin, he said, stepping forward; I've my side
of it to think of. I've not suddenly got holy. I'm thinking of my
children, same as I was before. You've never thought for anyone but
yourself. I only shipped this voyage because it meant being able to do
what I want for them. I've only stuck to this hell-ship for them.
There's been things done aboard here that would have sunk the ship if
sin could sink her. You can't clean your bloody ship by talking of God
now. We all made an agreement and let's stand by it like men. Sink the
ship, sir, and the top of the sea'll be the sweeter for it.
I've been a sinful man all my days, agreed Elderkin, but my eyes
have been opened, the Lord be thanked. . . . I have been saved and by
the grace of God I mean to save the ship.
It'll take more than the grace of God to keep my engines working,
And suppose we refuse? asked Lemaire. We are two to one, Mr.
Elderkin. Remember, sahif the captain is sick it is de mate who take
charge of de ship. . . .
Mutiny? You? Do you imagine, Mossoo, that I couldn't hold my own
ship against any half-breed afloat?
Damn you! screamed the mate, his skin darkening with his angry
blood. If you not take care we will say you are mad, yes, mad. De men
have only got to hear religion coming out of your face to believe it.
De ship's not safe, and we must scuttle her now, d'you hear?
The men! repeated Elderkin. Let me tell you there never was a
dago crew yet that I couldn't lick. I'll save this ship against the lot
of you, I'll save her against herselfGod helping me, he added.
But we shall be ruined, all of us, urged Olsen. What do you
suppose they will say to us at Port of Spain, Mr. Elderkin? They won't
be pleased to see the Spirito Santo come crawling into the
roadstead with a faked cargo and all that good insurance money wasted.
. . . We shall all be ruined men, I tell you. . . . What will become of
We shall never get into Port of Spain, spoke Lemaire, we shall
never round the Horn. It's coming on to blow now. She can't live
through it, I tell you. It's sinking her now and saving ourselves and
making a damn-big pile out of it, or it's all going down togeder.
Then we will all go down together, said Elderkin; if my
repentance is too late the Lord will not let me save the ship nor yet
I don't give a curse in hell for your soul, or anyone else's,
cried the mate. I tell you it's madness. Only a miracle could keep de
There has already been one miracle aboard her, said Elderkin. Who
are we to set limits to the power of the Almighty? It is a small thing
to keep a senseless structure of wood and iron afloat in comparison
with making the blackest of sinners see the true light, which the Lord
has done between two dog-watches. Yesterday I was profaning the Book
with my calculations of sinful gain made out upon its pages, to-day I
have been calculating how many years I have spent in following my
lusts, and were the years as many as the waves of the sea, I have
prayed the Lord that the weeks of striving in front of us may wipe out
He is mad, remarked Olsen, philosophically.
Lemaire turned swiftly on the engineer. We must take charge, he
urged in a low voice, his back to the captain, and then you must do
what I say. We will run her close inshore, and . . .
Whether Elderkin heard above the growing clamour of the ship or
notfor the woodwork had begun to crackle like a wheezy concertina and
the slap of green water breaking sounded in a scurrying frequencyhe
knew what the mate was planning. A rim of something cold on the back of
Lemaire's neck made his speech fade on his lips, and he and Olsen stood
motionless while Elderkin spoke, Olsen's light eyes looking at the
fanatical dark ones above the gun.
I am master of this ship, and what I say goes, or I'll put daylight
through your dirty body, said Elderkin, pressing the muzzle in till
the dark seamed skin on the mate's neck turned greenish in a circle
around the iron. As for you, Olsen, you're white, though you're a
Dutchman, and I look to you to stick. What about the engines?
I am sorry about this, replied Olsen, with seeming inconsequence,
but what must be will be. I will do the best with my engines. But if
ever we see port again, I have done with you and your ship and your
religion. I have my children to think of. I will go below.
And he pulled the chart-room door open. As though his doing so were
the signal to some malignancy without, a sudden blow of wind struck the
ship; a crash sounded along her decks and on the moment a surge of
water flooded into the chart-room. A sudden squall from the south-west,
such as sometimes arises like a thunderclap in those latitudes at that
time of year, had caught the Spirito Santo in the confusion of
the heavy cross seas. That first blow heeled her over, over, over . . .
it seemed as though she were dipping swiftly far beyond the angle of
safety; further and further. There was nothing to be done for the
moment but clutch on to whatever was nearest; cries of terror from the
dagos sounded thinly even through the clamour of wind and sea and
crashing of gear. Then came that agonizing moment when a vessel, heeled
over as far as possible, seems to hesitate, remains poised for the
fraction of a second that partakes of the quality of eternity, between
recovery and the hair's-breadth more that means foundering.
Then, with a groaning of timbers like some mammoth animal in pain, a
thick jarring of machinery, and a clattering of everything movable
aboard her, the Spirito Santo came slowly up again. If that gust
of wind had held a minute longer she would have rolled herself, her
faked cargo, and her huddled lives, down towards the bed of the
Pacific; sins and religions, material hopes and spiritual aspirations,
alike marked by one fading trail of air bubbles.
Elderkin found he was holding Lemaire round the waist, while Olsen
was on his hands and knees in the lather of water streaming off the
The Lord has decided, said Elderkin, we have now no choice. Get
below, Olsen. He was heaving himself into his oilskins as he spoke,
ordered in his movements but speedy, considering the terrible lurching
of the vessel. His fight to save the Spirito Santo, to save her
against herself, had begun.
He found her topgallant sails thrashing out like blinds from a
window, for the topgallant sheets had carried away, while the foresail
and fore-topmast-staysail were like to flap themselves to rags. He
bellowed his orders above the clamour of the ropes and guys, that were
all shrieking and wailing on different notes as though the ship were
suddenly endowed with the gift of tongues. The men fought their way up
the rigging, and, lying along the slippery yard-arms, wrestled with
clew-lines that whipped about as if possessed, while the wet and
iron-hard canvas beat back and forth with reports like gunshots. But
the men succeeded at length and Elderkin felt that the first tiny stage
in his great battle was won.
Already the sea was running in great slopes of blackish green,
streaked and scarred with livid whiteness; from the poop the whole of
the ship was filled with a swirling mist of spray that wreathed about
the masts, only parting here and there to show one boiling flood of
broken water that poured across the waist from upreared starboard rail
to submerged port scuppers. The forecastle was flooded; from the
forecastle head, as the ship pitched, a torrent poured on to the
hatches, and when the next moment she dived forward, rushing down a
long valley that seemed to slope to the heart of the ocean, two rivers
poured out of her hawse-holes. Elderkin, as she dived, called down the
tubethe only means of communicating with the engine-room except the
still more primitive one of messengersto stop her. And when it looked
as though she could never recover to meet that oncoming mountain, but
must dive into it and be smothered, her bows rose once more, up and up,
till they raked the swollen clouds, while a wall of whiteness thundered
past on either side. As Elderkin called for full again, his face was
as calm as that of a little child. All that night the storm increased,
and wove air and water into one great engine of destruction, and all
night Elderkin stayed lashed to the rail of the chart-house, which was
momentarily in danger of being washed away like a rabbit-hutch. It was
impossible to keep the binnacle alight, and no stars were visible;
steering was a mere groping by the feel of the wind. Dawn seemed hardly
a lightening, so dark hung the massed clouds, of a curious rusty-brown
colour, packed one above the other, overlapping so as to form a solid
roof. Only between their lower rim and the slate-grey sea, an
occasional glimpse of horizon showed where a thin line of molten pallor
ran. Brown, white and steel-grey, with the masts and rigging sharp and
black against it all, and the decks, dark and wet, now refracting what
light there was as the ship rolled one way, now falling on deadness
again as she rolled the other.
With the dawning, Elderkin was unlashed and took the wheel himself,
aided by a seaman, for it took two men to stand its kicking. To him
came Olsen, still phlegmatic, almost as black as one of his dago squad.
Gripping the poop-rail with one hand, with the other he laid hold of
the captain's oilskin, and leant as near as possible to shout his news,
but even so Elderkin could only catch a word here and there.
Won't stand . . . stays parting . . . came to him.
Keep her at it, he yelled back.
But a sudden shout came from Olsen, while the man at the wheel
literally turned colour and closed his eyes. Only Elderkin, with a look
that seemed queerly of exultation on his face, stared ahead to where a
vast wall of water, so high it glimmered greenly, was rolling towards
them over the broken, tossing sea. That was exactly what it looked
like, as though it were a body distinct and separate from the rest of
the raging water, some great fold pushed up from the Antarctic region
and urged across the ocean, on and on. . . . It bore down on the
infinitesimal ship and her clinging ants of crew, bore down, blotting
out the sky, till suddenly it was so near it became one with the rest
of the sea, as though the whole surface were curving over into a hollow
sphere. It thundered upon them; then, its glassy concavity reared to an
incredible height, it toppled over and broke in one roaring cataract of
What happened next no one remaining in the Spirito Santo
could ever have told. Three men were washed overboard; one had his legs
so broken that the splintered bones drove into the deck where he was
hurled down. There were a few long-drawn seconds when all thought she
had gone under, for the rushing sea had climbed level with the
chart-house roof, while the air was so thick with spume and spray it
would have been difficult to say where the sea left off being solid and
became fused with the wind. Then, with a roaring and a sucking like
that when a wave, shattered, streams off a cliff, the water poured off
decks and hatches in long lacings of dazzling white. The Spirito
Santo still lived.
But it seemed she was mortally wounded, for she was jarring all her
length, even the twisted stanchions vibrated as though some malignant
force within her had broken loose; and when Elderkin tried to bring her
head up to the wind, the wheel spun in his hands as easily and
uselessly as a child's toy.
The rudder . . . cried Olsen, she is gone. . . .
Elderkin retained his clarity of aspect and gave his orders
collectedly; only when the dago crew clung miserably to any support and
refused to obey, he pulled out his gun and drove them to their
stations. Hove-to, with only her spanker, close-reefed main-topsail and
fore-staysail set, there was a chance of keeping her off the coast till
the sea should quiet down enough to allow of a jury rudder being
rigged. Meanwhile, as the men were setting the sails she rolled
horribly in the trough of the sea; rolled fit to break her heart.
Elderkin, on the poop, shouting at the men reefing the topsail, saw
something that for the first moment of horror seemed fraught with the
supernatural. Years of neglect, of rust, of corrosion from salt, had in
reality gone to bring about what he then saw, with dishonesty and
money-grubbing meanness behind the rust and corrosion. For, with a
scream of ripping iron and the sharp snapping of guys, the Spirito
Santo rolled her funnel clean off at the root, the casing along
with it. It crashed upon the deck, and the next moment was swept
overboard, carrying away the port bulwarks. A gust of heat and a murky
torrent of foul smoke blew flatly from the cavity that gaped in the
ship's vitals; then a flood of water, luminously pale in the growing
daylight, filmed across the deck amidships and poured over the ragged
rim of the wound. The Spirito Santo rolled upon the water,
little more than a helpless wreck.
Lemaire, who was lying on the top of the chart-house, gripping the
rail, screamed out that they were done for; even Olsen, turning his
blackened face to the captain, shouted that the game was up; as to the
dagos, each yelled where he lay. This time Elderkin had to use his gun
before he could get the ship hove-to. At sight of one of their number
lying limp in the scuppers, the crew obeyed once more, while Olsen,
sticking by his caste, and Lemaire, seeing still a faint chance for
life, worked with them to cover the jagged hole with the stoutest
timbers they could find. What was left of the fires was drawn, the
planks over the hole shored up from below with timbers, tarpaulins
stretched a-top of all and fastened down by a great batten bolted
through the sodden deck; and, during all the hours of work amid wind
and water, Elderkin watched the ship, saw that she did not come too
much up into the wind nor fall off into the trough of the sea; kept the
men at it when, time and again, they would have given up. Gun in one
hand and Bible in the other, he read out threats of the Almighty's,
intermingled with his own. And, at last, the jury-hatch was finished,
and a further stage of the battle won.
Now came the most trying hours of all, when there no longer remained
anything possible to do, when hands fell on inaction and bodies were
free to feel sore and cold, and minds were vacant of everything but an
animal despondency. Olsen lit a fire on the iron floor by the boilers,
and here, for the most part, the miserable men crouched during the rest
of the day and the following night. Elderkin, after he had slept the
sudden and over-powering sleep of the worn-out man, awoke to his first
doubts. As long as there had been continuous need for action, that and
the stern joy of a fight had shut out everything else for him; now that
there was nothing to be done but hoist the inner jib when she came up
too much into the wind and lower it when she paid off again, a need so
recurring it was almost mechanical, he became as much a prey to inner
questionings as his ship was to the winds. What tormented him was the
thought that if the Spirito Santo had foundered in this
south-west gale all hands would have inevitably been lost, whereas had
he kept by his agreement to scuttle her earlier all could probably have
been saved. Was he then become a murderer by having decided as he had,
and would it have been more righteous to keep on his evil course?
Elderkin, to whom for the first time the lives of his men had become of
a value other than commercial, was tormented by the thought of the
three washed overboard by the great wave; and the curses of the man who
had died a few hours after his legs were shattered re-echoed through
his mind. It was not so much that these men had met deathElderkin had
too often stared it in the face to think overmuch of thatbut that
they were cut off in the midst of their sins, with blasphemies on lip
and soul. Elderkin's creed allowed of no gracious after-chances, he saw
the entities he had known and bullied in the flesh, as having become
blind particles of consciousness burning in undying fires. . . .
With dawn and a further dropping of the wind, which had been
lessening all night, he searched again the pages of his Bible, and he
followed the instinctive trail of human nature when he thrust the
niceties of values from him and determined to hold by what was right
and wrong at the springs of his action. When he went out on to the poop
and met the crisp but now friendly wind, saw the glitter of sunshine on
peacock waves, that still broke into white crests, but without
malignance, he knew that the Lord was on his side. How was it possible
he had ever thought otherwise? He must indeed be weak in the ways of
grace that his first testing should awake such questionings within him.
As the weight of despondency and sick dread fell off him in the cold
sunlight, Elderkin flung up his arms and shouted for joy. Lemaire,
crawling up, found him on his knees upon the top of the battered
chart-house, improvising a paen of thanksgiving.
All that day the men worked at rigging a jury rudder and patching up
the port bulwarks. Then Olsen, who kept them as doggedly at it as the
skipper himself, conceived a plan whereby his engines could once again
play a part. He collected sheet-iron and stout pieces of wood, and with
these he contrived a jury-funnel, fitting steam-jets at the base to
maintain the draught to the furnaces. The freakish erection held
together well, though it looked oddly stumpy in place of the thin,
raking smoke-stack; Olsen secured it by guys of iron chain. At last all
was complete, and once again a plume of dirty smoke trailed from
between the sticks of the Spirito Santo. The men slept as they
fell, but by then the rudder and smoke-stack had converted her from a
blind cripple into an intelligent whole which could work independently
of the direction of wind and current. A further stage of the battle was
won, and with every victory Elderkin felt greater confidence in the
Lord and in himself.
By the next day it had grown very cold, and the men began to prepare
shapeless and weather-worn garments against the bitterness of the Horn.
Even Lemaire, who kept on repeating sullenly that they could never
round it, knew that the only chance now was to carry on, and, his face
seeming to pale with the first breath of the cold, hugged himself in a
great padded coat. Food was already beginning to run short, and only by
serving out double quantities of the raw West Indian rum were the men
kept going at all. The ship herself could be heartened with no such
encouragement, and although she was now snoring at a fair pace through
the smother of foam that kept the lee-scuppers covered with a running
river, yet her foul sides and wicked loading absorbed half her speed.
She was a wet ship at the best of times, now she was sodden to her
trucks, and the showers of icy rain that blew down on the westerly gale
every now and then, wetted in a worse fashion, for rain-water chills to
the bone right through oilskins. One day an exhausted Cape pigeon fell
on board, and the little bird was eaten raw by the first man who got to
it; sometimes a great albatross sailed on level unmoving wings around
the labouring ship, and mollymawks screamed and circled, but none fell
a victim to the hungry crew. There was a certain amount of salt junk
left aboard, but the chief diet was nothing but hard-tack, and that was
mouldy. Elderkin remained unmoved by any consideration save how to get
her round the Horn, and he made Olsen save the dwindling fuel as much
as possible for the attempt, lest they should be kept beating back and
forth for weeks till exhaustion of ship and men sent them under. So the
days went on, and the great Cape Horn greybeards rolled up with
glistening flanks and white crests that broke and poured down them in
thunder. Cold rains, wind squalls, her own condition and that of the
men aboard her, all fought against the Spirito Santo, till it
seemed as though the strongly set will of her captain were the only
thing that kept her alivealive and obedient however sulky, to the
intelligence that drove her.
Still she kept going, steaming and sailing into the stormy sunsets
till at last she was off Cape Stiff itself, showing unspeakably bleak
and gaunt through the driving mist; only now and then were the black
cliffs visible, going down into a smoking line of foam.
If a bad storm had hit her off the promontory nothing could have
saved her, but the wind, though the strong westerly gale of the
roaring forties, held less of violence than ordinary, and although
she rolled till it seemed she would dip her yards, and the water could
hardly be pumped out of her as fast as it poured in, yet she pulled
through, as she had pulled through the south-westerly gale and the
disasters that followed. Elderkin, who had somehow expected his great
tussle off the Horn, felt an odd sensation that was almost
On looking back afterwards, Elderkin saw that the voyage was, as it
were, divided clearly into two by the passing of the Hornon the
Pacific side the actual physical blows of material damage and storm, on
the Atlantic the more wearing struggle against spiritual opposition.
The men, headed by Lemaire, began to murmur.
For one thing, the last possible scrap of fuel had been burned by
the time they were passing the Falklands, and they were left with
nothing but their canvas to carry them home. As far as keeping her
steady went, she was better under sail than steam, and also, like every
true sailor, Elderkin felt more in harmony with the weather when using
only canvas. For a steamer goes independently of the wind, ignores it,
shoves her nose in its face, and the wind pays her back by becoming an
enemy, but a sailing-ship lives by wind, humours it, coaxes the last
hair's-breadth of it, and the wind, flattered, ignores that all the
time it is being managed and made of use.
But the sails of the Spirito Santo were old and mildewed, she
carried little spare canvas, and, worst of all, if they should come
into a calm, those on board her might starve to death before they
sighted help. All these things the men knew, and knowing, began to
rebel. Lemaire, too, no longer seconded Elderkin, and he and Olsen bore
the burden of nigger-driving aloneand Olsen, although he was loyal,
made his discontent apparent. A terrible loneliness of mind fell upon
Elderkin. He felt himself accursed of all men, but he still held on;
each successive incident of his fight, instead of wearing his
resistance down, went to strengthen it. The crisis came when after
weeks of crawling and standing still, hurrying on with any advantage of
breeze that presented itself, yet afraid to carry too much canvas, the
Spirito Santo was nearing the fortieth parallel once more.
It was a grey, squally day, with the south-westerly wind keeping the
sails bellied forward, and the gusts of rain driving so hard that the
water in the brimming scuppers was lashed to paleness; the pumps were
in pretty constant use now, and the fetid bilge-water washed over the
decks in floods of a dark reddish colour, as though the Spirito
Santo were bleeding internally. A sullen moodiness held air and sea
and mind of those who looked; that grinding reluctance of the
Spirito Santo had passed into the men's bones, they moved slowly if
ordered to do anything, their shrunken flesh was a mass of sea-boils
and, since the lime-juice and potatoes were exhausted, scurvy had
broken out. Elderkin himself looked like some mediæval picture of the
Baptist: he had grown a beard that came to a sparse point, and his
sombre eyes glowed from behind the disordered streaks of hair that fell
over them, while his skin, so tightly stretched over the bones, had
taken on a waxen texture. To the men who came crowding on to the
after-deck to voice their resentment, he had the air of a madman, as he
stood erect at the break of the poop, his figure dark against the grey
pallor of the sky. For a few minutes he stood scanning them quietly,
and they stared back at him. In marshalling them where he had, Lemaire
had made an error in psychology; for the mere fact that they had to
look up to Elderkin on the poop affected both him and them
What do you want? asked the skipper quietly. Lemaire stepped
forward as spokesman.
We want to get out of dis shop and make for the shore, dat's what
we want, and dat's what we'll do.
Ah . . . how?
We'll take de law into our own hands. If we sink her now we can
make for the mout' of de Plate, or we might be picked up sooner. I've
told de men; I've told how we was all goin' to be rich an' safe and
would have been trowin' our money around ashore by now if you hadn't
got de praise-de-Lord bug in your head.
What Massa Lemaire say quite true, sah, called out a burly negro,
whose black face was greyed over in patches from disease, an' we
aren't goin' to stand dis any longer. If you won't sink her we're goin'
to, or we'll all be dead men.
We're dead now, dead and rotting, shrieked the bo'sun, on a sudden
note of frenzy that pierced the air like a thrown blade, who ever saw
live men rot? And he held up a hand which scurvy, on an open wound,
had literally rotted so that the tendons hung down like weed. He shook
the maimed thing at Elderkin. Look at thisAnd this . . .And
this . . . came up to Elderkin in angry shouts. The men, intoxicated
by the sudden venting of their wrongs, began to swarm up the ladders to
the poop deck.
Elderkin felt new life urge through his veins, the pressure of the
dead weeks behind sloughed off him, as the thinning veils of sleep drop
away from the waking consciousness in the morning. He did not pull out
his gun, but kept his hands in his pockets and faced the snarling,
tentative, ugly pack of them.
Then he talked, not raising his voice more than was needful for the
grinding and creaking of the ship's labour and the weary complaining of
the wind-tortured rigging.
So you'd mutiny, would you? he began in his soft voice, well,
first you'll listen to me. Down off that gang-way, you there . . .
that's better. Well, I guess I know what you men are saying to
yourselvesthat I'm one man against the lot of you, and now we're no
longer fighting to keep the ship afloat for our lives, you can easy get
the better of me. That's what you're thinking, isn't it?
A murmur of assent, half-threatening, half-shame-faced, came from
below. To Elderkin, looking down, the men appeared as blots of deeper
colour against the pale glimmer of the wet deck; their upturned faces
had the abrupt fore-shortening that imparts a touch of the ludicrous,
but those faces were set in folds which told of hardened determination,
behind the swellings and boils which glistened in the watery light, so
that Elderkin could see each disfigurement as clearly as pebbles in a
pool unshaded from the sky.
The mate tells you you'll get a lot of money if you go home and say
you've sunk the ship. You won't. He will, as Judas did for betraying
his Lord, but you'll just be got rid of, if you don't keep your mouths
shut. You're wrong, as you've been all your lives, as I've been till
now. But I've a stronger man on my side than all of you herring-gutted
sons of a gun would make rolled together. I've the Lord on my side. You
think nothing of that, do you? The Lord's up in heaven and won't notice
what you do, and you ain't feared of the likes of Him anyway. . . .
Aren't you? Why d'you think it is you have bloody sacrifices there in
the fo'c'sleoh, yes, I know about it allwhy d'you suppose you
cringe to that nigger therepointing to the matewith his black
history of murdered children and flesh eaten in secret when the sacred
drum beats at the full of the moon? Why d'you suppose you're scared
sick of a dirty bug and a bit of wool in an old bottle, or of my Bible
that I've set up on a shelf? It's because you know there's something
behindbehind your ju-jus and behind my ju-ju. . . . You not fear the
Lord! Why, you fear Him with every devilish performance you concoct.
You're afraid all the timeof the something behind. And my ju-ju is
greater than your ju-ju, so you're more afraid of mine, and of me.
Could your ju-ju bring you through the great storm alive? All of
youand that damned baby-eater thereyou was all yelling at your
ju-jus and they couldn't wag one of their accursed fingers to help you.
Who saved you and brought you out alive? White men and the white men's
God. You know there's something behind, and what's behind me is
bigger'n what's behind you. . . .
He suddenly pulled his hand out of the capacious pocket of his coat,
and the men cowered swiftly, but instead of a gun he held his Bible out
over the rail, threatening them not with its insignificant fabric but
with its unknown import. A couple of Jamaican negroes fell on their
knees and writhed upon the deck, making uncouth noises, their eyes
turning palely upwards, their limbs convulsed.
Praise de Lord! they yelled. Praise de Lord wid us, brudders! End
of de world and judgment comin'. Save us, massa, save us. . . . And a
dago from the southern continent fell to crossing himself and gabbling
You fools! cried Lemaire, thrusting through the heaving knot of
men, don't you listen to his talk. Talk won't fill our stomachs or
cure our skins. How's he going to feed you? Ask him dat.
Yeswhat are we to eat? Give us food and we'll keep on! shouted
the bo'sun. Can your God make food?
My God provided manna for the children of Israel in the wilderness
and He'll provide for us now if we trust in Him. He will send us meat
for our bellies and drink for our throats.
How . . . ? Where is it, dis food? taunted Lemaire; and Elderkin,
his hand pointing, answered, There . . .
The men swung round to gaze, and saw a fugitive gleam of sunlight on
her shining tower of cotton canvas, a great four-masted American barque
beating to windward only a few miles away. Elderkin and his ju-ju were
saved, and Lemaire's vision of dollars was routed by the men's vision
of food. The distress signals were run up, and by that night the
Spirito Santo carried enough provisions of a rude kind to last her,
with care and luckmeaning a rigid discipline of practically
wreck-rations and fair windsto see her safely home again. Elderkin
thought that at last the testings of his faith were over, that the
weary ship would blow towards port on a divinely appointed wind, and
that his sacrifice and conversion were accepted on high. For the image
he had had in his mind on that day of revelation in the chart-house had
been of one Titanic struggle, not of this succession of conflicts which
sometimes rose to crisis point but more often meant fighting against
the terrible depression of day after day's inaction, driven half-crazy
by the unceasing moaning of the rigging. Sustained bad weather gets on
a sailor's nerves not because of any danger but simply by dint of the
repetition of noises; there is only one thing more unbearable to mind
and temper, and that is to be becalmed. Thought of any such happening
was far from those on board the Spirito Santo, for the
south-westerly wind urged her on past the Plate, and then a baffling
head wind blew her out of the treacherous skies, and for over a week
she beat back and forth, making hardly any headway. The rations were
still further reduced, and then just as the men were beginning to make
trouble again, the Spirito Santo caught up with the south-west
trades. Once again she made the seas roar past her, for now, regardless
of her depth in the water, Elderkin made all the sail he could. Day
after day slipped past with the slipping foam, and the gaunt creatures
aboard felt a stirring of relief. And then, in the Doldrums, they ran
into a dead calm. . . .
Only anyone who has been becalmed on a tropical sea knows the terror
that it is. Of all feelings of helplessness it is probably the most
acute. Without steam or motor a ship is as powerless as though she were
anchored to the sea-bottom with iron cables. Men have gone mad of it,
and men did go mad of it in the starving Spirito Santo. She lay,
as famished for a breeze as they for bread, upon a surface of molten
glass, her sails limp as a dead bird's wing, the pitch soft in her
seams, and the only sound in the circle of the horizon the faint
creak-creak of her yards against the masts. Cabins and forecastle were
unbearable, yet on deck the vertical sun had driven all but the
thinnest lines of shadow out of being. The nights were almost as hot as
the days and always the false cross gleamed from a cloudless sky, and
the true Cross swam up lying on her back and trailing the pointers
behind her, slowly righting herself as she rose and driving the
pitiless brilliancy of the Milky Way before her. The drinking-water,
what there was of it, stank; and the dried mouths of the men could
hardly manage the mouldy hard-tack which captain and crew shared alike.
And there was nothing to be done, nothing that could be done. The men
were past revolt now, they could only shamble dizzily about. There was
nothing to be doneexcept pray, and Elderkin prayed, though his lips
moved almost soundlessly. He thought much these days, and he
rememberedprobably because of the dead stillness aroundan old
seafaring fable that in the calm heart of a cyclone life is to be
foundthat there birds and butterflies of every size and colour crowd,
till the air is hung with brightness. He saw the individual soul of man
as the hollow calm in the midst of life, cut off by the circling storm
from all other air, and told himself that it could be the refuge for
beauties of praise . . . he strove to make this aching solitude of mind
wherein he was, rich as the fabled heart of the cyclone. . . .
Then, just as the first faint breath made her ripple the water at
her bows, he discovered that, worn out by her successive batterings,
the Spirito Santo was literally falling apart. He looked over
her side and saw that she was spewing oakum from her seams, while she
settled lower and lower in the water.
The discovery acted like cool wind on Elderkinit was unthinkable
that they should perish now, not so very far from home, after all he
had won through, and he prepared to meet this disaster also. He had
prudently kept one last cask of rum unbroached, and this fluid life he
now served out to the men. Then he drove them, as before with gun or
Bible, but this time with rum; drove them to the task of frapping the
leaking ship. Four great chain cables were passed under her and hove
tight with Spanish windlasses on decka series of giant tourniquets to
keep in her life. And when that too was accomplished, it was as though
the power above at last was satisfied, and the wind strengthened that
was to bear the Spirito Santo home.
Nearly six months after leaving port with provisions enough for one;
with her rotten ratlines hanging in little tags, her jury smoke-stack
idle between the patched sails that seemed as though one more puff of
wind would tear them from the battered yards, her spewing sides kept
together with cables, and her broken bulwarks level with the watera
nightmare vessel manned by ghostsshe crawled into the roadstead at
Port of Spain.
* * * * *
For a few years after, a ragged white man haunted the drink-shops of
the Islands and hung about the portsa man without a ship. The owners
of the Spirito Santo were broken by the safe return of that
faked cargo, but they had passed the word round that her skipper was to
be broken too. He who had been so self-controlled in the old
unregenerate days now drank steadily, but it was only when he was very
drunk he talked. And even then it was difficult to make out what he
saidit was all such a jumble of some strange fight between two ships,
and of how the ways of the Lord were so mysterious that it was often
impossible for a man to tell upon which side righteousness might be
[A] Here follows in the original a minute description of the
[B] Pronounced Roughneck.
[C] At that date Prisoner's Counsel was not allowed to make a speech
for the defence.
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