Heart Histories and Life-Pictures
by T. S. Arthur
THE BOOK OF
GOING TO THE
NOT GREAT, BUT
SLOW AND SURE.
THE SCHOOL GIRL.
So interested are we all in our every-day pursuits; so given up,
body and mind, to the attainment of our own ends; so absorbed by our
own hopes, joys, fears and disappointments, that we think rarely, if
at all, of the heart-histories of others—of the bright and sombre
life-pictures their eyes may look upon. And yet, every heart has its
history: how sad and painful many of these histories are, let the
dreamy eyes, the sober faces, the subdued, often mournful tones, of
many that daily cross our paths, testify. An occasional remembrance
of these things will cause a more kindly feeling towards others; and
this will do us good, in withdrawing our minds from too exclusive
thoughts of self.
Whatever tends to awaken our sympathies towards others, to interest
us in humanity, is, therefore, an individual benefit as well as a
common good. In all that we have written, we have endeavored to
create this sympathy and awaken this interest; and so direct has ever
been our purpose, that we have given less thought to those elegancies
of style on which a literary reputation is often founded, than to the
truthfulness of our many life-pictures. In the preparation of this
volume, the same end has been kept in view, and its chief merit will
be found, we trust, in its power to do good.
T. S. A.
PHILADELPHIA, December, 1852.
THE BOOK OF MEMORY.
"THERE is a book of record in your mind, Edwin," said an old man to
his young friend, "a book of record, in which every act of your life
is noted down. Each morning a blank page is turned, on which the
day's history is written in lines that cannot be effaced. This book
of record is your memory; and, according to what it bears, will your
future life be happy or miserable. An act done, is done forever; for,
the time in which it is done, in passing, passes to return no more.
The history is written and sealed up. Nothing can ever blot it out.
You may repent of evil, and put away the purpose of evil from your
heart; but you cannot, by any repentance, bring back the time that is
gone, nor alter the writing on the page of memory. Ah! my young
friend, if I could only erase some pages in the book of my memory,
that almost daily open themselves before the eyes of my mind, how
thankful I would be! But this I cannot do. There are acts of my life
for which repentance only avails as a process of purification and
preparation for a better state in the future; it in no way repairs
wrong done to others. Keep the pages of your memory free from blots,
Edwin. Guard the hand writing there as you value your best and highest
Edwin Florence listened, but only half comprehended what was said
by his aged friend. An hour afterwards he was sitting by the side of a
maiden, her hand in his, and her eyes looking tenderly upon his face.
She was not beautiful in the sense that the world regards beauty. Yet,
no one could be with her an hour without perceiving the higher and
truer beauty of a pure and lovely spirit. It was this real beauty of
character which had attracted Edwin Florence; and the young girl's
heart had gone forth to meet the tender of affection with an impulse
"You love me, Edith?" said Edwin, in a low voice, as he bent
nearer, and touched her pure forehead with his lips.
"As my life," replied the maiden, and her eyes were full of love as
Again the young man kissed her.
In low voices, leaning towards each other until the breath of each
was warm on the other's cheek, they sat conversing for a long time.
Then they separated; and both were happy. How sweet were the maiden's
dreams that night, for, in every picture that wandering fancy drew,
was the image of her lover!
Daily thus they met for a long time. Then there was a change in
Edwin Florence. His visits were less frequent, and when he met the
young girl, whose very life was bound up in his, his manner had in it
a reserve that chilled her heart as if an icy hand had been laid upon
it. She asked for no explanation of the change; but, as he grew
colder, she shrunk more and more into herself, like a flower folding
its withering leaves when touched by autumn's frosty fingers.
One day he called on Edith. He was not as cold as he had been, but
he was, from some cause, evidently embarrassed.
"Edith," said he, taking her hand—it was weeks since he had
touched her hand except in meeting and parting—"I need not say how
highly I regard you. How tenderly I love you, even as I could love a
pure and gentle sister. But—"
He paused, for he saw that Edith's face had become very pale; and
that she rather gasped for air than breathed.
"Are you sick?" he asked, in a voice of anxiety.
Edith was recovering herself.
"No," she replied, faintly.
A deep silence, lasting for the space of nearly half a minute,
followed. By this time the maiden, through a forced effort, had
regained the command of her feelings. Perceiving this, Edwin
"As I said, Edith, I love you as I could love a pure and gentle
sister. Will you accept this love? Will you be to me a friend—a
Again there passed upon the countenance of Edith a deadly palor;
while her lips quivered, and her eyes had a strange expression. This
soon passed away, and again something of its former repose was in her
face. At the first few words of Florence, Edith withdrew the hand he
had taken. He now sought it again, but she avoided the contact.
"You do not answer me, Edith," said the young man.
"Do you wish an answer?" This was uttered in a scarcely audible
"I do, Edith," was the earnest reply. "Let there be no separation
between us. You are to me what you have ever been, a dearly prized
friend. I never meet you that my heart does not know an impulse for
good—I never think of you but—"
"Let us be as strangers!" said Edith, rising abruptly. And turning
away, she fled from the room.
Slowly did the young man leave the apartment in which they were
sitting, and without seeing any member of the family, departed from
the house. There was a record on his memory that time would have no
power to efface. It was engraved too deeply for the dust of years to
obliterate. As he went, musing away, the pale face of Edith was
before him; and the anguish of her voice, as she said, "Let us be as
strangers," was in his ears. He tried not to see the one, nor hear
the other. But that was impossible. They had impressed themselves
into the very substance of his mind.
Edwin Florence had an engagement for that very evening. It was with
one of the most brilliant, beautiful, and fascinating women he had
ever met. A few months before, she had crossed his path, and from
that time he was changed towards Edith. Her name was Catharine
Linmore. The earnest attentions of Florence pleased her, and as she
let the pleasure she felt be seen, she was not long in winning his
heart entirely from his first love. In this, she was innocent; for
she knew nothing of the former state of his affections towards Edith.
After parting with Edith, Edwin had no heart to fulfill his
engagement with Miss Linmore. He could think of nothing but the
maiden he had so cruelly deserted; and more than half repented of
what he had done. When the hour for the appointment came, his mind
struggled awhile in the effort to obtain a consent to go, and then
decided against meeting, at least on that occasion, the woman whose
charms had led him to do so great a wrong to a loving and confiding
heart. No excuse but that of indisposition could be made, under the
circumstances; and, attempting to screen himself, in his own
estimation, from falsehood, he assumed, in his own thoughts, a mental
indisposition, while, in the billet he dispatched, he gave the idea of
bodily indisposition. The night that followed was, perhaps, the most
unhappy one the young man had ever spent. Days passed, and he heard
nothing from Edith. He could not call to see her, for she had
interdicted that. Henceforth they must be as strangers. The effect
produced by his words had been far more painful than was anticipated;
and he felt troubled when he thought about what might be their
On the fifth day, as the young man was walking with Catharine
Linmore, he came suddenly face to face with Edith. There was a change
in her that startled him. She looked at him, in passing, but gave no
signs of recognition.
"Wasn't that Miss Walter?" inquired the companion of Edwin, in a
tone of surprise.
"Yes," replied Florence.
"What's the matter with her? Has she been sick? How dreadful she
"I never saw her look so bad," remarked the young man. As they
walked along, Miss Linmore kept alluding to Edith, whose changed
appearance had excited her sympathies.
"I've met her only a few times," said she, "but I have seen enough
of her to give me a most exalted opinion of her character. Some one
called her very plain; but I have not thought so. There is something
so good about her, that you cannot be with her long without
perceiving a real beauty in the play of her countenance."
"No one can know her well, without loving her for the goodness of
which you have just spoken," said Edwin.
"You are intimate with her?"
"Yes. She has been long to me as a sister." There was a roughness
in the voice of Florence as he said this.
"She passed without recognizing you," said Miss Linmore.
"So I observed."
"And yet I noticed that she looked you in the face, though with a
cold, stony, absent look. It is strange! What can have happened to
"I have observed a change in her for some time past," Florence
ventured to say; "but nothing like this. There is something wrong."
When the time to part, with his companion came, Edwin Florence felt
a sense of relief. Weeks now passed without his seeing or hearing any
thing from Edith. During the time he met Miss Linmore frequently; and
encouraged to approach, he at length ventured to speak to her of what
was in his heart. The young lady heard with pleasure, and, though she
did not accept the offered hand, by no means repulsed the ardent
suitor. She had not thought of marriage, she said, and asked a short
time for reflection.
Edwin saw enough in her manner to satisfy him that the result would
be in his favor. This would have made him supremely happy, could he
have blotted out all recollection of Edith and his conduct towards
her. But, that was impossible. Her form and face, as he had last seen
them, were almost constantly before his eyes. As he walked the
streets, he feared lest he should meet her; and never felt pleasant
in any company until certain that she was not there.
A few days after Mr. Florence had made an offer of his hand to Miss
Linmore, and at a time when she was about making a favorable
decision, that young lady happened to hear some allusion made to
Edith Walter, in a tone that attracted her attention. She immediately
asked some questions in regard to her, when one of the persons
"Why, don't you know about Edith?"
"I know that there is a great change in her. But the reason of it I
have not heard."
"Indeed! I thought it was pretty well known that her affections had
been trifled with."
"Who could trifle with the affections of so sweet, so good a girl,"
said Miss Linmore, indignantly. "The man who could turn from her, has
no true appreciation of what is really excellent and exalted in
woman's character. I have seen her only a few times; but, often
enough to make me estimate her as one among the loveliest of our
"Edwin Florence is the man," was replied. "He won her heart, and
then turned from her; leaving the waters of affection that had flowed
at his touch to lose themselves in the sands at his feet. There must
be something base in the heart of a man who could trifle thus with
such a woman."
It required a strong effort on the part of Miss Linmore to conceal
the instant turbulence of feeling that succeeded so unexpected a
declaration. But she had, naturally, great self-control, and this
came to her aid.
"Edwin Florence!" said she, after a brief silence, speaking in a
tone of surprise.
"Yes, he is the man. Ah, me! What a ruin has been wrought! I never
saw such a change in any one as Edith exhibits. The very inspiration
of her life is gone. The love she bore towards Florence seems to have
been almost the mainspring of her existence; for in touching that the
whole circle of motion has grown feeble, and will, I fear, soon cease
"Dreadful! The falsehood of her lover has broken her heart."
"I fear that it is even so."
"Is she ill? I have not seen her for a long time," said Miss
"Not ill, as one sick of a bodily disease; but drooping about as
one whose spirits are broken, and who finds no sustaining arm to lean
upon. When you meet her, she strives to be cheerful, and appear into
rested. But the effort deceives no one."
"Why did Mr. Florence act towards her as he has done?" asked Miss
"A handsomer face and more brilliant exterior were the attractions,
I am told."
The young lady asked no more questions. Those who observed her
closely, saw the warm tints that made beautiful her cheeks grow
fainter and fainter, until they had almost entirely faded. Soon
after, she retired from the company.
In the ardor of his pursuit of a new object of affection, Edwin
Florence scarcely thought of the old one. The image of Edith was
hidden by the interposing form of Miss Linmore. The suspense
occasioned by a wish for time to consider the offer he had made, grew
more and more painful the longer it was continued. On the possession
of the lovely girl as his wife, depended, so he felt, his future
happiness. Were she to decline his offer he would be wretched. In this
state of mind, he called one day upon Miss Linmore, hoping and
fearing, yet resolved to know his fate. The moment he entered her
presence he observed a change. She did not smile; and there was
something chilling in the steady glance of her large dark eyes.
"Have I offended you?" he asked, as she declined taking his offered
"Yes," was the firm reply, while the young lady assumed a dignified
"In what?" asked Florence.
"In proving false to her in whose ears you first breathed words of
The young man started as if stung by a serpent.
"The man," resumed Miss Linmore, "who has been false to Edith
Walter, never can be true to me. I wouldn't have the affection that
could turn from one like her. I hold it to be light as the
thistle-down. Go! heal the heart you have almost broken, if,
perchance, it be not yet too late. As for me, think of me as if we
had all our lives been strangers—such, henceforth, we must ever
And saying this, Catharine Linmore turned from the rebuked and
astonished young man, and left the room. He immediately retired.
EVENING, with its passionless influences, was stealing softly down,
and leaving on all things its hues of quiet and repose. The heart of
nature was beating with calm and even pulses. Not so the heart of
Edwin Florence. It had a wilder throb; and the face of nature was not
reflected in the mirror of his feelings, He was alone in his room,
where he had been during the few hours that had elapsed since his
interview with Miss Linmore. In those few hours, Memory had turned
over many leaves of the Book of his Life. He would fain have averted
his eyes from the pages, but he could not. The record was before him,
and he had read it. And, as he read, the eyes of Edith looked into his
own; at first they were loving and tender, as of old; and then. they
were full of tears. Her hand lay, now, confidingly in his; and now it
was slowly withdrawn. She sat by his side, and leaned upon him—his
lips were upon her lips; his cheek touching her cheek; their breaths
were mingling. Another moment and he had turned from her coldly, and
she was drooping towards the earth like a tender vine bereft of the
support to which it had held by its clinging tendrils. Ah! If he could
only have shut out these images! If he could have erased the record so
that Memory could not read it! How eagerly would he have drunk of
Lethe's waters, could he have found the fabled stream!
More than all this. The rebuke of Miss Linmore almost maddened him.
In turning from Edith, he had let his heart go out towards the other
with a passionate devotion. Pride in her beauty and brilliant
accomplishments had filled his regard with a selfishness that could
ill bear the shock of a sudden repulse. Sleepless was the night that
followed; and when the morning, long looked for, broke at last, it
brought no light for his darkened spirit. Yet he had grown calmer,
and a gentle feeling pervaded his bosom. Thrown off by Miss Linmore,
his thoughts now turned by a natural impulse, as the needle, long
held by opposing attraction, turns to its polar point, again towards
Edith Walter. As he thought of her longer and longer, tenderer
emotions began to tremble in his heart. The beauty of her character
was again seen; and his better nature bowed before it once more in a
"How have I been infatuated! What syren spell has been on me!" Such
were the words that fell from his lips, marking the change in his
Days went by, and still the change went on, until the old affection
had come back; the old tender, true affection. But, he had turned
from its object—basely turned away. A more glaring light had dazzled
his eyes so that he could see, for a time, no beauty, no attraction,
in his first love. Could he turn to her again? Would she receive him?
Would she let him dip healing leaves in the waters he had dashed with
bitterness? His heart trembled as he asked these questions, for there
was no confident answer.
At last Edwin Florence resolved that he would see Edith once more,
and seek to repair the wrong done both to her and to himself. It was
three months after his rejection by Miss Linmore when he came to this
resolution. And then, some weeks elapsed before he could force himself
to act upon it. In all that time he had not met the young girl, nor
had he once heard of her. To the house of her aunt, where she resided,
Florence took his way one evening in early autumn, his heart disturbed
by many conflicting emotions. His love for Edith had come back in full
force; and his spirit was longing for the old communion.
"Can I see Miss Walter!" he asked, on arriving at her place of
"Walk in," returned the servant who had answered his summons.
Florence entered the little parlor where he had spent so many
never-to-be-forgotten hours with Edith—hours unspeakably happy in
passing, but, in remembrance, burdened with pain—and looking around
on each familiar object with strange emotions. Soon a light step was
heard descending the stairs, and moving along the passage. The door
opened, and Edith—no, her aunt—entered. The young man had risen in
the breathlessness of expectation.
"Mr. Florence," said the aunt, coldly. He extended his hand; but
she did not take it.
"How is Edith?" was half stammered.
"She is sinking rapidly," replied the aunt.
Edwin staggered back into a chair.
"Is she ill?" he inquired, with a quivering lip.
"Ill! She is dying!" There was something of indignation in the way
this was said.
"Dying!" The young man clasped his hands together with a gesture of
"How long has she been sick?" he next ventured to ask.
"For months she has been dying daily," said the aunt. There was a
meaning in her tones that the young man fully comprehended. He had
not dreamed of this.
"Can I see her?"
The aunt shook her head, as she answered,
"Let her spirit depart in peace."
"I will not disturb, but calm her spirit," said the young man,
earnestly. "Oh, let me see her, that I may call her back to life!"
"It is too late," replied the aunt. "The oil is exhausted, and
light is just departing."
Edwin started to his feet, exclaiming passionately—"Let me see
her! Let me see her!"
"To see her thus, would be to blow the breath that would extinguish
the flickering light," said the aunt. "Go home, young man! It is too
late! Do not seek to agitate the waters long troubled by your hand,
but now subsiding into calmness. Let her spirit depart in peace."
Florence sunk again into his chair, and, hiding his face with his
hands, sat for some moments in a state of a mental paralysis.
In the chamber above lay the pale, almost pulseless form of Edith.
A young girl, who had been as her sister for many years, sat holding
her thin white hand. The face of the invalid was turned to the wall.
Her eyes were closed; and she breathed so quietly that the motions of
respiration could hardly be seen. Nearly ten minutes had elapsed from
the time a servant whispered to the aunt that there was some one in
the parlor, when Edith turned, and said to her companion, in a low,
"Mr. Florence has come."
The girl started, and a flush of surprise went over her face.
"He is in the parlor now. Won't you ask him to come up?" added the
dying maiden, still speaking with the utmost composure.
Her friend stood surprised and hesitating for some moments, and
then turning away, glided from the chamber. She found the aunt and Mr.
Florence in the passage below, the latter pleading with the former
for the privilege of seeing Edith, which was resolutely denied.
"Edith wants to see Mr. Florence," said the girl, as she joined
"Who told her that he was here?" quickly asked the aunt.
"No one. I did not know it myself."
"Her heart told her that I was here," exclaimed Mr. Florence—and,
as he spoke, he glided past the aunt, and, with hurried steps,
ascended to the chamber where the dying one lay. The eyes of Edith
were turned towards the door as he entered; but no sign of emotion
passed over her countenance. Overcome by his feelings, at the sight
of the shadowy remnant of one so loved and so wronged, the young man
sunk into a chair by her side, as nerveless as a child; and, as his
lips were pressed upon her lips and cheeks, her face was wet with his
Coming in quickly after, the aunt took firmly hold of his arm and
sought to draw him away, but, in a steady voice, the invalid said—
"No—no. I was waiting for him. I have expected him for days. I
knew he would come; and he is here now."
All was silence for many minutes; and during this time Edwin
Florence sat with his face covered, struggling to command his
feelings. At a motion from the dying girl, the aunt and friend
retired, and she was alone with the lover who had been false to his
vows. As the door closed behind them, Edwin looked up. He had grown
calm. With a voice of inexpressible tenderness, he said—
"Live for me, Edith."
"Not here," was answered. "The silver chord will soon be loosened
and the golden bowl broken."
"Oh, say not that! Let me call you back to life. Turn to me again
as I have turned to you with my whole heart. The world is still
beautiful; and in it we will be happy together."
"No, Edwin," replied the dying maiden. "The history of my days here
is written, and the angel is about sealing the record. I am going
where the heart will never feel the touch of sorrow. I wished to see
you once more before I died; and you are here. I have, once more,
felt your breath upon my cheek; once more held your hand in mine. For
this my heart is grateful. You had become the sun of my life, and when
your face was turned away, the flower that spread itself joyfully in
the light, drooped and faded. And now, the light has come back again;
but it cannot warm into freshness and beauty the withered blossom."
"Oh, my Edith! Say not so! Live for me! I have no thoughts, no
affection that is not for you. The drooping flower will lift itself
again in the sunshine when the clouds have passed away."
As the young man said this, Edith raised herself up suddenly, and,
with a fond gesture, flung herself forward upon his bosom. For a few
moments her form quivered in his arms. Then all became still, and he
felt her lying heavier and heavier against him. In a little while he
was conscious that he clasped to his heart only the earthly semblance
of one who had passed away forever.
Replacing the light and faded form of her who, a little while
before, had been in the vigor of health, upon the bed, Edwin gazed
upon the sunken features for a few moments, and then, leaving a last
kiss upon her cold lips, hurried aware.
Another page in his Book of Life was written, There was another
record there from which memory, in after life, could read. And such a
record! What would he not have given to erase that page!
When the body of Edith Walter was borne to its last resting-place,
Florence was among the mourners. After looking his last look upon the
coffin that contained the body, he went away, sadder in heart than he
had ever been in his life. He was not only a prey to sadness, but to
painful self-accusation. In his perfidy lay the cause of her death. He
had broken the heart that confided in him, and only repented of his
error when it was too late to repair the ruin.
As to what was thought or said of him by others, Edwin Florence
cared but little. There was enough of pain in his own
self-consciousness. He withdrew himself from the social circle, and,
for several years, lived a kind of hermit-life in the midst of
society. But, he was far from being happy in his solitude; for Memory
was with him, and almost daily, from the Book of his Life, read to him
some darkly written page.
One day, it was three years from the time he parted with Edith in
the chamber of death, and when he was beginning to rise in a measure
above the depressing influences attendant upon that event,—he
received an invitation to make one of a social party on the next
evening. The desire to go back again in society had been gaining
strength with him for some time; and, as it had gained strength,
reason had pointed out the error of his voluntary seclusion as
unavailing to alter the past.
"The past is past," he said to himself, as he mused with the
invitation in his hand. "I cannot recall it—I cannot change it. If
repentance can in any way atone for error, surely I have made
atonement; for my repentance has been long and sincere. If Edith can
see my heart, her spirit must be satisfied. Even she could not wish
for this living burial. It is better for me to mingle in society as
Acting on this view, Florence made one on the next evening, in a
social party. He felt strangely, for his mind was invaded by old
influences, and touched by old impressions. He saw, in many a light
and airy form, as it glanced before him, the image of one long since
passed away; and heard, in the voices that filled the rooms, many a
tone that it seemed must have come from the lips of Edith. How busy
was Memory again with the past. In vain he sought to shut out the
images that arose in his mind. The page was open before him, and what
was impressed thereon he could not but see and read.
This passed, in some degree, away as the evening progressed, and he
came nearer, so to speak, to some of those who made up the happy
company. Among those present was a young lady from a neighboring
city, who attracted much attention both from her manners and person.
She fixed the eyes of Mr. Florence soon after he entered the room,
and, half unconsciously to himself, his observation was frequently
directed towards her.
"Who is that lady?" he asked of a friend, an hour after his
"Her name is Miss Welden. She is from Albany."
"She has a very interesting face," said Florence.
"And quite as interesting a mind. Miss Weldon is a charming girl."
Not long after, the two were thrown near together, when an
introduction took place. The conversation of the young lady
interested Florence, and in her society he passed half an hour most
pleasantly. While talking with more than usual animation, in lifting
his eyes he saw that some one on, the opposite side of the room was
observing him attentively. For the moment this did not produce any
effect. But, in looking up again, he saw the same eyes upon him, and
felt their expression as unpleasant. He now, for the first time,
became aware that the aunt of Edith Walter was present. She it was
who had been regarding him so attentively. From that instant his
heart sunk in his bosom. Memory's magic mirror was before him, and in
it he saw pictured the whole scene of that last meeting with Edith.
A little while afterward, and Edwin Florence was missed from the
pleasant company. Where was he? Alone in the solitude of his own
chamber, with his thoughts upon the past. Again he had been reading
over those pages of his Book of Life in which was written the history
of his intimacy with and desertion of Edith; and the record seemed as
fresh as if made but the day before. It was in vain that he sought to
close or avert his eyes. There seemed a spell upon him; and he could
only look and read.
"Fatal error!" he murmured to himself, as he struggled to free
himself from his thraldom to the past. "Fatal error! How a single act
will curse a man through life. Oh! if I could but extinguish the whole
of this memory! If I could wipe out the hand-writing. Sorrow,
repentance, is of no avail. The past is gone for ever. Why then
should I thus continue to be unhappy over what I cannot alter? It
avails nothing to Edith. She is happy—far happier than if she had
remained on this troublesome earth."
But, even while he uttered these words, there came into his mind
such a realizing sense of what the poor girl must have suffered, when
she found her love thrown back upon her, crushing her heart by its
weight, that he bowed his head upon his bosom and in bitter
self-upbraidings passed the hours until midnight, when sleep locked
up his senses, and calmed the turbulence of his feelings.
MONTHS elapsed before Edwin Florence ventured again into company.
"Why will you shut yourself up after this fashion?" said an
acquaintance to him one day. "It isn't just to your friends. I've
heard half a dozen persons asking for you lately. This hermit life
you are leading is, let me tell you, a very foolish life."
The friend who thus spoke knew nothing of the young man's heart
"No one really misses me," said Florence, in reply.
"In that you are mistaken," returned the friend. "You are missed. I
have heard one young lady, at least, ask for you of late, more than a
"Indeed! A _young_ lady?"
"Yes; and a very beautiful young lady at that."
"In whose eyes can I have found such favor?"
"You have met Miss Clara Weldon?"
"That is all."
"Then it must be a case of love at first sight—at least on the
lady's part—for Miss Weldon has asked for you, to my knowledge, not
less than a dozen times."
"I am certainly flattered at the interest she takes in me."
"Well you may be. I know more than one young man who would
sacrifice a good deal to find equal favor in her eyes. Now see what
you have lost by this hiding of your countenance. And you are not the
Florence, who was more pleased at what he heard than he would like
to have acknowledged, promised to come forth from his hiding place
and meet the world in a better spirit. And he did so; being really
drawn back into the social circle by the attraction of Miss Weldon.
At his second meeting with this young lady he was still more charmed
with her than at first; and she was equally well pleased with him. A
few more interviews, and both their hearts were deeply interested.
Now there came a new cause of disquietude to Edwin; or, it might be
said, the old cause renewed. The going out of his affections towards
Miss Weldon revived the whole memory of the past; and, for a time he
found it almost impossible to thrust it from his mind. While sitting
by her side and listening to her voice, the tones of Edith would be
in his ears; and, often, when he looked into her face he would see
only the fading countenance of her who had passed away. This was the
first state, and it was exceedingly painful while it lasted. But, it
gradually changed into one more pleasant, yet not entirely free from
the unwelcome intrusion of the past.
The oftener Florence and Miss Weldon met, the more strongly were
their hearts drawn toward each other; and, at length, the former was
encouraged to make an offer of his hand. In coming to this
resolutions, it was not without passing through a painful conflict.
As his mind dwelt upon the subject, there was a reproduction of old
states. Most vividly did he recall the time when he breathed into the
ears of Edith vows to which he had proved faithless. He had, it is
true, returned to his first allegiance. He had laid his heart again at
her feet; but, to how little purpose! While in this state of
agitation, the young man resolved, more than once, to abandon his suit
for the hand of Miss Weldon, and shrink back again into the seclusion
from which he had come forth. But, his affection for the lovely girl
was too genuine to admit of this. When he thought of giving her up,
his mind was still more deeply disturbed.
"Oh, that I could forget!" he exclaimed, while this struggle was in
progress. "Of what avail is this turning over of the leaves of a long
passed history? I erred—sadly erred! But repentance is now too late.
Why, then should my whole existence be cursed for a single error? Ah,
me! thou not satisfied, departed one? Is it, indeed, from the presence
of thy spirit that I am troubled? My heart sinks at the thought. But
no, no! Thou wert too good to visit pain upon any; much less upon one
who, thou false to thee, thou didst so tenderly love."
But, upon this state there came a natural re-action. A peaceful
calm succeeded the storm. Memory deposited her records in the mind's
dimly lighted chambers. To the present was restored its better
"I am free again," was the almost audible utterance, of the young
man, so strong was his sense of relief.
An offer of marriage was then made to Miss Weldon. Her heart
trembled with joy when she received it. But confiding implicitly in
her uncle, who had been for the space of ten years her friend and
guardian, she could not give an affirmative reply until his approval
was gained. She, therefore, asked time for reflection and
consultation with her friend.
Far different from what Florence had expected, was the reception of
his offer. To him, Miss Weldon seemed instantly to grow cold and
reserved. Vividly was now recalled his rejection by Miss Linmore, as
well as the ground of her rejection.
"Is this to be gone over again?" he sighed to himself, when alone
once more, "Is that one false step never to be forgotten nor
forgiven? Am I to be followed, through life, by this shadow of evil?"
To no other cause than this could the mind of Florence attribute
the apparent change and hesitation in Clara Weldon.
Immediately on receiving an offer of marriage, Miss Weldon returned
to Albany. Before leaving, she dropped Florence a note, to the
effect, that he should hear from her in a few days. A week passed,
but the promised word came not. It was, now plain that the friends of
the young lady had been making inquiries about him, and were in
possession of certain facts in his life, which, if known, would
almost certainly blast his hopes of favor in her eyes. While in this
state of uncertainty, he met the aunt of Edith, and the way she
looked at him, satisfied his mind that his conjectures were true. A
little while after a friend remarked to him casually—
"I saw Colonel Richards in town to-day."
"Colonel Richards! Miss Weldon's uncle?"
"Yes. Have you seen him?"
"No. I have not the pleasure of an acquaintance."
"Indeed! I thought you knew him. I heard him mention your name this
"What had he to say of me?"
"Let me think. Oh! He asked me if I knew you."
"I said that I did, of course and that you were a pretty clever
fellow; though you had been a sad boy in your time."
The face of Florence instantly reddened.
"Why, what's the matter? Oh I understand now! That little niece of
his is one of your flames. But come! Don't take it so to heart. Your
chances are one in ten, I have no doubt. By the way, I haven't seen
Clara for a week. What has become of her? Gone back to Albany, I
suppose. I hope you haven't frightened her with an offer. By the way,
let me whisper a word of comfort in your ear. I heard her say that she
didn't believe in any thing but first love; and, as you are known to
have had half a dozen sweethearts, more or less, and to have broken
the hearts of two or three young ladies, the probability is, that you
won't be able to add her to tie number of your lady loves."
All this was mere jesting; but the words, though uttered in jest,
fell upon the ears of Edwin Florence with all the force of truth.
"Guilty, on your own acknowledgment," said the friend, seeing the
effect of his words. "Better always to act fairly in these matters of
the heart, Florence. If we sow the wind, we will be pretty sure to
reap the whirlwind. But come; let me take you down to the Tremont, and
introduce you to Colonel Richards. I know he will be glad to make your
acquaintance, and will, most probably, give you an invitation to go
home with him and spend a week. You can then make all fair with his
"I have no wish to make his acquaintance just at this time,"
returned Florence; "nor do I suppose he cares about making mine,
particularly after the high opinion you gave him of my character."
"Nonsense, Edwin! You don't suppose I said that to him. Can't you
take a joke?"
"Oh, yes; I can take a joke."
"Take that as one, then. Colonel Richards did ask for you, however;
and said that he would like to meet you. He was serious. So come
along, and let me introduce you."
"No; I would prefer not meeting with him at this time."
"You are a strange individual."
The young men parted; Florence to feel more disquieted than ever.
Colonel Richards had been inquiring about him, and, in prosecuting
his inquiries, would, most likely, find some one inclined to relate
the story of Edith Walter. What was more natural? That story once in
the ears of Clara, and he felt that she must turn from him with a
feeling of repulsion.
Three or four days longer he was in suspense. He heard of Col.
Richards from several quarters, and, in each case when he was
mentioned, he was alluded to as making inquiries about him.
"I hear that the beautiful Miss Weldon is to be married," was said
to Florence at a time when he was almost mad with the excitement of
"Ah!" he replied, with forced calmness, "I hope she will be
successful in securing a good husband."
"So do I; for she is indeed a sweet girl. I was more than half
inclined to fall in love with her myself; and would leave done so, if
I had believed there was any chance for me."
"Who is the favored one?" asked Florence.
"I have not been able to find out. She received three or four
offers, and went back to Albany to consider them and make her
election. This she has done, I hear; and already, the happy recipient
of her favor is rejoicing over his good fortune. May they live a
thousand years to be happy with each other!"
Here was another drop of bitterness in the cup that was at the lips
of Edwin Florence. He went to his office immediately, and, setting
down, wrote thus to Clara:
"I do not wrongly interpret, I presume, a silence continued far
beyond the time agreed upon when we parted. You have rejected my
suit. Well, be it so; and may you be happy with him who has found
favor in your eyes. I do not think he can love you more sincerely
than I do, or he more devoted to your happiness than I should have
been. It would have relieved the pain I cannot but feel, if you had
deemed my offer worthy a frank refusal. But, to feel that one I have
so truly loved does not think me even deserving of this attention, is
humiliating in the extreme. But, I will not upbraid you. Farewell! May
you be happy."
Sealing Up his epistle, the young man, scarcely pausing even for
hurried reflection, threw it into the post office. This done, he sunk
into a gloomy state of mind, in which mortification and disappointment
struggled alternately for the predominance.
Only a few hours elapsed after the adoption of this hasty course,
before doubts of its propriety began to steal across his mind. It was
possible, it occurred to him, that he might have acted too
precipitately. There might be reasons for the silence of Miss Weldon
entirely separate from those he had been too ready to assume; and, if
so, how strange would his letter appear. It was too late now to recall
the act, for already the mail that bore his letter was half way from
New York to Albany. A restless night succeeded to this day. Early on
the next morning he received a letter. It was in these words—
"MY DEAR MR. FLORENCE:—I have been very ill, and to-day am able to
sit up just long enough to write a line or two. My uncle was in New
York some days ago, but did not meet with you. Will you not come up
and see me?
"Ever Yours, CLARA WELDON."
Florence was on board the next boat that left New York for Albany.
The letter of Clara was, of course, written before the receipt of his
hasty epistle. What troubled him now was the effect of this epistle on
her mind. He had not only wrongly interpreted her silence, but had
assumed the acceptance of another lover as confidently as if he knew
to an certainty that such was the case. This was a serious matter and
might result in the very thing he had been so ready to assume—the
rejection of his suit.
Arriving at length, in Albany, Mr. Florence sought out the
residence of Miss Weldon.
"Is Colonel Richards at home?" he inquired.
On being answered in the affirmative he sent up his name, with a
request to see him. The colonel made his appearance in short time. He
was a tall, thoughtful looking man, and bowed with a dignified air as
he came into the room.
"How is Miss Weldon?" asked Florence, with an eagerness he could
"Not so well this morning," replied the guardian. "She had a bad
"No wonder," thought the young man, "after receiving that letter."
"She has been. sleeping, however since daylight," added Colonel
Richards, "and that is much in her favor."
"She received my letter, I presume," said Florence, in a hesitating
"A letter came for her yesterday," was replied; "but as she was
more indisposed than usual, we did not give it to her."
"It is as well," said the young man, experiencing a sense of
An hour afterwards he was permitted to enter the chamber, where she
lay supported by pillows. One glance at her face dispelled from his
mind every lingering doubt. He had suffered from imaginary fears,
awakened by the whispers of a troubled conscience.
IN a few days Clara was well enough to leave her room, and was soon
entirely recovered from her sudden illness. That little matter of the
heart had been settled within three minutes of their meeting, and they
were now as happy as lovers usually are under such favorable
When Edwin Florence went back to New York, it was with a sense of
interior pleasure more perfect than he had experienced for years; and
this would have remained, could he have shut out the past; or, so much
of it as came like an unwelcome intruder. But, alas! this was not to
be. Even while he was bending, in spirit, over the beautiful image of
his last beloved, there would come between his eyes and that image a
pale sad face, in which reproof was stronger than affection, It was
all in vain that he sought to turn from that face. For a time it would
remain present, and then fade slowly away, leaving his heart
"Is it to be ever thus!" he would exclaim, in these seasons of
darkness. "Will nothing satisfy this accusing spirit? Edith! Dear
Edith! Art thou not among the blessed ones? Is not thy heart happy
beyond mortal conception? Then why come to me thus with those tearful
eyes, that shadowy face, those looks of reproof? Have I not suffered
enough for purification! Am I never to be forgiven?"
And then, with an effort, he would turn his eyes from the page laid
open by Memory, and seek to forget what was written there. But it
seemed as if every thing conspired to freshen his remembrance of the
past, the nearer the time approached, when by a marriage union with
one truly beloved, he was to weaken the bonds it had thrown around
him. The marriage of Miss Linmore took place a few weeks after his
engagement with Clara, and as an intimate friend led her to the
altar, he could not decline making one of the number that graced the
nuptial festivities. In meeting the young bride, he endeavored to
push from his mind all thoughts of their former relations. But she
had not done this, and her thought determined his. Her mind recurred
to the former time, the moment he came into her presence, and, of
necessity his went back also. They met, therefore, with a certain
reserve, that was to him most unpleasant, particularly as it stirred
a hundred sleeping memories.
By a strong effort, Florence was able to conceal from other eyes
much of what he felt. In doing this, a certain over action was the
consequence; and he was gayer than usual. Several times he endeavored
to be lightly familiar with the bride; but, in every instance that he
approached her, he perceived a kind of instinctive shrinking; and, if
she was in a laughing mood, when he drew near she became serious and
reserved. All this was too plain to be mistaken; and like the repeated
strokes of a hammer upon glowing iron, gradually bent his feelings
from the buoyant form they had been endeavoring to assume. The effect
was not wholly to be resisted. More than an hour before the happy
assemblage broke up, Florence was not to be found in the brilliantly
lighted rooms. Unable longer to conceal what he felt, he had retired.
For many days after this, the young man felt sober. "Why haven't
you called to see me?" asked the friend who had married Miss Linmore,
a week or two after the celebration of the nuptials.
Florence excused himself as best he could, and promised to call in
a few days. Two weeks went by without the fulfillment of his promise.
"No doubt, we shall see you next week," said the friend, meeting
him one day about this time; "though I am not so sure we will receive
your visits then."
"A certain young lady with whom, I believe, you have some
acquaintance, is to spend a short time with us."
"Who?" asked Florence, quickly.
"A young lady from Albany."
"I was not aware that she was on terms of intimacy with your wife."
"She's an old friend of mine; and, in that sense a friend of
"Then they have not met."
"Oh, yes; frequently. And are warmly attached. We look for a
pleasant visit. But, of course, we shall not expect to see you. That
"I rather think you will; that is, if your wife will admit me on
"Why do you say that?" inquired the friend, appearing a little
"I thought, on the night of your wedding, that she felt my presence
as unwelcome to her."
"And is this the reason why you have not called to see us."
"I frankly own that it is."
"Edwin! I am surprised at you. It is all a piece of imagination.
What could have put such a thing into your head?"
"It may have been all imagination. But I couldn't help feelings as
I did. However, you may expect to see me, and that, too, before Miss
"If you don't present yourself before, I am not so sure that we
will let you come afterwards," said the friend, smiling.
On the next evening the young man called. Mrs. Hartley, the bride
of his friend, endeavored to forget the past, and to receive him with
all the external signs of forgetfulness. But, in this she did not
fully succeed, and, of course, the visit of Florence was painfully
embarrassing, at least, to himself. From that time until the arrival
of Miss Weldon, he felt concerned and unhappy. That Mrs. Hartley
would fully communicate or covertly hint to Clara certain events of
his former life, he had too much reason to fear; and, were this done,
he felt that all his fond hopes would be scattered to the winds. In
due time, Miss Weldon arrived. In meeting her, Florence was conscious
of a feeling of embarrassment, never before experienced in her
presence. He understood clearly why this was so. At each successive
visit his embarrassment increased; and, the more so, from the fact
that he perceived a change in Clara ere she had been in the city a
week. As to the cause of this change, he had no doubts. It was evident
that Mrs. Hartley had communicated certain matters touching his
Thus it went on day after day, for two or three weeks, by which
time the lovers met under the influence of a most chilling constraint.
Both were exceedingly unhappy.
One day, in calling as usual, Mr. Florence was surprised to learn
that Clara had gone back to Albany.
"She said, nothing of this last night," remarked the young man to
"Her resolution was taken after you went away," was replied.
"And you, no doubt, advised the step," said Mr. Florence, with
"Why do you say that?" was quickly asked.
"How can I draw any other inference?" said the young man, looking
at her with knit brows.
"Explain yourself, Mr. Florence!"
"Do my words need explanation?"
"Undoubtedly! For, I cannot understand them."
"There are events in my past life—I will not say how bitterly
repented—of which only you could have informed her."
"What events?" calmly asked the lady.
"Why lacerate my feelings by such a question?" said Florence, while
a shadow of pain flitted over his face, as Memory presented a record
of the past.
"I ask it with no such intention. I only wish to understand you,"
replied Mrs. Hartley. "You have brought against me a vague
accusation. I wish it distinct, that I may affirm or deny it."
"Edith Walter," said Edwin Florence, in a low, unsteady voice,
after he had been silent for nearly a minute.
Mrs. Hartley looked earnestly into his face. Every muscle was
"What of her?" she inquired, in tones quite as low as those in
which the young man had spoken.
"You know the history."
"And, regardless of my suffering and repentance, made known to
Clara the blasting secret."
"No! By my hopes of heaven, no!" quickly exclaimed Mrs. Hartley.
"No?" A quiver ran through the young man's frame.
"No, Mr. Florence! That rested as silently in my own bosom as in
"Who, then, informed her?"
"Has she not heard of it?"
"Why, then, did she change towards me?"
"You changed, first, towards her."
"Yes. From the day of her arrival in New York, she perceived in you
a certain coldness and reserve, that increased with each repeated
"It is true. I saw it myself."
Florence clasped his hands together, and bent his eyes in doubt and
wonder upon the floor.
"Did she complain of coldness and change in me?" he inquired.
"Yes, often. And returned, last night, to leave you free, doubting
not that you had ceased to love her."
"Ceased to love her! While this sad work has been going on, I have
loved her with the agony of one who is about losing earth's most
precious thing. Oh! write to her for me, and explain all. How strange
has been my infatuation. Will you write for me?"
"Say that my heart has not turned from her an instant. That her
imagined coldness has made me of all men most wretched."
"I will do so. But why not write yourself?"
"It will be better to come from you. Ask her to return. I would
rather meet her here than in her uncle's house. Urge her to come
Mrs. Hartley promised to do so, according to the wish of Mr.
Florence. Two days passed, and there was no answer. On the morning of
the third day, the young man, in a state of agitation from suspense
called at the house of his friend. After sending up his name, he sat
anxiously awaiting the appearance of Mrs. Hartley. The door at length
opened, and, to his surprise and joy, Clara entered. She came forward
with a smile upon her face, extending her hand as she did so. Edwin
sprang to meet her, and catching her hand, pressed it eagerly to his
"Strange that we should have so erred in regard to each other,"
said Clara, as they sat communing tenderly. "I trust no such error
will come in the future to which I look forward with so many pleasing
"Heaven forbid!" replied the young man, seriously.
"But we are in a world of error. Ah! if we could only pass through
life without a mistake. If the heavy weight of repentance did not lie
so often and so long upon our hearts—this would be a far pleasanter
world than it is."
"Do not look so serious," remarked Clara, as she bent forward and
gazed affectionately into the young man's face. "To err is human. No
one here is perfect. How often, for hours, have I mourned over
errors; yet grief was of no avail, except to make my future more
"And that was much gained," said Florence, breathing deeply with a
sense of relief. "If we cannot recall and correct the past, we can at
least be more guarded in the future. This is the effect of my own
experience. Ah! if we properly considered the action of our present
upon the future, how guarded would we be. All actions are in the
present, and the moment they are done the present becomes the past,
over which Memory presides. What is past is fixed. Nothing can change
it. The record is in marble, to be seen in all future time."
The serious character of the interview soon changed, and the young
lovers forgot every thing in the joy of their reconciliation. Nothing
arose to mar their intercourse until the appointed time for the
nuptial ceremonies arrived, when they were united in holy wedlock.
But, Edwin Florence did not pass on to this time without another visit
from the rebuking Angel of the past. He was not permitted to take the
hand of Clara in his, and utter the words that bound him to her
forever, without a visit from the one whose heart he had broken years
before. She came to him in the dark and silent midnight, as he tossed
sleeplessly upon his bed, and stood and looked at him with her pale
face and despairing eyes, until he was driven almost to madness. She
was with him when the light of morning dawned; she moved by his side
as he went forth to meet and claim his betrothed; and was near him,
invisible to all eyes but his own, when he stood at the altar ready to
give utterance to the solemn words that bound him to his bride. And
not until these words were said, did the vision fade away.
No wonder the face of the bridegroom wore a solemn aspect as he
presented himself to the minister, and breathed the vows of eternal
fidelity to the living, while before him, as distinct as if in bodily
form, was the presence of one long since sleeping ill her grave, who
had gone down to her shadowy resting place through his infidelity.
From this time there was a thicker veil drawn over the past. The
memory of that one event grew less and less distinct; though it was
not obliterated, for nothing that is written in the Book of Life is
ever blotted out. There were reasons, even in long years after his
marriage, when the record stood suddenly before him, as if written in
words of light; and he would turn from it with a feeling of pain.
Thus it is that our present blesses or curses our future. Every act
of our lives affects the coming time for good or evil. We make our
own destiny, and make it always in the present. The past is gone, the
future is yet to come. The present only is ours, and, according to
what we do in the present, will be the records of the past and its
influence on the future. They are only wise who wisely regard their
actions in the present.
THE BRILLIANT AND THE COMMONPLACE.
DAY after day I worked at my life-task, and worked in an earnest
spirit. Not much did I seem to accomplish; yet the little that was
done had on it the impress of good. Still, I was dissatisfied,
because my gifts were less dazzling than those of which many around
me could boast. When I thought of the brilliant ones sparkling in the
firmament of literature, and filling the eyes of admiring thousands,
something like the evil spirit of envy came into my heart and threw a
shadow upon my feelings. I was troubled because I had not their gifts.
I wished to shine with a stronger light. To dazzle, as well as to warm
Not long ago, there came among us one whom nature had richly
endowed. His mind possessed exceeding brilliancy. Flashes of thought,
like lightning from summer cloud, were ever filling the air around
him. There was a stateliness in the movement of his intellect, and an
evidence of power, that oppressed you at times with wonder.
Around him gathered the lesser lights in the hemisphere of thought,
and veiled their feeble rays beneath his excessive brightness. He
seemed conscious of his superior gifts and displayed them more like a
giant beating the air to excite wonder, than putting forth his
strength to accomplish a good and noble work. Still, I was oppressed
and paralyzed by the sphere of his presence. I felt puny and weak
beside him, and unhappy because I was not gifted with equal power.
It so happened that a work of mine, upon which the maker's name was
not stamped—work done with a purpose of good—was spoken of and
praised by one who did not know me as the handicraftsman.
"It is tame, dull, and commonplace," said the brilliant one, in a
tone of contempt; and there were many present to agree with him.
Like the strokes of a hammer upon my heart, came these words of
condemnation. "Tame, dull, and commonplace!" And was it, indeed, so?
Yes; I felt that what he uttered was true. That my powers were
exceedingly limited, and my gifts few. Oh, what would I not have then
given for brilliant endowments like those possessed by him from whom
had fallen the words of condemnation?
"You will admit," said one—I thought it strange at the time that
there should be even one to speak a word in favor of my poor
performance—"that it will do good?"
"Good!" was answered, in a tone slightly touched by contempt. "Oh,
yes; it will do good!" and the brilliant one tossed his head.
"Anybody can do good!"
I went home with a perturbed spirit. I had work to do; but I could
not do it. I sat down and tried to forget what I had heard. I tried
to think about the tasks that were before me. "Tame, dull, and
commonplace!" Into no other form would my thoughts come.
Exhausted, at last, by this inward struggle, I threw myself upon my
bed, and soon passed into the land of dreams.
Dream-land! Thou art thought by many to be _only_ a land of fantasy
and of shadows. But it is not so. Dreams, for the most part, _are_
fantastic; but all are not so. Nearer are we to the world of spirits,
in sleep; and, at times, angels come to us with lessons of wisdom,
darkly veiled under similitude, or written in characters of light.
I passed into dream-land; but my thoughts went on in the same
current. "Tame, dull, and commonplace!" I felt the condemnation more
strongly than before.
I was out in the open air, and around me were mountains, trees,
green fields, and running waters; and above all bent the sky in its
azure beauty. The sun was just unveiling his face in the east, and
his rays were lighting up the dew-gems on a thousand blades of grass,
and making the leaves glitter as if studded with diamonds.
"How calm and beautiful!" said a voice near me. I turned, and one
whose days were in the "sear and yellow leaf," stood by my side.
"But all is tame and commonplace," I answered. "We have this over
and over again, day after day, month after month, and year after
year. Give me something brilliant and startling, if it be in the
fiery comet or the rushing storm. I am sick of the commonplace!"
"And yet to the commonplace the world is indebted for every great
work and great blessing. For everything good, and true, and
I looked earnestly into the face of the old man. He went on.
"The truly good and great is the useful; for in that is the Divine
image. Softly and unobtrusively has the dew fallen, as it falls night
after night. Silently it distilled, while the vagrant meteors threw
their lines of dazzling light across the sky, and men looked up at
them in wonder and admiration. And now the soft grass, the green
leaves, and the sweet flowers, that drooped beneath the fervent heat
of yesterday, are fresh again and full of beauty, ready to receive the
light and warmth of the risen sun, and expand with, a new vigor. All
this may be tame, and commonplace; but is it not a great and a good
work that has been going on?
"The tiller of the soil is going forth again to his work. Do not
turn your eyes from him, and let a feeling of impatience stir in your
heart because he is not a soldier rushing to battle, or a brilliant
orator holding thousands enchained by the power of a fervid eloquence
that is born not so much of good desires for his fellow-men as from
the heat of his own self-love. Day after day, as now, patient, and
hopeful, the husbandman enters upon the work that lies before him,
and, hand in hand with God's blessed sunshine, dews, and rain, a
loving and earnest co-laborer, brings forth from earth's
treasure-house of blessings good gifts for his fellow-men. Is all this
commonplace? How great and good is the commonplace!"
I turned to answer the old man, but he was gone. I was standing on
a high mountain, and beneath me, as far as the eye could reach, were
stretched broad and richly cultivated fields; and from a hundred
farm-houses went up the curling smoke from the fires of industry.
Fields were waving with golden grain, and trees bending with their
treasures of fruit. Suddenly, the bright sun was veiled in clouds,
that came whirling up from the horizon in dark and broken masses, and
throwing a deep shadow over the landscape just before bathed in light.
Calmly had I surveyed the peaceful scene spread out before me. I was
charmed with its quiet beauty. But now, stronger emotions stirred
"Oh, this is sublime!" I murmured, as I gazed upon the cloudy hosts
moving across the heavens in battle array.
A gleam of lightning sprang forth from a dark cavern in the sky,
and then, far off, rattled and jarred the echoing thunder. Next came
the rushing and roaring wind, bending the giant-limbed oaks as if they
were but wands of willow, and tearing up lesser trees as a child
tears up from its roots a weed or flower.
In this war of elements I stood, with my head bared, and clinging
to a rock, mad with a strange and wild delight.
"Brilliant! Sublime! Grand beyond the power of descriptions" I
said, as the storm deepened in intensity.
"An hour like this is worth all the commonplace, dull events of a
There came a stunning crash in the midst of a dazzling glare. For
some moments I was blinded. When sight was restored, I saw, below me,
the flames curling upward from a dwelling upon which the fierce
lightning had fallen.
"What majesty! what awful sublimity!" said I, aloud. I thought not
of the pain, and terror, and death that reigned in the human
habitation upon which the bolt of destruction had fallen, but of the
sublime power displayed in the strife of the elements.
There was another change. I no longer stood on the mountain, with
the lightning and tempest around me; but was in the valley below,
down upon which the storm had swept with devastating fury. Fields of
grain were level with the earth; houses destroyed; and the trophies
of industry marred in a hundred ways.
"How sublime are the works of the tempest!" said a voice near me. I
turned, and the old man was again at my side.
But I did not respond to his words.
"What majesty! What awful sublimity and power!" continued the old
man. "But," he added, in a changed voice, "there is a higher power in
the gentle rain than lies in the rushing tempest. The power to destroy
is an evil power, and has bounds beyond which it cannot go. But the
gentle rain that falls noiselessly to the earth, is the power of
restoration and recreation. See!"
I looked, and a mall lay upon the ground apparently lifeless. He
had been struck down by the lightning. His pale face was upturned to
the sky, and the rain shaken free from the cloudy skirts of the
retiring storm, was falling upon it. I continued to gaze upon the
force of the prostrate man, until there came into it a flush of life.
Then his limbs quivered; he threw his arms about. A groan issued from
his constricted chest. In a little while, he arose.
"Which is best? Which is most to be loved and admired?" said the
old Man. "The wild, fierce, brilliant tempest, or the quiet rain that
restores the image of life and beauty which the tempest has
destroyed? See! The gentle breezes are beginning to move over the
fields, and, hand in hand with the uplifting sunlight, to raise the
rain that has been trodden beneath the crushing heel of the tempest,
whose false sublimity you so much admired. There is nothing startling
and brilliant in this work; but it is a good and a great work, and it
will go on silently and efficiently until not a trace of the
desolating storm can be found. In the still atmosphere, unseen, but
all-potent, lies a power ever busy in the work of creating and
restoring; or, in other words, in the commonplace work of doing good.
Which office would you like best to assume—which is the most
noble—the office of the destroyer or the restorer?"
I lifted my eyes again, and saw men busily engaged in blotting out
the traces of the storm, and in restoring all to its former use and
Builders were at work upon the house which had been struck by
lightning, and men engaged in repairing fences, barns, and other
objects upon which had been spent the fury of the excited elements.
Soon every vestige of the destroyer was gone.
"Commonplace work, that of nailing on boards and shingles," said
the old man; "of repairing broken fences; of filling up the deep
foot-prints of the passing storm; but is it not a noble work? Yes;
for it is ennobled by its end. Far nobler than the work of the
brilliant tempest, which moved but to destroy."
The scene changed once more. I was back again from the land of
dreams and similitudes. It was midnight, and the moon was shining in
a cloudless sky. I arose, and going to the window, sat and looked
forth, musing upon my dream. All was hushed as if I were out in the
fields, instead of in the heart of a populous city. Soon came the
sound of footsteps, heavy and measured, and the watchman passed on
his round of duty. An humble man was he, forced by necessity into his
position, and rarely thought of and little regarded by the many. There
was nothing brilliant about him to attract the eye and extort
admiration. The man and his calling were commonplace. He passed on;
and, as his form left my eye, the thought of him passed from my mind.
Not long after, unheralded by the sound of footsteps, came one with a
stealthy, crouching air; pausing now, and listening; and now looking
warily from side to side. It was plain that he was on no errand of
good to his fellowmen. He, too, passed on, and was lost to my vision.
Many minutes went by, and I still remained at the window, musing
upon the subject of my dream, when I was startled by a cry of terror
issuing from a house not far away. It was the cry of a woman. Obeying
the instinct of my feelings, I ran into the street and made my way
hurriedly towards the spot from which the cry came.
"Help! help! murder!" shrieked a woman from the open window.
I tried the street door of the house, but it was fastened. I threw
myself against it with all my strength, and it yielded to the
concussion. As I entered the dark passage, I found myself suddenly
grappled by a strong man, who threw me down and held me by the
throat. I struggled to free myself, but in vain. His grip tightened.
In a few moments I would have been lifeless. But, just at the instant
when consciousness was about leaving me, the guardian of the night
appeared. With a single stroke of his heavy mace, he laid the midnight
robber and assassin senseless upon the floor.
How instantly was that humble watchman ennobled in my eyes! How
high and important was his use in society! I looked at him from a new
standpoint, and saw him in a new relation.
"Commonplace!" said I, on regaining my own room in my own house,
panting from the excitement and danger to which I had been subjected.
"Commonplace! Thank God for the commonplace and the useful!"
Again I passed into the land of dreams, where I found myself
walking in a pleasant way, pondering the theme which had taken such
entire possession of my thoughts. As I moved along, I met the gifted
one who had called my work dull and commonplace; that work was a
simple picture of human life; drawn for the purpose of inspiring the
reader with trust in God and love towards his fellow-man. He addressed
me with the air of one who felt that he was superior, and led off the
conversation by a brilliant display of words that half concealed,
instead of making clear, his ideas. Though I perceived this, I was
yet affected with admiration. My eyes were dazzled as by a glare of
"Yes, yes," I sighed to myself; "I am dull, tame, and commonplace
beside these children of genius. How poor and mean is the work that
comes from my hands!"
"Not so!" said my companion. I turned to look at him; but the
gifted being stood not by my side. In his place was the ancient one
who had before spoken to me in the voice of wisdom.
"Not so!" he continued. "Nothing that is useful is poor and mean.
Look up! In the fruit of our labor is the proof of its quality."
I was in the midst of a small company, and the gifted being whose
powers I had envied was there, the centre of attraction and the
observed of all observers. He read to those assembled from a book;
and what he read flashed with a brightness that was dazzling. All
listened in the most rapt attention, and, by the power of what the
gifted one read, soared now, in thought, among the stars, spread
their wings among the swift-moving tempest, or descended into the
unknown depths of the earth. As for myself, my mind seemed endowed
with new faculties, and to rise almost into the power of the
"Glorious! Divine! Godlike!" Such were the admiring words that fell
from the lips of all.
And then the company dispersed. As we went forth from the room in
which we had assembled, we met numbers who were needy, and sick, and
suffering; mourners, who sighed for kind words from the comforter:
little children, who had none to love and care for them; the faint
and weary, who needed kind hands to help them on their toilsome
journey. But no human sympathies were stirring in our hearts. We had
been raised, by the power of the genius we so much admired, far above
the world and its commonplace sympathies. The wings of our spirits
were still beating the air, far away in the upper regions of
Another change came. I saw a woman reading from the same book from
which the gifted one had read. Ever and anon she paused, and gave
utterance to words of admiration.
"Beautiful! beautiful!" fell, ever and anon, from her lips; and she
would lift her eyes, and muse upon what she was reading. As she sat
thus, a little child entered the room. He was crying.
"Mother! mother!" said the child, "I want—"
But the mother's thoughts were far above the regions of the
commonplace. Her mind was in a world of ideal beauty. Disturbed by
the interruption, a slight frown contracted on her beautiful brows as
she arose and took her child by the arm to thrust it from the room.
A slight shudder went through my frame as I marked the touching
distress that overspread the countenance of the child as it looked up
into its mother's face and saw nothing there but an angry frown.
"Every thought is born of affection," said the old man, as this
scene faded away, "and has in it the quality of the life that gave it
birth; and when that thought is reproduced in the mind of another, it
awakens its appropriate affection. If there had been a true love of
his neighbor in the mind of the gifted one when he wrote the book from
which the mother read, and if his purpose had been to inspire with
human emotions—and none but these are God-like—the souls of men, his
work would have filled the heart of that mother with a deeper love of
her child, instead of freezing in her bosom the surface of love's
celestial fountain. To have hearkened to the grief of that dear child,
and to have ministered to its comfort, would have been a commonplace
act, but, how truly noble and divine! And now, look again, and let
what passes before you give strength to your wavering spirits."
I lifted my eyes, and saw a man reading, and I knew that he read
that work of mine which the gifted one had condemned as dull, and
tame, and commonplace. And, moreover, I knew that he was in trouble
so deep as to be almost hopeless of the future, and just ready to
give up his life-struggle, and let his hands fall listless and
despairing by his side. Around him were gathered his wife and his
little ones, and they were looking to him, but in vain, for the help
As the man read, I saw a light come suddenly into his face. He
paused, and seemed musing for a time; and his eyes gleamed quickly
upwards, and as his lips parted, these words came forth: "Yes, yes;
it must be so. God is merciful as he is wise, and will not forsake
his creatures. He tries us in the fires of adversity but to consume
the evil of our hearts. I will trust him, and again go forth, with my
eyes turned confidingly upwards." And the man went forth in the spirit
of confidence in Heaven, inspired by what I had written.
"Look again," said the one by my side.
I looked, and saw the same man in the midst of a smiling family.
His countenance was full of life and happiness, for his trust had not
been in vain. As I had written, so he had found it. God is good, and
lets no one feel the fires of adversity longer than is necessary for
his purification from evil.
"Look again!" came like tones of music to my ear.
I looked, and saw one lying upon a bed. By the lines upon his brow,
and the compression of his lips, it was evident that he was in bodily
suffering. A book lay near him; it was written by the gifted one, and
was full of bright thoughts and beautiful images. He took it, and
tried to forget his pain in these thoughts and images. But in this he
did not succeed, and soon laid it aside with a groan of anguish. Then
there was handed to him my poor and commonplace work; and he opened
the pages and began to read. I soon perceived that an interest was
awakened in his mind. Gradually the contraction of his brow grew less
severe, and, in a little while, he had forgotten his pain.
"I will be more patient," said he, in a calm voice, after he had
read for a long time with a deep interest. "There are many with pain
worse than mine to bear, who have none of the comforts and blessings
so freely scattered along my way through life."
And then he gave directions to have relief sent to one and another
whom he now remembered to be in need.
"It is a good work that prompts to good in others," said the old
man. "What if it be dull and tame—commonplace to the few—it is a
good gift to the world, and thousands will bless the giver. Look
An angry mother, impatient and fretted by the conduct of a froward
child, had driven her boy from her presence, when, if she had
controlled her own feelings, she might have drawn him to her side and
subdued him by the power of affection. She was unhappy, and her boy
had received an injury.
The mother was alone. Before her was a table covered with books,
and she took up one to read. I knew the volume; it was written by one
whose genius had a deep power of fascination. Soon the mother became
lost in its exciting pages, and remained buried in them for hours. At
length, after turning the last page, she closed the book; and then
came the thought of her wayward boy. But, her feelings toward him had
undergone no change; she was still angry, because of his disobedience.
Another book lay upon the table; a book of no pretensions, and
written with the simple purpose of doing good. It was commonplace,
because it dealt with things in the common life around us. The mother
took this up, opened to the title-page, turned a few leaves, and then
laid it down again; sat thoughtful for some moments, and then sighed.
Again she lifted the book, opened it, and commenced reading. In a
little while she was all attention, and ere long I saw a tear stealing
forth upon her cheeks. Suddenly she closed the book, evincing strong
emotion as she did so, and, rising up, went from the room. Ascending
to a chamber above, she entered, and there found the boy at play. He
looked towards her, and, remembering her anger, a shadow flitted
across his face. But his mother smiled and looked kindly towards him.
Instantly the boy dropped his playthings, and sprung to her side. She
stooped and kissed him.
"Oh, mother! I do love you, and I will try to be good!"
Blinding tears came to my eyes, and I saw this scene no longer. I
was out among the works of nature, and my instructor was by my side.
"Despise not again the humble and the commonplace," said he, "for
upon these rest the happiness and well-being of the world. Few can
enter into and appreciate the startling and the brilliant, but
thousands and tens of thousands can feel and love the commonplace
that comes to their daily wants, and inspires them with a mutual
sympathy. Go on in your work. Think it rot low and mean to speak
humble, yet true and fitting words for the humble; to lift up the
bowed and grieving spirit; to pour the oil and wine of consolation
for the poor and afflicted. It is a great and a good work—the very
work in which God's angels delight. Yea, in doing this work, you are
brought nearer in spirit to Him who is goodness and greatness itself,
for all his acts are done with the end of blessing his creatures."
There was another change. I was awake. It was broad daylight, and
the sun had come in and awakened me with a kiss. Again I resumed my
work, content to meet the common want in my labors, and let the more
gifted and brilliant ones around me enjoy the honors and fame that
gathered in cloudy incense around them.
It is better to be loved by the many, than admired by the few.
MARK CLIFFORD had come up from New York to spend a few weeks with
his maternal grandfather, Mr. Lofton, who lived almost alone on his
beautiful estate a few miles from the Hudson, amid the rich valleys
of Orange county. Mr. Lofton belonged to one of the oldest families
in the country, and retained a large portion of that aristocratic
pride for which they were distinguished. The marriage of his daughter
to Mr. Clifford, a merchant of New York, had been strongly opposed on
the ground that the alliance was degrading—Mr. Clifford not being
able to boast of an ancestor who was anything more than an honest man
and a useful citizen. A closer acquaintance with his son-in-law, after
the marriage took place, reconciled Mr. Lofton in a good measure to
the union; for he found Mr. Clifford to be a man of fine intelligence,
gentlemanly feeling, and withal, tenderly attached to his daughter.
The marriage was a happy one—and this is rarely the case when the
external and selfish desire to make a good family connection is
regarded above the mental and moral qualities on which a true union
only can be based.
A few years previous to the time at which our story opens, Mrs.
Clifford died, leaving one son and two daughters. Mark, the oldest of
the children, was in his seventeenth year at the time the sad
bereavement occurred—the girls were quite young. He had always been
an active boy—ever disposed to get beyond the judicious restraints
which his parents wisely sought to throw around him. After his
mother's death, he attained a wider liberty. He was still at college
when this melancholy event occurred, and continued there for two
years; but no longer in correspondence with, and therefore not under
the influence of one whose love for him sought ever to hold him back
from evil, his natural temperament led him into the indulgence of a
liberty that too often went beyond the bounds of propriety.
On leaving college Mr. Clifford conferred with his son touching the
profession he wished to adopt, and to his surprise found him bent on
entering the navy. All efforts to discourage the idea were of no
avail. The young man was for the navy and nothing else. Yielding at
last to the desire of his son, Mr. Clifford entered the usual form of
application at the Navy Yard in Washington, but, at the same time, in
a private letter to the Secretary, intimated his wish that the
application might not be favorably considered.
Time passed on, but Mark did not receive the anxiously looked for
appointment. Many reasons were conjectured by the young man, who, at
last, resolved on pushing through his application, if personal
efforts could be of any avail. To this end, he repaired to the seat
of government, and waited on the Secretary. In his interviews with
this functionary, some expressions were dropped that caused a
suspicion of the truth to pass through his mind. A series of rapidly
recurring questions addressed to the Secretary were answered in a way
that fully confirmed this suspicion. The effect of this upon the
excitable and impulsive young man will appear as our story
It was while Mark's application was pending, and a short time
before his visit to Washington, that he came up to Fairview, the
residence of his grandfather. Mark had always been a favorite with the
old gentleman, who rather encouraged his desire to enter the navy.
"The boy will distinguish himself," Mr. Lofton would say, as he
thought over the matter. And the idea of distinction in the army or
navy, was grateful to his aristocratic feelings. "There is some of
the right blood in his veins for all."
One afternoon, some two or three days after the young man came up
to Fairview, he was returning from a ramble in the woods with his gun,
when he met a beautiful young girl, simply attired, and bearing on
her head a light bundle of grain which she had gleaned in a
neighboring field. She was tripping lightly along, singing as gaily
as a bird, when she came suddenly upon the young man, over whose face
there passed an instant glow of admiration. Mark bowed and smiled, the
maiden dropped a bashful courtesy, and then each passed on; but
neither to forget the other. When Mark turned, after a few steps, to
gaze after the sweet wild flower he had met so unexpectedly, he saw
the face again, for she had turned also. He did not go home on that
evening, until he had seen the lovely being who glanced before him in
her native beauty, enter a neat little cottage that stood half a mile
from Fairview, nearly hidden by vines, and overshadowed by two tall
On the next morning Mark took his way toward the cottage with his
gun. As he drew near, the sweet voice he had heard on the day before
was warbling tenderly an old song his mother had sung when he was but
a child; and with the air and words so well remembered, came a
gentleness of feeling, and a love of what was pure and innocent, such
as he had not experienced for many years. In this state of mind he
entered the little porch, and stood listening for several minutes to
the voice that still flung itself plaintively or joyfully upon the
air, according to the sentiment breathed in the words that were
clothed in music; then as the voice became silent, he rapped gently
at the door, which, in a few moments, was opened by the one whose
attractions had drawn him thither.
A warm color mantled the young girl's face as her eyes fell upon so
unexpected a visitor. She remembered him as the young man she had met
on the evening before; about whom she had dreamed all night, and
thought much since the early morning. Mark bowed, and, as an excuse
for calling, asked if her mother were at home.
"My mother died when I was but a child," replied the girl,
shrinking back a step or two; for Mark was gazing earnestly into her
"Ah! Then you are living with your—your—"
"Mrs. Lee has been a mother to me since then," said she, dropping
her eyes to the floor.
"Then I will see the good woman who has taken your mother's place."
Mark stepped in as he spoke, and took a chair in the neat little
sitting room into which the door opened.
"She has gone over to Mr. Lofton's," said the girl, in reply, "and
won't be back for an hour."
"Has she, indeed? Then you know Mr. Lofton?"
"Oh, yes. We know him very well. He owns our little cottage."
"Does he! No doubt you find him a good landland."
"He's a kind man," said the girl, earnestly.
"He is, as I have good reason to know," remarked the young man.
"Mr. Lofton is my grandfather."
The girl seemed much surprised at this avowal, and appeared less at
ease than before.
"And now, having told you who I am," said Mark, "I think I may be
bold enough to ask your name."
"My name is Jenny Lawson," replied the girl.
"A pretty name, that—Jenny—I always liked the sound of it. My
mother's name was Jenny. Did you ever see my mother? But don't
tremble so! Sit down, and tell your fluttering heart to be still."
Jenny sunk into a chair, her bosom heaving, and the crimson flush
still glowing on her cheeks, while Mark gazed into her face with
"Who would have thought," said he to himself, "that so sweet a wild
flower grew in this out of the way place."
"Did you ever see my mother, Jenny?" asked the young man, after she
was a little composed.
"Then we will be friends from this moment, Jenny. If you knew my
mother then, you must have loved her. She has been dead now over
There was a shade of sadness in the young man's voice as he said
"When did you see her last?" he resumed.
"The summer before she died she came up from New York and spent two
or three weeks here. I saw her then, almost every day."
"And you loved my mother? Say you did!"
The young man spoke with a rising emotion that he could not
"Every body loved her," replied Jenny, simply and earnestly.
For a few moments Mark concealed his face with his hands, to hide
the signs of feeling that were playing over it; then looking up
again, he said—
"Jenny, because you knew my mother and loved her, we must be
friends. It was a great loss to me when she died. The greatest loss I
ever had, or, it may be, ever will have. I have been worse since then.
Ah me! If she had only lived!"
Again Mark covered his face with his hands, and, this time, he
could not keep the dimness from his eyes.
It was a strange sight to Jenny to see the young man thus moved.
Her innocent heart was drawn toward him with a pitying interest, and
she yearned to speak words of comfort, but knew not what to say.
After Mark grew composed again, he asked Jenny a great many
questions touching her knowledge of his mother; and listened with
deep interest and emotion to many little incidents of Jenny's
intercourse with her, which were related with all the artlessness and
force of truth. In the midst of this singular interview, Mrs. Lee came
in and surprised the young couple, who, forgetting all reserve, were
conversing with an interest in their manner, the ground of which she
might well misunderstand. Jenny started and looked confused, but,
quickly recovering herself, introduced Mark as the grandson of Mr.
The old lady did not respond to this with the cordiality that
either of the young folks had expected. No, not by any means. A flush
of angry suspicion came into her face, and she said to Jenny as she
handed her the bonnet she hurriedly removed—
"Here—take this into the other room and put it away."
The moment Jenny retired, Mrs. Lee turned to Mark, and after
looking at him somewhat sternly for a moment, surprised him with this
"If I ever find you here again, young man, I'll complain to your
"Will you, indeed!" returned Mark, elevating his person, and
looking at the old lady with flashing eyes. "And pray, what will you
say to the old gentleman?"
"Fine doings, indeed, for the likes o' you to come creeping into a
decent woman's house when she is away!" resumed Mrs. Lee. "Jenny's
not the kind you're looking after, let me tell you. What would your
poor dear mother, who is in heaven, God bless her! think, if she knew
The respectful and even affectionate reference to his mother,
softened the feelings of Mark, who was growing very angry.
"Good morning, old lady," said he, as he turned away; "you don't
know what you're talking about!" and springing from the door, he
hurried off with rapid steps. On reaching a wood that lay at some
distance off, Mark sought a retired spot, near where a quiet stream
went stealing noiselessly along amid its alder and willow-fringed
banks, and sitting down upon a grassy spot, gave himself up to
meditation. Little inclined was he now for sport. The birds sung in
the trees above him, fluttered from branch to branch, and even dipped
their wings in the calm waters of the stream, but he heeded them not.
He had other thoughts. Greatly had old Mrs. Lee, in the blindness of
her suddenly aroused fears, wronged the young man. If the sphere of
innocence that was around the beautiful girl had not been all powerful
to subdue evil thoughts and passions in his breast, the reference to
his mother would have been effectual to that end.
For half an hour had Mark remained seated alone, busy, with
thoughts and feelings of a less wandering and adventurous character
than usually occupied his mind, when, to his surprise, he saw Jenny
Lawson advancing along a path that led through a portion of the
woods, with a basket on her arm. She did not observe him until she
had approached within some fifteen or twenty paces; when he arose to
his feet, and she, seeing him, stopped suddenly, and looked pale and
"I am glad to meet you again, Jenny," said Mark, going quickly
toward her, and taking her hand, which she yielded without
resistance. "Don't be frightened. Mrs. Lee did me wrong. Heaven knows
I would not hurt a hair of your head! Come and sit down with me in
this quiet place, and let us talk about my mother. You say you knew
her and loved her. Let her memory make us friends."
Mark's voice trembled with feeling. There was something about the
girl that made the thought of his mother a holier and tenderer thing.
He had loved his mother intensely, and since her death, had felt her
loss as the saddest calamity that had, or possibly ever could, befall
him. Afloat on the stormy sea of human life, he had seemed like a
mariner without helm or compass. Strangely enough, since meeting with
Jenny at the cottage a little while before, the thought of her
appeared to bring his mother nearer to him; and when, so unexpectedly,
he saw her approaching him in the woods, he felt momentarily, that it
was his mother's spirit guiding her thither.
Urged by so strong an appeal, Jenny suffered herself to be led to
the retired spot where Mark had been reclining, half wondering, half
fearful—yet impelled by a certain feeling that she could not well
resist. In fact, each exercised a power over the other, a power not
arising from any determination of will, but from a certain spiritual
affinity that neither comprehended. Some have called this "destiny,"
but it has a better name.
"Jenny," said Mark, after they were seated—he still retained her
hand in his, and felt it tremble—"tell me something about my mother.
It will do me good to hear of her from your lips."
The girl tried to make some answer, but found no utterance. Her
lips trembled so that she could not speak. But she grew more composed
after a time, and then in reply to many questions of Mark, related
incident after incident, in which his mother's goodness of character
stood prominent. The young man listened intently, sometimes with his
eyes upon the ground, and sometimes gazing admiringly into the sweet
face of the young speaker.
Time passed more rapidly than either Mark or Jenny imagined. For
full an hour had they been engaged in earnest conversation, when both
were painfully surprised by the appearance of Mrs. Lee, who had sent
Jenny on an errand, and expected her early return. A suspicion that
she might encounter young Clifford having flashed through the old
woman's mind, she had come forth to learn if possible the cause of
Jenny's long absence. To her grief and anger, she discovered them
sitting together engaged in earnest conversation.
"Now, Mark Clifford!" she exclaimed as she advanced, "this is too
bad! And Jenny, you weak and foolish girl! are you madly bent on
seeking the fowler's snare? Child! child! is it thus you repay me for
my love and care over you!"
Both Mark and Jenny started to their feet, the face of the former
flushed with instant anger, and that of the other pale from alarm.
"Come!" and Mrs. Lee caught hold of Jenny's arm and drew her away.
As they moved off, the former, glancing back at Mark, and shaking her
finger towards him, said—
"I'll see your grandfather, young man!"
Fretted by this second disturbance of an interview with Jenny, and
angry at an unjust imputation of motive, Mark dashed into the woods,
with his gun in his hand, and walked rapidly, but aimlessly, for
nearly an hour, when he found himself at the summit of a high
mountain, from which, far down and away towards the east, he could
see the silvery Hudson winding along like a vein of silver. Here,
wearied with his walk, and faint in spirit from over excitement, he
sat down to rest and to compose his thoughts. Scarcely intelligible
to himself were his feelings. The meeting with Jenny, and the effect
upon him, were things that he did not clearly understand. Her
influence over him was a mystery. In fact, what had passed so
hurriedly, was to him more like a dream than a reality.
No further idea of sport entered the mind of the young man on that
day. He remained until after the sun had passed the meridian in this
retired place, and then went slowly back, passing the cottage of Mrs.
Lee on his return. He did not see Jenny as he had hoped. On meeting
Mr. Lofton, Mark became aware of a change in the old man's feelings
towards him, and he guessed at once rightly as to the cause. If he had
experienced any doubts, they would have been quickly removed.
"Mark!" said the old gentleman, sternly, almost the moment the
grandson came into his presence, "I wish you to go back to New York
to-morrow. I presume I need hardly explain my reason for this wish,
when I tell you that I have just had a visit from old Mrs. Lee."
The fiery spirit of Mark was stung into madness by this further
reaction on him in a matter that involved nothing of criminal intent.
Impulsive in his feelings, and quick to act from them, he replied with
a calmness and even sadness in his voice that Mr. Lofton did not
expect—the calmness was from a strong effort: the sadness expressed
his real feelings:
"I will not trouble you with my presence an hour longer. If evil
arise from this trampling of good impulse out of my heart, the sin
rest on your own head. I never was and never can be patient under a
false judgment. Farewell, grandfather! We may never meet again. If
you hear of evil befalling me, think of it as having some connection
with this hour."
With these words Mark turned away and left the house. The old man,
in grief and alarm at the effect of his words, called after him, but
he heeded him not.
"Run after him, and tell him to come back," he cried to a servant
who stood near and had listened to what had passed between them. The
order was obeyed, but it was of no avail. Mark returned a bitter
answer to the message he brought him, and continued on his way. As he
was hurrying along, suddenly he encountered Jenny. It was strange that
he should meet her so often. There was something in it more than
accident, and he felt that it was so.
"God bless you, Jenny!" he exclaimed with much feeling, catching
hold of her hand and kissing it. "We may never meet again. They
thought I meant you harm, and have driven me away. But, Heaven knows
how little of evil purpose was in my heart! Farewell! Sometimes, when
you are kneeling to say your nightly prayers, think of me, and breathe
my name in your petitions. I will need the prayers of the innocent.
And under the impulse of the moment, Mark bent forward and pressed
his lips fervently upon her pure forehead; then, springing away, left
her bewildered and in tears.
Mark hurried on towards the nearest landing place on the river,
some three miles distant, which he reached just as a steamboat was
passing. Waving his handkerchief, as a signal, the boat rounded to,
and touching at the rude pier, took him on board. He arrived in New
York that evening, and on the next morning started for Washington to
see after his application for a midshipman's appointment in the navy.
It was on this occasion that the young man became aware of the secret
influence of his father against the application which had been made.
His mind, already feverishly excited, lost its balance under this new
"He will repent of this!" said he, bitterly, as he left the room of
the Secretary of the Navy, "and repent it until the day of his death.
Make a fixture of me in a counting room! Shut me up in a lawyer's
office! Lock me down in a medicine chest! Mark Clifford never will
submit! If I cannot enter the service in one way I will in another."
Without pausing to weigh the consequences of his act, Mark, in a
spirit of revenge towards his father, went, while the fever was on
him, to the Navy Yard, and there entered the United States service as
a common sailor, under the name of Edward James. On the day following,
the ship on board of which he had enlisted was gliding down the
Potomac, and, in a week after, left Hampton Roads and went to sea.
From Norfolk, Mr. Clifford received a brief note written by his
son, upbraiding him for having defeated the application to the
department, and avowing the fact that he had gone to sea in the
government service, as a common sailor.
IT was impossible for such passionate interviews, brief though they
were, to take place without leaving on the heart of a simple minded
girl like Jenny Lawson, a deep impression. New impulses were given to
her feelings, and a new direction to her thoughts. Nature told her
that Mark Clifford loved her; and nothing but his cold disavowal of
the fact could possibly have affected this belief. He had met her, it
was true, only three or four times; but their interviews during these
meetings had been of a character to leave no ordinary effect behind.
So long as her eyes, dimmed by overflowing tears, could follow Mark's
retiring form, she gazed eagerly after him; and when he was at length
hidden from her view, she sat down to pour out her heart in passionate
Old Mrs. Lee, while she tenderly loved the sweet flower that had
grown up under her care, was not, in all things, a wise and discreet
woman; nor deeply versed in the workings of the human heart.
Rumor of Mark's wildness had found its way to the neighborhood of
Fairview, and made an unfavorable impression. Mrs. Lee firmly
believed that he was moving with swift feet in the way to
destruction, and rolling evil under his tongue as a sweet morsel.
When she heard of his arrival at his grandfather's, a fear came upon
her lest he should cast his eyes upon Jenny. No wonder that she met
the young man with such a quick repulse, when, to her alarm, she
found that he had invaded her home, and was already charming the ear
of the innocent child she so tenderly loved and cared for. To find
them sitting alone in the woods, only a little while afterwards,
almost maddened her; and so soon as she took Jenny home, she hurried
over to Mr. Lofton, and in a confused, exaggerated, and intemperate
manner, complained of the conduct of Mark.
"Together alone in the woods!" exclaimed the old gentleman, greatly
excited. "What does the girl mean?"
"What does he mean, thus to entice away my innocent child?" said
Mrs. Lee, equally excited. "Oh, Mr. Lofton! for goodness' sake, send
him back to New York! If he remain here a day longer, all may be
lost! Jenny is bewitched with him. She cried as if her heart would
break when I took her back home, and said that I had done wrong to
Mark in what I had said to him."
"Weak and foolish child! How little does she know of the world—how
little of the subtle human heart! Yes—yes, Mrs. Lee, Mark shall go
back at once. He shall not remain here a day longer to breathe his
blighting breath on so sweet a flower. Jenny is too good a girl to be
exposed to such an influence."
The mind of Mr. Lofton remained excited for hours after this
interview; and when Mark appeared, he met him as has already been
seen. The manner in which the young man received the angry words of
his grandfather, was a little different from what had been
anticipated. Mr. Lofton expected some explanation by which he could
understand more clearly what was in the young man's thoughts. When,
therefore, Mark abruptly turned from him with such strange language
on his tongue, Mr. Lofton's anger cooled, and he felt that he had
suffered himself to be misled by a hasty judgment. That no evil had
been in the young man's mind he was sure. It was this change that had
prompted him to make an effort to recall him. But, the effort was
On Jenny's return home, after her last interview with Mark, she
found a servant there with a summons from Mr. Lofton. With much
reluctance she repaired to the mansion house. On meeting with the old
gentleman he received her in a kind but subdued manner; but, as for
Jenny herself, she stood in his presence weeping and trembling.
"Jenny," said Mr. Lofton, after the girl had grown more composed,
"when did you first meet my grandson?"
Jenny mentioned the accidental meeting on the day before, and the
call at the cottage in the morning.
"And you saw him first only yesterday?"
"What did he say when he called this morning?"
"He asked for my mother."
"Yes. I told him that my mother was dead, and that I lived with
Mrs. Lee. He then wanted to see her; but I said that she had gone over
to your house."
"What did he say then?"
"He spoke of you, and said you were a good man, and that we no
doubt found you a good landlord. I had mentioned that you owned our
Mr. Lofton appeared affected at this.
"What then?" he continued.
"He told me who he was, and then asked me my name. When I told him
that it was Jenny, he said, it was a good name, and that he always
liked the sound of it, for his mother's name was Jenny. Then he asked
me, if I had known his mother, and when I said yes, he wanted to know
if I loved her. I said yes—for you know we all loved her. Then he
covered his face with his hands, and I saw the tears coming through
his fingers. 'Because you know my mother, and loved her, Jenny,' said
he, 'we will be friends.' Afterwards he asked me a great many
questions about her, and listened with the tears in his eyes, when I
told him of many things she had said and done the last time she was up
here. We were talking together about his mother, when Mrs. Lee came
in. She spoke cross to him, and threatened to complain to you, if he
came there any more. He went away angry. But I'm sure he meant nothing
wrong, sir. How could he and talk as he did about his mother in
"But, how came you to meet him, in the woods, Jenny?" said Mr.
Lofton. "Did he tell you that he would wait there for you?"
"Oh, no, sir. The meeting was accidental. I was sent over to Mrs.
Jasper's on an errand, and, in passing through the woods, saw him
sitting alone and looking very unhappy. I was frightened; but he told
me that he wouldn't hurt a hair of my head. Then he made me sit down
upon the grass beside him, and talk to him about his mother. He asked
me a great many questions, and I told him all that I could remember
about her. Sometimes the tears would steal over his cheeks; and
sometimes he would say—'Ah! if my mother had not died. Her death was
a great loss to me, Jenny—a great loss—and I have been worse for
"And was this all you talked about, Jenny," asked Mr. Lofton, who
was much, affected by the artless narrative of the girl.
"It was all about his mother," replied Jenny. "He said that I not
only bore her name, but that I looked like her, and that it seemed to
him, while with me, that she was present."
"He said that, did he!" Mr. Lofton spoke more earnestly, and looked
intently upon Jenny's face. "Yes—yes—it is so. She does look like
dear Jenny," he murmured to himself. "I never saw this before. Dear
boy! We have done him wrong. These hasty conclusions—ah, me! To how
much evil do they lead!"
"And you were talking thus, when Mrs. Lee found you?"
"What did she say?"
"I can hardly tell what she said, I was so frightened. But I know
she spoke angrily to him and to me, and threatened to see you."
Mr. Lofton sighed deeply, then added, as if the remark were
"And that is the last you have seen of him."
"No, sir; I met him a little while ago, as he was hurrying away
from your house."
"You did!" Mr. Lofton started at Jenny's unexpected reply.
"Did he speak to you?"
"Yes; he stopped and caught hold of my hand, saying, 'God bless
you, Jenny! We may never meet again. They have driven me away, because
they thought I meant to harm you.' But he said nothing wrong was in
his heart, and asked me to pray for him, as he would need my
At this part of her narrative, Jenny wept bitterly, and her
auditor's eyes became dim also.
Satisfied that Jenny's story was true in every particular, Mr.
Lofton spoke kindly to her and sent her home.
A week after Mark Clifford left Fairview, word came that he had
enlisted in the United States' service and gone to sea as a common
sailor; accompanying this intelligence was an indignant avowal of his
father that he would have nothing more to do with him. To old Mr.
Lofton this was a serious blow. In Mark he had hoped to see realized
some of his ambitious desires. His daughter Jenny had been happy in
her marriage, but the union never gave him much satisfaction. She was
to have been the wife of one more distinguished than a mere plodding
Painful was the shock that accompanied the prostration of old Mr.
Lofton's ambitious hopes touching his grandson, of whom he had always
been exceedingly fond. To him he had intended leaving the bulk of his
property when he died. But now anger and resentment arose in his mind
against him as unworthy such a preference, and in the warmth of a
moment's impulse, he corrected his will and cut him off with a dollar.
This was no sooner done than better emotions stirred in the old man's
bosom, and he regretted the hasty act; but pride of consistency
prevented his recalling it.
From that time old Mr. Lofton broke down rapidly. In six months he
seemed to have added ten years to his life. During that period no
news had come from Mark; who was not only angry with both his father
and grandfather, but felt that in doing what he had done, he had
offended them beyond the hope of forgiveness. He, therefore, having
taken a rash step, moved on in the way he had chosen, in a spirit of
recklessness and defiance. The ties of blood which had bound him to
his home were broken; the world was all before him, and he must make
his way in it alone. The life of a common sailor in a government ship
he found to be something different from what he had imagined, when,
acting under a momentary excitement, he was so mad as to enlist in the
service. Unused to work or ready obedience, he soon discovered that
his life was to be one not only of bodily toil, pushed sometimes to
the extreme of fatigue, but one of the most perfect subordination to
the will of others, under pain of corporeal punishment. The first
insolent word of authority passed to him by a new fledged midshipman,
his junior by at least three years, stung him so deeply that it was
only by a most violent effort that he could master the impulse that
prompted him to seize and throw him overboard. He did not regret this
successful effort at self-control, when, a few hours afterwards, he
was compelled to witness the punishment of the cat inflicted on a
sailor for the offence of insolence to an officer. The sight of the
poor man, writhing under tile brutality of the lash, made an
impression on him that nothing could efface. It absorbed his mind and
brought it into a healthier state of reflection than it had yet been.
"I have placed myself in this position by a rash act," he said to
himself, as he turned, sick at heart, away from the painful and
disgusting sight. "And all rebellion against the authority around me
will but make plainer my own weakness. I have degraded myself; but
there is a lower degradation still, and that I must avoid. Drag me to
the gangway, and I am lost!"
Strict obedience and submission was from that time self-compelled
on the part of Mark Clifford. It was not without a strong effort,
however, that he kept down the fiery spirit within him. A word of
insolent command—and certain of the young midshipmen on board could
not speak to a senior even if he were old as their father, except in
a tone of insult—would send the blood boiling through his veins.
It was only by the narrowest chances that Mark escaped punishment
during the first six months of the cruise, which was in the Pacific.
If he succeeded in bridling his tongue, and restraining his hands
from violence he could not hide the indignant flash of his eyes, nor
school the muscles of his face into submission. They revealed the
wild spirit of rebellion that was in his heart. Intelligent
promptness in duty saved him.
This was seen by his superior officers, and it was so much in his
favor when complaints came from the petty tyrants of the ship who
sometimes shrunk from the fierce glance that in a moment of
struggling passion would be cast upon them. After a trying ordeal of
six months, he was favored by one of the officers who saw deeper than
the rest; and gathered from him a few hints as to his true character.
In pitying him, he made use of his influence to save him from some of
the worst consequences of his position.
Jenny Lawson was a changed girl after her brief meeting with Mark
Clifford. Before, she had been as light hearted and gay as a bird.
But, her voice was no longer heard pouring forth the sweet melodies
born of a happy heart. Much of her time she sought to be alone; and
when alone, she usually sat in a state of dreamy absent-mindedness.
As for her thoughts, they were most of the time on Clifford. His hand
had stirred the waters of affection in her gentle bosom; and they knew
no rest. Mr. Lofton frequently sent for her to come over to the
mansion house. He never spoke to her of Mark; nor did she mention his
name—though both thought of him whenever they were together. The
oftener Mr. Lofton saw Jenny, and the more he was with her, the more
did she remind him of his own lost child—his Jenny, the mother of
Mark—now in heaven. The incident of meeting with young Clifford had
helped to develop Jenny's character, and give it a stronger type than
otherwise would have been the case. Thus, she became to Mr. Lofton
companionable; and, ere a year had elapsed from the time Mark went
away, Mrs. Lee, having passed to her account, she was taken into his
house, and he had her constantly with him. As he continued to fail, he
leaned upon the affectionate girl more and more heavily; and was never
contented when she was away from him.
It would be difficult to represent clearly Jenny's state of feeling
during this period. A simple minded, innocent, true-hearted girl, in
whose bosom scarce beat a single selfish impulse, she found herself
suddenly approached by one in station far above her, in a way that
left her heart unguarded. He had stooped to her, and leaned upon her,
and she, obeying an impulse of her nature, had stood firmer to support
him as he leaned. Their tender, confiding, and delightful intercourse,
continued only for a brief season, and was then rudely broken in upon;
forced separation was followed by painful consequences to the young
man. When Jenny thought of how Mark had been driven away on her
account, she felt that in order to save him from the evils that must
be impending over him, she would devote even her life in his service.
But, what could she do? This desire to serve him had also another
origin. A deep feeling of love had been awakened; and, though she felt
it to be hopeless, she kept the flame brightly burning.
Intense feelings produced more active thoughts, and the mind of
Jenny took a higher development. A constant association with Mr.
Lofton, who required her to read to him sometimes for hours each day,
filled her thoughts with higher ideas than any she had known, and
gradually widened the sphere of her intelligence. Thus she grew more
and more companionable to the old man, who, in turn, perceiving that
her mind was expanding, took pains to give it a right direction, so
far as external knowledge were concerned.
Soon after Mark went to sea, Jenny took pains to inform herself
accurately as to the position and duties of a common sailor on board
of a United States' vessel. She was more troubled about Mark after
this, for she understood how unfitted he was for the hard service he
entered upon so blindly.
One day, it was over a year from the time that Mark left Fairview,
Mr. Lofton sent for Jenny, and, on her coming into his room, handed
her a sealed letter, but without making any remark. On it was
superscribed her name; and it bore, besides, the word "Ship" in red
printed letters, "Valparaiso," also, was written upon it. Jenny
looked at the letter wonderingly, for a moment or two, and then, with
her heart throbbing wildly, left the room. On breaking the seal, she
found the letter to be from Mark. It was as follows:
"U. S. SHIP——, Valparaiso, September 4, 18—,
"MY GENTLE FRIEND.—A year has passed since our brief meeting and
unhappy parting. I do not think you have forgotten me in that time;
you may be sure I have not forgotten you. The memory of one about
whom we conversed, alone would keep your image green in my thoughts.
Of the rash step I took you have no doubt heard. In anger at unjust
treatment both from my father and grandfather, I was weak enough to
enter the United States' service as a sailor. Having committed this
folly, and being unwilling to humble myself, and appeal to friends
who had wronged me for their interest to get me released, I have
looked the hardship and degradation before me in the face, and sought
to encounter it manfully. The ordeal has been thus far most severe,
and I have yet two years of trial before me. As I am where I am by my
own act, I will not complain, and yet, I have felt it hard to be cut
off from all the sympathy and kind interest of my friends—to have no
word from home—to feel that none cares for me. I know that I have
offended both my father and grandfather past forgiveness, and my mind
is made up to seek for no reconciliation with them. I cannot stoop to
that. I have too much of the blood of the Loftons in my veins.
"But why write this to you, Jenny? You will hardly understand how
such feelings can govern any heart—your own is so gentle and
innocent in all of its impulses. I have other things to say to you!
Since our meeting I have never ceased to think of you! I need no
picture of your face, for I see it ever before me as distinctly as if
sketched by the painter's art. I sometimes ask myself wonderingly, how
it is that you, a simple country maiden, could, in one or two brief
meetings, have made so strong an impression upon me? But, you bore my
mother's name, and your face was like her dear face. Moreover, the
beauty of goodness was in your countenance, and a sphere of innocence
around you; and I had not strayed so far from virtue's paths as to be
insensible to these. Since we parted, Jenny, you have seemed ever
present with me, as an angel of peace and protection. In the moment
when passion was about overmastering me, you stood by my side, and I
seemed to hear your voice speaking to the rising storm, and hushing
all into calmness. When my feet have been ready to step aside, you
instantly approached and pointed to the better way. Last night I had a
dream, and it is because of that dream that I now write to you. I have
often felt like writing before; now I write because I cannot help it.
I am moved to do so by something that I cannot resist.
"Yesterday I had a difficulty with an officer who has shewn a
disposition to domineer over me ever since the cruise commenced. He
complained to the commander, who has, in more than one instance shown
me kindness. The commander said that I must make certain concessions
to the officer, which I felt as humiliating; that good discipline
required this, and that unless I did so, he would be reluctantly
compelled to order me to the gangway. Thus far I had avoided
punishment by a strict obedience to duty. No lash had ever touched me.
That degradation I felt would be my ruin; and in fear of the result I
bore much, rather than give any petty officer the power to have me
punished. 'Let me sleep over it, Captain,' said I, so earnestly, that
my request was granted.
"Troubled dreams haunted me as I lay in my hammock that night. At
last I seemed to be afloat on the wide ocean, on a single plank,
tossing about with the hot sun shining fiercely upon me, and monsters
of the great deep gathering around, eager for their prey. I was weak,
faint, and despairing. In vain did my eyes sweep the horizon, there
was neither vessel nor land in sight. At length the sun went down, and
the darkness drew nearer and nearer. Then I could see nothing but the
stars shining above me. In this moment, when hope seemed about leaving
my heart forever, a light came suddenly around me. On looking up I saw
a boat approaching. In the bow stood my mother, and you sat guiding
the helm! She took my hand, and I stepped into the boat with a thrill
of joy at my deliverance. As I did so, she kissed me, looked tenderly
towards you, and faded from my sight. Then I awoke.
"The effect of all this was to subdue my haughty spirit. As soon as
an opportunity offered, I made every desired concession for my fault,
and was forgiven. And now I am writing to you, I feel as if there was
something in that dream, Jenny. Ah! Shall I ever see your face again?
Heaven only knows!
"I send this letter to you in care of my grandfather. I know that
he will not retain it or seek to know its contents. Unless he should
ask after me, do not speak to him or any one of what I have written
to you. Farewell! Do not forget me in your prayers.
The effect of this letter upon Jenny, was to interest her
intensely. The swell of emotion went deeper, and the activity of her
mind took a still higher character. It was plain to her, when she next
came into Mr. Lofton's presence, that his thoughts had been busy about
the letter she had received. But he asked her no questions, and,
faithful to the expressed wish of Mark, she made no reference to the
One part of Jenny's service to the failing old man, had been to
read to him daily from the newspapers. This made her familiar with
what was passing in the world, gave her food for thought, and helped
her to develop and strengthen her mind. Often had she pored over the
papers for some news of Mark, but never having heard the name of the
vessel in which he had gone to sea, she had possessed no clue to find
what she sought for. But now, whenever a paper was opened, her first
search was for naval intelligence.
With what a throb of interest did she one day, about a week after
Mark's letter came to hand, read an announcement that the ship ——
had been ordered home, and might be expected to arrive daily at
A woman thinks quickly to a conclusion; or, rather, arrives there
by a process quicker than thought; especially where her conclusions
are to affect a beloved object. In an hour after Jenny had read the
fact just stated, she said to Mr. Lofton, who had now come to be much
attached to her—
"Will you grant me a favor?"
"Ask what you will, my child," replied Mr. Lofton, with more than
usual affection in his tones.
"Let me have fifty dollars."
"Certainly. I know you will use it for a good purpose."
Two days after this Jenny was in Washington. She made the journey
alone, but without timidity or fear. Her purpose made her
self-possessed and courageous. On arriving at the seat of government,
Jenny inquired for the Secretary of the Navy. When she arrived at the
Department over which he presided, and obtained an interview, she said
to him, as soon as she could compose herself—
"The ship —— has been ordered home from the Pacific?"
"She arrived at Norfolk last night, and is now hourly expected at
the Navy Yard," replied the Secretary.
At this intelligence, Jenny was so much affected that it was some
time before she could trust herself to speak.
"You have a brother on board?" said the Secretary.
"There is a young man on board," replied Jenny, in a tremulous
voice, "for whose discharge I have come to ask."
The Secretary looked grave.
"At whose instance do you come?" he inquired.
"Solely at my own."
"Who is the young man?"
"Do you know Marshal Lofton?"
"I do, by reputation, well. He belongs to a distinguished family in
New York, to which the country owes much for service rendered in
"The discharge I ask, is for his grandson."
"Young Clifford, do you mean?" The Secretary looked surprised as he
spoke. "He is not in the service."
"He is on board the ship —— as a common sailor."
"It is too true. In a moment of angry disappointment he took the
rash step. And, since then, no communication has passed between him
and his friends."
The Secretary turned to the table near which he was sitting, and,
after writing a few lines on a piece of paper, rung a small hand-bell
for the messenger, who came in immediately.
"Take this to Mr J——, and bring me an answer immediately."
The messenger left the room, and the Secretary said to Jenny—
"Wait a moment or two, if you please."
In a little while the messenger came back and handed the Secretary
a memorandum from the clerk to whom he had sent for information.
"There is no such person as Clifford on board the ship ——, nor,
in fact, in the service as a common sailor," said the Secretary,
addressing Jenny, after glancing at the memorandum he had received.
"Oh, yes, there is; there must be," exclaimed the now agitated
girl. "I received a letter from him at Valparaiso, dated on board of
this ship. And, besides, he wrote home to his father, at the time he
sailed, declaring what he had done."
"Strange. His name doesn't appear in the Department as attached to
the service. Hark! There's a gun. It announces, in all probability,
the arrival of the ship —— at the Navy Yard."
Jenny instantly became pale.
"Perhaps," suggested the Secretary, "your best way will be to take
a carriage and drive down, at once, to the Navy Yard. Shall I direct
the messenger to call a carriage for you?"
"I will thank you to do so," replied Jenny, faintly.
The carriage was soon at the door. Jenny was much agitated when she
arrived at the Navy Yard. To her question as to whether the ship ——
had arrived, she was pointed to a large vessel which lay moored at the
dock. How she mounted its side she hardly knew; but, in what seemed
scarcely an instant of time, she was standing on the deck. To an
officer who met her, as she stepped on board, she asked for Mark
"What is he? A sailor or marine?"
"There is no such person on board, I believe," said the officer.
Poor Jenny staggered back a few paces, while a deadly paleness
overspread her face. As she leaned against the side of the vessel for
support, a young man, dressed as a sailor, ascended from the lower
deck. Their eyes met, and both sprung towards each other.
"Jenny! Jenny! is it you!" fell passionately from his lips, as he
caught her in his arms, and kissed her fervently. "Bless you! Bless
you, Jenny! This is more than I had hoped for," he added, as he gazed
fondly into her beautiful young face.
"They said you were not here," murmured Jenny, "and my heart was in
"You asked for Mark Clifford?"
"I am not known in the service by that name. I entered it as Edward
This meeting, occurring as it did, with many spectators around, and
they of the ruder class, was so earnest and tender, yet with all, so
mutually respectful and decorous, that even the rough sailors were
touched by the manner and sentiment of the interview; and mole than
one eye grew dim.
Not long did Jenny linger on the deck of the ——. Now that she had
found Mark, her next thought was to secure his discharge.
IT was little more than half an hour after the Secretary of the
Navy parted with Jenny, ere she entered his office again; but now with
her beautiful face flushed and eager.
"I have found him!" she exclaimed; "I knew he was on board this
The Secretary's interest had been awakened by the former brief
interview with Jenny, and when she came in with the announcement, he
was not only affected with pleasure, but his feelings were touched by
her manner. "How is it, then," he inquired, "that his name is not to
be found in the list of her crew?"
"He entered the service under the name of Edward James."
"Ah! that explains it."
"And now, sir," said Jenny, in a voice so earnest and appealing,
that her auditor felt like granting her desire without a moment's
reflection: "I have come to entreat you to give me his release."
"On what ground do you make this request?" inquired the Secretary,
gazing into the sweet young face of Jenny, with a feeling of respect
blended with admiration.
"On the ground of humanity," was the simple yet earnestly spoken
"How can you put it on that ground?"
"A young man of his education and abilities can serve society
better in another position."
"But he has chosen the place he is in."
"Not deliberately. In a moment of disappointment and blind passion
he took a false step. Severely has he suffered for this act. Let it
not be prolonged, lest it destroy him. One of his spirit can scarcely
pass through so severe an ordeal without fainting."
"Does Mr. Lofton, his grandfather, desire what you ask?"
"Mr. Lofton is a proud man. He entertained high hopes for Mark, who
has, in this act, so bitterly disappointed them, that he has not been
known to utter his name since the news of his enlistment was
"And his father?"
Jenny shook her head, sighing—
"I don't know anything about him. He was angry, and, I believe,
cast him off."
"And you, then, are his only advocate?"
Jenny's eyes dropped to the floor, and a deeper tinge overspread
"What is your relation to him, and to his friends?" asked the
Secretary, his manner becoming more serious.
It was some moments before Jenny replied. Then she said, in a more
"I am living with Mr. Lofton. But—"
She hesitated, and then became silent and embarrassed.
"Does Mr. Lofton know of your journey to Washington?"
Jenny shook her head.
"Where did you tell him you were going?"
"I said nothing to him, but came away the moment I heard the ship
was expected to arrive at Norfolk."
"Suppose I release him from the service?"
"I will persuade him to go back with me to Fairview, and then I
know that all will be forgiven between him and his grandfather. You
don't know how Mr. Lofton has failed since Mark went away," added
Jenny in a tone meant to reach the feelings of her auditor.
"He looks many years older. Ah, sir, if you would only grant my
"Will the young man return to his family! Have you spoken to him
"No; I wished not to create hopes that might fail. But give me his
release, and I will have a claim on him."
"And you will require him to go home in acknowledgment of that
"I will not leave him till he goes back," said Jenny.
"Is he not satisfied in the service?"
"How could he be satisfied with it?" Jenny spoke with a quick
impulse, and with something like rebuke in her voice. "No! It is
crushing out his very life. Think of your own son in such a
There was something in this appeal, and in the way it was uttered,
that decided the Secretary's mind. A man of acute observation, and
humane feelings, he not only understood pretty clearly the relation
that Jenny bore to Mark and his family, but sympathised with the
young man and resolved to grant the maiden's request. Leaving her for
a few minutes, he went into an adjoining room. When he returned, he
had a sealed letter in his hand directed to the commander of the ship
"This will procure his dismissal from the service," said he, as he
reached it towards Jenny.
"May heaven reward you!" fell from the lips of the young girl, as
she received the letter. Then, with the tears glistening in her eyes,
she hurriedly left the apartment.
While old Mr. Lofton was yet wondering what Jenny could want with
fifty dollars, a servant came and told him that she had just heard
from a neighbor who came up a little while before from the landing,
that he had seen Jenny go on board of a steamboat that was on its way
to New York.
"It can't be so," quickly answered Mr. Lofton.
"Mr. Jones said, positively, that it was her."
"Tell Henry to go to Mr. Jones and ask him, as a favor, to step
over and see me."
In due time Mr. Jones came.
"Are you certain that you saw Jenny Lawson go on board the
steamboat for New York to-day?" asked Mr. Lofton, when the neighbor
"Oh, yes, sir; it was her," replied the man.
"Did you speak to her?"
"I was going to, but she hurried past me without looking in my
"Had she anything with her?"
"There was a small bundle in her hand."
"Strange—strange—very strange," murmured the old man to himself.
"What does it mean? Where can she have gone?"
"Did she say nothing about going away?"
Mr. Lofton's eyes fell to the floor, and he sat thinking for some
"Mr. Jones," said he, at length, "can you go to New York for me?"
"I suppose so," replied Mr. Jones.
"When will the morning boat from Albany pass here?"
"In about two hours."
"Then get yourself ready, if you please, and come over to me. I do
not like this of Jenny, and must find out where she has gone."
Mr. Jones promised to do as was desired, and went to make all
necessary preparations. Before he returned, a domestic brought Mr.
Lofton a sealed note bearing his address, which she had found in
Jenny's chamber. It was as follows:
"Do not be alarmed at my telling you that, when you receive this, I
will be on a journey of two or three hundred miles in extent, and may
not return for weeks. Believe me, that my purpose is a good one. I
hope to be back much sooner than I have said. When I do get home, I
know you will approve of what I have done. My errand is one of Mercy.
"Humbly and faithfully yours, JENNY."
It was some time before Mr. Lofton's mind grew calm and clear,
after reading this note. That Jenny's absence was, in some way,
connected with Mark, was a thought that soon presented itself. But, in
what way, he could not make out; for he had never heard the name of
the ship in which his grandson sailed, and knew nothing of her
expected arrival home.
By the time Mr. Jones appeared, ready to start on the proposed
mission to New York, Mr. Lofton had made up his mind not to attempt
to follow Jenny, but to wait for some word from her. Not until this
sudden separation took place did Mr. Lofton understand how necessary
to his happiness the affectionate girl had become. So troubled was he
at her absence, and so anxious for her safety, that when night came he
found himself unable to sleep. In thinking about the dangers that
would gather around one so ignorant of the world, his imagination
magnified the trials and temptations to which, alone as she was, she
would be exposed. Such thoughts kept him tossing anxiously upon his
pillow, or restlessly pacing the chamber floor until day dawn. Then,
from over-excitement and loss of rest, he was seriously indisposed—so
much so, that his physician had to be called in during the day. He
found him with a good deal of fever, and deemed it necessary to resort
to depletion, as well as to the application of other remedies to allay
the over-action of his vital system. These prostrated him at once—so
much so, that he was unable to sit up. Before night he was so
seriously ill that the physician had to be sent for again. The fever
had returned with great violence, and the pressure on his brain was so
great that he had become slightly delirious.
During the second night, this active stage of the disease
continued; but all the worst symptoms subsided towards morning.
Daylight found him sleeping quietly, with a cool moist skin, and a
low, regular pulse. Towards mid-day he awoke; but the anxiety that
came with thought brought back many of the unfavorable symptoms, and
he was worse again towards evening. On the third day he was again
better, but so weak as to be unable to sit up.
How greatly did old Mr. Lofton miss the gentle girl, who had become
almost as dear to him as a child, during this brief illness, brought
on by her strange absence. No hand could smooth his pillow like hers.
No presence could supply her place by his side. He was companionless,
now that she was away; and his heart reached vainly around for
something to lean upon for support.
On the fourth day he was better, and sat up a little. But his
anxiety for Jenny was increasing. Where could she be? He read her
brief letter over and over again.
"May not return for weeks," he said, as he held the letter in his
hand. "Where can she have gone? Foolish child! Why did she not
consult with me? I would have advised her for the best."
Late on the afternoon of that day, Jenny, in company with Mark, the
latter in the dress of a seaman in the United States service, passed
from a steamboat at the landing near Fairview, and took their way
towards the mansion of Mr. Lofton. They had not proceeded far, before
the young man began to linger, while Jenny showed every disposition to
press on rapidly. At length Mark stopped.
"Jenny," said he, while a cloud settled on his face, "you've had
your own way up to this moment. I've been passive in your hands. But
I can't go on with you any further."
"Don't say that," returned Jenny, her voice almost imploring in its
tones. And in the earnestness of her desire to bring Mark back to his
grandfather, she seized one of his hands, and, by a gentle force, drew
him a few paces in the direction they had been going. But he resisted
that force, and they stood still again.
"I don't think I can go back, Jenny," said Mark, in a subdued
voice: "I have some pride left, much as has been crushed out of me
during the period of my absence, and this rises higher and higher in
my heart the nearer I approach my grandfather. How can I meet him!"
"Only come into his presence, Mark," urged Jenny, speaking tenderly
and familiarly. She had addressed him as Mr. Clifford, but he had
forbidden that, saying—
"To you my name is Mark—let none other pass your lips!"
"Only come into his presence. You need not speak to him, nor look
towards him. This is all I ask."
"But, the humiliation of going back after my resentment of his
former treatment," said Mark. "I can bear anything but this bending
of my pride—this humbling of myself to others."
"Don't think of yourself, Mark," replied Jenny. "Think of your
grandfather, on whom your absence has wrought so sad a change. Think
of what he must have suffered to break down so in less than two
years. In pity to him, then, come back. Be guided by me, Mark, and I
will lead you right. Think of that strange dream!"
At this appeal, Mark moved quickly forward by the side of the
beautiful girl, who had so improved in every way—mind and body
having developed wonderfully since he parted with her—that he was
filled all the while by wonder, respect and admiration. He moved by
her side as if influenced by a spell that subdued his own will.
In silence they walked along, side by side, the pressure of thought
and feeling on each mind being so strong as to take away the desire
to speak, until the old mansion house of Mr. Lofton appeared in view.
Here Mark stopped again; but the tenderly uttered "Come," and the
tearful glance of Jenny, effectually controlled the promptings of an
unbroken will. Together, in a few minutes afterwards, they approached
the house and entered.
"Where is Mr. Lofton?" asked Jenny of a servant who met them in the
"He's been very ill," replied the servant.
"Ill!" Jenny became pale.
"Yes, very ill. But he is better now."
"Where is he?"
"In his own chamber."
For a moment Jenny hesitated whether to go up alone, or in company
with Mark. She would have preferred going alone; but fearing that, if
she parted even thus briefly from Mark, her strong influence over him,
by means of which she had brought him, almost as a struggling
prisoner, thus far, would be weakened, and he tempted to turn from
the house, she resolved to venture upon the experiment of entering
Mr. Lofton's sick chamber, in company with his grandson.
"Is he sitting up?" she asked of the servant.
"He's been sitting up a good deal to-day, but is lying down now."
"He's much better?"
"Come," said Jenny, turning to Mark, and moving towards the
stairway. Mark followed passively. On entering the chamber of Mr.
Lofton, they found him sleeping.
Both silently approached, and looked upon his venerable face,
composed in deep slumber. Tears came to the eyes of Mark as he gazed
at the countenance of his grandfather, and his heart became soft as
the heart of a child. While they yet stood looking at him, his lips
moved, and he uttered both their names. Then he seemed disturbed, and
moaned, as if in pain.
"Grandfather!" said Mark, taking the old man's hand, and bending
Quickly his eyes opened. For a few moments he gazed earnestly upon
Mark, and then tightened his hand upon that of the young man, closed
his eyes again, and murmured in a voice that deeply touched the
"My poor boy! My poor boy! Why did you do so? Why did you break my
heart? But, God be thanked, you are back again! God be thanked!"
"Jenny!" said the old man, quickly, as he felt her take his other
hand and press it to her lips. "And it was for this you left me! Dear
child, I forgive you!"
As he spoke, he drew her hand over towards the one that grasped
that of Mark, and uniting them together, murmured—
"If you love each other, it is all right. My blessing shall go with
How mild and delicious was the thrill that ran through each of the
hearts of his auditors. This was more than they expected. Mark
tightly grasped the hand that was placed within his own, and that
hand gave back an answering pressure. Thus was the past reconciled
with the present; while a vista was opened toward a bright future.
Little more than a year has passed since this joyful event took
place. Mark Clifford, with the entire approval of his grandfather,
who furnished a handsome capital for the purpose, entered, during the
time, into the mercantile house of his father as a partner, and is now
actively engaged in business, well sobered by his severe experience.
He has taken a lovely bride, who is the charm of all circles into
which she is introduced; and her name is Jenny. But few who meet her
dream that she once grew, a beautiful wild flower, near the banks of
Old Mr. Lofton could not be separated from Jenny; and, as he could
not separate her from her husband, he has removed to the city, where
he has an elegant residence, in which her voice is the music and her
smiles the ever present sunshine.
A HAPPY-HEARTED child was Madeline Henry, for the glad sunshine
ever lay upon the threshold of her early home. Her father, a cheerful,
unselfish man, left the world and its business cares behind him when
he placed his hand upon the door of entrance to his household
treasures. Like other men, he had his anxieties, his hopes and
losses, his disappointments and troubles; but he wisely and humanely
strove to banish these from his thoughts, when he entered the
home-sanctuary, lest his presence should bring a shadow instead of
Madeline was just twenty years of age, when, as the wife of Edward
Leslie, she left this warm down-covered nest, and was borne to a new
and more elegant home.
Mr. Leslie was her senior by eight or nine years. He began his
business life at the age of twenty-two, as partner in a well
established mercantile house, and, as he was able to place ten
thousand dollars in the concern, his position, in the matter of
profits, was good from the beginning. Yet, for all this,
notwithstanding more than one loving-hearted girl, in whose eyes he
might have found favor, crossed his path, he resolutely turned his
thoughts away, lest the fascination should be too strong for him. He
resolved not to marry until he felt able to maintain a certain style
Thus were the heart's impulses checked; thus were the first tender
leaves of affection frozen in the cold breath of mere calculation. He
wronged himself in this; yet, in his worldliness and ignorance, did he
feel proud of being above, what he called, the weaknesses of other
It was but natural that Mr. Leslie should become, in a measure,
reserved towards others. Should assume a statelier step, and more set
forms of speech. Should repress, more and more, his heart's impulses.
In Leslie, the love of money was strong; yet there was in his
character a firmly laid basis of integrity. Though shrewd in his
dealings, he never stooped to a system of overreaching. He was not
long, therefore, in establishing a good reputation among business
men. In social circles, where he occasionally appeared, almost as a
matter of course he became an object of interest.
Observation, as it regards character, is, by far, too superficial.
With most persons, merely what strikes the eye is sufficient ground
for an opinion; and this opinion is freely and positively expressed.
Thus, a good reputation comes, as a natural consequence, to a man who
lives in the practice of most of the apparent social virtues, while he
may possess no real kindness of heart, may be selfish to an extreme
Thus it was with Mr. Leslie. He was generally regarded as a model
of a man; and when he, at length, approached Madeline Henry as a
lover, the friends of the young lady regarded her as particularly
As for Madeline, she rather shrunk, at first, from his advances.
There was a coldness in his sphere that chilled her; a rigid
propriety of speech and action that inspired too much respect and
deference. Gradually, however, love for the maiden, (if by such a
term it might be called) fused his hard exterior, and his manner
became so softened, gentle and affectionate, that she yielded up to
him a most precious treasure—the love of her young and trusting
Just twenty years old, as we have said, was Madeline when she
passed, as the bride of Mr. Leslie, from the warm home-nest in which
she had reposed so happily, to become the mistress of an elegant
mansion. Though in age a woman, she was, in many things, but a child
in feelings. Tenderly cared for and petted by her father, her spirit
had been, in a measure, sustained by love as an aliment.
One like Madeline is not fit to be the wife of such a man as Edward
Leslie. For him, a cold, calculating woman of the world were a better
companion. One who has her own selfish ends to gain; and who can find,
in fashion, gaiety, or personal indulgence, full compensation for a
Madeline was scarcely the bride of a week, ere shadows began to
fall upon her heart; and the form that interposed itself between her
and the sunlight, was the form of her husband. As a daughter, love had
ever gone forth in lavish expression. This had been encouraged by all
the associations of home. But, from the beginning of her wedded life,
she felt the manner of her husband like the weight of a hand on her
bosom, repressing her heart's outgushing impulses.
It was on the fifth evening of their marriage, about the early
twilight hour, and Madeline, alone, almost for the first time since
morning, sat awaiting the return of her husband. Full of pleasant
thoughts was her mind, and warm with love her heart. A few hours of
separation from Edward had made her impatient to meet him again.
When, at length, she heard him enter, she sprang to meet him, and,
with an exclamation of delight, threw her arms about his neck.
There was a cold dignity in the way this act was received by Edward
Leslie, that chilled the feelings of his wife. Quickly disengaging
her arms, she assumed a more guarded exterior; yet, trying all the
while, to be cheerful in manner. We say "trying;" for a shadow had
fallen on her young heart—and, to seem cheerful was from an effort.
They sat down, side by side, in the pensive twilight close to the
windows, through which came fragrant airs; and Madeline laid her hand
upon that of her husband. Checked in the first gush of feelings, she
now remained silent, yet with her yearning spirit intently listening
for words of tenderness and endearment.
"I have been greatly vexed to-day."
These were the very words he uttered. How chilly they fell upon the
ears of his expectant wife.
"What has happened?" she asked, in a voice of concern.
"Oh, nothing in reality more than usual. Men in business are
exposed to a thousand annoyances. If all the world were honest, trade
would be pleasant enough. But you have to watch every one you deal
with as closely as if he were a rogue. A man, whom I had confided in
and befriended, tried to overreach me today, and it has hurt me a good
deal. I couldn't have believed it of him."
Nothing more was said on either side for several minutes. Leslie,
absorbed in thoughts of business, so far forgot the presence of his
wife, as to withdraw the hand upon which her's was laid. How palpable
to her was the coldness of his heart! She felt it as an atmosphere
After tea, Leslie remarked, as he arose from the table, that he
wished to see a friend on some matter of business; but would be home
early. Not even a kiss did he leave with Madeline to cheer her during
his absence. His selfish dignity could not stoop to such childishness.
The young bride passed the evening with no companionship but her
tears. When Leslie came home, and looked upon her sober face, he was
not struck with its aspect as being unusual. It did not enter his
imagination that she could be otherwise than happy. Was she not _his_
wife? And had she not, around her, every thing to make the heart
satisfied? He verily believed that she had. He spoke to her kindly,
yet, as she felt, indifferently, while her heart was pining for words
of warm affection.
This was the first shadow that fell, darkly, across the young
wife's path. For hours after her husband's senses were locked in
slumber, she lay wakeful and weeping. He understood not, if he
remarked the fact, why her cheeks had less color and her eyes less
brightness on the morning that succeeded to this, on Madeline's part,
never forgotten evening.
We need not present a scene from the sixth, the seventh, or even
the twentieth day of Madeline's married life. All moved on with a kind
of even tenor. Order—we might almost say, mercantile order—reigned
throughout the household. And yet, shadows were filling more and more
heavily over the young wife's feelings. To be loved, was an element of
her existence—to be loved with expression. But, expressive fondness
was not one of the cold, dignified Mr. Leslie's weaknesses. He loved
Madeline—as much as he was capable of loving anything out of himself.
And he had given her the highest possible evidence of this love, by
making her his wife.—What more could she ask? It never occurred to
his unsentimental thought, that words and acts of endearment were
absolutely essential to her happiness. That her world of interest was
a world of affections, and that without his companionship in this
world, her heart would feel an aching void.
Who will wonder that, as weeks and months went by, shadows were
more apparent on the sunny face of Madeline? Yet, such shadows, when
they became visible to casual eyes, did excite wonder. What was there
to break the play of sunshine on her countenance?
"The more some people have, the more dissatisfied they are,"
remarked one superficial observer to another, in reply to some
communication touching Mrs. Leslie's want of spirits.
"Yes," was answered. "Nothing but _real_ trouble ever brings such
persons to their senses."
Ah! Is not heart-trouble the most real of all with which we are
visited? There comes to it, so rarely, a balm of healing. To those
external evils which merely affect the personal comfort, the mind
quickly accommodates itself. We may find happiness in either
prosperity or adversity. But, what true happiness is there for a
loving heart, if, from the only source of reciprocation, there is but
an imperfect response? A strong mind may accommodate itself, in the
exercise of a firm religious philosophy, to even these circumstances,
and like the wisely discriminating bee, extract honey from even the
most unpromising flower. But, it is hard—nay, almost impossible—for
one like Madeline, reared as she was in so warm an atmosphere of love,
to fall back upon and find a sustaining power, in such a philosophy.
Her spirit first must droop. There must be a passing through the fire,
with painful purification. Alas! How many perish in the ordeal!—How
many gentle, loving ones, unequally mated, die, daily, around us;
moving on to the grave, so far as the world knows, by the way of some
fatal bodily ailment; yet, in truth, failing by a heart-sickness that
has dried up the fountains of life.
And so it was with the wife of Edward Leslie. Greatly her husband
wondered at the shadows which fell, more and more heavily, on
Madeline—wondered as time wore on, at the paleness of her
cheeks—the sadness which, often, she could not repress when he was
by; the variableness of her spirits—all tending to destroy the
balance of her nervous system, and, finally, ending in confirmed
ill-health, that demanded, imperiously, the diversion of his thoughts
from business and worldly schemes to the means of prolonging her life.
Alas! What a sad picture to look upon, would it be, were we to
sketch, even in outline, the passing events of the ten years that
preceded this conviction on the part of Mr. Leslie. To Madeline, his
cold, hard, impatient, and, too frequently, cruel re-actions upon
what he thought her unreasonable, captious, dissatisfied states of
mind, having no ground but in her imagination, were heavy
heart-strokes—or, as a discordant hand dashed among her life-chords,
putting them forever out of tune. Oh! The wretchedness, struggling
with patience and concealment, of those weary years. The days and
days, during which her husband maintained towards her a moody silence,
that it seemed would kill her. And yet, so far as the world went, Mr.
Leslie was among the best of husbands. How little does the world, so
called, look beneath the surface of things!
With the weakness of failing health, came, to Madeline, the loss of
mental energy. She had less and less self-control. A brooding
melancholy settled upon her feelings; and she often spent days in her
chamber, refusing to see any one except members of her own family, and
weeping if she were spoken to.
"You will die, Madeline. You will kill yourself!" said her husband,
repeating, one day, the form of speech so often used when he found
his wife in these states of abandonment. He spoke with more than his
usual tenderness, for, to his unimaginative mind had come a quickly
passing, but vivid realization, of what he would lose if she were
taken from him.
"The loss will scarcely be felt," was her murmured answer.
"Your children will, at least, feel it," said Mr. Leslie, in a more
captious and meaning tone than, upon reflection, he would have used.
He felt her words as expressing indifference for himself, and his
quick retort involved, palpably, the same impression in regard to his
Madeline answered not farther, but her husband's words were not
forgotten—"My children will feel my loss." This thought became so
present to her mind, that none other could, for a space, come into
manifest perception. The mother's heart began quickening into life a
sense of the mother's duty. Thus it was, when her oldest child—named
for herself, and with as loving and dependent a nature—opened the
chamber door, and coming up to her father, made some request that he
did not approve. To the mother's mind, her desire was one that ought
to have been granted; and, she felt, in an instant, that the manner,
as well as the fact of the father's denial, were both unkind, and that
Madeline's heart would be almost broken. She did not err in this. The
child went sobbing from the room.
How distinctly came before the mind of Mrs. Leslie a picture of the
past. She was, for a time, back in her father's house; and she felt,
for a time, the ever-present, considerate, loving kindness of one who
had made all sunshine in that early home. Slowly came back the mind of
Mrs. Leslie to the present, and she said to herself, not passively,
like one borne on the current of a down-rushing stream, but
resolutely, as one with a purpose to struggle—to suffer, and yet be
"Yes; my children will feel my loss. I could pass away and be at
rest. I could lie me down and sleep sweetly in the grave. But, is all
my work done? Can I leave these little ones to his tender mer—"
She checked herself in the mental utterance of this sentiment,
which referred to her husband. But, the feeling was in her heart; and
it inspired her with a new purpose. Her thought, turned from herself,
and fixed, with a yearning love upon her children, gave to the blood
a quicker motion through the veins, and to her mind a new activity.
She could no longer remain passive, as she had been for hours,
brooding over her own unhappy state, but arose and left her chamber.
In another room she found her unhappy child, who had gone off to
brood alone over her disappointment, and to weep where none could see
"Madeline, dear!" said the mother, in a loving, sympathetic voice.
Instantly the child flung herself into her arms, and laid her face,
sobbing, upon her bosom.
Gently, yet wisely—for there came, in that moment, to Mrs. Leslie,
a clear perception of all her duty—did the mother seek to soften
Madeline's disappointment, and to inspire her with fortitude to bear.
Beyond her own expectation came success in this effort. The reason she
invented or imagined, for the father's refusal, satisfied the child;
and soon the clouded brow was lit up by the heart's sunshine.
From that hour, Mrs. Leslie was changed. From that hour, a new
purpose filled her heart. She could not leave her children, nor could
she take them with her if she passed away; and so, she resolved to
live for them, to forget her own suffering, in the tenderness of
maternal care. The mother had risen superior to the unhappy,
All marked the change; yet in none did it awaken more surprise than
in Mr. Leslie. He never fully understood its meaning; and, no wonder,
for he had never understood her from the beginning. He was too cold
and selfish to be able fully to appreciate her character or relation
to him as a wife.
Yet, for all this change—though the long drooping form of Mrs.
Leslie regained something of its erectness, and her exhausted system
a degree of tension—the shadow passed not from her heart or brow;
nor did her cheeks grow warm again with the glow of health. The
delight of her life had failed; and now, she lived only for the
children whom God had given her.
A man of Mr. Leslie's stamp of character too rarely grows wiser in
the true sense. Himself the centre of his world, it is but seldom
that he is able to think enough out of himself to scan the effect of
his daily actions upon others. If collisions take place, he thinks
only of the pain he feels, not of the pain he gives. He is ever
censuring; but rarely takes blame. During the earlier portions of his
married life, Mr. Leslie's mind had chafed a good deal at what seemed
to him Madeline's unreasonable and unwomanly conduct; the soreness of
this was felt even after the change in her exterior that we have
noticed, and he often indulged in the habit of mentally writing bitter
things against her. He had well nigh broken her heart; and was yet
impatient because she gave signs indicative of pain.
And so, as years wore on, the distance grew wider instead of
becoming less and less. The husband had many things to draw him forth
into the busy world, where he established various interests, and
sought pleasure in their pursuits, while the wife, seldom seen abroad,
buried herself at home, and gave her very life for her children.
But, even maternal love could not feed for very many years the
flame of her life. The oil was too nearly exhausted when that new
supply came. For a time, the light burned clearly; then it began to
fail, and ere the mother's tasks were half done, it went out in
How heavy the shadows which then fell upon the household and upon
the heart of Edward Leslie! As he stood, alone, in the chamber of
death, with his eyes fixed upon the pale, wasted countenance, no more
to quicken with life, and felt on his neck the clinging arms that were
thrown around it a few moments before the last sigh of mortality was
breathed; and still heard the eager, "Kiss me, Edward, once, before I
die!"—a new light broke upon him,—and he was suddenly stung by sharp
and self-reproaching thoughts. Had he not killed her, and, by the
slowest and most agonizing process by which murder can be committed?
There was in his mind a startling perception that such was the awful
crime of which he had been guilty.
Yes, there were shadows on the heart of Edward Leslie; shadows that
never entirely passed away.
THE THANKLESS OFFICE.
"AN object of real charity," said Andrew Lyon to his wife, as a
poor woman withdrew from the room in which they were seated.
"If ever there was a worthy object, she is one," returned Mrs.
Lyon. "A widow, with health so feeble that even ordinary exertion is
too much for her; yet obliged to support, with the labor of her own
hands, not only herself, but three young children. I do not wonder
that she is behind with her rent."
"Nor I," said Mr. Lyon in a voice of sympathy. "How much did she
say was due to her landlord?"
"She will not be able to pay it."
"I fear not. How can she? I give her all my extra sewing, and have
obtained work for her from several ladies; but, with her best efforts
she can barely obtain food and decent clothing for herself and babes."
"Does it not seem hard," remarked Mr. Lyon, "that one like Mrs.
Arnold, who is so earnest in her efforts to take care of herself and
family, should not receive a helping hand from some one of the many
who could help her without feeling the effort? If I didn't find it so
hard to make both ends meet, I would pay off her arrears of rent for
her, and feel happy in so doing."
"Ah!" exclaimed the kind-hearted wife, "how much I wish that we
were able to do this. But we are not."
"I'll tell you what we can do," said Mr. Lyon, in a cheerful
voice—"or, rather what I can do. It will be a very light matter for,
say ten persons, to give a dollar a-piece, in order to relieve Mrs.
Arnold from her present trouble. There are plenty who would cheerfully
contribute for this good purpose; all that is wanted is some one to
take upon himself the business of making the collections. That task
shall be mine."
"How glad, James, to hear you say so," smilingly replied Mrs. Lyon.
"Oh! what a relief it will be to poor Mrs. Arnold. It will make her
heart as light as a feather. That rent has troubled her sadly. Old
Links, her landlord, has been worrying her about it a good deal, and,
only a week ago, threatened to put her things in the street if she
didn't pay up."
"I should have thought of this before," remarked Andrew Lyon.
"There are hundreds of people who are willing enough to give if they
were only certain in regard to the object. Here is one worthy enough
in every way. Be it my business to present her claims to benevolent
consideration. Let me see. To whom shall I go? There are Jones, and
Green, and Tompkins. I can get a dollar from each of them. That will
be three dollars—and one from myself, will make four. Who else is
there? Oh! Malcolm! I'm sure of a dollar from him; and, also, from
Smith, Todd, and Perry."
Confident in the success of his benevolent scheme, Mr. Lyon started
forth, early on the very next day, for the purpose of obtaining, by
subscription, the poor widow's rent. The first person he called on
"Ah, friend Lyon," said Malcolm, smiling blandly. "Good morning!
What can I do for you to-day?"
"Nothing for me, but something for a poor widow, who is behind with
her rent," replied Andrew Lyon. "I want just one dollar from you, and
as much more from some eight or nine as benevolent as yourself."
At the words "poor widow," the countenance of Malcolm fell, and
when his visiter ceased, he replied in a changed and husky voice,
clearing his throat two or three times as he spoke,
"Are you sure she is deserving, Mr. Lyon?" The man's manner had
become exceedingly grave.
"None more so," was the prompt answer. "She is in poor health, and
has three children to support with the product of her needle. If any
one needs assistance it is Mrs. Arnold."
"Oh! ah! The widow of Jacob Arnold."
"The same," replied Andrew Lyon.
Malcolm's face did not brighten with a feeling of heart-warm
benevolence. But, he turned slowly away, and opening his
money-drawer, _very slowly_, toyed with his fingers amid its
contents. At length he took therefrom a dollar bill, and said, as he
presented it to Lyon,—sighing involuntarily as he did so—
"I suppose I must do my part. But, we are called upon so often."
The ardor of Andrew Lyon's benevolent feelings suddenly cooled at
this unexpected reception. He had entered upon his work under the
glow of a pure enthusiasm; anticipating a hearty response the moment
his errand was made known.
"I thank you in the widow's name," said he, as he took the dollar.
When he turned from Mr. Malcolm's store, it was with a pressure on
his feelings, as if he had asked the coldly-given favor for himself.
It was not without an effort that Lyon compelled himself to call
upon Mr. Green, considered the "next best man" on his list. But he
entered his place of business with far less confidence than he had
felt when calling upon Malcolm. His story told, Green without a word
or smile, drew two half dollars from his pocket, and presented them.
"Thank you," said Lyon.
"Welcome," returned Green.
Oppressed with a feeling of embarrassment, Lyon stood for a few
moments. Then bowing, he said—
"Good morning," was coldly and formally responded.
And thus the alms-seeker and alms-giver parted.
"Better be at his shop, attending to his work," muttered Green to
himself, as his visitor retired. "Men ain't very apt to get along too
well in the world who spend their time in begging for every object of
charity that happens to turn up. And there are plenty of such, dear
knows. He's got a dollar out of me; may it do him, or the poor widow
he talked so glibly about, much good."
Cold water had been poured upon the feelings of Andrew Lyon. He had
raised two dollars for the poor widow, but, at what a sacrifice for
one so sensitive as himself. Instead of keeping on in his work of
benevolence, he went to his shop, and entered upon the day's
employment. How disappointed he felt;—and this disappointment was
mingled with a certain sense of humiliation, as if he had been asking
alms for himself.
"Catch me at this work again!" he said, half aloud, as his thoughts
dwelt upon what had so recently occurred. "But this is not right," he
added, quickly. "It is a weakness in me to feel so. Poor Mrs. Arnold
must be relieved; and it is my duty to see that she gets relief. I had
no thought of a reception like this. People can talk of benevolence;
but putting the hand in the pocket is another affair altogether. I
never dreamed that such men as Malcolm and Green could be insensible
to an appeal like the one I made."
"I've got two dollars towards paying Mrs. Arnold's rent," he said
to himself, in a more cheerful tone, sometime afterwards; "and it will
go hard if I don't raise the whole amount for her. All are not like
Green and Malcolm. Jones is a kind-hearted man, and will instantly
respond to the call of humanity. I'll go and see him."
So, off Andrew Lyon started to see this individual.
"I've come begging, Mr. Jones," said he, on meeting him. And he
spoke in a frank, pleasant manner.
"Then you've come to the wrong shop; that's all I have to say," was
the blunt answer.
"Don't say that, Mr. Jones. Hear my story, first."
"I do say it, and I'm in earnest," returned Jones. "I feel as poor
as Job's turkey, to-day."
"I only want a dollar to help a poor widow pay her rent," said
"Oh, hang all the poor widows! If that's your game, you'll get
nothing here. I've got my hands full to pay my own rent. A nice time
I'd have in handing out a dollar to every poor widow in town to help
pay her rent! No, no, my friend, you can't get anything here."
"Just as you feel about it," said Andrew Lyon. "There's no
compulsion in the matter."
"No, I presume not," was rather coldly replied.
Lyon returned to his shop, still more disheartened than before. He
had undertaken a thankless office.
Nearly two hours elapsed before his resolution to persevere in the
good work he had begun came back with sufficient force to prompt to
another effort. Then he dropped in upon his neighbor Tompkins, to
whom he made known his errand.
"Why, yes, I suppose I must do something in a case like this," said
Tompkins, with the tone and air of a man who was cornered. "But,
there are so many calls for charity, that we are naturally enough led
to hold on pretty tightly to our purse strings. Poor woman! I feel
sorry for her. How much do you want?"
"I am trying to get ten persons, including myself, to give a dollar
"Well, here's my dollar." And Tompkins forced a smile to his face
as he handed over his contribution—but the smile did not conceal an
expression which said very plainly—
"I hope you will not trouble me again in this way."
"You may be sure I will not," muttered Lyon, as he went away. He
fully understood the meaning of the expression.
Only one more application did the kind-hearted man make. It was
successful; but, there was something in the manner of the individual
who gave his dollar, that Lyon felt as a rebuke.
"And so poor Mrs. Arnold did not get the whole of her arrears of
rent paid off," says some one who has felt an interest in her favor.
Oh, yes she did. Mr. Lyon begged five dollars, and added five more
from his own slender purse. But, he cannot be induced again to
undertake the thankless office of seeking relief from the benevolent
for a fellow creature in need. He has learned that a great many who
refuse alms on the plea that the object presented is not worthy, are
but little more inclined to charitable deeds, when on this point
there is no question.
How many who read this can sympathise with Andrew Lyon. Few men who
have hearts to feel for others but have been impelled, at some time
in their lives, to seek aid for a fellow-creature in need. That their
office was a thankless one, they have too soon become aware. Even
those who responded to their call most liberally, in too many
instances gave in a way that left an unpleasant impression behind.
How quickly has the first glow of generous feeling, that sought to
extend itself to others, that they might share the pleasure of
humanity, been chilled; and, instead of finding the task an easy one,
it has proved to be hard, and, too often, humiliating! Alas, that this
should be! That men should shut their hearts so instinctively at the
voice of charity.
We have not written this to discourage active efforts in the
benevolent; but to hold up a mirror in which another class may see
themselves. At best, the office of him who seeks of his fellow-men
aid for the suffering and indigent, is an unpleasant one. It is all
sacrifice on his part, and the least that can be done is to honor his
disinterested regard for others in distress, and treat him with
delicacy and consideration.
GOING TO THE SPRINGS; OR, VULGAR
"I SUPPOSE you will all be off to Saratoga, in a week or two," said
Uncle Joseph Garland to his three nieces, as he sat chatting with
them and their mother, one hot day, about the first of July.
"We're not going to Saratoga this year," replied Emily, the eldest,
with a toss of her head.
"Indeed! And why not, Emily?"
"Everybody goes to Saratoga, now."
"Who do you mean by everybody, Emily?"
"Why, I mean merchants, shop-keepers, and tradesmen, with their
wives and daughters, all mixed up together, into a kind of
hodge-podge. It used to be a fashionable place of resort—but people
that think any thing of themselves, don't go there now."
"Bless me, child!" ejaculated old Uncle Joseph, in surprise. "This
is all new to me. But you were there last year."
"I know. And that cured us all. There was not a day in which we
were not crowded down to the table among the most vulgar kind of
"How, vulgar, Emily?"
"Why, there was Mr. Jones, the watchmaker, with his wife and two
daughters. I need not explain what I mean by vulgar, when I give you
"I cannot say that I have any clearer idea of what you mean,
"You talk strangely, uncle! You do not suppose that we are going to
associate with the Joneses?"
"I did not say that I did. Still, I am in the dark as to what you
mean by the most vulgar kind of people."
"Why, common people, brother," said Mrs. Ludlow, coming up to the
aid of her daughter. "Mr. Jones is only a watchmaker, and therefore
has no business to push himself and family into the company of
"Saratoga is a place of public resort," was the quiet reply.
"Well, genteel people will have to stay away, then, that's all. I,
at least, for one, am not going to be annoyed as I have been for the
last two or three seasons at Saratoga, by being thrown amongst all
sorts of people."
"They never troubled me any," spoke up Florence Ludlow, the
youngest of the three sisters. "For my part, I liked Mary Jones very
much. She was——"
"You are too much of a child to be able to judge in matters of this
kind," said the mother, interrupting Florence.
Florence was fifteen; light-hearted and innocent. She had never
been able, thus far in life, to appreciate the exclusive principles
upon which her mother and sisters acted, and had, in consequence,
frequently fallen under their censure. Purity of heart, and the
genuine graces flowing from a truly feminine spirit, always attracted
her, no matter what the station of the individual in whose society she
happened to be thrown. The remark of her mother silenced her, for the
time, for experience had taught her that no good ever resulted from a
repetition of her opinions on a subject of this kind.
"And I trust she will ever remain the child she is, in these
matters," said Uncle Joseph, with emphasis. "It is the duty of every
one, sister, to do all that he can to set aside the false ideas of
distinction prevailing in the social world, and to build up on a
broader and truer foundation, a right estimate of men and things.
Florence, I have observed, discriminates according to the quality of
the person's mind into whose society she is thrown, and estimates
accordingly. But you, and Emily, and Adeline, judge of people
according to their rank in society—that is according to the position
to which wealth alone has raised them. In this way, and in no other,
can you be thrown so into association with 'all kinds of people,' as
to be really affected by them. For, the result of my observation is,
that in any circle where a mere external sign is the passport to
association, 'all sorts of people,' the good, the bad, and the
indifferent, are mingled. It is not a very hard thing for a bad man to
get rich, sister; but for a man of evil principles to rise above them,
is very hard, indeed; and is an occurrence that too rarely happens.
The consequence is, that they who are rich, are not always the ones
whom we should most desire to mingle with."
"I don't see that there is any use in our talking about these
things, brother," replied Mrs. Ludlow. "You know that you and I never
did agree in matters of this kind. As I have often told you, I think
you incline to be rather low in your social views."
"How can that be a low view which regards the quality of another,
and estimates him accordingly?" was the reply.
"I don't pretend to argue with you, on these subjects, brother; so
you will oblige me by dropping them," said Mrs. Ludlow, coloring, and
speaking in an offended tone.
"Well, well, never mind," Uncle Joseph replied, soothingly. "We
will drop them."
Then turning to Emily, he continued—
"And so your minds are made up not to go to Saratoga?"
"Well, where do you intend spending the summer months?"
"I hardly know yet. But, if I have my say, we will take a trip in
one of the steamers. A flying visit to London would be delightful."
"What does your father say to that?"
"Why, he won't listen to it. But I'll do my best to bring him
round—and so will Adeline. As for Florence, I believe I will ask
father to let her go to Saratoga with the Joneses."
"I shall have no very decided objections," was the quiet reply of
Florence. A half angry and reproving glance from her mother, warned
her to be more discreet in the declaration of her sentiments.
"A young lady should never attempt to influence her father," said
Uncle Joseph. "She should trust to his judgment in all matters, and
be willing to deny herself any pleasure to which he objected. If your
father will not listen to your proposition to go to London, be sure
that he has some good reason for it."
"Well, I don't know that he has such very good reasons, beyond his
reluctance to go away from business," Emily replied, tossing her
"And should not you, as his daughter, consider this a most
conclusive reason? Ought not your father's wishes and feelings be
"You may see it so, Uncle; but I cannot say that I do."
"Emily," and Uncle Joseph spoke in an excited tone of voice, "If
you hold these sentiments, you are unworthy of such a man as your
"Brother, you must not speak to the girls in that way," said Mrs.
"I shall always speak my thoughts in your house Margaret," was the
reply; "at least to you and the girls. As far as Mr. Ludlow is
concerned, I have rarely occasion to differ with him."
A long silence followed, broken at last by an allusion to some
other subject; when a better understanding among all parties ensued.
On that evening, Mr. Ludlow seemed graver than usual when he came
in. After tea, Emily said, breaking in upon a conversation that had
become somewhat interesting to Mr. Ludlow—
"I'm not going to let you have a moment's peace, Pa, until you
consent to go to England with us this season."
"I'm afraid it will be a long time before I shall have any peace,
then, Emily," replied the father, with an effort to smile, but
evidently worried by the remark. This, Florence, who was sitting
close by him, perceived instantly, and said—
"Well, I can tell you, for one, Pa, that I don't wish to go. I'd
rather stay at home a hundred times."
"It's no particular difference, I presume, what you like," remarked
Emily, ill-naturedly. "If you don't wish to go, I suppose no one will
quarrel with you for staying at home."
"You are wrong to talk so, Emily," said Mr. Ludlow, calmly but
firmly, "and I cannot permit such remarks in my presence."
Emily looked rebuked, and Mr. Ludlow proceeded.
"As to going to London, that is altogether out of the question. The
reasons why it is so, are various, and I cannot now make you
acquainted with all of them. One is, that I cannot leave my business
so long as such a journey would require. Another is, that I do not
think it altogether right for me to indulge you in such views and
feelings as you and Adeline are beginning to entertain. You wish to
go to London, because you don't want to go to Saratoga, or to any
other of our watering places; and you don't want to go there, because
certain others, whom you esteem below you in rank, can afford to enjoy
themselves, and recruit their health at the same places of public
resort. All this I, do not approve, and cannot encourage."
"You certainly cannot wish us to associate with every one," said
Emily, in a tone less arrogant.
"Of course not, Emily," replied Mr. Ludlow; "but I do most
decidedly condemn the spirit from which you are now acting. It would
exclude others, many of whom, in moral character, are far superior to
yourself from enjoying the pleasant, health-imparting recreation of a
visit to the Springs, because it hurts your self-importance to be
brought into brief contact with them."
"I can't understand what you mean by speaking of these kind of
people as superior in moral character to us," Mrs. Ludlow remarked.
"I said some of them. And, in this, I mean what I say. Wealth and
station in society do not give moral tone. They are altogether
extraneous, and too frequently exercise a deteriorating influence
upon the character. There is Thomas, the porter in my store—a plain,
poor man, of limited education; yet possessing high moral qualities,
that I would give much to call my own. This man's character I esteem
far above that of many in society to whom no one thinks of objecting.
There are hundreds and thousands of humble and unassuming persons like
him, far superior in the high moral qualities of mind to the mass of
self-esteeming exclusives, who think the very air around them tainted
by their breath. Do you suppose that I would enjoy less the pleasures
of a few weeks at Saratoga, because Thomas was there? I would, rather,
be gratified to see him enjoying a brief relaxation, if his duties at
the store could be remitted in my absence."
There was so much of the appearance of truth in what Mr. Ludlow
said, combined with a decided tone and manner, that neither his wife
or daughters ventured a reply. But they had no affection for the
truth he uttered, and of course it made no salutary impression on
"What shall we do, Ma?" asked Adeline, as they sat with their
mother, on the next afternoon. "We must go somewhere this summer, and
Pa seems in earnest about not letting us visit London."
"I don't know, I am sure, child," was the reply.
"I can't think of going to Saratoga," said Emily, in a positive
"The Emmersons are going," Adeline remarked.
"How do you know?" asked Emily, in a tone of surprise.
"Victorine told me so this morning."
"Yes. I met her at Mrs. Lemmington's and she said that they were
all going next week."
"I don't understand that," said Emily, musingly.
"It was only last week that Victorine told me that they were done
going to Saratoga; that the place had become too common. It had been
settled, she said, that they were to go out in the next steamer."
"Mr. Emmerson, I believe, would not consent, and so, rather than
not go anywhere, they concluded to visit Saratoga, especially as the
Lesters, and Milfords, and Luptons are going."
"Are they all going?" asked Emily, in renewed surprise.
"So Victorine said."
"Well, I declare! there is no kind of dependence to be placed in
people now-a-days. They all told me that they could not think of
going to such a vulgar place as Saratoga again."
Then, after a pause, Emily resumed,
"As it will never do to stay at home, we will have to go somewhere.
What do you think of the Virginia Springs, Ma?"
"I think that I am not going there, to be jolted half to death in a
stage coach by the way."
"Where, then, shall we go?"
"I don't know, unless to Saratoga."
"Victorine said," remarked Adeline, "that a large number of
distinguished visiters were to be there, and that it was thought the
season would be the gayest spent for some time."
"I suppose we will have to go, then," said Emily.
"I am ready," responded Adeline."
"And so am I," said Florence.
That evening Mr. Ludlow was graver and more silent than usual.
After tea, as he felt no inclination to join in the general
conversation about the sayings and doings of distinguished and
fashionable individuals, he took a newspaper, and endeavored to become
interested in its contents. But he tried in vain. There was something
upon his mind that absorbed his attention at the same time that it
oppressed his feelings. From a deep reverie he was at length roused by
Emily, who said—
"So, Pa, you are determined not to let us go out in the next
"Don't talk to me on that subject any more, if you please," replied
Mr. Ludlow, much worried at the remark.
"Well, that's all given up now," continued Emily, "and we've made
up our minds to go to Saratoga. How soon will you be able to go with
"Not just now," was the brief, evasive reply.
"We don't want to go until next week."
"I am not sure that I can go even then."
"O, but we must go then, Pa."
"You cannot go without me," said Mr. Ludlow, in a grave tone.
"Of course not," replied Emily and Adeline at the same moment.
"Suppose, then, I cannot leave the city next week?"
"But you can surely."
"I am afraid not. Business matters press upon me, and will, I fear,
engage my exclusive attention for several weeks to come."
"O, but indeed you must lay aside business," said Mrs. Ludlow. "It
will never do for us to stay at home, you knows during the season
when everybody is away."
"I shall be very sorry if circumstances arise to prevent you having
your regular summer recreation," was replied, in a serious, even sad
tone. "But, I trust my wife and daughters will acquiesce with
"Indeed, indeed, Pa! We never can stay at home," said Emily, with a
distressed look. "How would it appear? What would people say if we
were to remain in the city during all the summer?"
"I don't know, Emily, that you should consider that as having any
relation to the matter. What have other people to do with matters
which concerns us alone?"
"You talk very strangely of late, Mr. Ludlow," said his wife.
"Perhaps I have reason for so doing," he responded, a shadow
flitting across his face.
An embarrassing silence ensued, which was broken, at last, by Mr.
"Perhaps," he began, "there may occur no better time than the
present, to apprise you all of a matter that must, sooner or later,
become known to you. We will have to make an effort to reduce our
expenses—and it seems to me that this matter of going to the
Springs, which will cost some three or four hundred dollars, might as
well be dispensed with. Business is in a worse condition than I have
ever known it; and I am sustaining, almost daily, losses that are
becoming alarming. Within the last six weeks I have lost, beyond hope,
at least twenty thousand dollars. How much more will go I am unable to
say. But there are large sums due me that may follow the course of
that already gone. Under these circumstances, I am driven to the
necessity of prudence in all my expenditures."
"But three or four hundred are not much, Pa," Emily urged, in a
husky voice, and with dimmed eyes. For the fear of not being able to
go somewhere, was terrible to her. None but vulgar people staid at
home during the summer season.
"It is too large a sum to throw away now. So I think you had all
better conclude at once not to go from home this summer," said Mr.
A gush of tears from Emily and Adeline followed this annunciation,
accompanied by a look of decided disapprobation from the mother. Mr.
Ludlow felt deeply tried, and for some moments his resolution
wavered; but reason came to his aid, and he remained firm. He was
accounted a very rich merchant. In good times, he had entered into
business, and prosecuted it with great energy. The consequence was,
that he had accumulated money rapidly. The social elevation
consequent upon this, was too much for his wife. Her good sense could
not survive it. She not only became impressed with the idea, that,
because she was richer, she was better than others, but that only such
customs were to be tolerated in "good society," as were different from
prevalent usages in the mass. Into this idea her two eldest daughters
were thoroughly inducted. Mr. Ludlow, immersed in business, thought
little about such matters, and suffered himself to be led into almost
anything that his wife and daughters proposed. But Mrs. Ludlow's
brother—Uncle Joseph, as he was called—a bachelor, and a man of
strong common sense, steadily opposed his sister in her false notions,
but with little good effect. Necessity at last called into proper
activity the good sense of Mr. Ludlow, and he commenced the opposition
that has just been noticed. After reflecting some time upon the
matter, he resolved not to assent to his family leaving home at all
during the summer.
All except Florence were exceedingly distressed at this. She
acquiesced with gentleness and patience, although she had much
desired to spend a few weeks at Saratoga. But Mrs. Ludlow, Emily, and
Adeline, closed up the front part of the house, and gave directions to
the servants not to answer the door bell, nor to do anything that
would give the least suspicion that the family were in town. Then
ensconcing themselves in the back buildings of their dwelling, they
waited in gloomy indolence for the "out of the city" season to pass
away; consoling themselves with the idea, that if they were not
permitted to join the fashionables at the Springs, it would at lest be
supposed that they had gone some where into the country, and thus they
hoped to escape the terrible penalty of losing _caste_ for not
conforming to an indispensable rule of high life.
Mr. Ludlow was compelled to submit to all this, and he did so
without much opposition; but it all determined him to commence a
steady opposition to the false principles which prompted such absurd
observances. As to Uncle Joseph, he was indignant, and failing to
gain admittance by way of the front door after one or two trials,
determined not to go near his sister and nieces, a promise which he
kept for a few weeks, at least.
Meantime, every thing was passing off pleasantly at Saratoga. Among
the distinguished and undistinguished visitors there, was Mary Jones,
and her father, a man of both wealth and worth, notwithstanding he was
only a watchmaker and jeweller. Mary was a girl of no ordinary
character. With beauty of person far exceeding that of the Misses
Ludlow, she had a well cultivated mind, and was far more really and
truly accomplished than they were. Necessarily, therefore, she
attracted attention at the Springs; and this had been one cause of
Emily's objection to her.
A day or two after her arrival at Saratoga, she was sitting near a
window of the public parlor of one of the hotels, when a young man,
named Armand, whom she had seen there several times before, during
the watering season, in company with Emily Ludlow, with whose family
he appeared to be on intimate terms came up to her and introduced
"Pardon me, Miss Jones," said he, "but not seeing any of the Miss
Ludlows here, I presumed that you might be able to inform me whether
they intend visiting Saratoga or not, this season, and, therefore, I
have broken through all formalities in addressing you. You are well
acquainted with Florence, I believe?"
"Very well, sir," Mary replied.
"Then perhaps you can answer my question?"
"I believe I can, sir. I saw Florence several times within the last
week or two; and she says that they shall not visit any of the
Springs this season."
"Indeed! And how comes that?"
"I believe the reason is no secret," Mary replied, utterly
unconscious that any one could be ashamed of a right motive, and that
an economical one. "Florence tells me that her father has met with
many heavy losses in business; and that they think it best not to
incur any unnecessary expenses. I admire such a course in them."
"And so do I, most sincerely," replied Mr. Armand. Then, after
thinking for a moment, he added—
"I will return to the city in the next boat. All of their friends
being away, they must feel exceedingly lonesome."
"It will certainly be a kind act, Mr. Armand, and one, the motive
for which they cannot but highly appreciate," said Mary, with an
inward glow of admiration.
It was about eleven o'clock on the next day that Mr. Armand pulled
the bell at the door of Mr. Ludlow's beautiful dwelling, and then
waited with a feeling of impatience for the servant to answer the
summons. But he waited in vain. No servant came. He rang again, and
again waited long enough for a servant to come half a dozen times.
Then he looked up at the house and saw that all the shutters were
closed; and down upon the marble steps, and perceived that they were
covered with dust and dirt; and on the bell-handle, and noted its
loss of brightness.
"Miss Jones must have been mistaken," he said to himself, as he
gave the bell a third pull, and then waited, but in vain, for the
hall-door to be swung open.
"Who can it be?" asked Emily, a good deal disturbed, as the bell
rang violently for the third time, and in company with Adeline, went
softly into the parlor to take a peep through one of the shutters.
"Mr. Armand, as I live!" she ejaculated, in a low, husky whisper,
turning pale. "I would not have _him_ know that we are in town for
And then she stole away quietly, with her heart leaping and
fluttering in her bosom, lest he should instinctively perceive her
Finding that admission was not to be obtained, Mr. Armand concluded
that the family had gone to some other watering place, and turned
away irresolute as to his future course. As he was passing down
Broadway, he met Uncle Joseph.
"So the Ludlows are all out of town," he said.
"So they are not!" replied Uncle Joseph, rather crustily, for he
had just been thinking over their strange conduct, and it irritated
"Why, I have been ringing there for a quarter of an hour, and no
one came to the door; and the house is all shut up."
"Yes; and if you had ringing for a quarter of a century, it would
all have been the same."
"I can't understand you," said Mr. Armand.
"Why, the truth is, Mr. Ludlow cannot go to the Springs with them
this season, and they are so afraid that it will become known that
they are burying themselves in the back part of the house, and
denying all visiters."
"Why so? I cannot comprehend it."
"All fashionable people, you know, are expected to go to the
sea-shore or the Springs; and my sister and her two eldest daughters
are so silly, as to fear that they will lose _caste_, if it is known
that they could not go this season. Do you understand now?"
"Well, that's the plain A B C of the case. But it provokes me out
of all patience with them."
"It's a strange idea, certainly," said Mr. Armand, in momentary
abstraction of thought; and then bidding Uncle Joseph good morning,
he walked hastily along, his mind in a state of fermentation.
The truth was, Mr. Armand had become much attached to Emily Ludlow,
for she was a girl of imposing appearance and winning manners. But
this staggered him. If she were such a slave to fashion and
observance, she was not the woman for his wife. As he reflected upon
the matter, and reviewed his intercourse with her, he could remember
many things in her conversation and conduct that he did not like. He
could distinctly detect a degree of self-estimation consequent upon
her station in society, that did not meet his approbation—because it
indicated a weakness of mind that he had no wish to have in a wife.
The wealth of her father he had not regarded, nor did now regard, for
he was himself possessor of an independence.
Two days after, he was again at Saratoga. The brief interview that
had passed between him and Mary Jones was a sufficient introduction
for him; and, taking advantage of it, he threw himself in her way
frequently, and the more he saw of her, the more did he admire her
winning gentleness, sweet temper, and good sense. When he returned to
New York, he was more than half in love with her.
"Mr. Armand has not been to see us once this fall," said Adeline,
one evening in October. They were sitting in a handsomely furnished
parlor in a neat dwelling, comfortable and commodious, but not so
splendid as the one they had occupied a few months previous. Mr.
Ludlow's affairs had become so embarrassed, that he determined, in
spite of the opposition of his family, to reduce his expenses. This
resolution he carried out amid tears and remonstrances—for he could
not do it in any other way.
"Who could expect him to come _here?_" Emily replied, to the remark
of her sister. "Not I, certainly."
"I don't believe that would make any difference with him," Florence
ventured to say, for it was little that she could say, that did not
meet with opposition.
"Why don't you?" asked Adeline.
"Because Mary Jones—"
"Mary Jones again!" ejaculated Emily. "I believe you don't think of
anybody but Mary Jones. I'm surprised that Ma lets you visit that
"As good people as I am visit her," replied Florence. "I've seen
those there who would be welcome here."
"What do you mean?"
"If you had waited until I had finished my sentence, you would have
known before now. Mary Jones lives in a house no better than this,
and Mr. Armand goes to see her."
"I don't believe it!" said Emily, with emphasis.
"Just as you like about that. Seeing is believing, they say, and as
I have seen him there, I can do no less than believe he was there."
"When did you see him there?" Emily now asked with eager interest,
while her face grew pale.
"I saw him there last evening—and he sat conversing with Mary in a
way that showed them to be no strangers to each other."
A long, embarrassed, and painful silence followed this
announcement. At last, Emily got up and went off to her chamber, where
she threw herself upon her bed and burst into tears. After these
ceased to flow, and her mind had become, in some degree,
tranquillized, her thoughts became busy. She remembered that Mr.
Armand had called, while they were hiding away in fear lest it should
be known that they were not on a fashionable visit to some watering
place—how he had rung and rung repeatedly, as if under the idea that
they were there, and how his countenance expressed disappointment as
she caught a glimpse of it through the closed shutters. With all this
came, also, the idea that he might have discovered that they were at
home, and have despised the principle from which they acted, in thus
shutting themselves up, and denying all visiters. This thought was
exceedingly painful. It was evident to her, that it was not their
changed circumstances that kept him away—for had he not visited Mary
Uncle Joseph came in a few evenings afterwards, and during his
visit the following conversation took place.
"Mr. Armand visits Mary Jones, I am told," Adeline remarked, as an
opportunity for saying so occurred.
"He does? Well, she is a good girl—one in a thousand," replied
"She is only a watchmaker's daughter," said Emily, with an
"And you are only a merchant's daughter. Pray, what is the
"Why, a good deal of difference!"
"Well state it."
"Mr. Jones is nothing but a mechanic."
"Who thinks of associating with mechanics?"
"There may be some who refuse to do so; but upon what grounds do
they assume a superiority?"
"Because they are really above them."
"But in what respect?"
"They are better and more esteemed in society."
"As to their being better, that is only an assumption. But I see I
must bring the matter right home. Would you be really any worse, were
your father a mechanic?"
"The question is not a fair one. You suppose an impossible case."
"Not so impossible as you might imagine. You are the daughter of a
"Brother, why will you talk so? I am out of all patience with you!"
said Mrs. Ludlow, angrily.
"And yet, no one knows better than you, that I speak only the
truth. No one knows better than you, that Mr. Ludlow served many years
at the trade of a shoemaker. And that, consequently, these high-minded
young ladies, who sneer at mechanics, are themselves a shoemaker's
daughters—a fact that is just as well known abroad as anything else
relating to the family. And now, Misses Emily and Adeline, I hope you
will hereafter find it in your hearts to be a little more tolerant of
And thus saying, Uncle Joseph rose, and bidding them good night,
left them to their own reflections, which were not of the most
pleasant character, especially as the mother could not deny the
allegation he had made.
During the next summer, Mr. Ludlow, whose business was no longer
embarrassed, and who had become satisfied that, although he should
sink a large proportion of a handsome fortune, he would still have a
competence left, and that well secured—proposed to visit Saratoga,
as usual. There was not a dissenting voice—no objecting on the score
of meeting vulgar people there. The painful fact disclosed by Uncle
Joseph, of their plebeian origin, and the marriage of Mr.
Armand—whose station in society was not to be questioned—with Mary
Jones, the watchmaker's daughter, had softened and subdued their tone
of feeling, and caused them to set up a new standard of estimation.
The old one would not do, for, judged by that, they would have to hide
their diminished heads. Their conduct at the Springs was far less
objectionable than it had been heretofore, partaking of the modest and
retiring in deportment, rather than the assuming, the arrogant, and
the self-sufficient. Mrs. Armand was there, with her sister, moving in
the first circles; and Emily Ludlow and her sister Adeline felt
honored rather than humiliated by an association with them. It is to
be hoped they will yet make sensible women.
"I AM hopeless!" said the young man, in a voice that was painfully
desponding. "Utterly hopeless! Heaven knows I have tried hard to get
employment! But no one has need of my service. The pittance doled out
by your father, and which comes with a sense of humiliation that is
absolutely heart-crushing, is scarcely sufficient to provide this
miserable abode, and keep hunger from our door. But for your sake, I
would not touch a shilling of his money if I starved."
"Hush, dear Edward!" returned the gentle girl, who had left father,
mother, and a pleasant home, to share the lot of him she loved; and
she laid a finger on his lips, while she drew her arm around him.
"Agnes," said the young man, "I cannot endure this life much
longer. The native independence of my character revolts at our present
condition. Months have elapsed, and yet the ability I possess finds
no employment. In this country every avenue is crowded."
The room in which they were overlooked the sea.
"But there is another land, where, if what we hear be true, ability
finds employment and talent a sure reward." And, as Agnes said this,
in a voice of encouragement, she pointed from the window towards the
expansive waters that stretched far away towards the south and west.
"America!" The word was uttered in a quick, earnest voice.
"Agnes, I thank you for this suggestion! Return to the pleasant
home you left for one who cannot procure for you even the plainest
comforts of life, and I will cross the ocean to seek a better fortune
in that land of promise. The separation, painful to both, will not, I
trust, be long."
"Edward," replied the young wife with enthusiasm, as she drew her
arm more tightly about his neck, "I will never leave thee nor forsake
thee! Where thou goest I will go, and where thou liest I will lie. Thy
people shall be my people, and thy God my God."
"Would you forsake all," said Edward, in surprise, "and go far away
with me into a strange land?"
"It will be no stranger to me than it will be to you, Edward."
"No, no, Agnes! I will not think of that," said Edward Marvel, in a
positive, voice. "If I go to that land of promise, it must first be
"Alone!" A shadow fell over the face of Agnes. "Alone! It
cannot—it must not be!"
"But think, Agnes. If I go alone, it will cost me but a small sum
to live until I find some business, which may not be for weeks, or
even months after I arrive in the New World."
"What if you were to be sick?" The frame of Agnes slightly quivered
as she made this suggestion.
"We will not think of that."
"I cannot help thinking of it, Edward. Therefore entreat me not to
leave thee, nor to return from following after thee. Where thou
goest, I will go."
Marvel's countenance became more serious.
"Agnes," said the young man, after he had reflected for some time,
"let us think no more about this. I cannot take you far away to this
strange country. We will go back to London. Perhaps another trial
there may be more successful."
After a feeble opposition on the part of Agnes, it was finally
agreed that Edward should go once more to London, while she made a
brief visit to her parents. If he found employment, she was to join
him immediately; if not successful, they were then to talk further of
the journey to America.
With painful reluctance, Agnes went back to her father's house, the
door of which ever stood open to receive her; and she went back
alone. The pride of her husband would not permit him to cross the
threshold of a dwelling where his presence was not a welcome one. In
eager suspense, she waited for a whole week ere a letter came from
Edward. The tone of this letter was as cheerful and as hopeful as it
was possible for the young man to write. But, as yet, he had found no
employment. A week elapsed before another came. It opened in these
"MY DEAR, DEAR AGNES! Hopeless of doing anything here, I have
turned my thoughts once more to the land of promise; and, when you
receive this, I will be on my journey thitherward. Brief, very brief,
I trust, will be our separation. The moment I obtain employment, I
will send for you, and then our re-union will take place with a
fulness of delight such as we have not yet experienced."
Long, tender, and hopeful was the letter; but it brought a burden
of grief and heart-sickness to the tender young creature, who felt
almost as if she had been deserted by the one who was dear to her as
her own life.
Only a few days had Edward Marvel been at sea, when he became
seriously indisposed, and, for the remaining part of the voyage, was
so ill as to be unable to rise from his berth. He had embarked in a
packet ship from Liverpool bound for New York, where he arrived, at
the expiration of five weeks. Then he was removed to the sick wards
of the hospital on Staten Island, and it was the opinion of the
physicians there that he would die.
"Have you friends in this country?" inquired a nurse who was
attending the young man. This question was asked on the day after he
had become an inmate of the hospital.
"None," was the feebly uttered reply.
"You are very ill," said the nurse.
The sick man looked anxiously into the face of his attendant.
"You have friends in England?"
"Have you any communication to make to them?"
Marvel closed his eyes, and remained for some time silent.
"If you will get me a pen and some paper, I will write a few
lines," said he at length.
"I'm afraid you are too weak for the effort," replied the nurse.
"Let me try," was briefly answered.
The attendant left the room.
"Is there any one in your part of the house named Marvel?" asked a
physician, meeting the nurse soon after she had left the sick man's
room. "There's a young woman down in the office inquiring for a
person of that name."
"Marvel—Marvel?" the nurse shook her head.
"Are you certain?" remarked the physician.
"I'm certain there is no one by that name for whom any here would
make inquiries. There's a young Englishman who came over in the last
packet, whose name is something like that you mention. But he has no
friends in this country."
The physician passed on without further remark.
Soon after, the nurse returned to Marvel with the writing materials
for which he had asked. She drew a table to the side of his bed, and
supported him as he leaned over and tried, with an unsteady hand, to
"Have you a wife at home?" asked the nurse; her eyes had rested on
the first words he wrote.
"Yes," sighed the young man, as the pen dropped from his fingers,
and he leaned back heavily, exhausted by even the slight effort he
"Your name is Marvel?"
"A young woman was here just now inquiring if we had a patient by
"By my name?" There was a slight indication of surprise.
Marvel closed his eyes, and did not speak for some moments.
"Did you see her?" he asked at length, evincing some interest.
"Did she find the one for whom she was seeking?"
"There is no person here, except yourself, whose name came near to
the one she mentioned. As you said you had no friends in this
country, we did not suppose that you were meant."
"No, no." And the sick man shook his head slowly. "There is none to
ask for me. Did you say it was a young woman?" he inquired, soon
after. His mind dwelt on the occurrence.
"Yes. A young woman with a fair complexion and deep blue eyes."
Marvel looked up quickly into the face of the attendant, while a
flush came into his cheeks.
"She was a slender young girl, with light hair, and her face was
pale, as from trouble."
"Agnes! Agnes!" exclaimed Marvel, rising up. "But, no, no," he
added, mournfully, sinking back again upon the bed; "that cannot be.
I left her far away over the wide ocean."
"Will you write?" said the nurse after some moments.
The invalid, without unclosing his eyes, slowly shook his head. A
little while the attendant lingered in his room, and then retired.
"Dear, dear Agnes!" murmured Edward Marvel, closing his eyes, and
letting his thoughts go, swift-winged, across the billow sea. "Shall
I never look on your sweet face again? Never feel your light arms
about my neck, or your breath warm on my cheek? Oh, that I had never
left you! Heaven give thee strength to bear the trouble in store!"
For many minutes he lay thus, alone, with his eyes closed, in sad
self-communion. Then he heard the door open and close softly; but he
did not look up. His thoughts were far, far away. Light feet
approached quickly; but he scarcely heeded them. A form bent over
him; but his eyes remained shut, nor did he open them until warm lips
were pressed against his own, and a low voice, thrilling through his
whole being, said—
"Agnes!" was his quick response, while his arms were thrown eagerly
around the neck of his wife, "Agnes! Agnes! Have I awakened from a
Yes, it was indeed her of whom he had been thinking. The moment she
received his letter, informing her that he had left for the United
States, she resolved to follow him in the next steamer that sailed.
This purpose she immediately avowed to her parents. At first, they
would not listen to her; but, finding that she would, most probably,
elude their vigilance, and get away in spite of all efforts to
prevent her, they deemed it more wise and prudent to provide her with
everything necessary for the voyage, and to place her in the care of
the captain of the steamship in which she was to go. In New York they
had friends, to whom they gave her letters fully explanatory of her
mission, and earnestly commending her to their care and protection.
Two weeks before the ship in which Edward Marvel sailed reached her
destination, Agnes was in New York. Before her departure, she had
sought, but in vain, to discover the name of the vessel in which her
husband had embarked. On arriving in the New World, she was therefore
uncertain whether he had preceded her in a steamer, or was still
lingering on the way.
The friends to whom Agnes brought letters received her with great
kindness, and gave her all the advice and assistance needed under the
circumstances. But two weeks went by without a word of intelligence on
the one subject that absorbed all her thoughts. Sadly was her health
beginning to suffer. Sunken eyes and pale cheeks attested the weight
of suffering that was on her.
One day it was announced that a Liverpool packet had arrived with
the ship fever on board, and that several of the passengers had been
removed to the hospital.
A thrill of fear went through the heart of the anxious wife. It was
soon ascertained that Marvel had been a passenger on board of this
vessel; but, from some cause, nothing in regard to him beyond this
fact could she learn. Against all persuasion, she started for the
hospital, her heart oppressed with a fearful presentiment that he was
either dead or struggling in the grasp of a fatal malady. On making
inquiry at the hospital, she was told the one she sought was not
there, and she was about returning to the city, when the truth reached
"Is he very ill?" she asked, struggling to compose herself.
"Yes, he is extremely ill," was the reply. "And it might not be
well for you, under the circumstances, to see him at present."
"Not well for his wife to see him?" returned Agnes. Tears sprung to
her eyes at the thought of not being permitted to come near in his
extremity. "Do not say that. Oh, take me to him! I will save his
"You must be very calm," said the nurse; for it was with her she
was talking. "The least excitement may be fatal."
"Oh, I will be calm and prudent." Yet, even while she spoke, her
frame quivered with excitement.
But she controlled herself when the moment of meeting came, and,
though her unexpected appearance produced a shock, it was salutary
rather than injurious.
"My dear, dear Agnes!" said Edward Marvel, a month from this time,
as they sat alone in the chamber of a pleasant house in New York, "I
owe you my life. But for your prompt resolution to follow me across
the sea, I would, in all probability, now be sleeping the sleep of
death. Oh, what would I not suffer for your sake!"
As Marvel uttered the last sentence, a troubled expression flitted
over his countenance. Agnes gazed tenderly into his face, and asked—
"Why this look of doubt and anxiety?"
"Need I answer the question?" returned the young man. "It is, thus
far, no better with me than when we left our old home. Though health
is coming back through every fibre, and my heart is filled with an
eager desire to relieve these kind friends of the burden of our
support, yet no prospect opens."
No cloud came stealing darkly over the face of the young wife. The
sunshine, so far from being dimmed, was brighter.
"Let not your heart be troubled," said she, with a beautiful smile.
"All will come out right."
"Right, Agnes? It is not right for me thus to depend on strangers."
"You need depend but a little while longer. I have already made
warm friends here, and, through them, secured for you employment. A
good place awaits you so soon as strength to fill it comes back to
your weakened frame."
"Angel!" exclaimed the young man, overcome with emotion at so
unexpected a declaration.
"No, not an angel," calmly replied Agnes, "only a wife. And now,
dear Edward," she added, "never again, in any extremity, think for a
moment of meeting trials or enduring privations alone. Having taken a
wife, you cannot move safely on your journey unless she moves by your
"Angel! Yes, you are my good angel," repeated Edward.
"Call me what you will," said Agnes, with a sweet smile, as she
brushed, with her delicate hand, the hair from his temples; "but let
me be your wife. I ask no better name, no higher station."
NOT GREAT, BUT HAPPY.
How pure and sweet is the love of young hearts! How little does it
contain of earth—how much of heaven! No selfish passions mar its
beauty. Its tenderness, its pathos, its devotion, who does not
remember, even when the sere leaves of autumn are rustling beneath
his feet? How little does it regard the cold and calculating
objections of worldly-mindedness. They are heard but as a passing
murmur. The deep, unswerving confidence of young love, what a blessed
thing it is! Heart answers to heart without an unequal throb. The
world around is bright and beautiful: the atmosphere is filled with
spring's most delicious perfumes.
From this dream—why should we call it a dream?—Is it not a
blessed reality?—Is not young, fervent love, true love? Alas! this is
an evil world, and man's heart is evil. From this dream there is too
often a tearful awaking. Often, too often, hearts are suddenly torn
asunder, and wounds are made that never heal, or, healing, leave
hard, disfiguring scars. But this is not always so. Pure love
sometimes finds its own sweet reward. I will relate one precious
The Baron Holbein, after having passed ten years of active life in
a large metropolitan city of Europe, retired to his estate in a
beautiful and fertile valley, far away from the gay circle of
fashion—far away from the sounds of political rancor with which he
had been too long familiar—far away from the strife of selfish men
and contending interests. He had an only child, Nina, just fifteen
years of age. For her sake, as well as to indulge his love of quiet
and nature, he had retired from the world. Her mother had been with
the angels for some years. Without her wise counsels and watchful
care, the father feared to leave his innocent-minded child exposed to
the temptations that must gather around her in a large city.
For a time Nina missed her young companions, and pined to be with
them. The old castle was lonely, and the villagers did not interest
her. Her father urged her to go among the peasantry, and, as an
inducement, placed a considerable sum of money at her command, to be
used as she might see best in works of benevolence. Nina's heart was
warm, and her impulses generous. The idea pleased her, and she acted
upon it. She soon found employment enough both for her time and the
money placed at her disposal. Among the villagers was a woman named
Blanche Delebarre, a widow, whose only son had been from home since
his tenth year, under the care of an uncle, who had offered to
educate him, and fit him for a life of higher usefulness than that of
a mere peasant. There was a gentleness about this woman, and something
that marked her as superior to her class. Yet she was an humble
villager, dependent upon the labor of her own hands, and claimed no
Nina became acquainted with Blanche soon after the commencement of
her residence at the castle. When she communicated to her the wishes
of her father, and mentioned the money that had been placed at her
disposal, the woman took her hand and said, while a beautiful light
beamed from her countenance—
"It is more blessed to give than to receive, my child. Happy are
they who have the power to confer benefits, and who do so with
willing hearts. I fear, however, that you will find your task a
difficult one. Everywhere are the idle and undeserving, and these are
more apt to force themselves forward as objects of benevolence than
the truly needy and meritorious. As I know every one in the village,
perhaps I may be able to guide you to such objects as deserve
"My good mother," replied Nina, "I will confide in your judgment. I
will make you my almoner."
"No, my dear young lady, it will be better for you to dispense with
your own hands. I will merely aid you to make a wise dispensation."
"I am ready to begin. Show me but the way."
"Do you see that company of children on the green?" said Blanche.
"Yes. And a wild company they are."
"For hours each day they assemble as you see them, and spend their
time in idle sports. Sometimes they disagree and quarrel. That is
worse than idleness. Now, come here. Do you see that little cottage
yonder on the hill-side, with vines clustering around the door?"
"An aged mother and her daughter reside there. The labor of the
daughter's hands provides food and raiment for both. These children
need instruction, and Jennet Fleury is fully qualified to impart it.
Their parents cannot, or will not, pay to send them to school, and
Jennet must receive some return for her labors, whatever they be."
"I see it all," cried Nina with animation. "There must be a school
in the village. Jennet shall be the teacher."
"If this can be done, it will be a great blessing," said Blanche.
"It shall be done. Let us go over to that sweet little cottage at
once and see Jennet."
The good Blanche Delebarre made no objection. In a little while
they entered the cottage. Every thing was homely, but neat and clean.
Jennet was busy at her reel when they entered. She knew the lady of
Castle Holbein, and arose up quickly and in some confusion. But she
soon recovered herself, and welcomed, with a low courtesy, the
visitors who had come to grace her humble abode. When the object of
this visit was made known, Jennet replied that the condition of the
village children had often pained her, and that she had more than
once prayed that some way would open by which they could receive
instruction. She readily accepted the proposal of Nina to become
their teacher, and wished to receive no more for the service than
what she could now earn by reeling silk.
It did not take long to get the proposed school in operation. The
parents were willing to send their children, the teacher was willing
to receive them, and the young lady patroness was willing to meet the
Nina said nothing to her father of what she was doing. She wished
to surprise him some day, after every thing was going on prosperously.
But a matter of so much interest to the neighborhood could not remain
a secret. The school had not been in operation two days before the
baron heard all about it. But he said nothing to his daughter. He
wished to leave her the pleasure which he knew she desired, that of
telling him herself.
At the end of a month Nina presented her father with an account of
what she had done with the money he had placed in her hands. The
expenditure had been moderate enough, but the good done was far
beyond the baron's anticipations. Thirty children were receiving
daily instructions; nurses had been employed, and medicines bought
for the sick; needy persons, who had no employment, were set to work
in making up clothing for children, who, for want of such as was
suitable, could not attend the school. Besides, many other things had
been done. The account was looked over by the Baron Holbein, and each
item noted with sincere pleasure. He warmly commended Nina for what
she had done; he praised the prudence with which she had managed what
she had undertaken; and begged her to persevere in the good work.
For the space of more than a year did Nina submit to her father,
for approval, every month an accurate statement of what she had done,
with a minute account of all the moneys expended. But after that time
she failed to render this account, although she received the usual
supply, and was as actively engaged as before in works of benevolence
among the poor peasantry. The father often wondered at this, but did
not inquire the cause. He had never asked an account: to render it had
been a voluntary act, and he could not, therefore, ask why it was
withheld. He noticed, however, a change in Nina. She was more
thoughtful, and conversed less openly than before. If he looked at her
intently, her eyes would sink to the floor, and the color deepen on
her cheek. She remained longer in her own room, alone, than she had
done since their removal to the castle. Every day she went out, and
almost always took the direction of Blanche Delebarre's cottage, where
she spent several hours.
Intelligence of his daughter's good deeds did not, so often as
before, reach the old baron's ears; and yet Nina drew as much money
as before, and had twice asked to have the sum doubled. The father
could not understand the meaning of all this. He did not believe that
any thing was wrong—he had too much confidence in Nina—but he was
puzzled. We will briefly apprise the reader of the cause of this
One day—it was nearly a year from the time Nina had become a
constant visitor at Blanche Delebarre's—the young lady sat reading a
book in the matron's cottage. She was alone—Blanche having gone out
to visit a sick neighbor at Nina's request. A form suddenly darkened
the door, and some one entered hurriedly. Nina raised her eyes, and
met the gaze of a youthful strange, who had paused and stood looking
at her with surprise and admiration. With more confusion, but with not
less of wonder and admiration, did Nina return the stranger's gaze.
"Is not this the cottage of Blanche Delebarre?" asked he, after a
moment's pause. His voice was low and musical.
"It is," replied Nina. "She has gone to visit a sick neighbor, but
will return shortly."
"Is my mother well?" asked the youth.
Nina rose to her feet. This, then, was Pierre Delebarre, of whom
his mother had so often spoke. The heart of the maiden fluttered.
"The good Blanche is well," was her simple reply. "I will go and
say to her that her son has come home. It will make her heart glad."
"My dear young lady, no!" said Pierre. "Do not disturb my mother in
her good work. Let her come home and meet me here—the surprise will
add to the pleasure. Sit down again. Pardon my rudeness—but are not
you the young lady from the castle, of whom my mother so often writes
to me as the good angel of the village? I am sure you must be, or you
would not be alone in my mother's cottage."
Nina's blushes deepened, but she answered without disguise that she
was from the castle.
A full half hour passed before Blanche returned. The young and
artless couple did not talk of love with their lips during that time,
but their eyes beamed with a mutual passion. When the mother entered,
so much were they interested in each other, that they did not hear her
approaching footstep. She surprised them leaning toward each other in
The joy of the mother's heart was great on meeting her son. He was
wonderfully improved since she last saw him—had grown several
inches, and had about him the air of one born of gentle blood, rather
than the air of a peasant. Nina staid only a very short time after
Blanche returned, and then hurried away from the cottage.
The brief interview held with young Pierre sealed the maiden's
fate. She knew nothing of love before the beautiful youth stood before
her—her heart was as pure as an infant's—she was artlessness
itself. She had heard him so often spoken of by his mother, that she
had learned to think of Pierre as the kindest and best of youths. She
saw him, for the first time, as one to love. His face, his tones, the
air of refinement and intelligence that was about him, all conspired
to win her young affections. But of the true nature of her feelings,
Nina was as yet ignorant. She did not think of love. She did not,
therefore, hesitate as to the propriety of continuing her visits at
the cottage of Blanche Delebarre, nor did she feel any reserve in the
presence of Pierre. Not until the enamored youth presumed to whisper
the passion her presence had awakened in his bosom, did she fully
understand the cause of the delight she always felt while by his side.
After Pierre had been home a few weeks, he ventured to explain to
his mother the cause of his unexpected and unannounced return. He had
disagreed with his uucle, who, in a passion, had reminded him of his
dependence. This the high-spirited youth could not bear, and he left
his uncle's house within twenty-four hours, with a fixed resolution
never to return. He had come back to the village, resolved, he said,
to lead a peasant's life of toil, rather than live with a relative who
could so far forget himself as to remind him of his dependence. Poor
Blanche was deeply grieved. All her fond hopes for her son were at an
end. She looked at his small, delicate hands and slender pro-
portions, and wept when she thought of a peasant's life of hard
A very long time did not pass before Nina made a proposition to
Blanche, that relieved, in some measure, the painful depression under
which she labored. It was this. Pierre had, from a child, exhibited a
decided talent for painting. This talent had been cultivated by the
uncle, and Pierre was, already, quite a respectable artist. But he
needed at least a year's study of the old masters, and more accurate
instruction than he had yet received, before he would be able to adopt
the painter's calling as one by which he could take an independent
position in society as a man. Understanding this fully, Nina said that
Pierre must go to Florence, and remain there a year, in order to
perfect himself in the art, and that she would claim the privilege of
bearing all the expense. For a time, the young man's proud spirit
shrunk from an acceptance of this generous offer; but Nina and the
mother overruled all his objections, and almost forced him to go.
It may readily be understood, now, why Nina ceased to render
accurate accounts of her charitable expenditures to her father. The
baron entertained not the slightest suspicion of the real state of
affairs, until about a year afterward, when a fine looking youth
presented himself one day, and boldly preferred a claim to his
daughter's hand. The old man was astounded.
"Who, pray, are you," he said, "that presume to make such a
"I am the son of a peasant," replied Pierre, bowing, and casting
his eyes to the ground, "and you may think it presumption, indeed, for
me to aspire to the hand of your noble daughter. But a peasant's love
is as pure as the love of a prince; and a peasant's heart may beat
with as high emotions."
"Young man," returned the baron, angrily, "your assurance deserves
punishment. But go—never dare cross my threshold again! You ask an
impossibility. When my daughter weds, she will not think of stooping
to a presumptuous peasant. Go, sir!"
Pierre retired, overwhelmed with confusion. He had been weak enough
to hope that the Baron Holbein would at least consider his suit, and
give him some chance of showing himself worthy of his daughter's
hand. But this repulse dashed every hope the earth.
As soon as he parted with the young man, the father sent a servant
for Nina. She was not in her chamber—nor in the house. It was nearly
two hours before she came home. When she entered the presence of her
father, he saw, by her countenance, that all was not right with her.
"Who was the youth that came here some hours ago?" he asked,
Nina looked up with a frightened air, but did not answer.
"Did you know that he was coming?" said the father.
The maiden's eyes drooped to the ground, and her lips remained
"A base-born peasant! to dare—"
"Oh, father! he is not base! His heart is noble," replied Nina,
speaking from a sudden impulse.
"He confessed himself the son of a peasant! Who is he?"
"He is the son of Blanche Delebarre," returned Nina, timidly. "He
has just returned from Florence, an artist of high merit. There is
nothing base about him, father!"
"The son of a peasant, and an artist, to dare approach me and claim
the hand of my child! And worse, that child to so far forget her
birth and position as to favor the suit! Madness! And this is your
good Blanche!—your guide in all works of benevolence! She shall be
punished for this base betrayal of the confidence I have reposed in
Nina fell upon her knees before her father, and with tears and
earnest entreaties pleaded for the mother of Pierre; but the old man
was wild and mad with anger. He uttered passionate maledictions on
the head of Blanche and her presumptuous son, and positively forbade
Nina again leaving the castle on any pretext whatever, under the
penalty of never being permitted to return.
Had so broad an interdiction not been made, there would have been
some glimmer of light in Nina's dark horizon; she would have hoped
for some change—would have, at least, been blessed with short, even
if stolen, interviews with Pierre. But not to leave the castle on any
pretext—not to see Pierre again! This was robbing life of every
charm. For more than a year she had loved the young man with an
affection to which every day added tenderness and fervor. Could this
be blotted out in an instant by a word of command? No! That love must
burn on the same.
The Baron Holbein loved his daughter; she was the bright spot in
life. To make her happy, he would sacrifice almost anything. A
residence of many years in the world had shown him its pretensions,
its heartlessness, the worth of all its titles and distinctions. He
did not value them too highly. But, when a peasant approached and
asked the hand of his daughter, the old man's pride, that was
smouldering in the ashes, burned up with a sudden blaze. He could
hardly find words to express his indignation. It took but a few days
for this indignation to burn low. Not that he felt more favorable to
the peasant—but, less angry with his daughter. It is not certain
that time would not have done something favorable for the lovers in
the baron's mind. But they could not wait for time. Nina, from the
violence and decision displayed by her father, felt hopeless of any
change, and sought an early opportunity to steal away from the castle
and meet Pierre, notwithstanding the positive commands that had been
issued on the subject. The young man, in the thoughtless enthusiasm of
youth, urged their flight.
"I am master of my art," he said, with a proud air. "We can live in
Florence, where I have many friends."
The youth did not find it hard to bring the confiding, artless girl
into his wishes. In less than a month the baron missed his child. A
letter explained all. She had been wedded to the young peasant, and
they had left for Florence. The letter contained this clause, signed
by both Pierre and Nina:—
"When our father will forgive us, and permit our return, we shall
be truly happy—but not till then."
The indignant old man saw nothing but impertinent assurance in
this. He tore up the letter, and trampled it under his feet, in a
rage. He swore to renounce his child forever!
For the Baron Holbein, the next twelve months were the saddest of
his life. Too deeply was the image of his child impressed upon his
heart, for passion to efface it. As the first ebullitions subsided,
and the atmosphere of his mind grew clear again, the sweet face of
his child was before him, and her tender eyes looking into his own.
As the months passed away, he grew more and more restless and
unhappy. There was an aching void in bosom. Night after night he
would dream of his child, and awake in the morning and sigh that the
dream was not reality. But pride was strong—he would not countenance
More than a year had passed away, and not one word had come from
his absent one, who grew dearer to his heart every day. Once or twice
he had seen the name of Pierre Delebarre in the journals, as a young
artist residing Florence, who was destined, to become eminent. The
pleasure these announcements gave him was greater than he would
confess, even to himself.
One day he was sitting in his library endeavoring to banish the
images that haunted him too continually, when two of his servants
entered, bearing a large square box in their arms, marked for the
Baron Holbein. When the box was opened, it was found to contain a
large picture, enveloped in a cloth. This was removed and placed
against the wall, and the servants retired with the box. The baron,
with unsteady hands, and a heart beating rapidly, commenced removing
the cloth that still held the picture from view. In a few moments a
family group was before him. There sat Nina, his lovely, loving and
beloved child, as perfect, almost, as if the blood were glowing in
her veins. Her eyes were bent fondly upon a sleeping cherub that lay
in her arms. By her side sat Pierre, gazing upon her face in silent
joy. For only a single instant did the old man gaze upon this scene,
before the tears were gushing over his cheeks and falling to the
floor like rain. This wild storm of feeling soon subsided, and, in
the sweet calm that followed, the father gazed with unspeakable
tenderness for a long time upon the face of his lovely child, and
with a new and sweeter feeling upon the babe that lay, the
impersonation of innocence, in her arms. While in this state of mind,
he saw, for the first time, written on the bottom of the picture—"NOT
GREAT, BUT HAPPY."
A week from the day on which the picture was received, the Baron
Holbein entered Florence. On inquiring for Pierre Delebarre, he found
that every one knew the young artist.
"Come," said one, "let me go with you to the exhibition, and show
you his picture that has taken the prize. It is a noble production.
All Florence is alive with its praise."
The baron went to the exhibition. The first picture that met his
eyes on entering the door was a counterpart of the one he had
received, but larger, and, in the admirable lights in which it was
arranged, looked even more like life.
"Isn't it a grand production?" said the baron's conductor.
"My sweet, sweet child!" murmured the old man, in a low thrilling
voice. Then turning, he said, abruptly—
"Show me where I can find this Pierre Delebarre."
"With pleasure. His house is near at hand," said his companion.
A few minutes walk brought them to the artist's dwelling.
"That is an humble roof," said the man, pointing to where Pierre
lived, "but it contains a noble man." He turned away, and the baron
entered alone. He did not pause to summon any one, but walked in
through the open door. All was silent. Through a neat vestibule, in
which were rare flowers, and pictures upon the wall, he passed into a
small apartment, and through that to the door of an inner chamber It
was half open. He looked in. Was it another picture? No, it was in
very truth his child; and her babe lay in her arms, as he had just
seen it, and Pierre sat before her looking tenderly in her face. He
could restrain himself no longer. Opening the door, he stepped
hurriedly forward, and, throwing his arms around the group, said in
broken voice—"God bless you, my children!"
The tears that were shed; the smiles that beamed from glad faces;
the tender words that were spoken, and repeated again and again; why
need we tell of all these? Or why relate how happy the old man was
when the dove that had flown from her nest came back with her mate by
her side The dark year had passed, and there was sunshine again in his
dwelling, brighter sunshine than before. Pierre never painted so good
a picture again as the one that took the prize—that was his
The Young Baron Holbein has an immense picture gallery, and is a
munificient patron of the arts. There is one composition on his walls
he prizes above all the rest. The wealth of India could not purchase
it. It is the same that took the prize when he was but a babe and lay
in his mother's arms. The mother who held him so tenderly, and the
father who gazed so lovingly upon her pure young brow have passed
away, but they live before him daily, and he feels their gentle
presence ever about him for good.
THE MARRIED SISTERS.
"COME, William, a single day, out of three hundred and sixty-five,
is not much,"
"True, Henry Thorne. Nor is the single drop of water, that first
finds its way through the dyke, much; and yet, the first drop but
makes room for a small stream to follow, and then comes a flood. No,
no, Henry, I cannot go with you, to-day; and if you will be governed
by a friend's advice, you will not neglect your work for the fancied
pleasures of a sporting party."
"All work and no play, makes Jack a dull boy, We were not made to
be delving forever with tools in close rooms. The fresh air is good
for us. Come, William, you will feel better for a little recreation.
You look pale from confinement. Come; I cannot go without you."
"Henry Thorne," said his friend, William Moreland, with an air more
serious than that at first assumed, "let me in turn urge you to
"It is in vain, William," his friend said, interrupting him.
"I trust not, Henry. Surely, my early friend and companion is not
deaf to reason."
"No, not to right reason."
"Well, listen to me. As I said at first, it is not the loss of a
simple day, though even this is a serious waste of time, that I now
take into consideration. It is the danger of forming a habit of
idleness. It is a mistake, that a day of idle pleasure recreates the
mind and body, and makes us return and necessary employments with
renewed delight. My own experience is, that a day thus spent, causes
us to resume our labors with reluctance, and makes irksome what
before was pleasant. Is it not your own?"
"Well, I don't know; I can't altogether say that it is; indeed, I
never thought about it."
"Henry, the worst of all kinds of deception is self-deception.
Don't, let me, beg of you, attempt to deceive yourself in a matter so
important. I am sure you have experienced this reluctance to resuming
work after a day of pleasure. It is a universal experience. And now
that we are on this subject, I will add, that I have observed in you
an increasing desire to get away from work. You make many excuses and
they seem to you to be good ones. Can you tell me how many days you
have been out of the shop in the last three months?"
"No, I cannot," was the reply, made in a tone indicating a slight
degree of irritation.
"Well, I can, Henry."
"How many is it, then?"
"It is true, for I kept the count."
"Indeed, then, you are mistaken. I was only out a gunning three
times, and a fishing twice."
"And that makes five times. But don't you remember the day you were
made sick by fatigue?"
"Yes, true, but that is only six."
"And the day you went up the mountain with the party?"
"And the twice you staid away because it stormed?"
"But, William, that has nothing to do with the matter. If it
stormed so violently that I couldn't come to the shop, that surely is
not to be set down to the account of pleasure-taking."
"And yet, Henry, I was here, and so were all the workmen but
yourself. If there had not been in your mind a reluctance to coming
to the shop, I am sure the storm would not have kept you away. I am
plain with you, because I am your friend, and you know it. Now, it is
this increasing reluctance on your part, that alarms me. Do not, then,
add fuel to a flame, that, if thus nourished, will consume you."
"Don't make excuses, Henry. Think of the aggregate of ten lost
days. You can earn a dollar and a half a day, easily, and do earn it
whenever you work steadily. Ten days in three months is fifteen
dollars. All last winter, Ellen went without a cloak, because you
could not afford to buy one for her; now the money that you could
have earned in the time wasted in the last three months, would have
bought her a very comfortable one—and you know that it is already
October, and winter will soon be again upon us. Sixty dollars a year
buys a great many comforts for a poor man."
Henry Thorne remained silent for some moments. He felt the force of
William Moreland's reasoning; but his own inclinations were stronger
than his friend's arguments. He wanted to go with two or three
companions a gunning, and even the vision of his young wife shrinking
in the keen winter wind, was not sufficient to conquer this desire.
"I will go this once, William," said he, at length, with a long
inspiration; "and then I will quit it. I see and acknowledge the
force of what you say; I never viewed the matter so seriously
"This once may confirm a habit now too strongly fixed," urged his
companion. "Stop now, while your mind is rationally convinced that it
is wrong to waste your time, when it is so much needed for the sake of
making comfortable and happy one who loves you, and has cast her lot
in life with yours. Think of Ellen, and be a man."
"Come, Harry!" said a loud, cheerful voice at the shop door; "we
are waiting for you!"
"Ay, ay," responded Henry Thorne. "Good morning, William! I am
pledged for to-day. But after this, I will swear off!" And so saying,
he hurried away.
Henry Thorne and William Moreland were workmen in a large
manufacturing establishment in one of our thriving inland towns. They
had married sisters, and thus a friendship that had long existed, was
confirmed by closer ties of interest.
They had been married about two years, at the time of their
introduction to the reader, and, already, Moreland could perceive
that his earnings brought many more comforts for his little family
than did Henry's. The difference was not to be accounted for in the
days the other spent in pleasure taking, although their aggregate
loss was no mean item to be taken from a poor man's purse. It was to
be found, mainly, in a disposition to spend, rather than to save; to
pay away for trifles that were not really needed, very small sums,
whose united amounts in a few weeks would rise to dollars. But, when
there was added to this constant check upon his prosperity the
frequent recurrence of a lost day, no wonder that Ellen had less of
good and comfortable clothing than her sister Jane, and that her
house was far less neatly furnished.
All this had been observed, with pain, by William Moreland and his
wife, but, until the conversation recorded in the opening of this
story, no word or remonstrance or warning had been ventured upon by
the former. The spirit in which Moreland's words were received,
encouraged him to hope that he might exercise a salutary control over
Henry, if he persevered, and he resolved that he would extend thus far
towards him the offices of a true friend.
After dinner on the day during which her husband was absent, Ellen
called in to see Jane, and sit the afternoon with her. They were only
sisters, and had always loved each other much. During their
conversation, Jane said, in allusion to the season:
"It begins to feel a little chilly to-day, as if winter were
coming. And, by the way, you are going to get a cloak this fall,
Ellen, are you not?"
"Indeed, I can hardly tell, Jane," Ellen replied, in a serious
tone; "Henry's earnings, somehow or other, don't seem to go far with
us; and yet I try to be as prudent as I can. We have but a few dollars
laid by, and both of us want warm underclothing. Henry must have a
coat and pair of pantaloons to look decent this winter; so I must try
and do without the cloak, I suppose."
"I am sorry for that. But keep a good heart about it, sister. Next
fall, you will surely be able to get a comfortable one; and you shall
have mine as often as you want it, this winter. I can't go out much,
you know; our dear little Ellen, your namesake, is too young to leave
"You are very kind, Jane," said Ellen, and her voice slightly
A silence of some moments ensued, and then the subject of
conversation was changed to one more cheerful.
That evening, just about nightfall, Henry Thorne came home, much
fatigued, bringing with him half a dozen squirrels and a single wild
"There, Ellen, is something to make a nice pie for us to-morrow,"
said he, tossing his game bag upon the table.
"You look tired, Henry," said his wife, tenderly; "I wouldn't go
out any more this fall, if I were you."
"I don't intend going out any more, Ellen," was replied, "I'm sick
"You don't know how glad I am to hear you say so! Somehow, I always
feel troubled and uneasy when you are out gunning or fishing, as if
you were not doing right."
"You shall not feel so any more, Ellen," said Thorne: "I've been
thinking all the afternoon about your cloak. Cold weather is coming,
and we haven't a dollar laid by for anything. How I am to get the
cloak, I do not see, and yet I cannot bear the thought of your going
all this winter again without one."
"O, never mind that, dear," said Ellen, in a cheerful tone, her
face brightening up. "We can't afford it this fall, and so that's
settled. But I can have Jane's whenever I want it, she says; and you
know she is so kind and willing to lend me anything that she has. I
don't like to wear her things; but then I shall not want the cloak
Henry Thorne sighed at the thoughts his wife's words stirred in his
"I don't know how it is," he at length said, despondingly; "William
can't work any faster than I can, nor earn more a week, and yet he
and Jane have every thing comfortable, and are saving money into the
bargain, while we want many things that they have, and are not a
One of the reasons for this, to her husband so unaccountable,
trembled on Ellen's tongue, but she could not make up her mind to
reprove him; and so bore in silence, and with some pain, what she
felt as a reflection upon her want of frugality in managing household
Let us advance the characters we have introduced, a year in their
life's pilgrimage, and see if there are any fruits of these good
"Where is Thorne, this morning?" asked the owner of the shop,
speaking to Moreland, one morning, an hour after all the workmen had
"I do not know, really," replied Moreland. "I saw him yesterday,
when he was well."
"He's off gunning, I suppose, again. If so, it is the tenth day he
has lost in idleness during the last two months. I am afraid I shall
have to get a hand in his place, upon whom I can place more
dependence. I shall be sorry to do this for your sake, and for the
sake of his wife. But I do not like such an example to the workmen
and apprentices; and besides being away from the shop often
disappoints a job."
"I could not blame you, sir," Moreland said; "and yet, I do hope
you will bear with him for the sake of Ellen. I think if you would
talk with him it would do him good."
"But, why don't you talk to him, William?"
"I have talked to him frequently, but he has got so that he won't
bear it any longer from me."
"Nor would he bear it from me, either, I fear, William."
Just at that moment the subject of the conversation came in.
"You are late this morning, Henry," said the owner of the shop to
him, in the presence of the other workmen.
"It's only a few minutes past the time," was replied, moodily.
"It's more than an hour past."
"Well, if it is, I can make it up."
"That is not the right way, Henry. Lost time is never made up."
Thorne did not understand the general truth intended to be
expressed, but supposed, at once, that the master of the shop meant
to intimate that he would wrong him out of the lost hour,
notwithstanding he had promised to make it up. He therefore turned an
angry look upon him, and said—
"Do you mean to say that I would cheat you, sir?"
The employer was a hasty man, and tenacious of his dignity as a
master. He invariably discharged a journeyman who was in the least
degree disrespectful in his language or manner towards him before the
other workmen. Acting under the impulse that at once prompted him, he
"You are discharged;" and instantly turned away.
As quickly did Henry Thorne turn and leave the shop. He took his
way homeward, but he paused and lingered as he drew nearer and nearer
his little cottage, for troubled thoughts had now taken the place of
angry feelings. At length he was at the door, and lifting slowly the
latch, he entered.
"Henry!" said Ellen, with a look and tone of surprise. Her face was
paler and more care-worn than it was a year before; and its calm
expression had changed into a troubled one. She had a babe upon her
lap, her first and only one. The room in which she sat, so far from
indicating circumstances improved by the passage of a year, was far
less tidy and comfortable; and her own attire, though neat, was faded
and unseasonable. Her husband replied not to her inquiring look, and
surprised ejaculation, but seated himself in a chair, and burying his
face in his hands, remained silent, until, unable to endure the
suspense, Ellen went to him, and taking his hand, asked, so earnestly,
and so tenderly, what it was that troubled him, that he could not
resist her appeal.
"I am discharged!" said he, with bitter emphasis. "And there is no
other establishment in the town, nor within fifty miles!"
"O, Henry! how did that happen?"
"I hardly know myself, Ellen, for it all seems like a dream. When I
left home this morning, I did not go directly to the shop; I wanted
to see a man at the upper end of the town, and when I got back it was
an hour later than usual. Old Ballard took me to task before all the
shop, and intimated that I was not disposed to act honestly towards
him. This I cannot bear from any one; I answered him in anger, and was
discharged on the spot. And now, what we are to do, heaven only knows!
Winter is almost upon us, and we have not five dollars in the world."
"But something will turn up for us, Henry, I know it will," said
Ellen, trying to smile encouragingly, although her heart was heavy in
Her husband shook his head, doubtingly, and then all was gloomy and
oppressive silence. For nearly an hour, no word was spoken by either.
Each mind was busy with painful thoughts, and one with fearful
forebodings of evil. At the end of that time, the husband took up his
hat and went out. For a long, long time after, Ellen sat in dreamy,
sad abstraction, holding her babe to her breast. From this state, a
sense of duty roused her, and laying her infant on the bed,—for they
had not yet been able to spare money for a cradle,—she began to busy
herself in her domestic duties. This brought some little relief.
About eleven o'clock Jane came in with her usual cheerful, almost
happy face, bringing in her hand a stout bundle. Her countenance
changed in its expression to one of concern, the moment her eyes
rested upon her sister's face, and she laid her bundle on a chair
quickly, as if she half desired to keep it out of Ellen's sight.
"What is the matter, Ellen?" she asked, with tender concern, the
moment she had closed the door.
Ellen could not reply; her heart was too full. But she leaned her
head upon her sister's shoulder, and, for the first time since she
had heard the sad news of the morning, burst into tears. Jane was
surprised, and filled with anxious concern. She waited until this
ebullition of feeling in some degree abated, and then said, in a tone
still more tender than that in which she had first spoken,—
"Ellen, dear sister! tell me what has happened?"
"I am foolish, sister," at length, said Ellen, looking up, and
endeavoring to dry her tears. "But I cannot help it. Henry was
discharged from the shop this morning; and now, what are we to do? We
have nothing ahead, and I am afraid he will not be able to get
anything to do here, or within many miles of the village."
"That is bad, Ellen," replied Jane, while a shadow fell upon her
face, but a few moments before so glowing and happy. And that was
nearly all she could say; for she did not wish to offer false
consolation, and she could think of no genuine words of comfort.
After a while, each grew more composed and less reserved; and then
the whole matter was talked over, and all that Jane could say, that
seemed likely to soothe and give hope to Ellen's mind, was said with
earnestness and affection.
"What have you there?" at length asked Ellen, glancing towards the
chair upon which Jane had laid her bundle.
Jane paused a moment, as if in self-communion, and then said—
"Only a pair of blankets, and a couple of calico dresses that I
have been out buying."
"Let me look at them," said Ellen, in as cheerful a voice as she
A large heavy pair of blankets, for which Jane had paid five
dollars, were now unrolled, and a couple of handsome chintz dresses,
of dark rich colors, suitable for the winter season, displayed. It
was with difficulty that Ellen could restrain a sigh, as she looked
at these comfortable things, and thought of how much she needed, and
of how little she had to hope for. Jane felt that such thoughts must
pass through her sister's mind, and she also felt much pained that
she had undesignedly thus added, by contrast, to Ellen's unhappy
feelings. When she returned home, she put away her new dresses and
her blankets. She had no heart to look at them, no heart to enjoy her
own good things, while the sister she so much loved was denied like
present comforts, and, worse than all, weighed down with a
heart-sickening dread of the future.
We will not linger to contrast, in a series of domestic pictures,
the effects of industry and idleness on the two married sisters and
their families,—effects, the causes of which, neither aided
materially in producing. Such contrasts, though useful, cannot but be
painful to the mind, and we would, a thousand times, rather give
pleasure than pain. But one more striking contrast we will give, as
requisite to show the tendency of good or bad principles, united with
good or bad habits.
Unable to get any employment in the village, Thorne, hearing that
steady work could be obtained in Charleston, South Carolina, sold off
a portion of his scanty effects, by which he received money enough to
remove there with his wife and child. Thus were the sisters separated;
and in that separation, gradually estranged from the tender and lively
affection that presence and constant intercourse had kept burning with
undiminished brightness. Each became more and more absorbed, every
day, in increasing cares and duties; yet to one those cares and duties
were painful, and to the other full of delight.
Ten years from the day on which they parted in tears, Ellen sat,
near the close of day, in a meanly furnished room, in one of the
southern cities, watching, with a troubled countenance, the restless
slumber of her husband. Her face was very thin and pale, and it had a
fixed and strongly marked expression of suffering. Two children, a boy
and a girl, the one about six, and the other a little over ten years
of age, were seated listlessly on the floor, which was uncarpeted.
They seemed to have no heart to play. Even the elasticity of childhood
had departed from them. From the appearance of Thorne, it was plain
that he was very sick; and from all the indications the room in which
he lay, afforded, it was plain that want and suffering were its
inmates. The habit of idleness he had suffered to creep at a slow but
steady pace upon him. Idleness brought intemperance, and intemperance,
reacting upon idleness, completed his ruin, and reduced his family to
poverty in its most appalling form. Now he was sick with a southern
fever, and his miserable dwelling afforded him no cordial, nor his
wife and children the healthy food that nature required.
"Mother!" said the little boy, getting up from the floor, where he
had been sitting for half an hour, as still as if he were sleeping,
and coming to Ellen's side, he looked up earnestly and imploringly in
"What, my child?" the mother said, stooping down and kissing his
forehead, while she parted with her fingers the golden hair that fell
in tangled masses over it.
"Can't I have a piece of bread, mother?"
Ellen did not reply, but rose slowly and went to the closet, from
which she took part of a loaf, and cutting a slice from it, handed it
to her hungry boy. It was her last loaf, and all their money was gone.
The little fellow took it, and breaking a piece off for his sister,
gave it to her; the two children then sat down side by side, and ate
in silence the morsel that was sweet to them.
With an instinctive feeling, that from nowhere but above could she
look for aid and comfort, did Ellen lift her heart, and pray that she
might not be forsaken in her extremity. And then she thought of her
sister Jane, from whom she had not heard for a long, long time, and
her heart yearned towards her with an eager and yearning desire to see
her face once more.
And now let us look in upon Jane and her family. Her husband, by
saving where Thorne spent in foolish trifles, and working when Thorne
was idle, gradually laid by enough to purchase a little farm, upon
which he had removed, and there industry and frugality brought its
sure rewards. They had three children: little Ellen had grown to a
lively, rosy-cheeked, merry-faced girl of eleven years; and George,
who had followed Ellen, was in his seventh year, and after him came
the baby, now just completing the twelfth month of its innocent, happy
life. It was in the season when the farmers' toil is rewarded, and
William Moreland was among those whose labor had met an ample return.
How different was the scene, in his well established cottage, full
to the brim of plenty and comfort, to that which was passing at the
same hour of the day, a few weeks before, in the sad abode of Ellen,
herself its saddest inmate.
The table was spread for the evening meal, always eaten before the
sun hid his bright face, and George and Ellen, although the supper
was not yet brought in, had taken their places; and Moreland, too,
had drawn up with the baby on his knee, which he was amusing with an
apple from a well filled basket, the product of his own orchard.
A hesitating rap drew the attention of the tidy maiden who assisted
Mrs. Moreland in her duties.
"It is the poor old blind man," she said, in a tone of compassion,
as she opened the door.
"Here is a shilling for him, Sally," said Moreland, handing her a
piece of money. "The Lord has blessed us with plenty, and something
to spare for his needy children."
The liberal meal upon the table, the mother sat down with the rest,
and as she looked around upon each happy face, her heart blessed the
hour that she had given her hand to William Moreland. Just as the
meal was finished, a neighbor stopped at the door and said:
"Here's a letter for Mrs. Moreland; I saw it in the post-office,
and brought it over for her, as I was coming this way."
"Come in, come in," said Moreland, with a hearty welcome in his
"No, I thank you, I can't stop now. Good evening," replied the
"Good evening," responded Moreland, turning from the door, and
handing the letter to Jane.
"It must be from Ellen," Mrs. Moreland remarked, as she broke the
seal. "It is a long time since we heard from then; I wonder how they
She soon knew; for on opening the letter she read thus:—
SAVANNAH, September, 18—.
MY DEAR SISTER JANE:—Henry has just died. I am left here without a
dollar, and know not where to get bread for myself and two children.
I dare not tell you all I have suffered since I parted from you.
My heart is too full; I cannot write. Heaven only knows what I
shall do! Forgive me, sister, for troubling you; I have not done so
before, because I did not wish to give you pain, and I only do so
now, from an impulse that I cannot resist.
Jane handed the letter to her husband, and sat down in a chair, her
senses bewildered, and her heart sick.
"We have enough for Ellen, and her children, too, Jane," said
Moreland, folding the letter after he had read it. "We must send for
them at once. Poor Ellen! I fear she has suffered much."
"You are good, kind and noble-hearted, William!" exclaimed Jane,
bursting into tears.
"I don't know that I am any better than anybody else, Jane. But I
can't bear to see others suffering, and never will, if I can afford
relief. And surely, if industry brought no other reward, the power it
gives us to benefit and relieve others, is enough to make us ever
In one month from the time Ellen's letter was received, she, with
her children, were inmates of Moreland's cottage. Gradually the light
returned to her eye, and something of the former glow of health and
contentment to her cheek. Her children in a few weeks, were as gay and
happy as any. The delight that glowed in the heart of William
Moreland, as he saw this pleasing change, was a double reward for the
little he had sacrificed in making them happy. Nor did Ellen fall,
with her children, an entire burden upon her sister and her
husband;—her activity and willingness found enough to do that needed
doing. Jane often used to say to her husband—
"I don't know which is the gainer over the other, I or Ellen; for I
am sure I can't see how we could do without her."
THERE are two classes in the world: one acts from impulse, and the
other from reason; one consults the heart, and the other the head.
Persons belonging to the former class are very much liked by the
majority of those who come in contact with them: while those of the
latter class make many enemies in their course through life. Still,
the world owes as much to the latter as to the former—perhaps a
great deal more.
Mr. Archibald May belonged to the former class; he was known as a
good-hearted man. He uttered the word "no" with great difficulty; and
was never known to have deliberately said that to another which he
knew would hurt his feelings. If any one about him acted wrong, he
could not find it in his heart to wound him by calling his attention
to the fact. On one occasion, a clerk was detected in purloining
money; but it was all hushed up, and when Mr. May dismissed him, he
gave him a certificate of good character.
"How could you do so?" asked a neighbor, to whom he mentioned the
"How could I help doing it? The young man had a chance of getting a
good place. It would have been cruel in me to have refused to aid
him. A character was required, and I could do no less than give it.
Poor, silly fellow! I am sure I wish him well. I always liked him."
"Suppose he robs his present employer?"
"He won't do that, I'm certain. He is too much ashamed of his
conduct while in my store. It is a lesson to him. And, at any rate, I
do not think a man should be hunted down for a single fault."
"No: of course not. But, when you endorse a man's character, you
lead others to place confidence in him; a confidence that may be
betrayed under very aggravated circumstances."
"Better that many suffer, than that one innocent man should be
condemned and cast off."
"But there is no question about guilt or innocence. It was fully
proved that this young man robbed you."
"Suppose it was. No doubt the temptation was very strong. I don't
believe he will ever be guilty of such a thing again."
"You have the best evidence in the world that he will, in the fact
that he has taken your money."
"O no, not at all. It doesn't follow, by any means, that a fault
like this will be repeated. He was terribly mortified about it. That
has cured him, I am certain."
"I wouldn't trust to it."
"You are too uncharitable," replied Mr. May. "For my part, I always
look upon the best side of a man's character. There is good in every
one. Some have their weaknesses—some are even led astray at times;
but none are altogether bad. If a man falls, help him up, and start
him once more fair in the world—who can say that he will again trip?
Not I. The fact is, we are too hard with each other. If you brand your
fellow with infamy for one little act of indiscretion, or, say crime,
what hope is there for him."
"You go rather too far, Mr. May," the neighbor said, "in your
condemnation of the world. No doubt there are many who are really
uncharitable in their denunciations of their fellow man for a single
fault. But, on the other side, I am inclined to think, that there are
just as many who are equally uncharitable, in loosely passing by, out
of spurious kindness, what should mark a man with just suspicion, and
cause a withholding of confidence. Look at the case now before us. You
feel unwilling to keep a young man about you, because he has betrayed
your trust, and yet, out of kind feelings, you give him a good
character, and enable him to get a situation where he may seriously
wrong an unsuspecting man."
"But I am sure he will not do so."
"But what is your guarantee?"
"The impression that my act has evidently made upon him. If I had,
besides hushing up the whole matter, kept him still in my store, he
might again have been tempted. But the comparatively light punishment
of dismissing him with a good character, will prove a salutary check
"Don't you believe it."
"I will believe it, until I see evidence to the contrary. You are
too suspicious—too uncharitable, my good friend. I am always
inclined to think the best of every one. Give the poor fellow another
chance for his life, say I."
"I hope it may all turn out right."
"I am sure it will," returned Mr. May. "Many and many a young man
is driven to ruin by having all confidence withdrawn from him, after
his first error. Depend upon it, such a course is not right."
"I perfectly agree with you, Mr. May, that we should not utterly
condemn and cast off a man for a single fault. But, it is one thing
to bear with a fault, and encourage a failing brother man to better
courses, and another to give an individual whom we know to be
dishonest, a certificate of good character."
"Yes, but I am not so sure the young man we are speaking about is
"Didn't he rob you?"
"Don't say rob. That is too hard a word. He did take a little from
me; but it wasn't much, and there were peculiar circumstances."
"Are you sure that under other peculiar circumstances, he would not
have taken much more from you?"
"I don't believe he would."
"I wouldn't trust him."
"You are too suspicious—too uncharitable, as I have already said.
I can't be so. I always try to think the best of every one."
Finding that it was no use to talk, the neighbor said but little
more on the subject.
About a year afterwards the young man's new employer, who, on the
faith of Mr. May's recommendation, had placed great confidence in
him, discovered that he had been robbed of several thousand dollars.
The robbery was clearly traced to this clerk, who was arrested,
tried, and sentenced to three years imprisonment in the Penitentiary.
"It seems that all your charity was lost on that young scoundrel,
Blake," said the individual whose conversation with Mr. May has just
"Poor fellow!" was the pitying reply. "I am most grievously
disappointed in him. I never believed that he would turn out so
"You might have known it after he had swindled you. A man who will
steal a sheep, needs only to be assured of impunity, to rob the mail.
The principle is the same. A rogue is a rogue, whether it be for a pin
or a pound."
"Well, well—people differ in these matters. I never look at the
worst side only. How could Dayton find it in his heart to send that
poor fellow to the State Prison! I wouldn't have done it, if he had
taken all I possess. It was downright vindictiveness in him."
"It was simple justice. He could not have done otherwise. Blake had
not only wronged him, but he had violated the laws and to the laws he
was bound to give him up."
"Give up a poor, erring young man, to the stern, unbending,
unfeeling laws! No one is bound to do that. It is cruel, and no one
is under the necessity of being cruel."
"It is simply just, Mr. May, as I view it. And, further, really
more just to give up the culprit to the law he has knowingly and
wilfully violated, than to let him escape its penalties."
Mr. May shook his head.
"I certainly cannot see the charity of locking up a young man for
three or four years in prison, and utterly and forever disgracing
"It is great evil to steal?" said the neighbor.
"O, certainly—a great sin."
"And the law made for its punishment is just?"
"Yes, I suppose so."
"Do you think that it really injuries a thief to lock him up in
prison, and prevent him from trespassing on the property of his
"That I suppose depends upon circumstances. If——"
"No, but my friend, we must fix the principle yea or nay. The law
that punishes theft is a good law—you admit that—very well. If the
law is good. it must be because its effect is good. A thief, will,
under such law, he really more benefitted by feeling its force than
in escaping the penalty annexed to its infringement. No distinction
can or ought to be made. The man who, in, a sane mind, deliberately
takes the property of another, should be punished by the law which
forbids stealing. It will have at least one good effect, if none
others and that will be to make him less willing to run similar risk,
and thus leave to his neighbor the peaceable possession of his goods."
"Punishment, if ever administered, should look to the good of the
offender. But, what good disgracing and imprisoning a young man who
has all along borne a fair character, is going to have, is more than
I can tell. Blake won't be able to hold up his head among respectable
people when his term has expired."
"And will, in consequence, lose his power of injuring the honest
and unsuspecting. He will be viewed in his own true light, and be cast
off as unworthy by a community whose confidence he has most
"And so you will give an erring brother no chance for his life?"
"O yes. Every chance. But it would not be kindness to wink at his
errors and leave him free to continue in the practice of them, to his
own and others' injury. Having forfeited his right to the confidence
of this community by trespassing upon it, let him pay the penalty of
that trespass. It will be to him, doubtless, a salutary lesson. A few
years of confinement in a prison will give him time for reflection and
repentance; whereas, impunity in an evil course could only have
strengthened his evil purposes. When he has paid the just penalty of
his crime, let him go into another part of the country, and among
strangers live a virtuous life, the sure reward of which is peace."
Mr. May shook his head negatively, at these remarks.
"No one errs on the side of kindness," he said, "while too many, by
an opposite course, drive to ruin those whom leniency might have
A short time after the occurrence of this little interview, Mr.
May, on returning home one evening, found his wife in much apparent
"Has anything gone wrong, Ella?" he asked.
"Would you have believed it?" was Mrs. May's quick and excited
answer. "I caught Jane in my drawer to-day, with a ten dollar bill in
her hand which she had just taken out of my pocket book, that was
"It is too true! I charged it at once upon her, and she burst into
tears, and owned that she was going to take the money and keep it."
"That accounts, then, for the frequency with which you have missed
small sums of money for several months past."
"Yes. That is all plain enough now. But what shall we do? I cannot
think of keeping Jane any longer."
"Perhaps she will never attempt such a thing again, now that she
has been discovered."
"I cannot trust her. I should never feel safe a moment. To have a
thief about the house! Oh, no, That would never answer. She will have
"Well, Ella, you will have to do what you think best; but you
mustn't be too hard on the poor creature. You mustn't think of
exposing her, and thus blasting her character. It might drive her to
"But, is it right for me, knowing what she is, to let her go
quietly into another family? It is a serious matter, husband."
"I don't know that you have anything to do with that. The safest
thing, in my opinion, is for you to talk seriously to Jane, and warn
her of the consequences of acts such as she has been guilty of. And
then let her go, trusting that she will reform"
"But there is another fault that I have discovered within a week or
two past. A fault that I suspected, but was not sure about. It is a
very bad one."
"What is that, Ella?"
"I do not think she is kind to the baby."
"I have good reason for believing that she is not kind to our dear
little babe. I partly suspected this for some time. More than once I
have came suddenly upon her, and found our sweet pet sobbing as if
his heart would break. The expression in Jane's face I could not
exactly understand. Light has gradually broken in upon me, and now I
am satisfied that she has abused him shamefully."
"It is too true. Since my suspicions were fully aroused, I have
asked Hannah about it, and she, unwillingly, has confirmed my own
"Unwillingly! It was her duty to have let you know this
voluntarily. Treat my little angel Charley unkindly! The wretch! She
doesn't remain in this house a day longer."
"So I have fully determined. I am afraid that Jane has a wretched
disposition. It is bad enough to steal, but to ill-treat a helpless,
innocent babe, is fiend-like."
Jane was accordingly dismissed.
"Poor creature!" said Mrs. May, after Jane had left the house; "I
feel sorry for her. She is, after all, the worst enemy to herself. I
don't know what will become of her."
"She'll get a place somewhere."
"Yes, I suppose so. But, I hope she won't refer to me for her
character. I don't know what I should say, if she did."
"If I couldn't say any good, I wouldn't say any harm, Ella. It's
rather a serious matter to break down the character of a poor girl."
"I know it is; for that is all they have to depend upon. I shall
have to smooth it over some how, I suppose."
"Yes: put the best face you can upon it. I have no doubt but she
will do better in another place."
On the next day, sure enough, a lady called to ask about the
character of Jane.
"How long has she been with you?" was one of the first questions
"About six months," replied Mrs. May.
"In the capacity of nurse, I think she told me?"
"Yes. She was my nurse."
"Was she faithful?"
This was a trying question. But it had to be answered promptly, and
it was so answered.
"Yes, I think I may call her quite a faithful nurse. She never
refused to carry my little boy out; and always kept him very clean."
"She kept him nice, did she? Well, that is a recommendation. And I
want somebody who will not be above taking my baby into the street.
But how is her temper?"
"A little warm sometimes. But then, you know, perfection is not to
be attained any where."
"No, that is very true. You think her a very good nurse?"
"Yes, quite equal to the general run."
"I thank you very kindly," said the lady rising. "I hope I shall
find, in Jane, a nurse to my liking."
"I certainly hope so," replied Mrs. May, as she attended her to the
"What do you think?" said Mrs. May to her husband, when he returned
in the evening.—"That Jane had the assurance to send a lady here to
inquire about her character."
"She is a pretty cool piece of goods, I should say. But, I suppose
she trusted to your known kind feelings, not to expose her."
"No doubt that was the reason. But, I can tell her that I was
strongly tempted to speak out the plain truth. Indeed, I could hardly
contain myself when the lady told me that she wanted her to nurse a
little infant. I thought of dear Charley, and how she had neglected
and abused him—the wretched creature! But I restrained myself, and
gave her as good a character as I could."
"That was right. We should not let our indignant feelings govern us
in matters of this kind. We can never err on the side of kindness."
"No, I am sure we cannot."
Mrs. Campbell, the lady who had called upon Mrs. May, felt quite
certain that, in obtaining Jane for a nurse, she had been fortunate.
She gave, confidently, to her care, a babe seven months old. At
first, from a mother's natural instinct, she kept her eye upon Jane;
but every thing going on right, she soon ceased to observe her
closely. This was noted by the nurse, who began to breathe with more
freedom. Up to this time, the child placed in her charge had received
the kindest attentions. Now, however, her natural indifference led her
to neglect him in various little ways, unnoticed by the mother, but
felt by the infant. Temptations were also thrown in her way by the
thoughtless exposure of money and jewelry. Mrs. Campbell supposed, of
course, that she was honest, or she would have been notified of the
fact by Mrs. May, of whom she had inquired Jane's character; and,
therefore, never thought of being on her guard in this respect.
Occasionally he could not help thinking that there ought to be more
money in her purse than there was. But she did not suffer this thought
to rise into a suspicion of unfair dealing against any one. The loss
of a costly breast pin, the gift of a mother long since passed into
the invisible world, next worried her mind; but, even this did not
cause her to suspect that any thing was wrong with her nurse.
This the time passed on, many little losses of money and valued
articles disturbing and troubling the mind of Mrs. Campbell, until it
became necessary to wean her babe. This duty was assigned to Jane, who
took the infant to sleep with her. On the first night, it cried for
several hours—in fact, did not permit Jane to get more than a few
minutes sleep at a time all night. Her patience was tried severely.
Sometimes she would hold the distressed child with angry violence to
her bosom, while it screamed with renewed energy; and then, finding
that it still continued to cry, toss it from her upon the bed, and let
it lie, still screaming, until fear lest its mother should be tempted
to come to her distressed babe, would cause her again to take it to
her arms. A hard time had that poor child of it on that first night of
its most painful experience in the world. It was scolded, shaken, and
even whipped by the unfeeling nurse, until, at last, worn out nature
yielded, and sleep threw its protecting mantle over the wearied babe.
"How did you get along with Henry?" was the mother's eager
question, as she entered Jane's room soon after daylight.
"O very well, ma'am," returned Jane.
"I heard him cry dreadfully in the night. Several times I thought I
would come in and take him."
"Yes, ma'am, he did scream once or twice very hard; but he soon
gave up, and has long slept as soundly as you now see him."
"Dear little fellow!" murmured the mother in a trembling voice. She
stooped down and kissed him tenderly—tears were in her eyes.
On the next night, Henry screamed again for several hours. Jane,
had she felt an affection for the child, and, from that affection been
led to soothe it with tenderness, might easily have lulled it into
quiet; but her ill-nature disturbed the child. After worrying with it
a long time, she threw it from her with violence, exclaiming as she
"I'll fix you to-morrow night! There'll be no more of this. They
needn't think I'm going to worry out my life for their cross-grained
She stopped. For the babe had suddenly ceased crying. Lifting it
up, quickly, she perceived, by the light of the lamp, that its face
was very white, and its lips blue. In alarm, she picked it up and
sprang from the bed. A little water thrown into its face, soon revived
it. But the child did not cry again, and soon fell away into sleep.
For a long time Jane sat partly up in bed, leaning over on her arm,
and looking into little Henry's face. He breathed freely, and seemed
to be as well as ever. She did not wake until morning. When she did,
she found the mother bending over her, and gazing earnestly down into
the face of her sleeping babe. The incident that had occurred in the
night glanced through her mind, and caused her to rise up and look
anxiously at the child. Its sweet, placid face, at once reassured her.
"He slept better last night," remarked Mrs. Campbell.
"O, yes. He didn't cry any at all, hardly."
"Heaven bless him!" murmured the mother, bending over and kissing
On the next morning, when she awoke, Mrs. Campbell felt a strange
uneasiness about her child. Without waiting to dress herself, she
went softly over to the room where Jane slept. It was only a little
after day-light. She found both the child and nurse asleep. There was
something in the atmosphere of the room that oppressed her lungs, and
something peculiar in its odor. Without disturbing Jane, she stood for
several minutes looking into the face of Henry. Something about it
troubled her. It was not so calm as usual, nor had his skin that white
transparency so peculiar to a babe.
"Jane," she at length said, laying her hand upon the nurse.
Jane roused up.
"How did Henry get along last night, Jane?"
"Very well, indeed, ma'am; he did not cry at all."
"Do you think he looks well?"
Jane turned her eyes to the face of the child, and regarded it for
"O, yes, ma'am, he looks very well; he has been sleeping sound all
Thus assured, Mrs. Campbell regarded Henry for a few minutes
longer, and then left the room. But her heart was not at ease. There
was a weight upon it, and it labored in its office heavily.
"Still asleep," she said, about an hour after, coming into Jane's
room. "It is not usual for him to sleep so long in the morning."
Jane turned away from the penetrating glance of the mother, and
"He has been worried out for the last two nights. That is the
reason, I suppose."
Mrs. Campbell said no more, but lifted the child in her arms, and
carried it to her own chamber. There she endeavored to awaken it,
but, to her alarm, she found that it still slept heavily in spite of
all her efforts.
Running down into the parlor with it, where her husband sat reading
the morning papers, she exclaimed:
"Oh, Henry! I'm afraid that Jane has been giving this child
something to make him sleep. See! I cannot awake him. Something is
wrong, depend upon it!"
Mr. Campbell took the babe and endeavored to arouse him, but
"Call her down here," he then said, in a quick, resolute voice.
Jane was called down.
"What have you given this child?" asked Mr. Campbell, peremptorily.
"Nothing," was the positive answer. "What could I have given him?"
"Call the waiter."
Jane left the room, and in a moment after the waiter entered.
"Go for Doctor B—— as fast as you can, and say to him I must see
The waiter left the house in great haste. In about twenty minutes
Dr. B—— arrived.
"Is there any thing wrong about this child?" Mr. Campbell asked,
placing little Henry in the doctor's arms.
"There is," was replied, after the lapse of about half a minute.
"What have you been giving it."
"Nothing. But we are afraid the nurse has."
"Somebody has been giving it a powerful anodyne, that is certain.
This is no natural sleep. Where is the nurse? let me see her."
Jane was sent for, but word was soon brought that she was not to be
found. She had, in fact, bundled up her clothes, and hastily and
quietly left the house. This confirmed the worst fears of both
parents and physician. But, if any doubt remained, a vial of laudanum
and a spoon, found in the washstand drawer in Jane's room, dispelled
Then most prompt and active treatment was resorted to by Doctor
B—— in the hope of saving the child. But his anxious efforts were
in vain. The deadly narcotic had taken entire possession of the whole
system; had, in fact, usurped the seat of life, and was poisoning its
very fountain. At day dawn on the next morning the flickering lamp
went out, and the sad parents looked their last look upon their living
"I have heard most dreadful news," Mrs. May said to her husband, on
his return home that day.
"You have! What is it?"
"Jane has poisoned Mrs. Campbell's child!"
"Ella!" and Mr. May started from his chair.
"It is true. She had it to wean, and gave it such a dose of
laudanum, that it died."
"Dreadful! What have they done with her?"
"She can't be found, I am told."
"You recommended her to Mrs. Campbell."
"Yes. But I didn't believe she was wicked enough for that."
"Though it is true she ill-treated little Charley, and we knew it.
I don't see how you can ever forgive yourself. I am sure that I don't
feel like ever again looking Mr. Campbell in the face."
"But, Mr. May, you know very well that you didn't want me to say
any thing against Jane to hurt her character."
"True. And it is hard to injure a poor fellow creature by blazoning
her faults about. But I had no idea that Jane was such a wretch!"
"We knew that she would steal, and that she was unkind to children;
and yet, we agreed to recommend her to Mrs. Campbell."
"But it was purely out of kind feelings for the girl, Ella."
"Yes. But is that genuine kindness? Is it real charity? I fear
Mr. May was silent. The questions probed him to the quick. Let
every one who is good-hearted in the sense that Mr. May was, ask
seriously the same questions.
SLOW AND SURE.
"YOU'D better take the whole case. These goods will sell as fast as
they can be measured off."
The young man to whom this was said by the polite and active
partner in a certain jobbing house in Philadelphia, shook his head and
"No, Mr. Johnson. Three pieces are enough for my sales. If they go
off quickly, I can easily get more."
"I don't know about that, Mr. Watson," replied the jobber. "I shall
be greatly mistaken if we have a case of these goods left by the end
of a week. Every one who looks at them, buys. Miller bought two whole
cases this morning. In the original packages, we sell them at a half
cent per yard lower than by the piece."
"If they are gone, I can buy something else," said the cautious
"Then you won't let me sell you a case?"
"You buy too cautiously," said Johnson.
"Do you think so?"
"I know so. The fact is, I can sell some of your neighbors as much
in an hour as I can sell you in a week. We jobbers would starve if
there were no more active men in the trade than you are, friend
Watson smiled in a quiet, self-satisfied way as he replied—
"The number of wholesale dealers might be diminished; but failures
among them would be of less frequent occurrence. Slow and sure, is my
"Slow and sure don't make much headway in these times. Enterprise
is the word. A man has to be swift-footed to keep up with the general
"I don't expect to get rich in a day," said Watson.
"You'll hardly be disappointed in your expectation," remarked
Johnson, a little sarcastically. His customer did not notice the
feeling his tones expressed, but went on to select a piece or two of
goods, here and there, from various packages, as the styles happened
to suit him.
"Five per cent. off for cash, I suppose," said Watson, after
completing his purchase.
"Oh, certainly," replied the dealer. "Do you wish to cash the
"Yes; I wish to do a cash business as far as I can. It is rather
slow work at first; but it is safest, and sure to come out right in
"You're behind the times, Watson," said Johnson, shaking his head.
"Tell me—who can do the most profitable business, a man with a
capital of five thousand dollars, or a man with twenty thousand?"
"The latter, of course."
"Very well. Don't you understand that credit is capital?"
"It isn't cash capital."
"What is the difference, pray, between the profit on ten thousand
dollars' worth of goods purchased on time or purchased for cash?"
"Just five hundred dollars," said Watson.
"How do you make that out?" The jobber did not see the meaning of
"You discount five per cent. for cash, don't you?" replied Watson,
"True. But, if you don't happen to have the ten thousand dollars
cash, at the time you wish to make a purchase, don't you see what an
advantage credit gives you? Estimate the profit at twenty per cent.
on a cash purchase, and your credit enables you to make fifteen per
cent. where you would have made nothing."
"All very good theory," said Watson. "It looks beautiful on paper.
Thousands have figured themselves out rich in this way, but, alas!
discovered themselves poor in the end. If all would work just
right—if the thousands of dollars of goods bought on credit would
invariably sell at good profit and in time to meet the purchase
notes, then your credit business would be first rate. But, my little
observation tells me that this isn't always the case—that your large
credit men are forever on the street, money hunting, instead of in
their stores looking after their business. Instead of getting
discounts that add to their profits, they are constantly suffering
discounts of the other kind; and, too often, these, and the
accumulating stock of unsaleable goods—the consequence of credit
temptations in purchasing—reduce the fifteen per cent. you speak of
down to ten, and even five per cent. A large business makes large
store-expenses; and these eat away a serious amount of small profits
on large sales. Better sell twenty thousand dollars' worth of goods
at twenty per cent. profit, than eighty thousand at five per cent.
You can do it with less labor, less anxiety, and at less cost for
rent and clerk hire. At least, Mr. Johnson, this is my mode of
"Well, plod along," replied Johnson. "Little boats keep near the
shore. But, let me tell you, my young friend, your mind is rather too
limited for a merchant of this day. There is Mortimer, who began
business about the time you did. How much do you think he has made by
a good credit?"
"I'm sure I don't know."
"Fifty thousand dollars."
"And by the next turn of fortune's wheel, may lose it all."
"Not he. Mortimer, though young, is too shrewd a merchant for that.
Do you know that he made ten thousand by the late rise in cotton; and
all without touching a dollar in his business?"
"I heard something of it. But, suppose prices had receded instead
of advancing? What of this good credit, then?"
"You're too timid—too prudent, Watson," said the merchant, "and
will be left behind in the race for prosperity by men of half your
"No matter; I will be content," was the reply of Watson.
It happened, a short time after this little interchange of views on
business matters, that Watson met the daughter of Mr. Johnson in a
company where he chanced to be. She was an accomplished and
interesting young woman, and pleased Watson particularly; and it is
but truth to say, that she was equally well pleased with him.
The father, who was present, saw, with a slight feeling of
disapprobation, the lively conversation that passed between the young
man and his daughter; and when an occasion offered, a day or two
afterwards, made it a point to refer to him in a way to give the
impression that he held him in light estimation. Flora, that was the
daughter's name, did not appear to notice his remark. One evening,
not long after this, as the family of Mr. Johnson were about leaving
the tea-table, where they had remained later than usual, a domestic
announced that there was a gentleman in the parlor.
"Who is it?" inquired Flora.
"Mr. Mortimer," was answered.
An expression of dislike came into the face of Flora, as she said—
"He didn't ask for me?"
"Yes," was the servant's reply.
"Tell him that I'm engaged, Nancy."
"No, no!" said Mr. Johnson, quickly. "This would not be right.
_Are_ you engaged?"
"That means, father, that I don't wish to see him; and he will so
"Don't wish to see him? Why not?"
"Because I don't like him."
"Don't like him?" Mr. Johnson's manner was slightly impatient.
"Perhaps you don't know him."
The way in which her father spoke, rather embarrassed Flora. She
cast down her eye and stood for a few moments.
"Tell Mr. Mortimer that I will see him in a little while," she then
said, and, as the domestic retired to give the answer, she ascended
to her chamber to make some slight additions to her toilet.
To meet the young man by constraint, as it were, was only to
increase in Flora's mind the dislike she had expressed. So coldly and
formally was Mortimer received, that he found his visit rather
unpleasant than agreeable, and retired, after sitting an hour,
somewhat puzzled as to the real estimation in which he was held by
the lady, for whom he felt more than a slight preference.
Mr. Johnson was very much inclined to estimate others by a
money-standard of valuation. A man was a man, in his eyes, when he
possessed those qualities of mind that would enable him to make his
way in the world—in other words, to get rich. It was this ability in
Mortimer that elevated him in his regard, and produced a feeling of
pleasure when he saw him inclined to pay attention to his daughter.
And it was the apparent want of this ability in Watson, that caused
him to be lightly esteemed.
Men like Mr. Johnson are never very wise in their estimates of
character; nor do they usually adopt the best means of attaining
their ends when they meet with opposition. This was illustrated in
the present case. Mortimer was frequently referred to in the presence
of Flora, and praised in the highest terms; while the bare mention of
Watson's name was sure to occasion a series of disparaging remarks.
The effect was just the opposite of what was intended. The more her
father said in favor of the thrifty young merchant, the stronger was
the repugnance felt towards him by Flora; and the more he had to say
against Watson, the better she liked him. This went on until there
came a formal application from Mortimer for the hand of Flora. It was
made to Mr. Johnson first, who replied to the young man that if he
could win the maiden's favor, he had his full approval. But to win the
maiden's favor was not so easy a task, as the young man soon found.
His offered hand was firmly declined.
"Am I to consider your present decision as final?" said the young
man, in surprise and disappointment.
"I wish you to do so, Mr. Mortimer," said Flora.
"Your father approves my suit," said he. "I have his full consent
to make you this offer of my hand."
"I cannot but feel flattered at your preference," returned Flora;
"but, to accept your offer, would not be just either to you or
myself. I, therefore, wish you to understand me as being entirely in
This closed the interview and definitely settled the question. When
Mr. Johnson learned that the offer of Mortimer had been declined, he
was very angry with his daughter, and, in the passionate excitement
of his feelings, committed a piece of folly for which he felt an
immediate sense of shame and regret.
The interview between Mr. Mortimer and Flora took place during the
afternoon, and Mr. Johnson learned the result from a note received
from the disappointed young man, just as he was about leaving his
store to return home. Flora did not join the family at the tea-table,
on that evening, for her mind was a good deal disturbed, and she
wished to regain her calmness and self-possession before meeting her
Mr. Johnson was sitting in a moody and angry state of mind about an
hour after supper, when a domestic came into the room and said that
Mr. Watson was in the parlor.
"What does he want here?" asked Mr. Johnson, in a rough, excited
"He asked for Miss Flora," returned the servant.
"Where is she?"
"In her room."
"Well, let her stay there. I'll see him myself."
And without taking time for reflection, Mr. Johnson descended to
"Mr. Watson," said he, coldly, as the young man arose and advanced
His manner caused the visitor to pause, and let the hand he had
extended fall to his side.
"Well, what is your wish?" asked Mr. Johnson. He looked with knit
brows into Watson's face.
"I have called to see your daughter Flora," returned the young man,
"Then, I wish you to understand that your call is not agreeable,"
said the father of the young lady, with great rudeness of manner.
"Not agreeable to whom?" asked Watson, manifesting no excitement.
"Not agreeable to me," replied Mr. Johnson. "Nor agreeable to any
one in this house."
"Do you speak for your daughter?" inquired the young man.
"I have a right to speak for her, if any one has," was the evasive
Watson bowed respectfully, and, without a word more, retired from
The calm dignity with which he had received the rough treatment of
Mr. Johnson, rebuked the latter, and added a feeling of shame to his
other causes of mental disquietude.
On the next day Flora received a letter from Watson, in part in
"I called, last evening, but was not so fortunate as to see you.
Your father met me in the parlor, and on learning that my visit was
to you, desired me not to come again. This circumstance makes it
imperative on me to declare what might have been sometime longer
delayed—my sincere regard for you. If you feel towards me as your
father does, then I have not a word more to say; but I do not believe
this, and, therefore, I cannot let his disapproval, in a matter so
intimately concerning my happiness, and it may be yours, influence me
to the formation of a hasty decision. I deeply regret your father's
state of feeling. His full approval of my suit, next to yours, I feel
to be in every way desirable.
"But, why need I multiply words? Again, I declare that I feel for
you a sincere affection. If you can return this, say so with as
little delay as possible; and if you cannot, be equally frank with
Watson did not err in his belief that Flora reciprocated his tender
sentiments; nor was he kept long in suspense. She made an early
reply, avowing her own attachment, but urging him; for her sake, to
do all in his power to overcome her father's prejudices. But this was
no easy task. In the end, however, Mr. Johnson, who saw, too plainly,
that opposition on his part would be of no avail, yielded a kind of
forced consent that the plodding, behind-the-age young merchant,
should lead Flora to the altar. That his daughter should be content
with such a man, was to him a source of deep mortification. His own
expectations in regard to her had been of a far higher character.
"He'll never set the world on fire;" "A man of no enterprise;" "A
dull plodder;" with similar allusions to his son-in-law, were
overheard by Mr. Johnson on the night of the wedding party, and added
no little to the ill-concealed chagrin from which he suffered. They
were made by individuals who belonged to the new school of business
men, of whom Mortimer was a representative. He, too, was present. His
disappointment in not obtaining the hand of Flora, had been solaced in
the favor of one whose social standing and money-value was regarded as
considerably above that of the maiden who had declined the offer of
his hand. He saw Flora given to another without a feeling of regret. A
few months afterwards, he married the daughter of a gentleman who
considered himself fortunate in obtaining a son-in-law that promised
to be one of the richest men in the city.
It was with a very poor grace that Mr. Johnson bore his
disappointment; so poor, that he scarcely treated the husband of his
daughter with becoming respect. To add to his uncomfortable feelings
by contrast, Mortimer built himself a splendid dwelling almost beside
the modest residence of Mr. Watson, and after furnishing it in the
most costly and elegant style, gave a grand entertainment. Invitations
to this were not extended to either Mr. Johnson's family or to that of
his son-in-law—an omission that was particularly galling to the
A few weeks subsequent to this, Mr. Johnson stood beside Mr. Watson
in an auction room. To the latter a sample of new goods, just
introduced, was knocked down, and when asked by the auctioneer how
many cases he would take, he replied "Two."
"Say ten," whispered Mr. Johnson in his ear.
"Two cases are enough for my sales," quietly returned the young
"But they're a great bargain. You can sell them at an advance,"
urged Mr. Johnson.
"Perhaps so. But I'd rather not go out of my regular line of
By this time, the auctioneer's repeated question of "Who'll take
another case?" had been responded to by half a dozen voices, and the
lot of goods was gone.
"You're too prudent," said Mr. Johnson, with some impatience in his
"No," replied the young man, with his usual calm tone and quiet
smile. "Slow and sure—that is my motto. I only buy the quantity of
an article that I am pretty sure will sell. Then I get a certain
profit, and am not troubled with paying for goods that are lying on
my shelves and depreciating in value daily."
"But these wouldn't have lain on your shelves. You could have sold
them at a quarter of a cent advance to-morrow, and thus cleared sixty
or seventy dollars."
"That is mere speculation."
"Call it what you will; it makes no difference. The chance of
making a good operation was before you, and you did not improve it.
You will never get along at your snail's pace."
There was, in the voice of Mr. Johnson, a tone of contempt that
stung Watson more than any previous remark or, action of his
father-in-law. Thrown, for a moment, off his guard, he replied with
"You may be sure of one thing, at least."
"That I shall never embarrass you with any of my fine operations."
"What do you mean by that?" asked Mr. Johnson.
"Time will explain the remark," replied Watson, turning away, and
retiring from the auction room.
A coolness of some months was the consequence of this little
Time proves all things. At the end of fifteen years, Mortimer, who
had gone on in the way he had begun, was reputed to be worth two
hundred thousand dollars. Every thing he touched turned to money; at
least, so it appeared. His whole conversation was touching handsome
operations in trade; and not a day passed in which he had not some
story of gains to tell. Yet, with all his heavy accumulations, he was
always engaged in money raising, and his line of discounts was
enormous. Such a thing as proper attention to business was almost out
of the question, for nearly his whole time was taken up in
financiering—and some of his financial schemes were on a pretty
grand scale. Watson, on the other hand, had kept plodding along in
the old way, making his regular business purchases, and gradually
extending his operations, as his profits, changing into capital,
enabled him to do so. He was not anxious to get rich fast; at least,
not so anxious as to suffer himself to be tempted from a safe and
prudent course; and was, therefore, content to do well. By this time,
his father-in-law began to understand him a little better than at
first, and to appreciate him more highly. On more than one occasion,
he had been in want of a few thousand dollars in an emergency, when
the check of Watson promptly supplied the pressing need.
As to the real ability of Watson, few were apprised, for he never
made a display for the sake of establishing a credit. But it was
known to some, that he generally had a comfortable balance in the
bank, and to others that he never exchanged notes, nor asked an
endorser on his business paper. He always purchased for cash, and
thus obtained his goods from five to seven per cent cheaper than his
neighbors; and rarely put his business paper in bank for discount at
a longer date than sixty days. Under this system, his profits were,
usually, ten per cent. more than the profits of many who were engaged
in the same branch of trade. His credit was so good, that the bank
where he kept his account readily gave him all the money he asked on
his regular paper, without requiring other endorsements; while many of
his more dashing neighbors, who were doing half as much business
again, were often obliged to go upon the street to raise money at from
one to two per cent. a month. Moreover, as he was always to be found
at his store, and ready to give his personal attention to customers,
he was able to make his own discriminations and to form his own
estimates of men—and these were generally correct. The result of this
was, that he gradually attracted a class of dealers who were
substantial men; and, in consequence, was little troubled with bad
Up to this time, there had been but few changes in the external
domestic arrangements of Mr. Watson. He had moved twice, and, each
time, into a larger house. His increasing family made this necessary.
But, while all was comfortable and even elegant in his dwelling, there
was no display whatever.
One day, about this period, as Watson was walking with his
father-in-law, they both paused to look at a handsome house that was
going up in a fashionable part of Walnut street. By the side of it
was a large building lot.
"I have about made up my mind to buy this lot," remarked Watson.
"You?" Mr. Johnson spoke in a tone of surprise.
"Yes. The price is ten thousand dollars. Rather high; but I like
"What will you do with it?" inquired Mr. Johnson.
"Build upon it."
"As an investment?"
"No. I want a dwelling for myself."
"Indeed! I was not aware that you had any such intentions."
"Oh, yes. I have always intended to build a house so soon as I felt
able to do it according to my own fancy."
Mr. Johnson felt a good deal surprised at this. No more was said,
and the two men walked on.
"How's this? For sale!" said Mr. Johnson. They were opposite the
elegant dwelling of Mr. Mortimer, upon which was posted a hand-bill
setting forth that the property was for sale.
"So it seems," was Watson's quiet answer.
"Why should he sell out?" added Mr. Johnson. "Perhaps he is going
to Europe to make a tour with his family," he suggested.
"It is more probable," said Watson, "that he has got to the end of
"What do you mean by that remark?"
"Is obliged to sell in order to save himself."
"Oh, no! Mortimer is rich."
"So it is said. But I never call a man rich whose paper is floating
about by thousands on the street seeking purchasers at two per cent.
Just then the carriage of Mortimer drove up to his door, and Mrs.
Mortimer descended to the pavement and passed into the house. Her
face was pale, and had a look of deep distress. It was several years
since Mr. Johnson remembered to have seen her, and he was almost
startled at the painful change which had taken place.
A little while afterwards he looked upon the cheerful, smiling face
of his daughter Flora, and there arose in his heart, almost
involuntarily, an emotion of thankfulness that she was not the wife
of Mortimer. Could he have seen what passed a few hours afterwards,
in the dwelling of the latter, he would have been more thankful than
It was after eleven o'clock when Mortimer returned home that night.
He had been away since morning. It was rarely that he dined with his
family, but usually came home early in the evening. Since seven
o'clock, the tea-table had been standing in the floor, awaiting his
return. At eight o'clock, as he was still absent, supper was served
to the children, who, soon after, retired for the night. It was after
eleven o'clock as we have said, before Mortimer returned. His face was
pale and haggard. He entered quietly, by means of his night-key, and
went noiselessly up to his chamber. He found his wife lying across the
bed, where, wearied with watching, she had thrown herself and fallen
asleep. For a few moments he stood looking at her, with a face in
which agony and affection were blended. Then he clasped his hands
suddenly against his temples, and groaned aloud. That groan penetrated
the ears of his sleeping wife, who started up with an exclamation of
alarm, as her eyes saw the gesture and expression of her husband.
"Oh, Henry! what is the matter? Where have you been? Why do you
look so?" she eagerly inquired.
Mortimer did not reply; but continued standing like a statue of
"Henry! Henry!" cried his wife, springing towards him, and laying
her hands upon his arm. "Dear husband! what is the matter?"
"Ruined! Ruined!" now came hoarsely from the lips of Mortimer, and,
with another deep groan, he threw himself on a sofa, and wrung his
hands in uncontrollable anguish.
"Oh, Henry! speak! What does this mean?" said his wife, the tears
now gushing from her eyes. "Tell me what has happened."
But, "Ruined! Ruined!" was all the wretched man would say for a
long time. At last, however, he made a few vague explanations, to the
effect that he would be compelled to stop payment on the next day.
"I thought," said Mrs. Mortimer, "that the sale of this house was
to afford you all the money you needed."
"It is not sold yet," was all his reply to this. He did not explain
that it was under a heavy mortgage, and that, even if sold, the
amount realized would be a trifle compared with his need on the
following day. During the greater part of the night, Mortimer walked
the floor of his chamber; and, for a portion of the time, his wife
moved like a shadow by his side. But few words passed between them.
When the day broke, Mrs. Mortimer was lying on the bed, asleep.
Tears were on her cheeks. In a crib, beside her, was a fair-haired
child, two years old, breathing sweetly in his innocent slumber; and
over this crib bent the husband and father. His face was now calm,
but very pale, and its expression of sadness, as he gazed upon his
sleeping child, was heart-touching. For many minutes he stood over
the unconscious slumberer; then stooping down, he touched its
forehead lightly with his lips, while a low sigh struggled up from
his bosom. Turning, then, his eyes upon his wife, he gazed at her for
some moments, with a sad, pitying look. He was bending to kiss her,
when a movement, as if she were about to awaken, caused him to step
back, and stand holding his breath, as if he feared the very sound
would disturb her. She did not open her eyes, however, but turned
over, with a low moan of suffering, and an indistinct murmur of his
Mortimer did not again approach the bed-side, but stepped
noiselessly to the chamber door, and passed into the next room, where
three children, who made up the full number of his household
treasures, were buried in tranquil sleep. Long he did not linger
here. A hurried glance was taken of each beloved face, and a kiss
laid lightly upon the lips of each. Then he left the room, moving
down the stairs with a step of fear. A moment or two more, and he was
beyond the threshold of his dwelling.
When Mrs. Mortimer started up from unquiet slumber, as the first
beams of the morning sun fell upon her face, she looked around,
eagerly, for her husband. Not seeing him, she called his name. No
answer was received, and she sprung from the bed. As she did so, a
letter placed conspicuously on the bureau met her eyes. Eagerly
breaking the seal, she read this brief sentence:
"Circumstances make it necessary for me to leave the city by the
earliest conveyance. Say not a word of this to any one—not even to
your father. My safety depends on your silence. I will write to you
in a little while. May Heaven give you strength to bear the trials
through which you are about to pass!"
But for the instant fear for her husband, which this communication
brought into the mind of Mrs. Mortimer, the shock would have rendered
her insensible. He was in danger, and upon her discretion depended his
safety. This gave her strength for the moment. Her first act was to
destroy the note. Next she strove to repress the wild throbbings of
her heart, and to assume a calm exterior. Vain efforts! She was too
weak for the trial; and who can wonder that she was?
Mr. Johnson was sitting in his store about half past three o'clock
that afternoon, when a man came in and asked him for the payment of a
note of five thousand dollars. He was a Notary.
"A protest!" exclaimed Mr. Johnson, in astonishment. "What does
"I don't understand this," said he, after a moment or two. "I have
no paper out for that amount falling due to-day. Let me see it?"
The note was handed to him.
"It's a forgery!" said he, promptly. "To whom is it payable?" he
added. "To Mortimer, as I live!"
And he handed it back to the Notary, who departed.
Soon after he saw the father-in-law of Mortimer go hurriedly past
his store. A glimpse of his countenance showed that he was strongly
"Have you heard the news?" asked his son-in-law, coming in, half an
"Mortimer has been detected in a forgery!"
"He has forged my name also."
"Yes. A note for five thousand dollars was presented to me by the
Notary a little while ago."
"Is it possible? But this is no loss to you."
"If he has resorted to forgery to sustain himself," replied Mr.
Johnson, looking serious, "his affairs are, of course, in a desperate
"I am on his paper to at least twenty thousand dollars."
"Such, I am sorry to say, is the case. And to meet that paper will
try me severely. Oh, dear! How little I dreamed of this! I thought
him one of the soundest men in the city."
"I am pained to hear that you are so deeply involved," said Mr.
Watson. "But, do not let it trouble you too much. I will defer my
building intentions to another time, and let you have whatever money
you may need."
Mr. Johnson made no answer. His eyes were upon the floor and his
thoughts away back to the time when he had suffered the great
disappointment of seeing his daughter marry the slow, plodding
Watson, instead of becoming the wife of the enterprising Mortimer.
"I will try, my son," said he, at length, in a subdued voice, "to
get through without drawing upon you too largely. Ah, me! How blind I
"You may depend on me for at least twenty thousand dollars,"
replied Watson, cheerfully; "and for even more, if it is needed."
It was soon known that Mortimer had committed extensive forgeries
upon various persons, and that he had left the city. Officers were
immediately despatched for his arrest, and in a few days he was
brought back as a criminal. In his ruin, many others were involved.
Among these was his father-in-law, who was stripped of every dollar
in his old age.
"Slow and sure—slow and sure. Yes, Watson was right." Thus mused
Mr. Johnson, a few months afterwards, on hearing that Mortimer was
arraigned before the criminal court, to stand his trial for forgery.
"It is the safest and the best way, and certainly leads to
prosperity. Ah, me! How are we drawn aside into false ways through
our eagerness to obtain wealth by a nearer road than that of patient
industry in legitimate trade. Where one is successful, a dozen are
ruined by this error. Slow and sure! Yes, that is the true doctrine.
Watson was right, as the result has proved. Happy for me that his was
a better experiment than that of the envied Mortimer!"
THE SCHOOL GIRL.
"WHERE now?" said Frederick Williams to his friend Charles Lawson,
on entering his own office and finding the latter, carpet-bag in
hand, awaiting his arrival.
"Off for a day or two on a little business affair," replied Lawson.
"Business! What have you to do with business?"
"Not ordinary, vulgar business," returned Lawson with a slight toss
of the head and an expression of contempt.
"Oh! It's of a peculiar nature?"
"It is—very peculiar; and, moreover, I want the good offices of a
friend, to enable me the more certainly to accomplish my purposes."
"Come! sit down and explain yourself," said Williams.
"Haven't a moment to spare. The boat goes in half an hour."
"The New Haven boat. So come, go along with me to the slip, and
we'll talk the matter over by the way."
"I'm all attention," said Williams, as the two young men stepped
forth upon the pavement.
"Well, you must know," began Lawson, "that I have a first rate love
affair on my hands."
"Now don't smile; but hear me."
"Go on—I'm all attention."
"You know old Everett?"
"Thomas Everett, the silk importer?"
"I know something about him."
"You know, I presume, that he has a pretty fair looking daughter?"
"And I know," replied Williams, "that when 'pretty fair looking' is
said, pretty much all is said in her favor."
"Not by a great deal," was the decided answer of Lawson.
"Pray what is there beyond this that a man can call attractive?"
"Her father's money."
"I didn't think of that."
"No. But it would take the saving influence of a pretty large sum
to give her a marriageable merit in my eyes."
"Gold hides a multitude of defects, you know, Fred."
"It does; but it has to be heaped up very high to cover a wife's
defects, if they be as radical as those in Caroline Everett. Why, to
speak out the plain, homespun truth, the girl's a fool!"
"She isn't over bright, Fred, I know," replied Lawson. "But to call
her a fool, is to use rather a broad assertion."
"She certainly hasn't good common sense. I would be ashamed of her
in company a dozen times a day if she were any thing to me."
"She's young, you know, Fred."
"Yes, a young and silly girl."
"Just silly enough for my purpose. But, she will grow older and
wiser, you know. Young and silly is a very good fault."
"Where is she now?"
"At a boarding school some thirty miles from New Haven. Do you know
why her father sent her there?"
"She would meet me on her way to and from school while in the city,
and the old gentleman had, I presume, some objections to me as a
"And not without reason," replied Williams.
"I could not have asked him to do a thing more consonant with my
wishes," continued Lawson. "Caroline told me where she was going, and
I was not long in making a visit to the neighborhood. Great attention
is paid to physical development in the school, and the young ladies
are required to walk, daily, in the open air, amid the beautiful,
romantic, and secluded scenery by which the place is surrounded. They
walk alone, or in company, as suits their fancies. Caroline chose to
walk alone when I was near at hand; and we met in a certain retired
glen, where the sweet quiet of nature was broken only by the dreamy
murmur of a silvery stream, and there we talked of love. It is not in
the heart of a woman to withstand a scene like this. I told, in
burning words, my passion, and she hearkened and was won." Lawson
paused for some moments; but, as Williams made no remark, he
"It is hopeless to think of gaining her father's consent to a
marriage. He is pence-proud, and I, as you know, am penniless."
"I do not think he would be likely to fancy you for a son-in-law,"
"I have the best of reasons, for knowing that he would not. He has
already spoken of me to his daughter in very severe terms."
"As she has informed you?"
"Yes. But, like a sensible girl, she prefers consulting her own
taste in matters of the heart."
"A very sensible girl, certainly!"
"Isn't she! Well, as delays are dangerous, I have made up my mind
to consummate this business as quickly as possible. You know how hard
pressed I am in certain quarters, and how necessary it is that I
should get my pecuniary matters in a more stable position. In a word,
then, my business, on the present occasion, is to remove Caroline from
school, it being my opinion that she has completed her education."
"Has she consented to this?"
"No; but she won't require any great persuasion. I'll manage all
that. What I want you to do is, first, to engage me rooms at
Howard's, and, second, to meet me at the boat, day after to-morrow,
with a carriage."
"Where will you have the ceremony performed?"
"In this city. I have already engaged the Rev. Mr. B—— to do that
little work for me. He will join us at the hotel immediately on our
arrival, and in your presence, as a witness, the knot will be tied."
"All very nicely arranged," said Williams.
"Isn't it! And what is more, the whole thing will go off like clock
work. Of course I can depend on you. You will meet us at the boat."
"I will, certainly."
"Then good by." They were by this time at the landing. The two
young men shook hands, and Lawson sprung on board of the boat, while
Williams returned thoughtfully to his office.
Charles Lawson was a young man having neither principle nor
character. A connection with certain families in New York, added to a
good address, polished manners, and an unblushing assurance, had given
him access to society at certain points, and of this facility he had
taken every advantage. Too idle and dissolute for useful effort in
society, he looked with a cold, calculating baseness to marriage as
the means whereby he was to gain the position at which he aspired.
Possessing no attractive virtues—no personal merits of any kind, his
prospects of a connection, such as he wished to form, through the
medium of any honorable advances, were hopeless, and this he perfectly
well understood. But, the conviction did not in the least abate the
ardor of his purpose. And, in a mean and dastardly spirit, he
approached one young school girl after another, until he found in
Caroline Everett one weak enough to be flattered by his attentions.
The father of Caroline, who was a man of some discrimination and force
of mind, understood his daughter's character, and knowing the danger
to which she was exposed, kept upon her a watchful eye. Caroline's
meetings with Lawson were not continued long before he became aware of
the fact, and he at once removed her to a school at a distance from
the city. It would have been wiser had he taken her home altogether.
Lawson could have desired no better arrangement, so far as his wishes
On the day succeeding that on which Lawson left New York, Caroline
was taking her morning walk with two or three companions, when she
noticed a mark on a certain tree, which she knew as a sign that her
lover was in the neighborhood and awaiting her in the secluded glen,
half a mile distant, where they had already met. Feigning to have
forgotten something, she ran back, but as soon as she was out of
sight of her companions, she glided off with rapid steps in the
direction where she expected to find Lawson. And she was not
"Dear Caroline!" he exclaimed, with affected tenderness, drawing
his arm about her and kissing her cheek, as he met her. "How happy I
am to see you again! Oh! it has seemed months since I looked upon your
sweet young face."
"And yet it is only a week since you were here," returned Caroline,
looking at him fondly.
"I cannot bear this separation. It makes me wretched," said Lawson.
"And I am miserable," responded Caroline, with a sigh, and her eyes
fell to the ground. "Miserable," she repeated.
"I love you, tenderly, devotedly," said Lawson, as he tightly
clasped the hand he had taken: "and it is my most ardent wish to make
you happy. Oh! why should a parent's mistaken will interpose between
us and our dearest wishes?"
Caroline leaned toward the young man, but did not reply.
"Is there any hope of his being induced to give his consent
"None, I fear," came from the lips of Caroline in a faint whisper.
"Is he so strongly prejudiced against me?"
"Then, what are we to do?"
"To meet, hopelessly, is only to make us the more wretched," said
Lawson. "Better part, and forever, than suffer a martyrdom of
affection like this."
Still closer shrunk the weak and foolish girl to the young man's
side. She was like a bird in the magic circle of the charmer.
"Caroline," said Lawson, after another period of silence, and his
voice was low, tender and penetrating—"Are you willing, for my sake,
to brave your father's anger?"
"For your sake, Charles!" replied Caroline, with sudden enthusiasm.
"Yes—yes. His anger would be light to the loss of your affection."
"Bless your true heart!" exclaimed Lawson. "I knew that I had not
trusted it in vain. And now, my dear girl, let me speak freely of the
nature of my present visit. With you, I believe, that all hope of your
father's consent is vain. But, he is a man of tender feelings, and
loves you as the apple of his eye."
Thus urged the tempter, and Caroline listened eagerly.
"If," he continued, "we precipitate a union—if we put the marriage
rite between us and his strong opposition, that opposition will grow
weak as a withering leaf. He cannot turn from you. He loves you too
Caroline did not answer; but, it needed no words to tell Lawson
that he was not urging his wishes in vain.
"I am here," at length he said, boldly, "for the purpose of taking
you to New York. Will you go with me?"
"For what end?" she whispered.
"To become my wife."
There was no starting, shrinking, nor trembling at this proposal.
Caroline was prepared for it; and, in the blindness of a mistaken
love, ready to do as the tempter wished. Poor lamb! She was to be led
to the slaughter, decked with ribbons and garlands, a victim by her
Frederick Williams, the friend of Lawson, was a young attorney, who
had fallen into rather wild company, and strayed to some distance
along the paths of dissipation. But, he had a young and lovely-minded
sister, who possessed much influence over him. The very sphere of her
purity kept him from debasing himself to any great extent, and ever
drew him back from a total abandonment of himself in the hour of
temptation. He had been thrown a good deal into the society of Lawson,
who had many attractive points for young men about him, and who knew
how to adapt himself to the characters of those with whom he
associated. In some things he did not like Lawson, who, at times,
manifested such an entire want of principle, that he felt shocked. On
parting with Lawson at the boat, as we have seen, he walked
thoughtfully away. His mind was far from approving what he had heard,
and the more he reflected upon it, the less satisfied did he feel. He
knew enough of the character of Lawson to be well satisfied that his
marriage with Caroline, who was an overgrown, weak-minded school girl,
would prove the wreck of her future happiness, and the thought of
becoming a party to such a transaction troubled him. On returning to
his office, he found his sister waiting for him, and, as his eyes
rested upon her innocent young countenance, the idea of her being made
the victim of so base a marriage, flashed with a pang amid his
"I will have no part nor lot in this matter," he said, mentally.
And he was in earnest in this resolution. But not long did his mind
rest easy under his assumed passive relation to a contemplated social
wrong, that one word from him might prevent. From the thought of
betraying Lawson's confidence, his mind shrunk with a certain
instinct of honor; while, at the same time, pressed upon him the
irresistible conviction that a deeper dishonor would attach to him if
he permitted the marriage to take place.
The day passed with him uncomfortably enough. The more he thought
about the matter, the more he felt troubled. In the evening, he met
his sister again, and the sight of her made him more deeply conscious
of the responsibility resting upon him. His oft repeated mental
excuse—"It's none of my business," or, "I can't meddle in other men's
affairs," did not satisfy certain convictions of right and duty that
presented themselves with, to him, a strange distinctness. The thought
of his own sister was instantly associated with the scheme of some
false-hearted wretch, involving her happiness in the way that the
happiness of Caroline Everett was to be involved; and he felt that the
man who knew that another was plotting against her, and did not
apprize him of the fact, was little less than a villain at heart.
On the next day Williams learned that there was a writ out against
the person of Charles Lawson on a charge of swindling, he having
obtained a sum of money from a broker under circumstances construed
by the laws into crime. This fact determined him to go at once to Mr.
Everett, who, as it might be supposed, was deeply agitated at the
painful intelligence he received. His first thought was to proceed
immediately to New Haven, and there rescue his daughter from the hands
of the young man; but on learning the arrangements that had been made,
he, after much reflecting, concluded that it would be best to remain
in New York, and meet them on their arrival.
In the mean time, the foolish girl, whom Lawson had determined to
sacrifice to his base cupidity, was half wild with delighted
anticipation. Poor child! Passion-wrought romances, written by men
and women who had neither right views of life, nor a purpose in
literature beyond gain or reputation, had bewildered her half-formed
reason, and filled her imagination with. unreal pictures. All her
ideas were false or exaggerated. She was a woman, with the mind of an
inexperienced child; if to say this does not savor of contradiction.
Without dreaming that there might be thorns to pierce her naked feet
in the way she was about to enter, she moved forward with a joyful
On the day she had agreed to return with Lawson, she met him early
in the afternoon, and started for New Haven, where they spent the
night. On the following day they left in the steamboat for New York.
All his arrangements for the marriage, were fully explained to
Caroline by Lawson, and most of the time that elapsed after leaving
New Haven, was spent in settling their future action in regard to the
family. Caroline was confident that all would be forgiven after the
first outburst of anger on the part of her father, and that they would
be taken home immediately. The cloud would quickly melt in tears, and
then the sky would be purer and brighter than before.
When the boat touched the wharf, Lawson looked eagerly for the
appearance of his friend Williams, and was disappointed, and no
little troubled, at not seeing him. After most of the passengers had
gone on shore, he called a carriage, and was driven to Howard's,
where he ordered a couple of rooms, after first enquiring whether a
friend had not already performed this service for him. His next step
was to write a note to the Rev. Mr. B——, desiring his immediate
attendance, and, also, one to Williams, informing him of his arrival.
Anxiously, and with a nervous fear lest some untoward circumstance
might prevent the marriage he was about effecting with a silly
heiress, did the young man await the response to these notes, and
great was his relief, when informed, after the lapse of an hour, that
the Reverend gentleman, whose attendance he had desired, was in the
A private parlor had been engaged, and in this the ceremony of
marriage was to take place. This parlor adjoined a chamber, in which
Caroline awaited, with a trembling heart, the issue of events. It was
now, for the first time, as she was about taking the final and
irretrievable step, that her resolution began to fail her. Her
father's anger, the grief of her mother, the unknown state upon which
she was about entering, all came pressing upon her thoughts with a
sense of realization such as she had not known before.
Doubts as to the propriety of what she was about doing, came fast
upon her mind. In the nearness of the approaching event, she could
look upon it stripped of its halo of romance. During the two days
that she had been with Lawson, she had seen him in states of absent
thought, when the true quality of his mind wrote itself out upon his
face so distinctly that even a dim-sighted one could read; and more
than once she had felt an inward shrinking from him that was
irrepressible. Weak and foolish as she was, she was yet pure-minded;
and though in the beginning she did not, because her heart was
overlaid with frivolity, perceive the sphere of his impurity, yet
now, as the moment was near at hand when there was to be a
marriage-conjunction, she began to feel this sphere as something that
suffocated her spirit. At length, in the agitation of contending
thoughts and emotions, the heart of the poor girl failed her, till, in
the utter abandonment of feeling, she gave way to a flood of tears and
commenced wringing her hands. At this moment, having arranged with the
clergyman to begin the ceremony forthwith, Lawson entered her room,
and, to his surprise, saw her in tears.
"Oh, Charles!" she exclaimed, clasping her hands and extending them
towards him, "Take me home to my father! Oh, take me home to my
Lawson was confounded at such an unexpected change in Caroline.
"You shall go to your father the moment the ceremony is over," he
replied; "Come! Mr. B—— is all ready."
"Oh, no, no! Take me now! Take me now!" returned the poor girl in
an imploring voice. And she sat before the man who had tempted her
from the path of safety, weeping, and quivering like a leaf in the
"Caroline! What has come over you!" said Lawson, in deep
perplexity. "This is only a weakness. Come! Nerve your heart like a
brave, good girl! Come! It will soon be over."
And he bent down and kissed her wet cheek, while she shrunk from
him with an involuntary dread. But, he drew his arm around her waist,
and almost forced her to rise.
"There now! Dry your tears!" And he placed his handkerchief to her
eyes. "It is but a moment of weakness, Caroline,—of natural
As he said this, he was pressing her forward towards the door of
the apartment where the clergyman (such clergymen disgrace their
profession) awaited their appearance.
"Charles?" said Caroline, with a suddenly constrained calmness—"do
you love me?"
"Better than my own life!" was instantly replied.
"Then take me to my father. I am too young—too weak—too
inexperienced for this."
"The moment we are united you shall go home," returned Lawson. "I
will not hold you back an instant."
"Let me go now, Charles! Oh, let me go now!"
"Are you mad, girl!" exclaimed the young man, losing his
self-control. And, with a strong arm, he forced her into the next
room. For a brief period, the clergyman hesitated, on seeing the
distressed bride. Then he opened the book he held in his hand and
began to read the service. As his voice, in tones of solemnity,
filled the apartment, Caroline grew calmer. She felt like one driven
forward by a destiny against which it was vain to contend. All the
responses had been made by Lawson, and now the clergyman addressed
her. Passively she was about uttering her assentation, when the door
of the room was thrown open, and two men entered.
"Stop!" was instantly cried in a loud, agitated voice, which
Caroline knew to be that of her father, and never did that voice come
to her ears with a more welcome sound.
Lawson started, and moved from her side. While Caroline yet stood
trembling and doubting, the man who had come in with Mr. Everett
approached Lawson, and laying his hand upon him, said—"I arrest you
on a charge of swindling!"
With a low cry of distress, Caroline sprung towards her father; but
he held his hands out towards her as if to keep her off, saying, at
the same time—
"Are you his wife?"
"No, thank Heaven!" fell from her lips.
In the next moment she was in her father's arms, and both were
Narrow indeed was the escape made by Caroline Everett; an escape
which she did not fully comprehend until a few months afterwards,
when the trial of Lawson took place, during which revelations of
villany were made, the recital of which caused her heart to shudder.
Yes, narrow had been her escape! Had her father been delayed a few
moments longer, she would have become the wife of a man soon after
condemned to expiate his crimes against society in the felon's cell!
May a vivid realization of what Caroline Everett escaped, warn
other young girls, who bear a similar relation to society, of the
danger that lurks in their way. Not once in a hundred instances, is a
school girl approached with lover-like attentions, except by a man
who is void of principle; and not once in a hundred instances do
marriages entered upon clandestinely by such persons, prove other
than an introduction to years of wretchedness.
TWO men were walking along a public thoroughfare in New York. One
of them was a young merchant—the other a man past the prime of life,
and belonging to the community of Friends. They were in conversation,
and the manner of the former, earnest and emphatic, was in marked
contrast with the quiet and thoughtful air of the other.
"There is so much idleness and imposture among the poor," said the
merchant, "that you never know when your alms are going to do harm or
good. The beggar we just passed is able to work; and that woman
sitting at the corner with a sick child in her arms, would be far
better off in the almshouse. No man is more willing to give than I
am, if I only knew where and when to give."
"If we look around us carefully, Mr. Edwards," returned the Quaker,
we need be at no loss on this subject. Objects enough will present
themselves. Virtuous want is, in most cases, unobtrusive, and will
suffer rather than extend a hand for relief. We must seek for objects
of benevolence in by-places. We must turn aside into untrodden walks."
"But even then," objected Mr. Edwards, "we cannot be certain that
idleness and vice are not at the basis of the destitution we find. I
have had my doubts whether any who exercise the abilities which God
has given them, need want for the ordinary comforts of life in this
country. In all cases of destitution, there is something wrong, you
may depend upon it."
"Perhaps there is," said the Quaker. "Evil of some kind is ever the
cause of destitution and wretchedness. Such bitter waters as these
cannot flow from a sweet fountain. Still, many are brought to
suffering through the evil ways of others; and many whose own wrong
doings have reacted upon them in unhappy consequences, deeply repent
of the past, and earnestly desire to live better lives in future.
Both need kindness, encouragement, and, it may be, assistance; and it
is the duty of those who have enough and to spare, to stretch forth
their hands to aid, comfort and sustain them."
"Yes. That is true. But, how are we to know who are the real
objects of our benevolence?"
"We have but to open our eyes and see, Mr. Edwards," said the
Quaker. "The objects of benevolence are all around us."
"Show me a worthy object, and you will find me ready to relieve
it," returned the merchant. "I am not so selfish as to be indifferent
to human suffering. But I think it wrong to encourage idleness and
vice; and for this reason, I never give unless I am certain that the
object who presents himself is worthy."
"True benevolence does not always require us to give alms," said
the Friend. "We may do much to aid, comfort and help on with their
burdens our fellow travellers, and yet not bestow upon them what is
called charity. Mere alms-giving, as thee has intimated, but too
often encourages vice and idleness. But thee desires to find a worthy
object of benevolence. Let us see if we cannot find one, What have we
here?" And as the Quaker said this he paused before a building, from
the door of which protruded a red flag, containing the words, "Auction
this day." On a large card just beneath the flag was the announcement,
"Positive sale of unredeemed pledges."
"Let us turn in here," said the Quaker. "No doubt we shall find
enough to excite our sympathies."
Mr. Edwards thought this a strange proposal; but he felt a little
curious, and followed his companion without hesitation.
The sale had already begun, and there was a small company
assembled. Among them, the merchant noticed a young woman whose face
was partially veiled. She was sitting a little apart from the rest,
and did not appear to take any interest in the bidding. But he noticed
that, after an article was knocked off, she was all attention until
the next was put up, and then, the moment it was named, relapsed into
a sort of listlessness or abstraction.
The articles sold embraced a great variety of things useful and
ornamental. In the main they were made up of watches, silver plate,
jewellery and wearing apparel. There were garments of every kind,
quality and condition, upon which money to about a fourth of their
real value had been loaned; and not having been redeemed, they were
now to be sold for the benefit of the pawnbroker.
The company bid with animation, and article after article was sold
off. The interest at first awakened by the scene, new to the young
merchant, wore off in a little while, and turning to his companion he
said—"I don't see that much is to be gained by staying here."
"Wait a little longer, and perhaps thee will think differently,"
returned the Quaker, glancing towards the young woman who has been
mentioned, as he spoke.
The words had scarcely passed his lips, when the auctioneer took up
a small gold locket containing a miniature, and holding it up, asked
for a bid.
"How much for this? How much for this beautiful gold locket and
miniature? Give me a bid. Ten dollars! Eight dollars! Five dollars!
Four dollars—why, gentlemen, it never cost less than fifty! Four
dollars! Four dollars! Will no one give four dollars for this
beautiful gold locket and miniature? It's thrown away at that price."
At the mention of the locket, the young woman came forward and
looked up anxiously at the auctioneer. Mr. Edwards could see enough
of her face to ascertain that it was an interesting and intelligent
one, though very sad.
"Three dollars!" continued the auctioneer. But there was no bid.
"Two dollars! One dollar!"
"One dollar," was the response from a man who stood just in front
of the woman. Mr. Edwards, whose eyes were upon the latter, noticed
that she became much agitated the moment this bid was made.
"One dollar we have! One dollar! Only one dollar!" cried the
auctioneer. "Only one dollar for a gold locket and miniature worth
forty. One dollar!"
"Nine shillings," said the young woman in a low, timid voice.
"Nine shillings bid! Nine shillings! Nine shillings!"
"Ten shillings," said the first bidder.
"Ten shillings it is! Ten shillings, and thrown away. Ten
"Eleven shillings," said the girl, beginning to grow excited. Mr.
Edwards, who could not keep his eyes off of her face, from which the
veil had entirely fallen, saw that she was trembling with eagerness
"Eleven shillings!" repeated the auctioneer, glancing at the first
bidder, a coarse-looking man, and the only one who seemed disposed to
bid against the young woman.
"Twelve shillings," said the man resolutely.
A paleness went over the face of the other bidder, and a quick
tremor passed through her frame.
"Twelve shillings is bid. Twelve shillings is bid. Twelve
shillings!" And the auctioneer now looked towards the young woman
who, in a faint voice, said—
By this time the merchant began to understand the meaning of what
was passing before him. The miniature was that of a middle-aged lady;
and it required no great strength of imagination to determine that the
original was the mother of the young woman who seemed so anxious to
possess the locket.
"But how came it here?" was the involuntary suggestion to the mind
of Mr. Edwards. "Who pawned it? Did she?"
"Fourteen shillings," said the man who was bidding, breaking in
upon the reflections of Mr. Edwards.
The veil that had been drawn aside, fell instantly over the face of
the young woman, and she shrunk back from her prominent position, yet
still remained in the room.
"Fourteen shillings is bid. Fourteen shillings! Are you all done?
Fourteen shillings for a gold locket and miniature. Fourteen!
The companion of Mr. Edwards glanced towards him with a meaning
look. The merchants for a moment bewildered, found his mind clear
"Twice!" screamed the auctioneer. "Once! Twice! Three——"
"Twenty shillings," dropped from the lips of Mr. Edwards.
"Twenty shillings! Twenty shillings!" cried the auctioneer with
renewed animation. The man who had been bidding against the girl
turned quickly to see what bold bidder was in the field: and most of
the company turned with him. The young woman at the same time drew
aside her veil and looked anxiously towards Mr. Edwards, who, as he
obtained a fuller view of her face, was struck with it as familiar.
"Twenty-one shillings," was bid in opposition.
"Twenty-five," said the merchant, promptly.
The first bidder, seeing that Mr. Edwards was determined to run
against him, and being a little afraid that he might be left with a
ruinous bid on his hands, declined advancing, and the locket was
assigned to the young merchant, who, as soon as he had received it,
turned and presented it to the young woman, saying as he did so—
"It is yours."
The young woman caught hold of it with an eager gesture, and after
gazing on it for a few moments, pressed it to her lips.
"I have not the money to pay for it," she said in a low sad voice,
recovering herself in a few moments; and seeking to return the
"It is yours!" replied Mr. Edwards. Then thrusting back the hand
she had extended, and speaking with some emotion, he said—"Keep
it—keep it, in Heaven's name!"
And saying this he hastily retired, for he became conscious that
many eyes were upon him; and he felt half ashamed to have betrayed
his weakness before a coarse, unfeeling crowd. For a few moments he
lingered in the street; but his companion not appearing, he went on
his way, musing on the singular adventure he had encountered. The
more distinctly he recalled the young woman's face, the more
strangely familiar did it seem.
About an hour afterwards, as Mr. Edwards sat reading a letter, the
Quaker entered his store.
"Ah, how do you do? I am glad to see you," said the merchant, his
manner more than usually earnest. "Did you see anything more of that
"Yes," replied the Quaker. "I could not leave one like her without
knowing something of her past life and present circumstances. I think
even you will hardly be disposed to regard her as an object unworthy
"No, certainly I will not. Her appearance, and the circumstances
under which we found her, are all in her favor."
"But we turned aside from the beaten path. We looked into a
by-place to us; or we would not have discovered her. She was not
obtrusive. She asked no aid; but, with the last few shillings that
remained to her in the world, had gone to recover, if possible, an
unredeemed pledge—the miniature of her mother, on which she had
obtained a small advance of money to buy food and medicine for the
dying original. This is but one of the thousand cases of real distress
that are all around us. We could see them if we did but turn aside
for a moment into ways unfamiliar to our feet."
"Did you learn who she was, and anything of her condition?" asked
"Oh yes. To do so was but a common dictate of humanity. I would
have felt it as a stain upon my conscience to have left one like her
uncared for in the circumstances under which we found her."
"Did you accompany her home?"
"Yes; I went with her to the place she called her home—a room in
which there was scarcely an article of comfort—and there learned the
history of her past life and present condition. Does thee remember
Belgrave, who carried on a large business in Maiden Lane some years
"Very well. But, surely this girl is not Mary Belgrave?"
"Yes. It was Mary Belgrave whom we met at the pawnbroker's sale."
"Mary Belgrave! Can it be possible? I knew the family had become
poor; but not so poor as this!"
And Mr. Edwards, much disturbed in mind, walked uneasily about the
floor. But soon pausing, he said—
"And so her mother is dead!"
"Yes. Her father died two years ago and her mother, who has been
sick ever since, died last week in abject poverty, leaving Mary
friendless, in a world where the poor and needy are but little
regarded. The miniature which Mary had secretly pawned in order to
supply the last earthly need of her mother, she sought by her labor
to redeem; but ere she had been able to save up enough for the
purpose, the time for which the pledge had been taken, expired, and
the pawn broker refused to renew it. Under the faint hope that she
might be able to buy it in with the little pittance of money she had
saved, she attended the sale where we found her."
The merchant had resumed his seat, and although he had listened
attentively to the Quaker's brief history, he did not make any reply,
but soon became lost in thought. From this he was interrupted by his
visitor, who said, as he moved towards the door—
"I will bid thee good morning, friend Edwards."
"One moment, if you please," said the merchant, arousing himself,
and speaking earnestly, "Where does Mary Belgrave live?"
The Friend answered the question, and, as Mr. Edwards did not seem
inclined to ask any more, and besides fell back again into an
abstract state, he wished him good morning and retired.
The poor girl was sitting alone in her room sewing, late in the
afternoon of the day on which the incident at the auction room
occurred, musing, as she had mused for hours, upon the unexpected
adventure. She did not, in the excitement of the moment, know Mr.
Edwards when he first tendered her the miniature; but when he said
with peculiar emphasis and earnestness, turning away as he
spoke—"Keep it, in Heaven's name!" she recognized him fully. Since
that moment, she had not been able to keep the thought of him from
her mind. They had been intimate friends at one time; but this was
while they were both very young. Then he had professed for her a
boyish passion; and she had loved him with the childish fondness of a
young school-girl. As they grew older, circumstances separated them
more; and though no hearts were broken in consequence, both often
thought of the early days of innocence and affection with pleasure.
Mary sat sewing, as we have said, late in the afternoon of the day
on which the incident at the auction room occurred, when there was a
tap at her door. On opening it, Mr. Edwards stood before her. She
stepped back a pace or two in instant surprise and confusion, and he
advanced into the desolate room. In a moment, however, Mary recovered
herself, and with as much self-possession as, under the circumstances,
she could assume, asked her unexpected visitor to take a chair, which
she offered him.
Mr. Edwards sat down, feeling much oppressed. Mary was so changed
in everything, except in the purity and beauty of her countenance,
since he had seen her years before, that his feelings were completely
borne down. But he soon recovered himself enough to speak to her of
what was in his mind. He had an old aunt, who had been a friend of
Mary's mother, and from her he brought a message and an offer of a
home. Her carriage was at the door—it had been sent for her—and he
urged her to go with him immediately. Mary had no good reason for
declining so kind an offer. It was a home that she most of all needed;
and she could not refuse one like this.
"There is another unredeemed pledge," said Mr. Edwards,
significantly, as he sat conversing with Mary about a year after she
had found a home in the house of his aunt. Allusion had been made to
the miniature of Mary's mother.
"Ah!" was the simple response.
"Yes. Don't you remember," and he took Mary's unresisting
hand—"the pledge of this hand which you made me, I cannot tell how
many years ago?"
"That was a mere girlish pledge," ventured Mary, with drooping
"But one that the woman will redeem," said Edwards confidently,
raising the hand to his lips at the same time, and kissing it.
Mary leaned involuntarily towards him; and he, perceiving the
movement, drew his arm around her, and pressed his lips to her cheek.
It was no very long time afterwards before the pledge was redeemed.
DON'T MENTION IT.
"DON'T mention it again for your life."
"No, of course not. The least said about such things the better."
"Don't for the world. I have told you in perfect confidence, and
you are the only one to whom I have breathed it. I wouldn't have it
get out for any consideration."
"Give yourself no uneasiness. I shall not allude to the subject."
"I merely told you because I knew you were a friend, and would let
it go no farther. But would you have thought it?"
"I certainly am very much surprised."
"So am I. But when things pass right before your eyes and ears,
there is no gainsaying them."
"No. Seeing is said to be believing."
"Of course it is."
"But, Mrs. Grimes, are you very sure that you heard aright?"
"I am positive, Mrs. Raynor. It occurred only an hour ago, and the
whole thing is distinctly remembered. I called in to see Mrs.
Comegys, and while I was there, the bundle of goods came home. I was
present when she opened it, and she showed me the lawn dress it
contained. There were twelve yards in it. 'I must see if there is
good measure,' she said, and she got a yard-stick and measured it
off. There were fifteen yards instead of twelve. 'How is this?' she
remarked. 'I am sure I paid for only twelve yards, and here are
fifteen.' The yard-stick was applied again. There was no mistake; the
lawn measured fifteen yards. 'What are you going to do with the
surplus?' I asked. 'Keep it, of course,' said Mrs. Comegys. 'There is
just enough to make little Julia a frock. Won't she look sweet in
it?,' I was so confounded that I couldn't say a word. Indeed, I could
hardly look her in the face. At first I thought of calling her
attention to the dishonesty of the act; but then I reflected that, as
it was none of my business, I might get her ill-will for meddling in
what didn't concern me."
"And you really think, then, that she meant to keep the three yards
without paying for them?
"Oh, certainly! But then I wouldn't say anything about it for the
world. I wouldn't name it, on any consideration. Of course you will
not repeat it."
"No. If I cannot find any good to tell of my friends, I try to
refrain from saying anything evil."
"A most excellent rule, Mrs. Raynor, and one that I always follow.
I never speak evil of my friends, for it always does more harm than
good. No one can say that I ever tried to injure another."
"I hope Mrs. Comegys thought better of the matter, upon
reflection," said Mrs. Raynor.
"So do I. But I am afraid not. Two or three little things occur to
me now, that I have seen in my intercourse with her, which go to
satisfy my mind that her moral perceptions are not the best in the
world. Mrs. Comegys is a pleasant friend, and much esteemed by every
one. It could do no good to spread this matter abroad, but harm."
After repeating over and over again her injunction to Mrs. Raynor
not to repeat a word of what she had told her, Mrs. Grimes bade this
lady, upon whom she had called, good morning, and went on her way.
Ten minutes after, she was in the parlor of an acquaintance, named
Mrs. Florence, entertaining her with the gossip she had picked up
since their last meeting. She had not been there long, before,
lowering her voice, she said in a confidential way—
"I was at Mrs. Comegys' to-day, and saw something that amazed me
beyond every thing."
"Yes. You will be astonished when you hear it. Suppose you had
purchased a dress and paid for a certain number of yards; and when
the dress was sent home, you should find that the storekeeper had
made a mistake and sent you three or four yards more than you had
settled for. What would you do?"
"Send it back, of course."
"Of course, so say I. To act differently would not be honest. Do
you think so?"
"It would not be honest for me."
"No, nor for any one. Now, would you have believed it? Mrs. Comegys
not only thinks but acts differently."
"You must be mistaken, certainly, Mrs. Grimes."
"Seeing is believing, Mrs. Florence."
"So it is said, but I could hardly believe my eyes against Mrs.
Comegys' integrity of character. I think I ought to know her well,
for we have been very intimate for years."
"And I thought I knew her, too. But it seems that I was mistaken."
Mrs. Grimes then repeated the story of the lawn dress.
"Gracious me! Can it be possible?" exclaimed Mrs. Florence. "I can
hardly credit it."
"It occurred just as I tell you. But Mrs. Florence, you musn't tell
it again for the world. I have mentioned it to you in the strictest
confidence. But I need hardly say this to you, for I know how
discreet you are."
"I shall not mention it."
"It could do no good."
"None in the world."
"Isn't it surprising, that a woman who is so well off in the world
as Mrs. Comegys, should stoop to a petty act like this?"
"It is, certainly."
"Perhaps there is something wrong here," and Mrs. Grimes placed her
finger to her forehead and looked sober.
"How do you mean?" asked the friend.
"You've heard of people's having a dishonest monomania. Don't you
remember the case of Mrs. Y——?"
"She had every thing that heart could desire. Her husband was rich,
and let her have as much money as she wanted. I wish we could all say
that, Mrs. Florence, don't you?"
"It would be very pleasant, certainly, to have as much money as we
"But, notwithstanding all this, Mrs. Y—— had such a propensity to
take things not her own, that she never went into a dry goods store
without purloining something, and rarely took tea with a friend
without slipping a teaspoon into her pocket. Mr. Y—— had a great
deal of trouble with her, and, in several cases, paid handsomely to
induce parties disposed to prosecute her for theft, to let the matter
drop. Now do you know that it has occurred to me that, perhaps, Mrs.
Comegys is afflicted in this way? I shouldn't at all wonder if it were
"I'm afraid it is as I suspect. A number of suspicious
circumstances have happened when she has been about, that this would
explain. But for your life, Mrs. Florence, don't repeat this to any
"I shall certainly not speak of it, Mrs. Grimes. It is too serious
a matter. I wish I had not heard of it, for I can never feel toward
Mrs. Comegys as I have done. She is a very pleasant woman, and one
with whom it is always agreeable and profitable to spend an hour."
"It is a little matter, after all," remarked Mrs. Grimes, "and,
perhaps, we treat it too seriously."
"We should never think lightly of dishonest practices, Mrs. Grimes.
"Whoever is dishonest in little things, will be dishonest in great
things, if a good opportunity offer. Mrs. Comegys can never be to me
what she has been. That is impossible."
"Of course you will not speak of it again."
"You need have no fear of that."
A few days after, Mrs. Raynor made a call upon a friend, who said
"Have you heard about Mrs. Comegys?"
"What about her?"
"I supposed you knew it. _I've_ heard it from half a dozen persons.
It is said that Perkins, through a mistake of one of his clerks, sent
her home some fifteen or twenty yards of lawn more than she had paid
for, and that, instead of sending it back, she kept it and made it up
for her children. Did you ever hear of such a trick for an honest
"I don't think any honest woman would be guilty of such an act.
Yes, I heard of it a few days ago as a great secret, and have not
mentioned it to a living soul."
"Secret? bless me! it is no secret. It is in every one's mouth."
"Is it possible? I must say that Mrs. Grimes has been very
"Mrs. Grimes! Did it come from her in the first place?"
"Yes. She told me that she was present when the lawn came home, and
saw Mrs. Comegys measure it, and heard her say that she meant to keep
"Which she has done. For I saw her in the street, yesterday, with a
beautiful new lawn, and her little Julia was with her, wearing one
precisely like it."
"How any woman can do so is more than I can understand."
"So it is, Mrs. Raynor. Just to think of dressing your child up in
a frock as good as stolen! Isn't it dreadful?"
"It is, indeed!"
"Mrs. Comegys is not an honest woman. That is clear. I am told that
this is not the first trick of the kind of which she has been guilty.
They say that she has a natural propensity to take things that are not
"I can hardly believe that."
"Nor can I. But it's no harder to believe this than to believe that
she would cheat Perkins out of fifteen of twenty yards of lawn. It's
a pity; for Mrs. Comegys, in every thing else, is certainly a very
nice woman. In fact, I don't know any one I visit with so much
Thus the circle of detraction widened, until there was scarcely a
friend or acquaintance of Mrs. Comegys, near or remote, who had not
heard of her having cheated a dry goods dealer out of several yards
of lawn. Three, it had first been alleged; but the most common
version of the story made it fifteen or twenty. Meantime, Mrs.
Comegys remained in entire ignorance of what was alleged against her,
although she noticed in two or three of her acquaintances, a trifling
coldness that struck her as rather singular.
One day her husband, seeing that she looked quite sober, said—
"You seem quite dull to-day, dear. Don't you feel well?"
"Yes, I feel as well as usual, in body."
"But not in mind?"
"I do not feel quite comfortable in mind, certainly, though I don't
know that I have any serious cause of uneasiness."
"Though a slight cause exists. May I ask what it is?"
"It is nothing more nor less than that I was coolly _cut_ by an old
friend to-day, whom I met in a store on Chesnut street. And as she is
a woman that I highly esteem, both for the excellence of her
character, and the agreeable qualities, as a friend, that she
possesses. I cannot but feel a little bad about it. If she were one
of that capricious class who get offended with you, once a month, for
no just cause whatever, I should not care a fig. But Mrs. Markle is a
woman of character, good sense and good feeling, whose friendship I
have always prized."
"Was it Mrs. Markle?" said the husband, with some surprise.
"What can possibly be the cause?"
"I cannot tell."
"Have you thought over every thing?"
"Yes, I have turned and turned the matter in my mind, but can
imagine no reason why she, of all others, could treat me coolly."
"Have you never spoken of her in a way to have your words
misinterpreted by some evil-minded person—Mrs. Grimes, for
instance—whose memory, or moral sense, one or the other, is very
"I have never spoken of her to any one, except in terms of praise.
I could not do otherwise, for I look upon her as one of the most
faultless women I know."
"She has at least shown that she possesses one fault."
"What is that?"
"If she has heard any thing against you of a character so serious
as to make her wish to give up your acquaintance, she should at least
have afforded you the chance of defending yourself before condemning
"I think that, myself."
"It may be that she did not see you," Mr. Comegys suggested.
"She looked me in the face, and nodded with cold formality."
"Perhaps her mind was abstracted."
"It might have been so. Mine would have been very abstracted,
indeed, to keep me from a more cordial recognition of a friend."
"How would it do to call and see her?"
"I have been thinking of that. But my feelings naturally oppose it.
I am not conscious of having done any thing to merit a withdrawal of
the friendly sentiments she has held towards me; still, if she wishes
to withdraw them, my pride says, let her do so."
"But pride, you know, is not always the best adviser."
"No. Perhaps the less regard we pay to its promptings, the better."
"I think so."
"It is rather awkward to go to a person and ask why you have been
"I know it is. But in a choice of evils, is it not always wisest to
choose the least?"
"But is any one's bad opinion of you, if it be not correctly
formed, an evil?"
"Certainly it is."
"I don't know. I have a kind of independence about me which says,
'Let people think what they please, so you are conscious of no
"Indifference to the world's good or bad opinion is all very well,"
replied the husband, "if the world will misjudge us. Still, as any
thing that prejudices the minds of people against us, tends to
destroy our usefulness, it is our duty to take all proper care of our
reputations, even to the sacrifice of a little feeling in doing so."
Thus argued with by her husband, Mrs. Comegys, after turning the
matter over in her mind, finally concluded to go and see Mrs. Markle.
It was a pretty hard trial for her, but urged on by a sense of right,
she called upon her two or three days after having been treated so
coldly. She sent up her name by the servant. In about five minutes,
Mrs. Markle descended to the parlor, where her visitor was awaiting
her, and met her in a reserved and formal manner, that was altogether
unlike her former cordiality. It was as much as Mrs. Comegys could do
to keep from retiring instantly, and without a word, from the house.
But she compelled herself to go through with what she had begun.
Mrs. Markle did, indeed, offer her hand; or rather the tips of her
fingers; which Mrs. Comegys, in mere reciprocation of the formality,
accepted. Then came an embarrassing pause, after which the latter
"I see that I was not mistaken in supposing that there was a marked
coldness in your manner at our last meeting."
Mrs. Markle inclined her head slightly.
"Of course there is a cause for this. May I, in justice to myself
as well as others, inquire what it is?"
"I did not suppose you would press an inquiry on the subject,"
replied Mrs. Markle. "But as you have done so, you are, of course,
entitled to an answer."
There came another pause, after which, with a disturbed voice, Mrs.
"For some time, I have heard a rumor in regard to you, that I could
not credit. Of late it has been so often repeated that I felt it to
be my duty to ascertain its truth or falsehood. On tracing, with some
labor, the report to its origin, I am grieved to find that it is too
"Please say what it is," said Mrs. Comegys, in a firm voice.
"It is said that you bought a dress at a dry goods store in this
city, and that on its being sent home, there proved to be some yards
more in the piece of goods than you paid for and that instead of
returning what was not your own, you kept it and had it made up for
one of your children."
The face of Mrs. Comegys instantly became like crimson; and she
turned her head away to hide the confusion into which this unexpected
allegation had thrown her. As soon as she could command her voice, she
"You will, of course, give me the author of this charge."
"You are entitled to know, I suppose," replied Mrs. Markle. "The
person who originated this report is Mrs. Grimes. And she says that
she was present when the dress was sent home. That you measured it in
her presence, and that, finding there were several yards over, you
declared your intention to keep it and make of it a frock for your
little girl. And, moreover, that she saw Julia wearing a frock
afterwards, exactly like the pattern of the one you had, which she
well remembers. This seems to me pretty conclusive evidence. At least
it was so to my mind, and I acted accordingly."
Mrs. Comegys sat for the full space of a minute with her eyes upon
the floor, without speaking. When she looked up, the flush that had
covered her face had gone. It was very pale, instead. Rising from her
chair, she bowed formally, and without saying a word, withdrew.
"Ah me! Isn't it sad?" murmured Mrs. Markle, as she heard the
street door close upon her visitor. "So much that is agreeable and
excellent, all dimmed by the want of principle. It seems hardly
credible that a woman, with every thing she needs, could act
dishonestly for so small a matter. A few yards of lawn against
integrity and character! What a price to set upon virtue!"
Not more than half an hour after the departure of Mrs. Comegys,
Mrs. Grimes called in to see Mrs. Markle.
"I hope," she said, shortly after she was seated, "that you won't
say a word about what I told you a few days ago; I shouldn't have
opened my lips on the subject if you hadn't asked me about it. I only
mentioned it in the first place to a friend in whom I had the greatest
confidence in the world. She has told some one, very improperly, for
it was imparted to her as a secret, and in that way it has been spread
abroad. I regret it exceedingly, for I would be the last person in the
world to say a word to injure any one. I am particularly guarded in
"If it's the truth, Mrs. Grimes, I don't see that you need be so
anxious about keeping it a secret," returned Mrs. Markle.
"The truth! Do you think I would utter a word that was not true?"
"I did not mean to infer that you would. I believe that what you
said in regard to Mrs. Comegys was the fact."
"It certainly was. But then, it will do no good to make a
disturbance about it. What has made me call in to see you is this;
some one told me that, in consequence of this matter, you had dropped
the acquaintance of Mrs. Comegys."
"It is true; I cannot associate on intimate terms with a woman who
lacks honest principles."
"But don't you see that this will bring matters to a head, and that
I shall be placed in a very awkward position?"
"You are ready to adhere to your statement in regard to Mrs.
"Oh, certainly; I have told nothing but the truth. But still, you
can see that it will make me feel exceedingly unpleasant."
"Things of this kind are never very agreeable, I know, Mrs. Grimes.
Still we must act as we think right, let what will follow. Mrs.
Comegys has already called upon me to ask an explanation of my
conduct wards her."
"She has!" Mrs. Grimes seemed sadly distressed. "What did you say
"I told her just what I had heard."
"Did she ask your author?" Mrs. Grimes was most pale with suspense.
"Of course you did not mention my name."
"She asked the author of the charge, and I named you."
"Oh dear, Mrs. Markle! I wish you hadn't done that. I shall be
involved in a world of trouble, and the reputation of a tattler and
mischief-maker. What did she say?"
"Not one word."
"She didn't deny it?"
"Of course she could not. Well, that is some satisfaction at least.
She might have denied it, and tried make me out a liar, and there
would have been plenty to believe her word against mine. I am glad
she didn't deny it. She didn't say a word?"
"Did she look guilty?"
"You would have thought so, if you had seen her."
"What did she do?"
"She sat with her eyes upon the floor for some time, and then rose
up, and without uttering a word, left the house."
"I wish she had said something. It would have been a satisfaction
to know what she thought. But I suppose the poor woman was so
confounded, that she didn't know what to say."
"So it appeared to me. She was completely stunned. I really pitied
her from my heart. But want of principle should never be
countenanced. If we are to have social integrity, we must mark with
appropriate condemnation all deviations therefrom. It was exceedingly
painful, but the path of duty was before me, and I walked in it
Mrs. Grimes was neither so clear-sighted, nor so well satisfied
with what she had done, as all this. She left the house of Mrs. Markle
feeling very unhappy. Although she had been using her little unruly
member against Mrs. Comegys with due industry, she was all the while
on the most friendly terms with her, visiting at her house and being
visited. It was only a few days, before that she had taken tea and
spent an evening with her. Not that Mrs. Grimes was deliberately
hypocritical, but she had a free tongue, and, like too many in
society, more cautious about what they said than she, much better
pleased to see evil than good in a neighbour. There are very few of
us, perhaps, who have not something of this fault—an exceedingly bad
fault, by the way. It seems to arise from a consciousness of our own
imperfections and the pleasure we feel in making the discovery that
others are as bad, if not worse than we are.
Two days after Mrs. Comegys had called on Mrs. Markle to ask for
explanations, the latter received a note in the following words:
"MADAM.—I have no doubt you have acted according to your own views
of right in dropping as suddenly as you have done, the acquaintance
of an old friend. Perhaps, if you had called upon me and asked
explanations, you might have acted a little differently. My present
object in addressing you is to ask, as a matter of justice, that you
will call at my house to-morrow at twelve o'clock. I think that I am
entitled to speak a word in my own defense. After you have heard that
I shall not complain of any course you may think it right to pursue.
Mrs. Markle, could do no less than call as she had been desired to.
At twelve o'clock she rang the bell at Mrs. Comegys' door, and was
shown into the parlor, where, to her no small surprise, she found
about twenty ladies, most of them acquaintances, assembled, Mrs.
Grimes among the number. In about ten minutes Mrs. Comegys came into
the room, her countenance wearing a calm but sober aspect. She bowed
slightly, but was not cordial toward, or familiar with, any one
present. Without a pause she said—
"Ladies, I have learned within a few days, very greatly to my
surprise and grief, that there is a report circulated among my
friends, injurious to my character as a woman of honest principles. I
have taken some pains to ascertain those with whom the report is
familiar, and have invited all such to be here to-day. I learn from
several sources, that the report originated with Mrs. Grimes, and
that she has been very industrious in circulating it to my injury."
"Perhaps you wrong Mrs. Grimes there," spoke up Mrs. Markle. "She
did not mention it to me until I inquired of her if the report was
true. And then she told me that she had never told it but to a single
person, in confidence, and that she had inadvertently alluded to it,
and thus it became a common report. So I think that Mrs. Grimes cannot
justly be charged with having sought to circulate the matter to your
"Very well, we will see how far that statement is correct," said
Mrs. Comegys. "Did she mention the subject to you, Mrs. Raynor?"
"She did," replied Mrs. Raynor. "But in strict confidence, and
enjoining it upon me not to mention it to any one, as she had no wish
to injure you."
"Did you tell it to any one?"
"No. It was but a little while afterward that it was told to me by
some one else."
"Was it mentioned to you, Mrs. Florence?" proceeded Mrs. Comegys,
turning to another of the ladies present.
"It was, ma'am."
"By Mrs. Grimes?"
"In confidence, I suppose?"
"I was requested to say nothing about it, for fear that it might
create an unfavorable impression in regard to you."
"Very well; there are two already. How was it in your case, Mrs.
This lady answered as the others had done. The question was then
put to each lady in the room, when it appeared that out of the twenty,
fifteen had received their information on the subject from Mrs.
Grimes, and that upon every one secrecy had been enjoined, although
not in every case maintained.
"So it seems, Mrs. Markle," said Mrs. Comegys, after she had
finished her inquiries, "that Mrs. Grimes has, as I alleged,
industriously circulated this matter to my injury."
"It certainly appears so," returned Mrs. Markle, coldly.
Thus brought into a corner, Mrs. Grimes bristled up like certain
animals, which are good at running and skulking, but which, when
fairly trapped, fight desperately.
"Telling it to a thousand is not half as bad as doing it, Mrs.
Comegys," she said, angrily. "You needn't try to screen yourself from
the consequences of your wrong doings, by raising a hue and cry
against me. Go to the fact, madam! Go to the fact, and stand
alongside of what you have done."
"I have no hesitation about doing that, Mrs. Grimes. Pray, what
have I done?"
"It is very strange that you should ask, madam."
"But I am charged, I learn, with having committed a crime against
society; and you are the author of the charge. What is the crime?"
"If it is any satisfaction to you, I will tell you. I was at your
house when the pattern of the lawn dress you now have on was sent
home. You measured it in my presence, and there were several yards in
it more than you had bought and paid for"—
Mrs. Grimes looked confused, and stammered out, "I do not now
"How many did she tell you, Mrs. Raynor?"
"She said there were three yards."
"And you, Mrs. Fisher?"
"And you, Mrs. Florence?"
"Fifteen yards, I think."
"Oh, no, Mrs. Florence; you are entirely mistaken. You
misunderstood me," said Mrs. Grimes, in extreme perturbation.
"Perhaps so. But that is my present impression," replied Mrs.
"That will do," said Mrs. Comegys. "Mrs. Grimes can now go on with
her answer to my inquiry. I will remark, however, that the overplus
was just two yards."
"Then you admit that the lawn overran what you had paid for?"
"Certainly I do. It overran just two yards."
"Very well. One yard or a dozen, the principle is just the same. I
asked you what you meant to do with it, and you replied, 'keep it, of
course.' Do you deny that?"
"No. It is very likely that I did say so, for it was my intention
to keep it."
"Without paying for it?" asked Mrs. Markle.
Mrs. Comegys looked steadily into the face of her interrogator for
some moments, a flush upon her cheek, an indignant light in her eye.
Then, without replying to the question, she stepped to the wall and
rang the parlor bell. In a few moments a servant came in.
"Ask the gentleman in the dining-room if he will be kind enough to
step here." In a little while a step was heard along the passage, and
then a young man entered.
"You are a clerk in Mr. Perkins' store?" said Mrs. Comegys.
"You remember my buying this lawn dress at your store?"
"Very well, ma'am. I should forget a good many incidents before I
"What impressed it upon your memory?"
"This circumstance. I was very much hurried at the time when you
bought it, and in measuring it off, made a mistake against myself of
two yards. There should have been four dresses in the piece. One had
been sold previous to yours. Not long after your dress had been sent
home, two ladies came into the store and chose each a dress from the
pattern. On measuring the piece, I discovered that it was two yards
short, and lost the sale of the dresses in consequence, as the ladies
wished them alike. An hour afterward you called to say that I had made
a mistake and sent you home two yards more than you had paid for; but
that as you liked the pattern very much, you would keep it and buy two
yards more for a dress for your little girl."
"Yes; that is exactly the truth in regard to the dress. I am
obliged to you, Mr. S——, for the trouble I have given you. I will
not keep you any longer."
The young man bowed and withdrew.
The ladies immediately gathered around Mrs. Comegys, with a
thousand apologies for having for a moment entertained the idea that
she had been guilty of wrong, while Mrs. Grimes took refuge in a flood
"I have but one cause of complaint against you all," said the
injured lady, "and it is this. A charge of so serious a nature should
never have been made a subject of common report without my being
offered a chance to defend myself. As for Mrs. Grimes, I can't readily
understand how she fell into the error she did. But she never would
have fallen into it if she had not been more willing to think evil
than good of her friends. I do not say this to hurt her; but to state
a truth that it may be well for her, and perhaps some of the rest of
us, to lay to heart. It is a serious thing to speak evil of another,
and should never be done except on the most unequivocal evidence. It
never occurred to me to say to Mrs. Grimes that I would pay for the
lawn; that I supposed she or any one else would have inferred, when I
said I would keep it."
A great deal was said by all parties, and many apologies were made.
Mrs. Grimes was particularly humble, and begged all present to
forgive and forget what was past. She knew, she said, that she was
apt to talk; it was a failing with her which she would try to
correct. But that she didn't mean to do any one harm.
As to the latter averment, it can be believed or not as suits every
one's fancy. All concerned in this affair felt that they had received
a lesson they would not soon forget. And we doubt not, that some of
our readers might lay it to heart with great advantage to themselves
and benefit to others.
KATE DARLINGTON was a belle and a beauty; and had, as might be
supposed, not a few admirers. Some were attracted by her person; some
by her winning manners, and not a few by the wealth of her family. But
though sweet Kate was both a belle and a beauty, she was a shrewd,
clear-seeing girl, and had far more penetration into character than
belles and beauties are generally thought to possess. For the whole
tribe of American dandies, with their disfiguring moustaches and
imperials, she had a most hearty contempt. Hair never made up, with
her, for the lack of brains.
But, as she was an heiress in expectancy, and moved in the most
fashionable society, and was, with all, a gay and sprightly girl,
Kate, as a natural consequence, drew around her the gilded moths of
society, not a few of whom got their wings scorched, on approaching
Many aspired to be lovers, and some, more ardent than the rest,
boldly pressed forward and claimed her hand. But Kate did not believe
in the doctrine that love begets love in all cases. Were this so, it
was clear that she would have to love half a dozen, for at least that
number came kneeling to her with their hearts in their hands.
Mr. Darlington was a merchant. Among his clerks was the son of an
old friend, who, in dying some years before, had earnestly solicited
him to have some care over the lad, who at his death would become
friendless. In accordance with this last request, Mr. Darlington took
the boy into his counting-room; and, in order that he might, with more
fidelity, redeem his promise to the dying father, also received him
into his family.
Edwin Lee proved himself not ungrateful for the kindness. In a few
years he became one of Mr. Darlington's most active, trustworthy and
intelligent clerks; while his kind, modest, gentlemanly deportment at
home, won the favor and confidence of all the family. With Edwin, Kate
grew up as with a brother. Their intercourse was of the most frank and
But there came, at last, a change. Kate from a graceful
sweet-tempered, affectionate girl, stepped forth, almost in a day, it
seemed to Edwin, a full-grown, lovely woman, into whose eyes he could
not look as steadily as before, and on whose beautiful face he could
no longer gaze with the calmness of feeling he had until now enjoyed.
For awhile, Edwin could not understand the reason of this change.
Kate was the same to him; and yet not the same. There was no
distance—no reserve on her part; and yet, when he came into her
presence, he felt his heart beat more quickly; and when she looked
him steadily in the face, his eyes would droop, involuntarily,
beneath her gaze.
Suddenly, Edwin awoke to a full realization of the fact that Kate
was to him more than a gentle friend or a sweet sister. From that
moment, he became reserved in his intercourse with her; and, after a
short time, firmly made up his mind that it was his duty to retire
from the family of his benefactor. The thought of endeavoring to win
the heart of the beautiful girl, whom he had always loved as a
sister, and now almost worshipped, was not, for a moment entertained.
To him there would have been so much of ingratitude in this, and so
much that involved a base violation of Mr. Darlington's confidence,
that he would have suffered anything rather than be guilty of such an
But he could not leave the home where he had been so kindly
regarded for years, without offering some reason that would be
satisfactory. The true reason, he could not, of course, give. After
looking at the subject in various lights, and debating it for a long
time, Edwin could see no way in which he could withdraw from the
family of Mr. Darlington, without betraying his secret, unless he were
to leave the city at the same time. He, therefore, sought and obtained
the situation of supercargo in a vessel loading for Valparaiso.
When Edwin announced this fact to Mr. Darlington, the merchant was
greatly surprised, and appeared hurt that the young man should take
such a step without a word of consultation with him. Edwin tried to
explain; but, as he had to conceal the real truth, his explanation
rather tended to make things appear worse than better.
Kate heard the announcement with no less surprise than her father.
The thing was so sudden, so unlooked for, and, moreover, so uncalled
for, that she could not understand it. In order to take away any
pecuniary reason for the step he was about to take, Mr. Darlington,
after holding a long conversation with Edwin, made him offers far
more advantageous than his proposed expedition could be to him,
viewed in any light. But he made them in vain. Edwin acknowledged the
kindness, in the warmest terms, but remained firm in his purpose to
sail with the vessel.
"Why will you go away and leave us, Edwin?" said Kate, one evening
when they happened to be alone, about two weeks before his expected
departure. "I do think it very strange!"
Edwin had avoided, as much as possible, being alone with Kate, a
fact which the observant maiden had not failed to notice. Their being
alone now was from accident rather than design on his part.
"I think it right for me to go, Kate," the young man replied, as
calmly as it was possible for him to speak under the circumstances.
"And when I think it right to do a thing, I never hesitate or look
"You have a reason, for going, of course. Why, then, not tell it
frankly? Are we not all your friends?"
Edwin was silent, and his eyes rested upon the floor, while a
deeper flush than usual was upon his face. Kate looked at him fixedly.
Suddenly a new thought flashed through her mind, and the color on her
own cheeks grew warmer. Her voice from that moment was lower and more
tender; and her eyes, as she conversed with the young man, were never
a moment from his face. As for him, his embarrassment in her presence
was never more complete, and he betrayed the secret that was in his
heart even while he felt the most earnest to conceal it. Conscious of
this, he excused himself and retired as soon as it was possible to do
Kate sat thoughtful for some time after he had left. Then rising
up, she went, with a firm step to her father's room.
"I have found out," she said, speaking with great self-composure,
"the reason why Edwin persists in going away."
"Ah! what is the reason, Kate? I would give much to know."
"He is in love," replied Kate, promptly.
"In love! How do you know that?"
"I made the discovery to-night."
"Love should keep him at home, not drive him away," said Mr.
"But he loves hopelessly," returned the maiden. "He is poor, and
the object of his regard belongs to a wealthy family."
"And her friends will have nothing to do with him."
"I am not so sure of that. But he formed an acquaintance with the
young lady under circumstances that would make it mean, in his eyes,
to urge any claims upon her regard."
"Then honor as well as love takes him away."
"Honor in fact; not love. Love would make him stay," replied the
maiden with a sparkling eye, and something of proud elevation in the
tones of her voice.
A faint suspicion of the truth now came stealing on the mind of Mr.
"Does the lady know of his preference for her?" he asked.
"Not through any word or act of his, designed to communicate a
knowledge of the fact," replied Kate, her eyes falling under the
earnest look bent upon her by Mr. Darlington.
"Has he made you his confidante?"
"No, sir. I doubt if the secret has ever passed his lips." Kate's
face was beginning to crimson, but she drove back the tell-tale blood
with a strong effort of the will.
"Then how came you possessed of it," inquired the father.
The blood came back to her face with a rush, and she bent her head
so that her dark glossy curls fell over and partly concealed it. In a
moment or two she had regained her self-possession, and looking up she
"Secrets like this do not always need oral or written language to
make them known. Enough, father, that I have discovered the fact that
his heart is deeply imbued with a passion for one who knows well his
virtues—his pure, true heart—his manly sense of honor; with a
passion for one who has looked upon him till now as a brother, but who
henceforth must regard him with a different and higher feeling."
Kate's voice trembled. As she uttered the last few words, she lost
control of herself, and bent forward, and hid her face upon her
Mr. Darlington, as might well be supposed, was taken altogether by
surprise at so unexpected an announcement. The language used by his
daughter needed no interpretation. She was the maiden beloved by his
"Kate," said he, after a moment or two of hurried reflection, "this
is a very serious matter. Edwin is only a poor clerk, and you—"
"And I," said Kate, rising up, and taking the words from her
father, "and I am the daughter of a man who can appreciate what is
excellent in even those who are humblest in the eyes of the world.
Father, is not Edwin far superior to the artificial men who flutter
around every young lady who now makes her appearance in the circle
where we move? Knowing him as you do, I am sure you will say yes."
"Father, don't let us argue this point. Do you want Edwin to go
away?" And the young girl laid her hand upon her parent, and looked
him in the face with unresisting affection.
"No dear; I certainly don't wish him to go."
"Nor do I," returned the maiden, as she leaned forward again, and
laid her face upon his arm. In a little while she arose, and, with
her countenance turned partly away, said—
"Tell him not to go, father——"
And with these words she retired from the room.
On the next evening, as Edwin was sitting alone in one of the
drawing-rooms, thinking on the long night of absence that awaited
him, Mr. Darlington came in, accompanied by Kate. They seated
themselves near the young man, who showed some sense of
embarrassment. There was no suspense, however, for Mr. Darlington
"Edwin, we none of us wish you to go away. You know that I have
urged every consideration in my power, and now I have consented to
unite with Kate in renewing a request for you to remain. Up to this
time you have declined giving a satisfactory reason for your sudden
resolution to leave; but a reason is due to us—to me in
particular—and I now most earnestly conjure you to give it."
The young man, at this became greatly agitated, but did not venture
to make a reply.
"You are still silent on the subject," said Mr. Darlington.
"He will not go, father," said Kate, in a tender, appealing voice.
"I know he will not go. We cannot let him go. Kinder friends he will
not find anywhere than he has here. And we shall miss him from our
home circle. There will be a vacant place at our board. Will you be
happier away, Edwin?"
The last sentence was uttered in a tone of sisterly affection.
"Happier!" exclaimed the young man, thrown off his guard. "Happier!
I shall be wretched while away."
"Then why go?" returned Kate, tenderly.
At this stage of affairs, Mr. Darlington got up, and retired; and
we think we had as well retire with the reader.
The good ship "Leonora" sailed in about ten days. She had a
supercargo on board; but his name was not Edwin Lee.
Fashionable people were greatly surprised when the beautiful Kate
Darlington married her father's clerk; and moustached dandies curled
their lip, but it mattered not to Kate. She had married a man in
whose worth, affection, and manliness of character, she could repose
a rational confidence. If not a fashionable, she was a happy wife.