Provider by Fannie Hurst
Like a suckling to the warmth of the mother, the township of Newton
nestled pat against the flank of the city and drew from her through the
arteries of electric trains and interurbans, elevated roads and
Such clots coagulate around the city in the form of Ferndales and
Glencoves, Yorkvilles and Newtons, and from them have sprung full-grown
the joke paper and the electric lawn-mower, the
five-hundred-dollars-down bungalow, and the flower-seed catalogue.
The instinct to return to nature lies deep in men like music that
slumbers in harp-strings, but the return to nature via the
five-forty-six accommodation is fraught with chance.
Nature cannot abide the haunts of men; she faints upon the asphalt
bosom of the city. But to abide in the haunts of nature men's hearts
bleed. Behind that asphaltic bosom and behind faces too tired to smile,
hearts bud and leafen when millinery and open street-cars announce the
spring. Behind that asphaltic bosom the murmur of the brook is like an
insidious underground stream, and when for a moment it gushes to the
surface men pay the five hundred dollars down and inclose return
postage for the flower-seed catalogue.
The commuter lives with his head in the rarefied atmosphere of his
thirty-fifth-story office, his heart in the five-hundred-dollars-down
plot of improved soil, and one eye on the time-table.
For longer than its most unprogressive dared hope, the township of
Newton lay comfortable enough without the pale, until one year the
interurban reached out steel arms and scooped her to the bosom of the
Overnight, as it were, the inoculation was complete. Bungalows and
one-story, vine-grown real-estate offices sprang up on large,
light-brown tracts of improved property, traffic sold by the book. The
new Banner Store, stirred by the heavy, three-trolley interurban cars
and the new proximity of the city, swung a three-color electric sign
across the sidewalk and instituted a trading-stamp system. But in spite
of the three-color electric sign and double the advertising space in
the Newton Weekly Gazette, Julius Binswanger felt the suction of
the city drawing at his strength, and at the close of the second summer
he took invoice and frowned at what he saw.
The frown remained an indelible furrow between his eyes. Mrs.
Binswanger observed it across the family table one Saturday, and paused
in the epic rite of ladling soup out of a tureen, a slight pucker on
her large, soft-fleshed face.
Honest, Julius, when you come home from the store nights right away
I get the blues.
Mr. Binswanger glanced up from his soup and regarded his wife above
the bulging bib of his napkin. Late sunshine percolated into the
dining-room through a vine that clambered up the screen door and
flecked a design like coarse lace across his inquiring features.
Right away you get what, Becky?
Right away I get the blues. A long face you've had for so long I
Ya, ya, Becky, something you got to have to talk about. A long face
she puts on me yet, children.
Ain't I right, Poil; ain't I, Izzy? Ask your own children!
Mr. Isadore Binswanger shrugged his custom-made shoulders until the
padding bulged like the muscles of a heavy-weight champion, and tossed
backward the mane of his black pompadour.
Ma, I keep my mouth closed. Every time I open it I put my foot in
Mr. Binswanger waggled a rheumatic forefinger.
A dude like you with a red-and-white shirt like I wouldn't keep in
See, ma, you started something.
'Sh-h-h! Julius! For your own children I'm ashamed. Once a week
Izzy comes out to supper, and like a funeral it is. For your own
children to be afraid to open their mouths ain't nothing to be proud
of. Right now your own daughter is afraid to begin to tell you
somethingsomething what's happened. Ain't it, Poil?
Miss Pearl Binswanger tugged a dainty bite out of a slice of bread,
and showed the oval of her teeth against the clear, gold-olive of her
skin. The same scarf of sunshine fell like a Spanish shawl across her
shoulders, and lay warm on her little bosom and across her head, which
was small and dark as Giaconda's.
I ain't saying nothing, am I, mamma? The minute I try to talk to
papa aboutabout moving to the city or anything, he gets excited like
the store was on fire.
Ya, ya, more as that I get excited over such nonsenses.
No, to your papa you children say nothing. It's me that gets my
head dinned full. Your children, Julius, think that for me you do
anything what I ask you; but I don't see it. Pass your papa the
dumplings, Poil. Can I help it that he carries on him a face like a
Na, na, Becky; for why should I have a long face? To-morrow I buy
me a false face like on Valentine's Day, and then you don't have to
look at me no more.
See! Right away mad he gets with me. Izzy, them noodles I made only
on your account; in the city you don't get 'em like that, huh? Some
more Kartoffel Salad, Julius?
Ya, but not so much! My face don't suit my wife and children yet,
that's the latest.
Three times a day all week, Izzy, I ask your papa if he don't feel
right. 'Yes,' he says, always 'yes.' Like I says to Poil, what's got
him since he's in the new store I don't know.
Ach, youthe whole three of you make me sick! What you want
me to do, walk the tight rope to show what a good humor I got?
No; we want, Julius, that you should come home every night with a
long face on you till for the neighbors I'm ashamed.
A little more Kartoffel Salad, Becky? Not so much!
Like they don't talk enough about us already. With a young lady in
the house we live out here where the dogs won't bark at us.
I only wish all girls had just so good a home as Pearlie.
Aw, papa, that ain't no argument! I'd rather live in a coop in the
city, where a girl can have some life, than in a palace out in this
Hole, she calls a room like this! A dining-room set she sits on
what her grandfather made with his own hands out of the finest cherry
For a young girl can you blame her? She feels like if she lived in
the city she would meet people and Izzy's friends. Talk for yourself,
Boys like Ignatz Landauer and Max Teitlebaum, what he meets at the
Young Men's Association. Talk for yourself, Poil.
Poil's got a tenant for the house, Julius. I ain't afraid to tell
I don't listen to such nonsense.
From the real-estate offices they sent 'em, Julius, and Poil took
'em through. Furnished off our hands they take it for three months,
till their bungalow is done for 'em. Forty dollars for a house like
ours on the wrong side of town away from the improvements ain't so bad.
A grand young couple, no children. Izzy thinks it's a grand idea, too,
Julius. He says if we move to the city he don't have to live in such a
dark little hall-room no more. To the hotel he can come with us on
family rates just so cheap. Ain't it, Izzy?
Mr. Isadore Binswanger broke his conspiracy of silence gently, like
a skeptic at breakfast taps his candle-blown egg with the tip of a
silver spoon once, twice, thrice, then opens it slowly, suspiciously.
I said, pa, that with forty dollars a month rent from the house,
In my own house, where I belong and can afford, I stay. I'm an old
Not so fast, pa, not so fast! I only said that with forty dollars
from the house for three months this winter you can live almost as
cheap in the city as here. And for me to come out every Saturday night
to take Pearlie to the theater ain't such a cinch, neither. Take a boy
like Max Teitlebaum, he likes her well enough to take her to the
theater hisself, but by the time he gets out here for her he ain't go
no enjoyment left in him.
When a young man likes well enough a young lady, a
forty-five-minutes street-car ride is like nothing.
Aw, papa, in story-books such talk is all right, but when a young
man has got to change cars at Low Bridge and wait for the Owl going
home it don't work out so easydoes it Izzy, does it, mamma?
For three years, pa, even before I got my first job in the city,
always mamma and Pearlie been wantin' a few months away.
With my son in the city losing every two months his job I got
enough city to last me so long as I live. When in my store I need so
bad a good young man for the new-fashioned advertising and stock, to
the city he has to go for a salesman's job. When a young man can't get
along in business with his old father I don't go running after him in
Pa, for heaven's sakes don't begin that! I'm sick of listening to
it. Newton ain't no place for a fellow to waste his time in.
What else you do in the city, I like to know!
Julius, leave Izzy alone when one night a week he comes home.
For my part you don't need to move to the city. I only said to
Pearlie and ma, when they asked me, that a few months in a family hotel
like the Wellington can't bust you. For me to come out home every
Saturday night to take Pearlie into the theater ain't no cinch. In town
there's plenty of grand boys that I know who live at the
WellingtonIgnatz Landauer, Max Teitlebaum, and all that crowd.
Yourself I've heard you say how much you like Max.
For why, when everybody is moving out to Newton, we move away?
That's just it, papa, now with the interurban boom you got the
chance to sublet. Ain't it, mamma and Izzy?
Ya, ya; I know just what's coming, but for me Newton is good
What about your children, Julius? You ain't the only one in the
Twenty-five year I've lived in this one place since the store was
only so big as this room, and on this house we didn't have a second
story. A home that I did everything but build with my own hands I don't
move out of so easy. Such ideas you let your children pump you with,
See, children, you say he can't never refuse me nothing; listen how
he won't let me get in a word crossways before he snaps me off. If we
sublet, Julius, we
Sublet we don't neither! I should ride forty-five minutes into the
city after my hard day's work, when away from the city forty-five
minutes every one else is riding. My house is my house, my yard is my
yard. I don't got no ideas like my high-toned son and daughter for a
hotel where to stretch your feet you got to pay for the space.
Listen to your papa, children, even before I got my mouth open good
how he talks back to a wife that nursed him through ten years of
bronchitis. All he thinks I'm good enough for is to make poultices and
rub on his chest goose grease.
Ach, Becky, don't fuss so with your old man. Look, even the
cat you got scared. Here, Billyhere, kitty, kitty.
Ain't I asked you often enough, Julius, not to feed on the carpet a
piece of meat to the cat? 'Sh-h-h-h, Billy, scat! All that I'm good
enough for is to clean up. How he talks to his wife yet!
Miss Binswanger caught her breath on the crest of a sob and pushed
her untouched plate toward the center of the table; tears swam on a
heavy film across her eyes and thickened her gaze and voice.
Thisain'tnohole forfor a girl to live in.
All I wish is you should never live in a worse.
I ain't got nothin' here, papa, but sit and sit and sit on the
porch every night with you and mamma. When Izzy comes out once a week
to take me to a show, how he fusses and fusses you hear for yourselves.
For a girl nearlytwentyit ain't no joke.
It ain't, papa; it ain't no joke for me to have to take her in and
out every week, lemme tell you.
Eat your supper, Poil; not eating don't get you nowheres with your
II don't want nothin'.
A tear wigglewaggled down Miss Binswanger's smooth cheek, and she
fumbled at her waist-line for her handkerchief.
III just wish sometimes Iwas dead.
Mr. Binswanger shot his bald head outward suddenly, as a turtle
darts forward from its case, and rapped the table noisily with his fist
clutched around an upright fork, and his voice climbing to a falsetto.
II wish in my life I had never heard the name of the city.
Now, Julius, don't begin.
Ruination it has brought me. My boy won't stay by me in the store
so he can't gallivant in the city; my goil won't talk to me no more for
madness because we ain't in the city; my wife eats out of me my heart
because we ain't in the city. For supper every night when I come home
tired from the store all I get served to me is the city. I can't
swallow no more! Money you all think I got what grows on trees, just
because I give all what I got. You should know how tighthow tight I
got to squeeze for it.
Mrs. Binswanger threw her arms apart in a wide gesture of
See, children, just as soon as I say a word, mad like a wet hen he
gets and right away puts on a poor mouth.
Mad yet I shouldn't get with such nonsense. Too good they both got
it. Always I told you how we spoilt 'em.
Don't holler so, pa.
Don't tell me what to do! You with your pretty man suit and your
hair and finger-nails polished like a shoe-shine. You go to the city,
and I stay home where I belong in my own house.
His housealways his house!
Ya, a eight-room house and running water she's got if she wants to
have company. Your mamma didn't have no eight rooms and finished attic
when she was your age. In back of a feed store she sat me. Too good you
got it, I say. New hard-wood floors down-stairs didn't I have to put
in, and electric light on the porch so your company don't break his
neck? Always something new, and now no more I can't eat a meal in
I should worry that the Teitlebaums and the Landauers live in a
fine family hotel in Seventy-second Street. Such people with big stores
in Sixth Avenue can buy and sell us. Not even if I could afford it
would I want to give up my house and my porch, where I can smoke my
pipe, and my comforts that I worked for all my life, and move to the
city in rooms so little and so far up I can't afford to pay for 'em. I
should give up my chickens and my comforts!
Your comforts, always your comforts! Do I think of my
Ma, don't you and pa begin now with your fussing. Like cats you are
one minute and the next like doves.
Don't boss me in my own house, Izzy! So afraid your papa is that he
won't get all the comforts what's coming to him. I wish you was so good
to me as you are to that cat, Juliustwice I asked you not to feed him
on the carpet. Scat, Billy!
Pass me some noodles, maw.
Good ones, eh, Izzy?
I ask you, is it more comfortable, Julius, for me to be cooped up
in the city in rooms that all together ain't as big as my kitchen? No,
but of my children I think too besides my own comforts.
Ya, ya; now, Becky, don't get excited. Look at your mamma, Pearlie;
shame on her, eh? How mad she gets at me till blue like her wrapper her
My house and my yard so smooth like your hand, and my big porch and
my new laundry with patent wringer is more to me as a hotel in the
city. But when I got a young lady daughter with no attentions and no
prospects I can't think always of my own comforts.
Ya, ya, Becky; don't get excited.
Don't yaya me, neither.
Ach, old lady, that only means how much I love you.
We got a young lady daughter; do you want that she should sit and
sit and sit till for ever we got a daughter, only she ain't young no
more. I tell you out here ain't no place for a young goilwhat has she
Yes, papa; what have I got? The trees for company!
Do you see, Julius, in the new bungalows any families moving in
with young ladies? Would even your son Isadore what ain't a young lady
stay out here when he was old enough to get hisself a job in the city?
That a boy should leave his old father like that!
Wasn't you always kickin' to me, pa, that there wasn't a future in
the business after the transaction camewasn't you?
No more arguments you get with me!
What chance, Julius, I ask you, has a goil like Poil got out here
in Newton? To sit on the front porch nights with Meena Schlossman don't
get her nowheres; to go to the movingpictures with Eddie Goldstone,
what can't make salt for hisself, ain't nothing for a goil that hopes
to do well for herself. If she only looks out of the corner of her eye
at Mike Donnely three fits right away you take!
Gott, that's what we need yet!
See, even when I mention it, look at him, Poil, how red he gets!
But should she sit and sit?
Ach, such talk makes me sick. Plenty girls outside the city
gets better husbands as in it. Na, na, mamma, did you find me in the
Ach, Julius, stop foolin'. When I got you for a husband
enough trouble I found for myself.
In my business like it goes down every day, Becky, I ain't got the
right to make a move.
See, the poor mouth again! Just so soon as we begin to talk about
things. A man that can afford only last March to take out a new
five-thousand-dollar life-insurance policy
For why shouldn't your children know it? Yes, up-stairs in my
little green box along with my cameo ear-rings and gold watch-chain I
got it put away, children. A new life-insurance policy on light-blue
paper, with a red seal I put only last week. When a man that never had
any insurance before takes it out so easy he can afford it.
Notnot because I could afford it I took it, Becky, but with
business low I squeeze myself a little to look ahead.
Only since we got the new store you got so tight. Now you got more
you don't let it go so easy. A two-story brick with plate-glass fronts
now, and always a long face.
A long face! You should be worried like I with big expenses and big
stock and little business. Why you think I take out a policy so late at
such a terrible premium? Why? So when I'm gone you got something
Just such a poor mouth you had, Julius, when we wanted on the
I ask you, Becky: one thing that you and the children ever wanted
ain't I found a way to get it for you? I ask you?
Ya, but a woman that was always economical like me you didn't need
to refuse. Never for myself I asked for things.
Ach, ma and pa, don't begin that on the one night a week I'm
So economical all my life I been. Till Izzy was ashamed to go to
school in 'em I made him pants out of yours. You been a good husband,
but I been just as good a wife, and don't you forget it!
Na, na, old lady; don't get excited again. But right here at my
table, even while I hate you should have to know it, Becky, in front of
your children I say it, II'm all mortgaged up, even on this house
On the old store you was mortgaged, too. In a business a man has
got to raise money on his assets. Didn't you always say that yourself?
Business is business.
But I ain't got the business no more, Becky. II ain't said
nothing, butbut next week I close out the trimmed hats, Becky.
Trimmed hats! Julius, your finest department.
For why I keep a department that don't pay its salt? I ain't like
you three; looks ain't everything.
I know. I know. Ten years ago the biggest year what we ever had you
closed out the rubber coats, too, right in the middle of the season. A
poor mouth you'd have, Julius, if right now you was eating gold
dumplings instead of chicken dumplings.
Na, na, Becky; don't pick on your old man.
Since we been married I
Aw, ma and pa, go hire a hall.
Suddenly Miss Binswanger clattered down her fork and pushed backward
from the table; tears streamed toward the corners of her mouth.
That's always the way! What's the use of getting off the track? All
we want to say, papa, is we got a chance like we never had before to
sublet. Forty dollars a month, and no children. For three months we
could live in the city on family rates, and maybe for three months I'd
know I was alive. Aa girl's got feelings, papa! And, honest, itit
ain't no trip, papawhat's forty-five minutes on the car with your
newspaper?honest, papa, it ain't.
Mr. Isadore Binswanger drained a glass of water.
Give 'er a chance, pa. The boys'll show her a swell time in the
cityMax Teitlebaum and all that crowd. It ain't no fun for me
traipsin' out after her, lemme tell you.
Mr. Binswanger pushed back his chair and rose from the table. His
eyes, the wet-looking eyes of age and asthma, retreated behind a
network of wrinkles as intricate as overhead wiring.
I wish, he cried, I was as far as the bottom of the ocean away
from such nonsense as I find in my own family. Up to my neck I'm full.
Like wolfs you are! On my neck I can feel your breath hot like a
furnace. Like wolfs you drive me till II can't stand it no more. All
what I ask is my peacemy little house, my little pipe, my little
porch, and not even my peace can I have. Youyou're a pack of wolfs, I
tell youeven your fangs I can see, andand II wish I was so far
away as the bottom of the ocean.
He shambled toward the door on legs bent to the cruel curve of
rheumatism. The sun had dropped into a bursting west, and was as red as
a mist of blood. Its reflection lay on the smooth lawn and hung in the
dark shadows of quiet trees, and through the fulvous haze of evening's
first moment came the chirruping of crickets.
I wish I was so far away as the bottom of the ocean.
The tight-springed screen door sprang shut on his words, and his
footsteps shambled across the wide ledge of porch. A silence fell
across the little dining-table, and Miss Binswanger wiped at fresh
tears, but her mother threw her a confident gesture of reassurance.
Don't say no more now for a while, children.
Mr. Isadore Binswanger inserted a toothpick between his lips and
stretched his limbs out at a hypotenuse from the chair.
I'm done. I knew the old man would jump all over me.
Izzy, you and Poil go on now; for the theater you won't catch the
seven-ten car if you don't hurry. Leave it to me, Poil; I can tell by
your papa's voice we got him won. How he fusses like just now don't
make no difference; you know how your papa is. Here, Poil, lemme help
you with your coat.
II don't want to go, mamma!
Ach, now, Poil, you
If you're coming with me you'd better get a hustle. I ain't going
to hang around this graveyard all evening.
Her brother rose to his slightly corpulent five feet five and shook
his trousers into their careful creases. His face was a soft-fleshed
rather careless replica of his mother's, with a dimple-cleft chin, and
a delicate down of beard that made his shaving a manly accomplishment
rather than a hirsute necessity.
Here on the sideboard is your hat, Poilpowder a little around
your eyes. Just leave papa to me, Poil. Ach, how sweet that hat
with them roses out of stock looks on you! Come out here the side way
ach, how nice it is out here on the porch! How short the days
getdark nearly already at seven! Good-by, children. Izzy, take your
sister by the arm; the whole world don't need to know you're her
Leave the door on the latch, mamma.
Have a good time, children. Ain't you going to say good-by to your
papa, Poil? Your worst enemy he ain't. Julius, leave Billy
alonehonest, he likes that cat better as his family. Tell your papa
She should say good-by to me only if she wants to. Izzy, when you
go out the gate drive back that roosterI'll wring his little
gallivantin' neck if he don't stop roosting in that bush!
Good night, children; take good care of the cars.
Good night, mamma...papa.
The gate clicked shut, and the two figures moved into the mist of
growing gloom; over their heads the trees met and formed across the
brick sidewalk a roof as softly dark as the ceiling of a church. Birds
Mrs. Binswanger leaned her wide, uncorseted figure against a pillar
and watched them until a curve in the avenue cut her view, then she
dragged a low wicker rocker across the veranda.
We can sit out on the porch a while yet, Julius. Not like midsummer
it is for your rheumatism.
Ya, ya. My slippers, Becky.
Look across the yard, will you, Julius. The Schlossmans are still
at the supper-table. Fruit gelatin they got. I seen it cooling on the
fence. We got new apples on the side-yard tree, you wouldn't believe,
Julius. To-morrow I make pies.
The light tulle of early evening hung like a veil, and through it
the sad fragrance of burning leaves, which is autumn's incense, drifted
from an adjoining lawn.
'Sh-h-h-h, chickeysh-h-h-h! Back in the yard I can't keep that
rooster, Julius. And to-day for thirty cents I had that paling in the
garden fence fixed, too. Honest, to keep a yard like ours going is an
expense all the time. People in the city without yards is lucky.
In all Newton there ain't one like ours. Look, Becky, at that
white-rose bush flowering so late just like she was a bride.
When Izzy was home always, we didn't have the expense of weeding.
Now when he comes home all he does is change neckties and make
Ach, my moon vines! Don't get your chair so close, Julius.
Look how those white flowers open right in your face. One by one like
big stars coming out.
M-m-m-m and smell, Becky, how good!
Here, lemme pull them heavy shoes off for you, papa. Listen, there
goes that oriole up in the cherry-tree again. Listen to the thrills
he's got in him. Pull, Julius; I ain't no derrick!
Ah-h-h, how good it feels to get 'em off! Now light my pipe, Becky.
Always when you light it, better it tastes. Holdtheremake out of
your hand a cuptherepu-pu-puthere! Now sit down by me, Becky!
Ach, Becky, when we got our little home like this, with a
yard so smooth as my hand, where we don't need shoes or collars, and
with our own fruit right under our noses, for why ain't you satisfied?
For myself, Julius, believe me it's too good, but for Poil we
Look all what you can see right here from our porch! Look there
through the trees at the river; right in front of our eyes it bends for
us. Look what a street we live on. We should worry it ain't in the
booming part. Quiet like a temple, with trees on it older as you and me
The caterpillars is bad this year, Julius; trees ain't so cheap,
neither. In the city such worries they ain't got.
For what with a place like this, Becky, with running water and
It's Poil, Julius. Not a thing a beau-ti-fool girl like Poil has
Nonsense. It's a sin she should want a better place as this. Ain't
she got a plush parlor and a piano and
It's like Izzy says, Julius: there's too many fine goils in the
city for the boys to come out here on a forty-five-minute ride. What
boys has she got out here, Mike Donnely and
That's what we need; just something like that should happen to us.
But, believe me, it's happened before when a girl ain't got no better
to pick from. How I worry about it you should know.
Becky, with even such talk you make me sick.
Mark my word, it's happened before, Julius! That's why I say,
Julius, a few months in the city this winter and she could meet the
right young man. Take a boy like Max Teitlebaum. Yourself you said how
grand and steady he is. Twice with Izzy he's been out here, and not
once his eyes off Poil did he take.
Teitlebaum, with a store twice so big as ours on Sixth Avenue,
don't need to look for ustwice they can buy and sell us.
Isthatso! To me that makes not one difference. Put Poil in the
city, where it don't take an hour to get to be, and, ach, almost
anything could happen! Not once did he take his eyes off hersuch a
grand, quiet boy, too.
When a young man's got thoughts, forty-five minutes' street-car
ride don't keep him away.
Nonsense! I always say I never feel hungry till I see in front of
me a good meal. If I have to get dressed and go out and market for it I
don't want it. It's the same with marriage. You got to work up in the
young man the appetite. What they don't see they don't get hungry for.
They got to get eyes bigger as their stomachs first.
Such talk makes me sick. Suppose she don't get married, ain't she
got a good home and
An old maid you want yet! A beau-ti-fool goil like our Poil he
wants to make out of her an old maid, or she should break her parents'
hearts with a match like Mike Donnely
Aw, Julius, now we got the chance to rent for three months. Say we
live them three months at the Wellington Hotel. Say it costs us a
little more; everybody always says what a grand provider you are,
Julius; let them say a little more, Julius.
II ain't got the money, Becky, I tell you. For me to refuse what
you want is like I stick a knife in my heart, but I got poor business,
Maybe in the end, Julius, it's the cheapest thing we ever done.
I can't afford it, Becky.
For only three months we can go, Julius.
I got notes, Becky, notes already twice extended. If I don't meet
in March God knows where
Ya, ya, Julius; all that talk I know by heart!
I ain't getting no younger neither, Becky. Hardly through the
insurance examination I could get. I ain't so strong no more. When I
get big worries I don't sleep so good. I ain't so well nights, Becky.
Always the imagination sickness, Julius.
I ain't so well, I tell you, Becky.
Last time when all you had was the neuralgia, and you came home
from the store like you was dying, Dr. Ellenburg told me hisself right
here on this porch that never did he know a man so nervous of dying
I can't help it, Becky.
If I was so afraid like you of dying, Julius, not one meal could I
enjoy. A healthy man like you with nothing but the rheumatism and a
little asthma. Only last week you came home pale like a ghost with a
pain in your side, when it wasn't nothing but where your pipe burnt a
hole in your pants pocket to give me some more mending to do.
Just for five minutes you should have felt that pain!
Honest, Julius, to be a coward like you for dying it ain't
nicehonest, it ain't.
Always, Becky, when I think I ain't always going to be with you and
the children such a feeling comes over me.
Ach, Julius, be quiet! Without you I might just as well be
I'm getting old, Becky; sixty-six ain't no spring chicken no more.
That's right, Julius; stick knives in me.
Life is short, Becky; we must be happy while we got each other.
Life is short, Julius, and for our children we should do all
what we can. We can't always be with them, Julius. Wewe must do the
right thing by 'em. Like you say wewe're getting oldtogether,
Julius. We don't want nothing to reproach ourselves with.
Ya, ya, Becky.
Darkness fell thickly, like blue velvet portières swinging together,
and stars sprang out in a clear sky.
They rocked in silence, their heads touching. The gray cat, with
eyes like opals, sprang into the hollow of Mr. Binswanger's arm.
Billy, you come to sit by mamma and me? Ni-ce Bil-ly!
We go in now, papa; in the damp you get rheumatism.
Ya, ya, Beckyhear how he purrs, like an engine.
Come on, papa; damper every minute it gets.
He rose with his rheumatic jerkiness, placed the cat gently on all
fours on the floor, and closed his fingers around the curve of his
wife's outstretched arm.
Whenwhen we gogo to the city, Becky, we don't sublet Billy;
wewe take him with us, not, Becky?
Ya, ya, Becky.
* * * * *
The chief sponsors for the family hotel are neurasthenia and bridge
whist, the inability of the homemaker and the debility of the
Under these invasions Hestia turns out the gas-logs, pastes a To Let
sign on the windows, locks the front door behind her, and gives the key
to the auctioneer.
The family holds out the dining-room clock and a pair of silver
candlesticks that came over on the stupendously huge cargo which time
and curio dealers have piled upon the good ship Mayflower;
engages a three-room suite on the ninth floor of a European-plan hotel,
and inaugurates upon the sly American paradox of housekeeping in
The Wellington Hotel was a rococo haven for such refugees from the
modern social choler, and its doors flew open and offered them a family
rate, excellent cuisine, quarantine.
Excellent cuisine, however, is a clever but spiceless parody on home
Mr. Binswanger read his evening menu with the furrow deepening
between his eyes.
Such a soup they got! Mulla-ga-what?
'Shh-h-h, papa; mullagatawny! Rice soup.
Mullagatawny! Fine mess!
'Shh-h-h, Julius; don't talk so loud. Does the whole dining-room
got to know you don't know nothing?
Mrs. Binswanger took nervous résumé of the red-and-gold,
For a plate of noodles soup, Becky, they can have all their
mullagatawny! Fifteen cents for a plate of soup, Becky, and at home for
that you could make a whole pot full twice so good.
Don't 'sh-h-h-h-h me no more neither, Pearlie. Five months,
from October to February, I been shooed like I was one of our roosters
at home got over in Schlossman's yard. There, you read for me, Izzy;
such language I don't know.
Isadore took up a card and crinkled one eye in a sly wink toward his
mother and sister.
Rinderbrust und Kartoffel Salad, pa, mit Apful Küchen und
Ya, ya, make fun yet! A square meal like that should happen to me
yet in a highway-robbery place like this.
Mrs. Binswanger straightened her large-bosomed, stiff-corseted
figure in its large-design, black-lace basque, and pulled gently at her
daughter's flesh-colored chiffon sleeve, which fell from her shoulders
like angels' wings.
Look across the room, Poil. There's Max just coming in the
dining-room with his mother. Always the first thing he looks over at
our table. Bow, Julius; don't you see across the room the Teitlebaums
coming in? I guess old man Teitlebaum is out on the road again.
Miss Binswanger flushed the same delicate pink as her chiffon, and
showed her oval teeth in a vivid smile.
Ain't he silly, though, to-night, mamma! Look, when he holds up two
fingers at me it means first he takes his mother up to her pinochle
club, and then by nine o'clock he comes back to me.
How good that woman has got it! Look, Poil, another waist she's
Look how he pulls out the chair for his mother, Izzy. It would hurt
you to do that for me and mamma, wouldn't it?
Say, missy, I learnt manners two years before you ever done
anything but hold down the front porch out on Newton Avenue. I'd been
meetin' Max Teitlebaum and Ignatz Landauer and that crowd over at the
Young Men's Association before you'd ever been to the movie with
anybody except Meena Schlossman.
I don't see that all your good start got you anywheres.
Don't let swell society go to your head, missy. You ain't got Max
yet, neither. You ought to be ashamed to be so crazy about a boy. Wait
till I tell you something when we get up-stairs that'll take some of
your kink out, missy.
Children, children, hush your fussing! Julius, don't read all the
names off the bill of fare.
Miss Binswanger regarded her brother under level brows, and threw
him a retort that sizzed across the table like drops of water on a hot
Anyways, if I was a fellow that couldn't keep a job more than two
months at a time I'd lay quiet. I wouldn't be out of a job all the
time, and beggin' my father to set me up in business when I was always
getting fired from every place I worked.
Well, he always starts with me, mamma.
Izzy, ain't you got no respect for your sister? For Gawd's sakes
take that bill of fare away from your papa, Izzy. He'll burn a hole in
it. Always the prices he reads out loud till so embarrassed I get. No
ears and eyes he has for anything else. He reads and reads, but enough
he don't eat to keep alive a bird.
Mr. Binswanger drew his spectacles off his nose, snapped them into a
worn-leather case and into his vest pocket; a wan smile lay on his
I got only eyes for you, Becky, eh? All dressed up, ain't
you?black lace yet! What you think of your mamma, children? Young she
The little bout of tenderness sent a smile around the table, and
behind the veil of her lashes Miss Binswanger sent the arrow of a
glance across the room.
Honest, mamma, I wonder if Max sees anything green on me.
He sees something sweet on you, maybe, Poil. Izzy, pass your papa
some radishes. Not a thing does that man eat, and such an appetite he
used to have.
Radishes better as these we get in our yard at home. Ten cents for
six radishes! Against my appetite it goes to eat 'em, when in my yard
Home, always home!
Papa, please don't put your napkin in your collar like a bib.
Mamma, make him take it out. Honest, even for the waiter I'm ashamed.
How he watches us, too, and laffs behind the tray.
Leave me alone, Pearlie. My shirt-front I don't use for no bib!
Laundry rates in this hold-up place ain't so cheap.
Mamma, please make him take it out.
Look, papa, at the Teitlebaums and Schoenfeldts, laughing at us,
papa. Look now at him, mamma; just for to spite me he bends over and
drinks his soup out loud out of the tip of his spoonplease, papa.
Mr. Binswanger jerked his napkin from its mooring beneath each ear
and peered across at his daughter with his face as deeply creased as a
I wish, he said, low in his throat, and with angry emphasis
quivering his lips behind the gray and black bristles of his
mustacheten times a day I wish I was back in my little house in
Newton, where I got my comfort and my peaceyou children I got to
thank for this, you children.
Mr. Isadore Binswanger replaced his spoon in his soup-plate and
leaned back against his chair.
Aw now, papa, for God's sakes don't begin!
You good-for-nothing, you! With your hair combed up straight on
your head like a girl's, and a pleated shirt like I'd be ashamed to
carry in stock, you got no put-in! If I give you five thousand dollars
for a business for yourself you don't care so much what kind of manners
I got. Five thousand dollars he asks me for to go in business when he
ain't got it in him to keep a job for six months.
The last job wasn't
Right now in this highway-robbery hotel you got me into, I got to
pay your board for youif you want five thousand dollars from me you
got to get rid of me some way, for my insurance policy is all I can
say. And sometimes I wish you wouldeasier for me it would be.
His son crumpled his napkin and tossed it toward the center of the
table. His soft, moist lips were twisted in anger, and his voice, under
cover of a whisper, trembled with that same anger.
For what little board you've paid for me I can't hear about it no
more. I'll go out and
'Sh-h-h, Izzy'sh-h-h, papa, all over the dining-room they can
hear you, 'sh-h-h!
Home I ain't never denied my childrenopen doors they get always
in my house but in a highway-robbery hotel, where I can't afford
We got the cheapest family rates here. Such rates we get here,
children, and highway robbery your father calls it!
Five months we been in the city, and three months already a empty
house standing out there waiting, and nothing from it coming in. A
house I love like my life, a house what me and your mamma wish we was
back in every minute of the day!
I only said, Julius, for myself I like my little home best, but
I ain't got the strength for the street-car ride no more. I ain't
got appetite for this sloppy American food no more. I can't breathe no
more in that coop up-stairs. Right now you should know how my feet hurt
for slippers; a collar I got to wear to supper when like a knife it
cuts me. I can't afford this. I got such troubles with business I only
wish for one day you should have 'em. I want my little house, my porch,
my vines, and my chickens. I want my comforts. My son ain't my boss.
Isadore pushed back from the table, his jaw low and sullen.
I ain't going to sit through a meal and be abused likelike I was
You ain't got to sit; stand up, then.
Izzyfor God's sakes, Izzy, the people! Julius, so help me if I
come down to a meal with you again. Look, Julius, for God's sakethe
Teitlebaums are watching usthe people! Smile at me, Poil, like we was
joking. Izzy, if you leave this table now II can't stand it! Laugh,
Poil, like we was having our little fun among us.
The women exchanged the ghastly simulacrum of a smile, and the meal
resumed in silence. Only small beads sprang out on the shiny surface of
Mr. Binswanger's head like dewdrops on the glossy surface of leaves,
and twice his fork slipped and clattered from his hand.
So excited you get right away, Julius. Nervous as a cat you are.
II ain't got the strength no more, Becky. Pink sleeping-tablets I
got to take yet to make me sleep. I ain't got the strength.
'Shh-h-h, Julius; don't get excited. In the spring we go home. You
don't want, Julius, to spoil everything right this minute. Ain't it
enough the way our Poil has come out in these five months? Such a grand
time that goil has had this winter. Do you want that the Teitlebaums
should know all our business and spoil things?
II wish sometimes that name I had never heard in my life. In my
days a young girl
'Shh-h-h, Julius; we won't talk about it nowwe change the
Look over there, will you, Poil? Always extras the Teitlebaums have
on their table. Paprica, and what is that red stuff? Chili sauce! Such
service we don't get. Pink carnations on their table, too. To-morrow at
the desk I complain. Our money is just as good as theirs.
Miss Binswanger raised her harried eyes from her plate and smiled at
her mother; she was like a dark red rose, trembling, titillating, and
with dewy eyes.
Don't stare so, mamma.
Izzy, are you going to stay home to-night? One night it won't hurt
you. Like you run around nights to dance-halls ain't nothing to be
Now start something, mamma, so pa can jump on me again. If Pearlie
and Max are going to use the front room this evening, what shall I do?
Sit in a corner till he's gone and I can go to bed?
I should care if he goes to dance-halls or not. What I say, Becky,
don't make no difference to my son. Take how I begged him to hold on
If you're done your dessert wait till we get up-stairs, papa. The
dining-room knows already enough of our business.
Miss Binswanger pushed back from the table to her feet. Tears rose
in a sheer film across her eyes, but she smiled with her lips and led
the procession of her family from the gabbling dining-room, her small,
dark head held upward by the check-rein of scorched pride and the
corner of her tear-dimmed glance for the remote table with the
centerpiece of pink carnations.
By what seemed demoniac aforethought the Binswanger three-room suite
was rigidly impervious to sunlight, air, and daylight. Its
infinitesimal sitting-room, which the jerking backward of a couch-cover
transformed into Mr. Isadore Binswanger's bedchamber, afforded a
one-window view of a long, narrow shaft which rose ten stories from a
square of asphalt courtyard, up from which the heterogeneous fumes of
cookery wafted like smoke through a legitimate flue.
Mr. Binswanger dropped into a veteran arm-chair that had long since
finished duty in the deluxe suite, and breathed onward through a beard
as close-napped as Spanish moss.
He was suddenly old and as withered as an aspen leaf trembling on
its rotten stem. Vermiculate cords of veins ran through the flesh like
the chirography of pain written in the blue of an indelible pencil;
yellow crow's-feet, which rayed outward from his eyes, were deep as
claw-prints in damp clay.
Becky, help me off with my shoes; heavy like lead they feel.
Poil, unlace your papa's shoes. Since I got to dress for dinner I
can't stoop no more.
Miss Binswanger tugged daintily at her father's boots, staggering
backward at each pull.
Ach, go way, Pearlie! Better than that I can do myself.
See, mamma; nothing suits him.
Mrs. Binswanger regarded her husband's batrachian sallowness with
anxious eyes; her large bosom heaved under its showy lace yoke, and her
short, dimpled hands twirled at their rings.
To-night, Julius, if you don't do like the doctor says I telephone
him to come. That a man should be such a coward! It don't do you no
good to take only one sleeping-tablet; two, he said, is what you need.
Too much sleeping-powder is what killed old man Knauss.
Ach, Julius, you heard yourself what Dr. Ellenburg said. Six
of the little pink tablets he said it would take to kill a man. How can
two of 'em hurt you? Already by the bed I got the box of 'em waiting,
Julius, with an orange so they don't even taste.
It ain't doctors and their gedinks, Becky, can do me good.
Pink tablets can't make me sleep. Iach, Becky, I'm
Isadore rose from the couch-bed and punched his head-print out of
Lay here, pa.
Na, na, I go me to bed. Such a thing full of lumps don't rest me
like a sofa at home. Na, I go me to bed, Becky.
Isadore relaxed to the couch once more, pillowed his head on
interlaced hands, yawned to the ceiling, blew two columns of
cigarette-smoke through his nostrils, and watched them curl upward.
This ain't so worse, pa.
I go me to bed.
For a little while, Julius, can't you stay up? At nine o'clock
comes Max to see Poil. I always say a young man thinks more of a young
girl when her parents stay in the room a minute.
Isadore fitted his thumbs in his waistcoat armholes and flung one
reclining limb over the other.
What Max Teitlebaum thinks of Pearlie I already know. To-day he
invited me to lunch with him.
Izzy! Why you been so close-mouthed?
Mrs. Binswanger threw her short, heavy arm full length across the
table-top and leaned toward her son, so that the table-lamp lighted her
face with its generous scallop of chin and exacerbated the concern in
You had lunch to-day with Max Teitlebaum, and about Poil you
That's what I said.
Miss Binswanger leaned forward in her low rocker, suddenly pink as
each word had been a fillip to her blood, and a faint terra-cotta ran
under the olive of her skin, lighting it.
All right then, missy, I'm lyin', and won't say no more.
I didn't mean it, Izzy!
Izzy, tell your sister what he said.
Well, right to my face she contradicts me.
Well, hehe likes you, all righty
Did he say that about me, honest, Izz?
Her breath came sweet as thyme between her open lips, and her eyes
could not meet her mother's gaze, which burned against her lids.
See, Poil! Wake up a minute, papa, and listen. When I mentioned Max
Teitlebaum, papa, you always said a grand boy like one of the
Teitlebaum boys, with such prospects, ain't got no time for a goil like
our Poil. Always I told you that you got to work up the appetite. See,
papa, how things work out! See, Poil! What else did he have to say,
Izzyhe likes her, eh?
Isadore turned on his side and flecked a rim of ash off his
cigarette with a manicured forefinger.
Don't get excited too soon, ma. He didn't come out plain and say
anything, but I guess a boy like Max Teitlebaum thinks we don't need a
brick house to fall on us.
What you mean, Izzy?
What I mean? Say, ain't it as plain as the nose on your face? You
don't need two brick houses to fall on you, do you?
Mrs. Binswanger admitted to a mental phthisis, and threw out her
hands in a gesture of helplessness.
Believe me, Izzy, maybe I am dumb. So bad my head works when your
papa worries me, but what you mean I don't know.
Me neither, Izzy!
Say, there ain't much to tell. He likes Pearliethat much he
wasn't bashful to me about. He likes Pearlie, and he wants to go in the
general store and ladies' furnishing goods business. Just clothing like
his father's store he hates. Why should he stay in a business, he says,
that is already built up? His two married brothers, he says, is enough
with his father in the one business.
Such an ambitious boy always anxious to do for hisself. I wish,
Izzy, you had some of his ambitions. You hear, Poil, in the same
business as papa he wants to go?
Mrs. Binswanger rocked complacently, a smile crawled across her
lips, and she nodded rhythmically to the tilting of her rocking-chair,
her eyes closed in the pleasant phantasmagoria of a dream.
Mr. Binswanger slumped lower in his chair.
A good head for business that Max Teitlebaum has on him. Like your
mamma says, Izzy, you should have one just half so good.
There you go again, pa, pickin', pickin'! If you'd give a fellow a
start and lend him a little capitalI'd have some ambition, too, and
start for myself.
Mr. Binswanger leaped forward full stretch, as a jetty of flame
shoots through a stream of oil.
For yourself! On what? From where would I get it? Cut it out from
my heart? Two months already I begged you to come out by me in the
store and see if you can't help start something to get back the
tradeHow we need young blood in the store to get
Five thousand dollars I give you for to lose in the ladies'
ready-to-wear. Another white elephant we need in the family yet. Not
five thousand dollars outside my insurance I got to my name, and even
if I did have it I wouldn't
I mean it, so help me! Even if I did have it, not a cent to a boy
what don't listen to his old father.
For God's sakes, pa, quit your hollering; if you ain't got it to
your name I'm sorry for Pearlie.
You think, pa, a boy like Max Teitlebaum, a boy that banker
Finburg's daughter is crazy after, is getting married only because you
got a nice daughter?
What do you mean, Izzy?
The woods are full of 'em just as nice. I didn't need no brick
house to fall on me to-day at lunch. He didn't come right out and say
nothing, but when he said he wanted to get in a business he could build
up, right away I seen what he meant.
Sure I seen it. I guess his father gives him six or seven thousand
dollars to get his start, and just so much he wants from the girl's
side. He can get it easy, too. Ifif you'd fork over, pa, Ihim and I
could start maybe together and
Your papa, Izzy, can do for his girl just like the best can do for
theirs Julius, can't you?
Gott in Himmel! IIyouyou pack of wolfs, you!
Such names you can't call your wife, Julius! Just let me tell you
that! Such names you can't call me!
Anger trembled in Mrs. Binswanger's vocal cords like current running
over a wire. But Mr. Binswanger sprang suddenly to his feet and crashed
the white knuckles of his clenched fist down on the table with a force
that broke the flesh. The red lights of anger lay mirrored in the pool
of his eyes like danger lanterns on a dark bridge are reflected in
Wolfswolfs, all of you! Youyouto-night you got me where I am
at an end! To-night you got to knowII can't keep it in no
moreyou gotto know to-nightto-night!
His voice caught in a tight knot of strangulation; he was dithering
To-nightyouyou got to know!
A sudden trembling took Mrs. Binswanger.
For God's sakes, know what, Juliusknow what?
I'm done for! I'm gone under! Till it happened you wouldn't believe
me. Two years I seen it coming, two years I been fightin' and
fightin'fightin' it by myself! And now for yourselves you look in the
papers two weeks from to-morrow, the first of March, and seeI'm done
forI'm gone under, I
Juliusmy God, youyou ain't, Julius, you ain't!
His voice rose like a gale.
I'm gone underI ain't got twenty cents on the dollar. I'm gone,
Becky. Beat up! To-morrow two weeks the creditors, they're on me! My
last extension expires, and they're on me. I been fightin' and
fightin'. Twenty cents on the dollar I can't meet, BeckyI can't,
Becky, I can't! I been fightin' and fightin', but I can't,
BeckyIcan't! I'm gone!
Julius, Julius, for God's sakes, youyou don't mean it,
Juliusyoudon'tmean ityou're fooling usJulius!
Small, cold tears welled to the corners of his eyes.
I'm gone, Beckyand now hehe wants the shirt off my backhe can
have it, God knows. Butbutach, BeckyII wish I could have
saved youbut that a man twice so strong as his fatherach,
Gott, whatwhat's the use? I'm gone, Becky, gone!
Mr. Isadore Binswanger swung to his feet and regarded his parent
with the dazed eyes of a sleepwalker awakening on a perilous ledge.
Aw, pa, forfor God's sake, why didn't you tell a fellow?
Iweaw, pa, II can knuckle down if I got to. Gee whiz! how was a
fellow to know? Youyou been cuttin' up about everything sincesince
we was kids; aw, papleasegimme a chance, pa, I can knuckle
He approached the racked form of his father as if he would throw
himself a stepping-stone at his feet, and then because his voice stuck
in his throat and ached until the tears sprang to his eyes he turned
suddenly and went out of the room, slamming the door behind him.
The echo hung for a moment.
Miss Binswanger lay whitely in her chair, weakened as if the blood
had flowed out of her heart. From the granitoid square at the base of
the air-shaft came the rattle of after-dinner dishes and the babble of
dialect. Mr. Binswanger wept the tears of physical weakness.
II'm gone, Becky. What you want for Poil I can't do. I'm gone
under. We got to start over again. It was the interurban done it,
Becky. I needed new capital to meet the new competition. II could
have stood up under it then, Becky, butbut
Ach, my husbandfor myself I don't care. Ach, my
II'm gone, Beckygone.
He rose to his feet and shambled feebly to his bedroom, his fingers
feeling of the furniture for support, and his breath coming in the long
wheezes of dry tears. And in the cradle of her mother's arms Miss
Binswanger wept the hot tears of black despair; they seeped through the
showy lace yoke and scalded her mother's heart.
Oh, my baby! Ach, my husband! A good man like him, a good
man like him!
Don't cry, mamma, don'tcry.
Nothing he ever refused me, and now when we should be able to do
for our children and
Don't cry, mamma, don't cry.
Ifif he had the moneyfor a boy like Maxhe'd give it, Poil.
Such a good husbandsuchach, I go me in to papa nowpoor
papa. I've been bad, Poil; we must make it up to him; we
We got to start over again, Poilto the bone I'll work my fingers,
'Shh-h-h, mamma,'sh-h-hsomebody's knocking.
They raised their tear-ravaged faces in the attitude of listening,
their eyes salt-bitten and glazed.
It'sit's Izzy, baby. See how sorry he gets right away. He ain't a
bad boy, Poil, only always I've spoilt him. Come in, my boycome in,
and go in to your papa.
The door swung open and fanned backward the stale air in a sharp
gust, and the women sprang apart mechanically as automatons, the
sagging, open-mouthed vacuity of surprise on Mrs. Binswanger's face,
the tears still wet on her daughter's cheeks and lying lightly on her
lashes like dew.
Mr. Teitlebaum hesitated at the threshold, the flavor of his amorous
spirit tasty on his lips and curving them into a smile.
That's my name! Hello, Pearlie girlie! How-dye-do, Mrs.
He regarded them with dark, quiet eyes, the quick red of
embarrassment running high in his face and under his tight-fitting cap
of close-nap black hair.
Ah, excuse me; I might have known. II'm too early. Like my mother
says, I was in such a hurry toto get back here again II nearly got
out and pushed the SubwayIyou must excuse me. I
No, no; sit down, Mr. Teitlebaum. Pearlie ain't feelin' so well
this evening; she's all right now, though. Such a cold she's got, ain't
Yesyes. Such a cold I got. Sitsit down, Max.
He regarded her with the rims of his eyes stretched wide in anxiety.
Down at supper so well you looked, Pearlie; I says to my mother,
like a flower you looked.
A fog of tears rose sheer before her.
Her papa, Mr. Teitlebaum, he ain't so well, neither. Just now he
went to bed, and hehe said to you I should give his excuses.
So! Ain't that too bad, now!
Sit down, Max, there, next to mamma.
He leaned across the table toward the little huddle of her figure,
the gentle villanelle of his emotions writ frankly across his features.
She'll be all right in a minute, Mr. Teitlebaumlike her papa she
is, always so afraid of a little sickness.
Pearlie, ain't you going to look at me?
She sprang from his light hand on her shoulder, and the tears grew
to little globules, trembled, fell. Then a sudden rod of resolution
straightened her back.
WeI been lying to you, Max; I ain'tsick!
II think I know, little Pearlie!
No, no; it's best we tell the truth, mamma.
Ya, ya. Oh, my
Wewe're in big trouble, Max. Business trouble. The store,
everever since the tractionit ain't been the same.
I know, little Pearlie. I
Wait a minute, Max. Wewe ain't what you maybe think we are.
To-morrow two weeks we got to meet creditors and extension notes. We
can't pay with even twenty cents on the dollar. We're gone under, Max!
We ain't got it to meet them with. Papaif a man like papa
couldn't make it go nobody could
Such a man, Mr. Teitlebaum, so honest, so
It's ourmy fault, Max. He was afraid even last year, but Ieven
then I was the one that wanted the expense of the city. Mamma didn't
want ithe didn'titwas meII
My fault, too, Poilach, Gott, my fault! How I drove him!
How I drove him!
Wewe got to go back home, Max. We're going back and help him to
begin over again. Wewe been driving him like a pack of wolves. He
never could refuse nobody nothing. If he thought mamma wanted the moon
up he was ready to go for it; even when we was kids he
Ach, my husband, such a good provider he's always been! Such
Always we got our way out of him. But to-nightto-night, Max,
right here in this chair all little he looked all of a sudden.
So little! His back all crooked and all tired andand I done it,
MaxI ain't what you think I amoh, God, I done it!
Don't cry, mamma. 'Sh-h-h-h! Ain't you ashamed, with Mr. Teitlebaum
standing right here? You must excuse her, Max, so terrible upset she
is. 'Sh-h-h-h, mamma'sh-h-h-h! We're going back home and begin over
again. 'Sh-h-h-h! You won't have to dress for supper no more like you
hate. We'll be home in time for your strawberry-preserves season,
mamma, and rhubarb stew out of the garden, like papa loves. 'Sh-h-h-h!
You must excuse her, Maxyou must excuse me, too, to-nightyoucome
some other timeplease.
Pearlie! He came closer to the circle of light, and his large
features came out boldly. Pearlie, don't you cry neither, little
All what you tell me I know already.
You must excuse me, Mrs. Binswanger, but in nearly the same line of
business news like that travels faster than you think. Only to-day I
heard for surehowshaky things stand. You got my sympathies, Mrs.
Binswanger, butbut such a failure don't need to happen.
Mrs. Binswanger clutched two hands around a throat too dry to
He can't stand it. He isn't strong enough. It will kill him. Always
so honest to the last penny he's been, Mr. Teitlebaum, but never when
he used to complain would I believe him. Always a great one for a poor
mouth he was, Mr. Teitlebaum, even when he had it. So plain he always
was, and now II've broke himII
'Sh-h-h-h, mamma! Do you want papa should hear you in the next
room? 'Sh-h-h-h! Please, you must excuse her, Max.
Pearliehe placed his hand lightly on her
shoulderPearlieMrs. Binswanger, you must excuse me, too, but I got
to say itwhilewhile I got the courage. Can't you guess it, little
Pearlie? I'm in love with you. I'm in love with you, Pearlie, since the
first month you came to this hotel to live.
I only got this to say to you: I love you, little Pearlie. To-day,
when I heard the news, I was sorry, Pearlie, andand glad, too. It
made things look easier for me. Right away I invited Izzy to lunch so
like a school-boy I could hint. Itwo years I been wanting to get out
of the store, Pearlie, where there ain't a chance for me to build up
nothing. Like I told Izzy to-day, I want to find a run-down business
that needs building up where I can accomplish things.
I wanted him to know what I meant, but likelike a school-boy so
mixed up I got. Eight thousand dollars I got laying for a opening. This
failurethis failure don't need to happen, Pearlie. With new capital
and new blood we don't need to be afraid of tractions and
competitionswith me and Izzy, and my eight thousand dollars put in
out there, wewebut this ain't no time to talk business. Iyou must
excuse me, Mrs. Binswanger, butbut
Poil, my baby! Max!
I love you, Pearlie girlie. Ever since we been in the same hotel
together, when I seen you every day fresh like a flower and so fine,
II been heels over head in love with you, Pearlie. You should know
how my father and my married brothers tease me. II love you,
She relaxed to his approaching arms, and let her head fall back to
his shoulder so that her face, upturned to his, was like a dark flower,
and he kissed her where the tears lay wet on her petal-smooth cheeks
and on her lips that trembled.
My little girlie!
Mrs. Binswanger groped through tear-blinded eyes.
Thisthisain't no place for aold woman, childrenthisthis
ach, what I'm sayin' I don't know! Like in a dream I feel.
Me, too, mamma; me, too. Like a dream. Ah, Max!
I tiptoe in and surprise papa, children. I surprise papa. Ach, my children, my children, like in a dream I feel.
She smiled at them with the tears streaming from her face like rain
down a window-pane, opened the door to the room adjoining gently, and
closed it more gently behind her. Her face was bathed in a peace that
swam deep in her eyes like reflected moonlight trailing down on a
lagoon, her lips trembled in the hysteria of too many emotions. She
held the silence for a moment, and remained with her wide back to the
door, peering across the dim-lit room at the curve-backed outline of
her husband's figure, hunched in a sitting posture on the side of the
Beside him on the white coverlet a green tin box with a convex top
like a miniature trunk lay on one end, its contents, bits of
old-fashioned jewelry, and a folded blue document with a splashy red
seal, scattered about the bed.
She could hear him wheeze out the moany, long-drawn breaths that
characterized his sleepless nights, his face the color of old ivory,
wry and etched in the agony of carrying his trembling palm closer,
closer to his mouth.
Suddenly Mrs. Binswanger cried out, a cry that was born in the
unexplored regions of her heart, wild, primordial, full of terror.
It was as if fear had churned her blood too thick to flow, and
through her paralysis tore the spasm of a half-articulate shriek.
His hand jerked from his lips reflexly, so that the six small pink
tablets in the trembling palm rolled to the corners of the room. His
blood-driven face fell backward against the pillow, and he relaxed
frankly into short, dry sobs, hollow and hacking like the coughing of a
cat. His feet lay in the little heap of jewelry and across the crumpled
Beckyitit's all what II could doit'sit
Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
She dragged her trembling limbs across the room to his side. She
held him to her so close that the showy lace yoke transformed its
imprint from her bosom to the flesh of his cheek. She could feel his
sobs of hysteria beating against her breast, and her own tears flowed.
They racked her like a storm tearing on the mad wings of a gale;
they scalded down her cheeks into the furrows of her neck. She held him
tight in the madness of panic and exultation, and his arm crept around
her wide waist, and his tired head relaxed to her breast, and her hands
were locked tight about him and would not let him go.
Wewe're going home, Juliuswewe're going home.
Ya, ya, Becky, it'sit's all right. Ya, ya, Becky.